Chapter 19: I'm Sad
I don't know how long it took, An Jing and Gu Wei both left, and the heavy door was closed again, and it was silent and dark again.
And Si Fang was in this darkness from beginning to end, and no one gave her salvation and pulled her out.
She's probably the most superfluous person in the world.
She thought.
She always felt that it was too embarrassing to go back with them, so she stayed on the rooftop for a while, and then walked slowly back to the ward.
She really likes the sentence in Jiang Jue's song "Even if the whole world leaves you, there is still one me to accompany you".
She had never met such a person, and treated her as persistently as in a song.
Because I didn't have it, I yearn for it.
Because I am experiencing parting, I long.
When he returned to the ward, his grandfather had already fallen asleep again, and his grandmother had also been persuaded by his father to go home with him.
There were only Gu Wei, An Jing and Si Fang's mother in the room.
"This kid didn't like to talk since he was a child." Si Fang's mother looked at An Jing with a smile, "You have to take care of it more." ”
"Auntie, don't worry." An Jing glanced at Gu Huan, moderately active in a gloomy atmosphere, "Haven't I been waiting for me like this all these years?" ”
Gu Wei didn't interject, just kept looking at Si Wei, looking at it for a moment.
Si Fang didn't respond to his gaze, and walked over to his mother and sat down.
"And Si Wei, and so are you." Si Fang's mother looked blaming, "If your uncle doesn't report to the family, forget it, why do you hide such a beautiful aunt as you." ”
She glanced faintly at the man in the suit and leather shoes, disdainful to speak.
"Sister-in-law." Gu Wei still looked serious, "Don't blame Si Wei." ”
His words were so high-sounding that their previous quarrel at home was so ridiculous.
The air was suddenly eerily silent, and the atmosphere began to feel a little awkward.
Gu Wei tilted his head and said to An Jing: "You go back first, it's good to have us here." ”
His inappropriate words made the smile on An Jing's face loosen slightly.
"How do you talk, you kid?" Si Fang's mother relieved the siege and said, "The little girl came from such a far away, why should she stay with someone for one night." ”
As the so-called eldest sister-in-law is like a mother, Gu Wei will still listen to what she says, so she didn't say anything to let An Jing go back, and quieted down.
"That's it, you take Xiaojing home to live, here I and Si Fang are guarding." Si Fang's mother slapped her hands and made a decision.
Gu Wei frowned, and her eyes signaled An Jing to refuse, but she didn't expect An Jing to follow the words.
Si Fang silently lowered his eyes, trying to hide the vague emotion that flashed by.
Gu Wei finally listened to Si Wei's mother's words, got up and left with An Jing.
Looking at their backs, like a knife, slashing through the heart of the priest.
"How's your studies going?" Seeing that the outsiders were gone, Si Fang's mother restrained her smile and said seriously.
She is always like this, although she is busy with work, she has never slacked off on Si Fang's achievements, even in such an environment.
The humidifier next to the bed rang rhythmically, and Si Fang hid the bitterness in his heart and looked up, "It's okay." ”
Si Fang's mother seemed to be dissatisfied with her answer, and reproached: "I listen to you, sending you to school so far is already my biggest concession." ”
"You know, I never want to be good, but the best."
Of course she knew..... How could she not know?
Seeing that she didn't speak, Si Fang's mother glared at her with hatred, and got up and left with a "poof".
Si Fang quietly hid in one of the sofas, watching the busy figures of other patients and family members who had fallen asleep peacefully in the ward.
The world is so big, and how small she is.
Be lonely....
For the first time, I felt so clearly that she was alone.
.........
"Where do I sleep?" An Jing sat casually on the sofa, hugging the pillows, and supporting his chin with one hand.
Gu Wei threw a quilt on her head in disgust, and said unkindly: "Except for the sofa, don't think about anywhere else." ”
"Is Mr. Gu so ruthless?" An Jing ripped the quilt off his head, "You can't have your room, then I can also sleep in my little niece's room." ”
Gu Wei looked at him coldly, and An Jing was so frightened that he hurriedly changed his words, "Sleep on the sofa, just sleep on the sofa, listen to you." ”
As she spoke, she laid out the quilt smoothly and neatly, looking well-behaved.
Seeing this, Gu Wei ignored her, turned around and walked into Si Wei's room.
Six years later, her room hasn't changed at all.
July and October greeted them with their tails wagging merrily, and he crouched down and patted them on the head one by one.
"Is it a dog with its owner?" He muttered, a smile in his eyes, "Stupid." ”
July is a small poodle, a birthday present received by Si Fang on his fifteenth birthday.
October is an honest-looking satsuma that arrives a year earlier than July.
The two dogs didn't recognize each other, and worked very hard to go back and forth around Gu Wei.
Gu Wei stepped past the two dogs, took a photo from the frame on Si Wei's desk, and left contentedly.
Out of the room, An Jing on the sofa was sleeping soundly.
Gu Wei looked at her sleeping appearance that didn't dare to compliment, and was so disgusted that he couldn't dislike it anymore.
He sighed heavily, turned to the bathroom and dipped a towel in warm water, then squatted beside the sofa in a decent manner, taking the towel and removing the makeup from An Jing's face little by little.
Her skin is very good, like a peeled egg, white and tender, not inferior to a teenage girl at all.
Gu Wei patiently finished removing her makeup, and then stuffed her feet that ran out of some time back into the quilt.
He treats An Jing more like a friend.
When it was all said, he turned the lights to the lowest and got up to leave.
He couldn't wait for this night, and he had to go see her now, before the misunderstanding deepened.
........
The director of the hospital and Gu Wei were high school classmates, so they specially reserved a room for them.
This room is a converted utility room next to the ward, and although it is not large, it can accommodate a single bed.
Although the room is small, it is also a rare treatment in the hospital.
Si Fang lay on this bed, sleeping soundly.
In a strange place, her sleep has always been very light, so when someone stood in front of her bed to block out the harsh light, she was already awake, but she didn't want to open her eyes.
No matter who it was, uncle or mother, she didn't want to see any of them.
"Si Wei." This is the uncle's voice, low and hoarse.
"I know you're awake."
Si Fang ignored him, still pretending to sleep with his eyes closed.
No one can wake up a person who is pretending to be asleep.
"Let's talk." He still didn't give up.
That's why he had to drive there late at night.
Xu was that his words were too emotional, and Si Wei finally opened his eyes.
You see.... No matter what, her stubbornness is no match for his words.
“.... Is there something wrong? Si Wei turned her back to him and said this in the calmest tone she could imagine.
"An Jing said, you told her that I was in the stairwell."
"Yes.... So what? She trembled in her heart, but she still said calmly.
"At the time." He paused, then said, "Are you there?" ”
She never thought she could fool him, so she generously admitted it.
Gu Wei was silent for a long time, for a long time, and even Si Wei was silent.
"Look at me." He said suddenly in a commanding tone.
Si Fang turned over and sat up, and said angrily: "Are you my uncle or my ancestor?" ”
"I left my aunt here in the middle of the night just to preach to me? You're really idle. ”
Gu Wei was not as angry as she imagined, but took her anger as much as she had and looked at her fixedly.
"I'm not your ancestor." He said in a deep voice, "Even sometimes, I wish I wasn't your uncle. ”
Does he have a reading comprehension problem? Do you listen to people and only listen to the first half of the sentence?
"That's right." Si Fang sarcastically said, "I'm so troublesome, I don't exercise well, my health is not good, and sometimes I can't even use my brain." ”
"You don't want to have anything to do with me, be my uncle... I've really wronged you. ”
Her voice grew choked and finally whispered.
Gu Wei sighed, looking a little weak, "You know, I didn't mean that. ”
"Say what you know every day, you don't have to know." Her eyes were stoic but stubborn, "Then you tell me, what should I know and what should I not know?" ”
"Si Fang!" He finally got angry.
With a "snap", he slapped his hands on the quilts on both sides of her, imprisoning her whole person inside, with no way back and no room.
She refused to admit defeat and stared at the eyes that were close at hand, biting her lower lip tightly, refusing to say a word of convincing.
"An Jing is not your aunt, not now, and not in the future."
"I let you misunderstand because I don't want your mother to find me a blind date again."
"Finally, I reiterate, An Jing and I, nothing."
Gu Wei said word by word, as if he was explaining something, but Si Wei didn't know when he started, and his heart was completely cold.
She was never a jealous and stingy person.
She was sad that he had never put her in a reciprocal relationship.
She didn't need the strength he pretended to be in front of her.
She also wanted to be someone who could share the burden for him; She also wanted to comfort him, even if it was insignificant, even if it was a hug.....
Si Wei's good-looking eyes were full of tears, blurring Gu Wei's reflection.
I'm walking towards you, so please don't isolate me from your world....
Good no good?
Gu Wei obviously didn't notice her mood swings, and took it for granted that she forgave him.
"Got it?"
His words were cautious, and she instantly softened.
"Yes." She restrained her emotions and said a little reluctantly.
Gu Wei still didn't see a trace of disappointment in her perfect expression, but took her into his arms and said in a low voice.
"Understand, just admit your mistake with me, you admit your mistake.... We're all right. ”
Si Fang lamented his immaturity, and also annoyed his own humility and caution, but still said: "I was wrong..."
Gu Wei chuckled, smoothed her hair, and said the words she didn't understand.
"Si Fang, grow up quickly....."