If I could only see the darkness, maybe I would never have longed for the light again.

It was a village hidden deep in the mountains, where he was born. It was not popular to go to the hospital to give birth there, and in the middle of winter in 1986, the traffic was not convenient, and there was only a dirt road with a meter width leading to the town that was not yet prosperous.

Specifically, Peng Cheng was born on that piece of kang, and no one remembers it, when he was given to his parents in the city, he was so young that he didn't remember this, and as for others, he generally felt that even he didn't need to remember.

is still a baby in swaddling clothes, probably in the first month, before the new year, the snow is almost Fengshan, it is a cold and cold day, and the mother who is still in the confinement cries and cries to send away the soft son in her arms. The poor countryman didn't even bother to remember Peng Cheng's specific date of birth, only remembered that it was a morning, a very cold morning, and the sky was not completely clear.

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"Lao Zhang, why are you squatting here? It's not cold outside?"

The middle-aged man put his hands in his sleeves, his neck tightened, and he was frozen slightly. He walked up the slope below, looking up at the man crouching in front of the house. The man was curled up, his head drooping very low, and when he heard someone call him, he raised his head, his face was dark and wrinkled, and his face was aggrieved and bitter.

"Brother Cheng, you're here, oops!" The man's mouth grinned, thinking that he had made a big mistake: "Stay in the house!

The middle-aged man pushed the door into the house, the door shaft creaked, and the door suddenly sank halfway, and the woman on the kang woke up with a clang. The woman propped herself up, struggled to sit up from the bed, Xu had just given birth, she seemed to be physically exhausted, and people cried very much for days, her nose and eyes were red and swollen, and when she saw the middle-aged man coming in, she cried more and more.

"Don't cry, what are you crying about?" The middle-aged man's voice was a little loud, and he forgot to lower his loud voice, and the child on the kang snorted softly, smashing it, smashing it, and his eyes couldn't see clearly, and then there was a burst of howling and crying. The child's cry came so suddenly, as if it had been recorded earlier in the tape recorder, and it was only a signal that it screamed.

"What, why did you wake up again. Lao Zhang outside the door broke in, and the sturdy door panel was slammed into a clang, and the child on the kang cried even more in response. Lao Zhang grinned widely, as if he had eaten Coptis chinensis, his two shoulders drooped weakly, his brows were strangled to death, and he seemed to have been tortured to the point that he had lost his mind.

"Brother Cheng, this, crying like this, crying all day long, I don't know what's going on, this kid, big brother!

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In the eyes of the poor parents, maybe this child is just a commodity on their production line, and they are not careful. That was a very embarrassing thing, Lao Zhang is expression, that kid may mean that his guy is not up to the task, so this defective product is out.

"It's okay, if it doesn't work, I'll take it away, it just so happens that someone still wants to keep one. After the middle-aged man finished speaking, he laughed. He took off his frozen clothes, put them on the kang head farthest from the child, put it on his head before he walked over, and hurriedly rubbed his hands, looking at the aggrieved little pitiful, who didn't even have the strength to shake his arms, but still stubbornly cried.

"Brother Cheng, why can't he stop crying!" The thin and withered woman on the kang asked pleadingly, and the middle-aged man didn't know what to say, he looked at the helpless woman, and the more she asked, the more she cried, presumably she was reluctant, but what could she do if she was not reluctant?

"What are you crying about? Lao Zhang rushed over in two steps, arrived at the edge of the kang, glared at his own girls who were twisting on the bed, reached out to wrap a small quilt, picked up the child, and leaned half a body towards his eldest brother Cheng, and his mouth was full of abuse of his daughter-in-law: "You useless girl, look at what you have born, like a monster." ”

As if he understood his father's words, the child suddenly cried even more, louder and louder, and cried so quickly that he kept convulsing. Lao Zhang didn't care about this, he patted the child's back while taking two steps towards him Brother Cheng, and stuffed the child into Brother Cheng's hand. The child kept twitching, Lao Zhang generally felt that something was wrong, he beat it very hard, and the little guy let out a muffled sigh, and then really stopped crying.

"Lao Zhang, what are you doing here? You put the child down first. The middle-aged man hurriedly took the child, held it in his arms and looked at it again, and saw that the child's cry sounded again, so he walked to the edge of the kang and put it down.

"It's so cold in this house, it's hot on the kang, the child should be frozen, don't be scary, don't be scared, what monsters are not monsters, this child has already met the chop, I'll take it away in a while, and don't do anything about the two of you." Lao Cheng didn't like to listen to Lao Zhang's words, and hurriedly scolded. The woman on the kang moved over at this time, she reached out to hold the child, and Lao Cheng pushed the child into the kang.

"It's true!" Lao Zhang shouted and slapped his thigh, lowered his head and squatted next to him.

"He Cheng brother. The woman on the kang cried again, the middle-aged man's words seemed to give her a backbone, and she wailed and rushed out of the dilapidated house, startling Lao Cheng: "What his father said is true, the fortune teller has come to see it, saying that we don't have the lives of two sons, saying that I have only one son in my life, this child, not our family, he is a monster, and he came to the world by himself." Big brother, why don't we put this matter on the table. ”

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On the way out of the mountain, Lao Cheng's heart has never been quiet, I don't know if this child really doesn't belong to that family, he didn't want to take the child out in this new month, the little guy is not yet a month, but seeing the couple, I'm afraid I can't bear it anymore.

The heavy snow covered all the ruts he had crushed, and it was as if no one had ever passed behind him, and he rode his bicycle back, and it was late at night when he got home. It's also strange to say, it's so cold outside, and the wind and snow are so big, the child sleeps honestly in the basket, and the bicycle sways left and right, and he doesn't even say a word. But these are not as magical as when he just went out, he just carried him out of the room, and as soon as he crossed the threshold, he didn't know why, he stopped crying, and stopped silently.

"Lao Cheng, look at it, he is really not our family, why did he give birth to our family?"

Lao Zhang followed closely behind him, and he spoke again. Lao Cheng glanced back at Lao Zhang's grinning mouth, how did he put it in such a shape, his mouth was so flat.

I haven't been back to my hometown for about a year, and my relatives at home can't always get up, the mountain is not easy to get in and out, and I don't have a car. It's not easy to have a child these days, they are all only children, a family of dolls, and no one is willing to give it to others, if it is not ...... Hi!

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After only one night, Lao Cheng's daughter-in-law made a bowl of egg custard for the child, and fed it early in the morning, the child was very energetic, got up early, and seemed to be hungry, but still didn't cry.

"Child, her father, this child has become obedient. ”

The daughter-in-law is feeding the child, she keeps praising it, her hands and feet are in her heart, Lao Cheng is silent, she is worried in the end, I don't know if my brother-in-law can accept the child, after all, he just heard that there is something wrong, and he hasn't really seen it, in case he doesn't want to, Lao Cheng pondered for a while, then he discussed with his daughter-in-law, let's raise it ourselves, grow up and have an operation for him, it's not the same as a good child, and also find a younger brother for his daughter to be a companion.

In the afternoon, my brother-in-law came and brought Lao Cheng's daughter back by the way. It was snowing outside again, and my brother-in-law and sister were all white, except for my own daughter, who did not have a trace of snowflakes. Lao Cheng hurriedly let these two into the house, it was his own sister-in-law who couldn't have children, Lao Cheng consciously saw people a little lower, especially his brother-in-law never said much, and there was no trace of bad with his sister, so that he felt even more at a loss.

The four of them sat awkwardly for a long time, Lao Cheng felt that it was difficult to speak, and finally, it was his brother-in-law who spoke first, and the gentle man was originally coming to see the child, and he was impatient: "Brother, where is the child?"

As soon as Lao Cheng looked up, no matter how ugly he was, he still wanted to see his in-laws, so he made a look at his daughter-in-law. The daughter-in-law was a delicate person, and hurriedly got up: "Okay, then I'll go and hug it, Peng, you sit." ”

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"Brother, why is this kid like this?"

His own sister-in-law was unhappy, Lao Cheng repeatedly coaxed and persuaded, but his brother-in-law couldn't see the slightest reluctance, he seemed to like the child, and it was strange that the child seemed to be in love with his brother-in-law, and his eyes lit up when he saw him.

"Uncle, I'll call this kid Peng Cheng, do you think it's okay?"

Lao Cheng was busy explaining to his sister, and he listened to his brother-in-law's muttering, and the three of them turned around together, the man hugged the villain in his arms, looked at each other and smiled, the fate between father and son?