I looked at the coin in my hand repeatedly, and as I looked at it, I suddenly smiled.

My laughter was full of coldness and helplessness.

I thought that in my early thirties, I would be able to be a man who would stand up to the sky, and I would be able to accomplish everything I wanted to do.

But all this can only be my fantasy!

The cruel reality was like a heavy mountain, weighing heavily on my shoulders, so that I couldn't breathe at all!

When the reality was completely laid out in front of my eyes, I was able to realize how small I really was.

As everyone says, no matter what happens, I will solve it in a violent way, just like a child who never grows up, and never has my own opinions and ideas.

I was unusually depressed, and I didn't want to do anything at all except to use the time I had to smoke to calm my impetuous heart for a while.

After a long time, I finished the last cigarette in the cigarette case.

I casually threw the cigarette butt into the flower bed, slowly got up, and walked into the public phone booth not far away.

Then, I stuffed the coin into the phone booth and picked up the microphone just to make a call.

When I looked at the numbers on the screen, I hesitated.

At this moment, all kinds of people came to my mind, but I never knew who to call them.

Seeing that the numbers on the screen were counting down, I relied on my memory and pressed a string of numbers in a panic.

Then, I held the microphone tightly to my ear and listened quietly to the sound coming from the microphone.

"Hello? Who? ”

A familiar voice suddenly sounded in my ears, and I don't know why, hearing Zhou Yao's voice, my eyes moistened.

Perhaps, I have long regarded Zhou Yao as the last line of defense in my heart.

I took a deep breath and was about to save all my face to borrow money from her, when I was about to call out her name, something unexpected happened.

In the next second, I distinctly heard a man's voice: Who?

Even if it's only for a moment! Although the sound is subtle! But it still reached my ears solidly.

My heart chuckled, as if a basin of cold water had poured me cold.

"Hello? Who are you? Why don't you speak? Are you a takeaway or a courier? The other end of the line asked.

"No, I made a mistake." I said hurriedly.

Without waiting for the other party to respond, I hung the handset directly on the phone booth.

The surroundings were eerily quiet, and the entire hospital was so quiet that almost no sound could be heard.

I paused and pushed open the glass door of the phone booth.

The biting cold wind blew unsuitably, mixed with countless sharp edges and slapped fiercely on my body, carving a deep imprint on my shattered heart.

I shuddered, and instinctively lifted my coat upwards.

It's getting colder!

I have no idea how much longer I'll be able to make it!

Soon a year passed, and I stumbled around the city again, leaving a trail of ethereal footprints.

At this moment, I felt like the most embarrassed person in the world, down like a dog!

I couldn't find a true friend to talk to! Even now, I can't pay just more than 2,000 yuan for examination fees and medical expenses!

I don't even have the ability to survive! Who is qualified to mention my dream to others!

I went back to the corner of the flower bed, and sat on the edge of the flower bed, looking at the clouds and smoke drifting in the sky, in a daze.

If only I could go back to the past, I would definitely take Yin Lanlan with me all the time, and I wouldn't let her come into contact with people she shouldn't have contacted, so that she would definitely not fall into the current situation.

But all this is my fantasy, there are no ifs in this world......

After a long time, I sighed heavily, slowly got up, and walked to the hospital.

"Hey, there's something you can't talk about on the phone? The big night caused me to run again, and it froze me to death! ”

A familiar voice suddenly sounded behind me.

My body shuddered suddenly, and even the dark eyes in my eye sockets suddenly shrank and converged into a small dot.

For a moment, I thought I was hallucinating.

"Hey, Yin Xing, I'm talking to you, are you listening?"

In the next second, a figure quickly passed by me and stood firmly in front of me.

The light smell of perfume mixed with the cold evening breeze came to my face, pouring into my whole body along my nastrils, and I couldn't help but raise my head, just in time to collide with Zhou Yao's gaze.

She was still wearing that loose padded turtleneck plaid shirt, her whole face was red from the cold wind, and she was shivering her legs, frowning at me.

I was slightly stunned, and said weakly: "When did I call you?" Don't spew blood. ”

"Can't I hear your voice? Don't tell me the location either, thanks to the fact that I know there is a number know-it-all way to check the situation, otherwise you think I can find your location? ”

Listening to Zhou Yao's number, a trace of warmth appeared in my heart.

It's as if a crack in time has pulled us back together, in that old-fashioned house, we quarreled over who should clean the living room, and even counted the eggs we took from the fridge.

These habits of scolding have long since left roots in my heart.

I was like a child who had made a mistake, and I didn't dare to raise my head to look into Zhou Yao's eyes.

I'm scared to see her!

I was afraid of catching the abnormality in her eyes, and I was even more afraid that Zhou Yao would suddenly tell me that she was living with Luo Hao.

At this moment, Zhou Yao and I seemed to be standing at a fork in the road, we entered different directions, and even the distance became farther and farther away until it disappeared completely......

Seeing that I didn't speak, Zhou Yao stopped talking nonsense, she stepped forward and stretched out her hand to check the wound on my head, "Say, what are you doing running to the hospital at night?" Could it be that your wound is inflamed? This bandage is very good, I don't see anything wrong. ”

The moment her hand touched my skin, I couldn't help but shudder, pushed her away, and frowned, "Don't touch me!" ”

Everything was too sudden, Zhou Yao didn't react at all, she staggered back a few steps and almost fell.

Zhou Yao glared at me fiercely, and glared angrily: "You are sick!" I came to you in the middle of the night kindly, and you treated me with this attitude? ”

"I've said it all, I made the wrong call, why are you coming to see me! Zhou Yao, you let me fend for myself, this is what I asked for, I deserve to be the scum at the bottom, I should be eliminated by this society! ”

At this moment, I could no longer control my emotions, and the grievances suppressed in my heart exploded......