I hugged Yin Lanlan with some distress, stroked her head, and comforted: "No, Dad has promised you, no matter what happens, I will not leave you alone."

After calming Yin Lanlan's emotions, Yin Lanlan lay beside me and soon fell asleep.

I didn't feel any sleep, after raising Yin Lanlan, I felt that there seemed to be more things to do every day, and there were many things that I had to think about before I dared to make a decision.

As the night deepened, I got out of bed gently, crept to the windowsill, lit a cigarette, and calmly watched the moon hanging in the air.

I have always believed that in the distant sky, my dreams were born.

The pillow is no longer full of moldy dreams, and there are no people in dreams who can't hug each other.

At the end of the world, I found my true direction.

The next day, I woke up early, went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast, and after eating with Yin Lanlan, I sent her to school.

When I got home, I sat on the couch and looked at the little deposit I had left, and I smoked a cigarette and fell into deep thought.

Losing my guitar is like losing all my source of income.

My life is no longer one person to feed the whole family without hunger, and I always know in my heart that there is a girl named Yin Lanlan who needs me to raise.

Even if the road ahead is thorny, even if it is a sea of swords and fires, even if I fight for my life, I will do my best to raise Yin Lanlan as an adult, just to make up for the pain I once had for her.

I suddenly remembered Zhou Yao again, but I couldn't let go of it and beg for her help.

I could only linger in front of Zhou Yao's company, counting the floors of the company, and staring blankly at the window of the office where I had been with Zhou Yao.

In a trance, a familiar laughter caught my attention, and I followed the prestige to see Zhou Yao and several female colleagues walking across the road.

And, in the next second, Zhou Yao's eyes converged on me.

My heart chuckled, and I turned away as if nothing had happened.

I didn't take a few steps before I heard Zhou Yao calling my name, I frowned, and couldn't help but speed up my pace.

After a while, Zhou Yao ran to me and stopped me, she gasped and accused: "I'm calling you, didn't you hear me?" ”

I didn't know what to say for a while, like a piece of rotten wood, stunned in place, silently watching Zhou Yao.

Although she has only seen Zhou Yao for a few days, she has changed very much.

She was wearing a white workplace uniform, and she seemed to be very cherished, I could hardly see any dust, and she rarely used makeup, but today she wears light makeup.

She gave me the impression that it was not boredom, but a kind of unattainable awe.

"I ask you, why didn't you say yes to the job I asked you to interview for the other day? You'd better explain it to me today, or you won't want to leave! ”

My brain suddenly became hot, and I looked at Zhou Yao and said bluntly, "I lost my guitar." ”

I thought that Zhou Yao would scold me, but Zhou Yao didn't do that, she was slightly stunned, and said in surprise: "You rejected me just because of this matter?" Is your brain squeezed by the door! Did you have a mouth just to eat? Come with me! ”

The sudden everything made me a little stunned, and before I could react, Zhou Yao took my arm and dragged me into the company.

It wasn't until he dragged me to the office that Zhou Yao let go of my hand.

She pointed to the guitars in the glass case and said, "If these are enough, you can pick them, if you think these guitars are not satisfied, I will let someone else buy them!" Pan Feng is now giving this place to a little kid who is stinking and unfinished, is she called playing the guitar? I play the rattle better than she does! Yin Xing, I can tell you, I have already boasted about Haikou, aren't you embarrassing me! ”

At this moment, Zhou Yao's face was already flushed, which couldn't help but remind me of the way she used to be when she was arguing with me.

"I'm talking to you, are you listening? What's going on with you lately, how did you suddenly become so bored? ”

"I just don't think there's something good about this job, how are you doing lately?"

As soon as I said that, I regretted it a little, and I suddenly realized that I had become so hypocritical, that I even wanted to find a crack in the ground to get into.

Zhou Yao glanced at me and said indignantly: "It's not good at all!" I have to be every day by the little kid who occupies the quota of Yiyun.com, and never plays the guitar according to my requirements. I'll go find Pan Feng, guess what he said? He said that it was not my business, and told me to concentrate on drawing comics, listen, is this talking about human words? The bullet is rotten and still refuses to let people say it? ”

Looking at Zhou Yao's scolding and scolding, I actually felt a little funny.

"Hey, I'm finally able to find someone to talk to me, don't talk back to me like a scumbag!"

I didn't speak, I lit a cigarette and walked to the window, I never looked down on the city from this angle, the pedestrians on the road were as small as ants, and even the speeding cars, I could quickly catch its movements.

I have forgotten how many times I have walked in this city, and every time night falls, I will light a cigarette, and the smoke through the light veil of clouds will silently savor the smoke and fireworks, which have witnessed my growth and recorded my life, including my youth and love.

I looked up at the sky that belonged to me, and I had never looked at the clouds from this angle.

Vaguely, I seemed to see another world behind the clouds, where everyone lived comfortably in the Pure Land of Bliss, where there was no pain or trouble, and compared to this purgatory on earth, perhaps it was the legendary paradise.

After a long time, I turned my head, looked at Zhou Yao and whispered, "We don't want this job, let's go home." ”

This is the first time I have expressed my tenderness to Zhou Yao.

It was also the first time I said my heart to Zhou Yao.

When I was the most depressed and helpless, Zhou Yao would always suddenly appear by my side. And this time, I want to treat her the way Zhou Yao treated me. I know that Pan Feng has bad intentions towards her, and Zhou Yao is not good at painting at all, but she is capable of this job.

Men know men best, and I know exactly what Pan Feng is thinking in his heart.

As Zhou Yao said, all men will have those strange thoughts. But restraint or not is nothing but the difference between animals and humans.

As if seeing my emotions, Zhou Yao was slightly stunned and wondered, "Why?" ”

"Because I brought Yin Lanlan back, I decided to raise her, you can't let me go to the flyover to sing and leave her alone at home, right?"