The coldest day of the year has finally arrived. A few days ago, the moon was snowing, up and down the mountain, the white plain color, just a few days later, it rubbed a piece of left and a mottled white piece on the right, but the snow trail, a white to the end, as if brushed with paint, fine and firm. Bei Bei woke up early, and before the sky was a little light, she went out from the main station in the dark, and turned to the root of the mountain unkempt.

The villa that turned the gate was a road to the parking lot, and the security guards were asleep at this time, and there was not even a person on duty. The suburbs of the city in the early morning are getting colder and colder, and few people go out in the middle of winter in the northeast.

Bebe had to walk through the parking lot to the dark col ahead, where all she could see was a blurred darkness, where there was a rest room, where her bag and clothes were there. If you want to catch the first bus to the city at half past five, you have to be ready now, and thinking about this, Bei Bei doesn't feel scared.

Most of the people in the son's lounge haven't woken up yet, and those who are awake are simply not asleep. Bei Bei walked closer and closer, the lights in the lounge were on all night, and the orange light was shining through the glass window, and she felt a lot more relieved from afar. She hurriedly stepped forward, pinched her hands and feet when she came to the door, and gently pushed open the hidden door, for fear of waking up the people inside.

There must be someone in the room, and the three aunts sat on the edge of their beds with a little defensiveness, one hand holding the corner of the quilt, blocking in front of them, and they looked at Bei Bei with a horrified expression.

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"It's so dark, why are you leaving?"

The aunts chattered and tried to change the girl's mind, so they didn't have to sleep after such a toss. Around five o'clock in the morning, the wax moon is the shortest time of the day, the sun is still a long time away from revealing the horizon, this time is basically the same as the middle of the night, out of this room, everything will be dark and sloppy, but Bei Bei still went out. She had to cross the dark path, to the right of the entrance to the hotel, the mysterious path that led to the main road, the intersection hidden in the darkness at the head of the bridge. It was only through it that she could reach the station.

She stood at the door of the hotel and was a little scared. There was nothing to see on the right, and no matter how sure she was that it was a road, she panicked. She looked carefully in the direction of the path, and quickly got used to the company of fear, but it was still empty, and Bebe felt that even her gaze, which she couldn't go far, was swallowed up by the darkness.

The soft light of the dim street lamp slanted can't shine into the road, far away from the side of the road, this will be like another world, in the northwest corner of Beibei's sense of direction, obliquely inserted, it seems to be about to approach the hotel gate, and in another direction, straight down, looking more distant than the day. Bei Bei vaguely felt that looking there during the day was different from now, and at this moment, the road was so bright and shining in the distance, waving her hand.

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A year ago, Peng Cheng's story really touched her, so she is still by his side now.

For some reason, that story didn't seem to be the key to her not leaving, it was just an excuse, an excuse she used to coax herself. She subconsciously felt something, but she didn't want to think about it. It's terrible, isn't it? Bei Bei thinks she's twisted, and sometimes she has a sudden thought that pops out of her head, like her self-esteem is doing a trick?

What does she like about Peng Cheng? Is it sympathy? She doesn't seem to be, she has never sympathized with him.

Regarding Peng Cheng's feelings, thinking about it, she has always had no time to take care of it. In Beibei's subconscious, it seems that being loved is dignified, and lovering is very much like inferiority, so she always needs to use some excuse to make her love seem involuntary. This seems to be a kind of confession, giving yourself an explanation, explaining why you love, to love someone who hurts you, and become inferior. Maybe it's because love will seem like a lowly slave and has no skin, but if it's because of fear?

For a long time after that, Bei Bei slowly taught Peng Cheng to use violence, threats, intimidation, etc., etc., and he skillfully used these to keep her.

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When I was a child, there was a very interesting thing in the family that my mother brought back from the unit. It should be as big as a flashlight, it looks inconspicuous, it is called a kaleidoscope.

The two ends of the kaleidoscope can be twisted in opposite directions, there is a hole, and one eye should be closed to look through that hole into the kaleidoscope, and the other end of the kaleidoscope can be twisted with the hand. Every time he twisted, the world in the hole would change some shapes, like many colorful geometric shapes rolling down and rising in the rotation, it was probably the most magical toy when he was a child, just like science, at that time Bei Bei didn't really understand what science was, and he didn't know that the world was going to turn from an angle.

After that, Peng Cheng quit his job in the bathhouse almost in a blink of an eye, decisive and ruthless, leaving no way back, he cut off all relationships with the bathhouse and the two women there, which Bei Bei believed to be his most loyal watch to prove his love for her and their relationship.

There are some things that don't need to be said, and most of what is said is not true, but what is not said does not mean that it is true, this is really a strange theory, the real image is clearly there, but it is always unknown.

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Everything comes at a price.

Peng Cheng lost his job again, but fortunately, before leaving, the young man cleared all his debts. As for how he did it, Bei Bei never asked, and she didn't dare to ask more, maybe the answer was not what she liked, or maybe he would suddenly go crazy, which made her curious, although uneasy, but silent.

In the following days, Peng Cheng looked for a lot of jobs, most of which were not suitable for him, and sometimes, the reasons why those people rejected them made Bei Bei feel difficult to open his mouth.

"I'm sorry ma'am, the waiter we recruit should have a good image and temperament, he, no. The beautiful girl in the high-forked cheongsam really couldn't hide, and she was probably embarrassed to tell Peng Cheng, so she told Bei Bei like this, and at the end she frowned very reluctantly, contemptuously, like a white man looking at a black man, and glanced in the direction of Peng Cheng in disgust.

Beberton felt that her face was burning, and the beautiful girl looked at her with disdain, as if she was wondering if there was something wrong with her, how could she be a good person and find such a flawed man. At this time, Peng Cheng was standing in the corner of the hotel, he was too cowardly to face the denial alone, probably because he had seen the rejection of the scar more than Beibei, or he was more inferior than Beibei, so he seemed more afraid.

Bei Bei suddenly understood him, she turned her head to look at him, saw that he turned around unnaturally, a wave of sympathy struck, she covered up, wanting that the hurt of that sentence would not really hurt Peng Cheng, but Peng Cheng walked slowly, and no longer dared to look at the towering gate.

Bei Bei followed closely behind, ran twice, and silently followed him, discrimination always makes people more aware of it.