"Are you going to work?" asked Grandpa with a squinting smile in his eyes.

"Yes. Bei Bei opened her eyes slowly, and she heard the child's voice, it was when she was a child!

The foggy sky outside the window seemed to be soaked in silky milk tea, and the light of the sun had not yet penetrated the morning mist! A beautiful dream, she knew it was a dream before she really woke up, hey!

After Grandpa was gone, Bei Bei would always dream of him, his old face was no different from her deepest memory, he looked at her with a smile, and asked some of the things he used to ask, and his brain was bright.

Sometimes, she would dream of walking in a long passage, and it was dark all around, but it was a passage, and she decided it. There was only a little light in the distance, like a dying flame on the head of the fire, scurrying back and forth.

The girl was terrified, and groped her way towards the light, but her heart was uneasy, and she did not know whether the light was trying to save her or to tempt her into a trap. As she walked, the light grew bigger and bigger, and that was the source of the light, though she couldn't see what it was. She was getting closer and closer, and just as she was about to arrive, Grandpa would suddenly appear, and he stopped her, smiling lovingly, and shaking his head gently.

Bei Bei finally woke up, and after holding her breath for a long time, she finally came up and sweated profusely.

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Soon Bei Bei began to lose sleep, unable to sleep all night, and the night became hideous and greedy for her, constantly devouring her remaining consciousness. Qin Tian kept persuading her not to think about anything. He said that she had to give up something, and maybe that was important to her, but the more important it was, the more it would overwhelm her. So the girl really didn't want to, she even tried to think of nothing, and while she could still make out it, she still had insomnia, and soon gained weight.

Today she had insomnia again, staring at the roof, and saw that the wall skin suddenly cracked, the steel bars bent through the brick joints, and large pieces of rubble and debris fell down, Bei Bei subconsciously raised her hand to block it, she tried to block her arm in front of her, she actually began to hallucinate, but fortunately it was only for a moment.

It was so heart-wrenching, the hallucinations were so real that she didn't dare to look at the roof anymore, as if all that came out of it was some sinful black smoke that would trap her in it.

That night, she was cranky, her consciousness could no longer control her brain, she repeatedly warned herself, but it was useless, she just began to think, think about the world, think about life, jump from the international situation to the global economy, and from the global economy to bilateral relations, how do the leaders of various countries respond, this guy is busy with himself!

The girl can feel that this state is very bad, but knowing is not the same as doing it, she can't find a way to stop all this, so what should be totaled, what should not be totaled, she is the same as the same. She didn't know why she had so much chagrin, she couldn't think clearly, there was no basis, and there was no reason.

If it was because it was the first time to face the loss of a loved one in a real sense, then she shouldn't think about it so widely, not only herself, but even Qin Tian was puzzled. In desperation, Qin Tian began to suggest that Bei Bei use some inhibitory drugs appropriately, but the girl was very insistent, she didn't want to use drugs to control herself, especially now, she didn't want to listen to Qin Tian's words.

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She couldn't remember that he didn't want to go upstairs.

What does that mean?

Who can pretend they can't read it?

She felt a pain in her throat, and it was as dry as if it had been burned.

On the day her grandfather left, she never thought that Qin Tian would not go up with her, but he really stopped at the door of the building.

"Bebe, go by yourself! I'll be waiting for you here. Qin Tian stopped suddenly, she had already run far away, only to realize that he hadn't come with her.

He looked at her and turned back for some reason, her big pretty eyes full of inquiry, it was a fear of abandonment, she thought he would go up, and he knew it.

Qin Tian looked at her and stopped, his eyes were complicated, there were too many things to tell, but she couldn't wait so much, and she didn't have time to see what it was, so she turned around and ran upstairs.

When he went downstairs again, he was with his parents, Bei Bei saw him standing in the corner of the opposite building, she saw the black car he was driving, and saw him busy hiding behind the car, he really didn't need to hide, because she wouldn't misunderstand again.

She threw it and looked at him directly, it wasn't that she had the courage to face it, it wasn't that she was complaining about him, she just didn't have a chance to avoid his evasion, which was embarrassing. Qin Tian stood back again, he nodded at her, perhaps because of her generosity, her gentleness gave him confidence, he didn't need to hide anymore.

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The days pass casually, insomnia still comes over and over again, the more scared, the more unexpected encounters, instead of baking cakes on the bed, it's better to get up and have a good time, Bei Bei simply sat in front of the computer.

Not being able to sleep doesn't mean not being sleepy, Bei Bei is full of energy, she has boiled her body to the limit, but she doesn't know it yet, she really should use some medicine, maybe a little bit can relieve her gradually tense nerves, so that everything can get better, but she wants to stubbornly fight.

The night was terrible, only the light of the computer screen showed through the slightest bit of darkness, everything around her was still empty, Bei Bei was completely distracted, and tears flowed, but she knew that as long as she lay in bed, all these symptoms would improve, and she would continue to suffer from insomnia.

The phone vibrated and chirped, and the girl glanced at it, it was the kid who dialed the phone randomly, she picked it up, and listened to the snoring and panting inside as if she was running.

It was a very messy footstep, not like a person, deep and shallow, but except for the footsteps of galloping and chatting, there was nothing. This group of fools who are running is running intently, without distractions. This single sound shows how focused the runner is, the kick and tap are like pounding garlic, so fine, no one barks, no dog barks, what is this for?

In just a moment, Beibei's overly active brain cells suddenly had a new idea, and the other side of the phone may be running away. This word frightened her, and she didn't even think about the reasonableness of this matter, so she decided from the bottom of her heart that it was an escape. What does this mean? Why do you want to run away? Suddenly, the girl's hairs stood on end, and she was so bold that she even asked a few questions, but she regretted it.

There was no reflection at all, and the phone was still running desperately, and there were more detailed taps and taps. Bei Bei swallowed, but she didn't swallow anything, she was short of breath and suddenly hung up the phone.

She felt sleepy, really, she turned off the computer, lay back on the bed, closed her eyes, and before she could start counting the sheep, I don't know if it was fear or some other reason, she fell asleep like this.