She can't be angry with herself for this little thing.

Anyway, he treats her well everywhere else, and she doesn't care about gifts that only come once a year. Anyway, it's over if you endure it.

If she wants something, she will send someone to buy it with the silver ticket herself, and she will definitely not go wrong by sending someone to buy it herself.

It won't be something you don't like. It's more agreeable for her.

But every time she was in front of him, after she received the gift, the moment she opened the box, she would still pretend to be surprised and happy, looking very happy and satisfied.

For so many years, she has been pretending on her birthday, but she will like this thing more and more.

Sometimes even she herself is deceived by her superb acting skills. I couldn't tell the joy on her face at all, whether it was habitual deception, or whether she really felt that she was happy.

Jiang Ruxue said with admiration: "The two of us have known each other for so many years, I didn't even know that you still have such a forbearance skill."

I think when we were in Chang'an, you couldn't even stand a more hypocritical woman in front of you.

What impressed me the most was. When we were both young, there was a woman named An Qing, who always pretended to be soft and weak in front of boys, and she looked pitiful.

But in front of the girl, he is arrogant, and his speech is also harsh, and he is very annoying.

But everyone has endured her because her father is a member of the third rank of the imperial court.

It's just you, the most straightforward, and you can't bear it at all. deliberately planned and arranged it in private, so that the rich children of Chang'an could see her true face.

After that, An Qing was much more honest and low-key. Never again like a majestic fighting. I'm going to take a peck when I see anyone. ”

Sure enough, the years are the most painful thing, and the noble girl of Chang'an, who couldn't stand the slightest bit of anger back then, can now know how to advance and retreat appropriately.

Mrs. Xu smiled and said, "Now that I think of the ridiculous things I did when I was young, I feel a little trance.

After so many years, what I thought was really unbearable back then seems to be just a joke now.

I remember that because of my anger, my father punished me for kneeling in the ancestral hall for a long time. My knees are purple for me.

Later, my grandmother couldn't stand it, so she sent someone to carry me back from the ancestral hall.

Now that I have settled so far away from home, my health has not been good, and I have rarely even gone back, and my elders have to travel thousands of miles to see me every year. I really feel a little guilty. ”

Grandmother is also gray-haired now, although her body has always been strong, but every year when she goes out to see her, it is not easy to toss.

After all, it takes so long to sit in a carriage on the road, even if it is a young man. After sitting for so many days, you will feel a sore back and your bones will seem to fall apart.

She also advised her grandmother not to come so hard every year. When she was well, she would go back to spend more time with her grandmother.

Grandmother told her very lovingly that while her grandmother is still healthy, she can toss it every year. Just take a look at her.

Now that my grandmother is older, the number of times they see each other is less than once. So grandmother didn't want to miss the opportunity to see her every year.

Mrs. Xu only felt that she was a little unfilial, she wanted to stay away from Chang'an and insisted on settling down in Wuling Mountain. It's thinking that I'm still young anyway, and it's the same wherever I live, so I just go home a few more times a year to accompany my elders.

But later, no one expected that after she gave birth, her health deteriorated. Even going out for a trip feels like a luxury.

Grandmother cherished her, so she took the initiative to say that she would not let her go home, and the family would come to see her.

Jiang Ruxue said with some envy: "You are still better than me, at least you can meet your parents and elders once a year."

I've been in touch with my family for so many years. I only dared to secretly send someone to inquire about how they were doing.

To be honest, I'd love to go back and see them. It's just that I'm afraid that my appearance will bring danger to them. That's why I endured it all the time.

Over the years, as I grew older, I became more and more concerned about my family. ”

As her children grew up day by day, Jiang Ruxue realized how hard she would hit her parents who loved her when she left willfully.

And she still eloped with someone who resisted the decree, and her parents had to worry about their daughter who had loved her since childhood, and on the other hand, they had to deal with the emperor above ten thousand people.

Mrs. Xu was right, as they got older, they saw their elders more often than once.

I haven't seen her for more than ten years, and I don't know if my parents still blame her in their hearts?

Mrs. Xu patted Jiang Ruxue's shoulder and said softly, "What? Do you regret it now?

I thought you were someone you'd never regret.

In fact, I saw the courage of you to walk away with your family like that. will decide to marry my master.

You know, I was arrogant back then, thinking that I was a talented woman who was famous in Chang'an. If you marry, you will naturally marry the dragon and phoenix.

Later, when I saw you elope, I suddenly realized that this so-called dragon and phoenix among people is just a kind of imprisonment.

are all locked in the boxy courtyards of Chang'an City, and the people who lock them are gloomy, and they can lock people for a lifetime like this.

I don't want to stay in that boxy yard for the rest of my life, and even going out for a trip is a luxury.

At my age, I was almost at the age when I should be married, and I was afraid that I would be like you, and the emperor would marry the princes and princes, so I quickly cut through the mess and begged my aunt to set this family affair for me.

I don't want my husband to be rich and noble, I just want to be able to live wantonly and chic. ”

Back then, after Jiang Ruxue was given marriage by the holy decree, she directly resisted the decree and eloped with the prime minister's son. It did set off a lot of storms in Chang'an City.

Although in the eyes of others, Jiang Ruxue does not marry into the royal family and enjoys a lifetime of glory and wealth, and a supreme status. but chose to elope with someone. It's really not very wise.

But she can understand Jiang Ruxue.

The misfortunes in the palace, these women who have been able to enter the palace to play since they were children have seen too much.

The palace is sealed by boxy walls, and to outsiders, there is only the highest wealth and glory inside. Majestic momentum.

But only when you walk in can you find that there are too many mourning relatives in the palace wall, and you can't help yourself.

Even if you are the emperor, the queen. There are also things that they can't do as they like.

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