"But Xiangxiang said that it can be operated, and you will ......be fine when the operation is done," Wang Guiying said.

"She said it could be operated, but there was no instrument at all, and the iron pieces in my brain would still move, and one day I would cut my blood vessels, and I would ......die."

"But, wouldn't it be better to have Xiangxiang by your side?"

"I don't want to see her sad for me, I don't want the last memories I bring him to be painful......" Gu Zhennan's face was sad, his lips were pursed, his fingers were clenched tightly, and his joints were slightly white because of the force.

"But you also broke her heart like this, didn't you see how sad she was just now?" Wang Guiying shook her head.

Gu Zhennan looked sad, "Long pain is better than short pain, she is disappointed in me, maybe it won't be so uncomfortable in the future, maybe you can forget my ...... earlier, mother, in fact, I feel very painful in my heart, I just watched her cry and my heart was like a knife!" ”

"She usually loves to laugh and is a lively person, but you see her during this time, in order to take care of me, she is so careful, walking on thin ice, she wants to see my face, for fear that I will not be happy, living so hard, I can't bear to ......"

"Then you should be kind to her!" Wang Guiying couldn't understand.

"I can't help myself." Gu Zhennan smiled bitterly, "I feel very useless." You don't know, mother, seeing her living so trembling and loving so humble, I hate myself......"

"What a proud person she was, living so wanton and full of energy, but because of me, she could only keep her voice down, dare not speak loudly, dare not laugh, she is not her anymore, I can't destroy her!"

"It's only a short pain for her to leave me now, and after a long time, maybe she will be able to forget about me, I hope she can be happy......"

"But Zhennan, what should you do? Are you too bitter? Wang Guiying couldn't cry.

"Since you came to our house when you were eight years old, you haven't had a good life, and now it's finally better, but you ......" Wang Guiying burst into tears, "It's our Gu family who is sorry for you." ”

"Mother......" Gu Zhennan's tears also flowed.

"I still remember when your father and I were digging a ditch for others, you were so small, you were dressed in tatters, your face was dark and thin, your eyes were sunken with hunger, and you swallowed when you saw us eating......

Wang Guiying shed tears while recalling the past, "Your father will give you his own food, you kneel down and kowtow to us, saying that you are willing to be our children, saying that your surname is Gu, just like us......"

"At that time, your father and I really felt that you were given to us by God, we had no children for so many years, I don't know how many people laughed at, you came, we finally had children, and your father also had a smile."

"You are really a lucky star, I was pregnant with Zhendong not long after you came, you don't know how happy I am with your father!" Wang Guiying said while wiping away tears.

"At that time, you were still so young, you rushed to help us do things, and you didn't dare to eat more, I know that you are afraid that we have our own children and don't want you, but you are the lucky star of our family, how can we not want you, we treat you as if you were our own son......"

Gu Zhennan's eyes were also red.

That year, he ran out of his home, and then wandered around, when he was thirsty, he would get some water to drink by the ditch, when he was hungry, he would rummage through the garbage cans to find food, climb the train, and go wherever he went, until he met Gu Jianguo and his wife.

He had actually observed them for several days, and knew that they were good people and that they had no children, so he appeared before them.

said that his surname was Gu, his name was Gu Zhennan, and he said that he could be their son.

They didn't dislike themselves at all, and took care of themselves as if they were their own sons.

But he was still very afraid, afraid that they would not want him, so he worked hard, ate less and did more, and he wanted to have a home.

"Later, your father was not in good health and got sick, so we went home, we left home for ten years and brought back you and Zhendong, and no one else knew that you were not our biological child, and we never told others ......"

"I know, mother, I've been grateful for ...... for so many years"

"But our family is sorry for you, because of your father's illness, you have suffered a lot in those years, and the burden of the family is on you, and then you can't go to college, and after all these years, if it weren't for us, you wouldn't have lived so hard......"

"No, no, if it weren't for you, I would have frozen to death and starved to death......" Gu Zhennan shook his head, his eyes were also red, "Mother, it was you who gave me a home and gave me warmth, I have never regretted coming to this home......"

"But you're not happy, you've never smiled, or you've had a smile on your face in the past two years with Xiangxiang, but why are you driving her away, I can see that Xiangxiang has real feelings for you, she doesn't care about those things, why do you ......"

Gu Zhennan smiled bitterly, "Mother, she doesn't care, but I have to think about her, I don't want to see her unhappy, I don't want her to live carefully......"

"But child, you have suffered yourself...... Wang Guiying burst into tears.

"I'm ......, huh!" Gu Zhennan smiled sadly, "Maybe I won't live long, I don't care, it's just that I may not be able to do my filial piety for you......"

"Zhennan, don't say that, you make my mother's heart hurt like this, Zhennan." Wang Guiying was grief-stricken.

"Mother, I've thought about it, if I die, the cement factory will be left to Zhendong, and there is a big factory in my oil field that wants to give Xiangxiang, mother, don't blame me, all I left her is these......"

"Don't talk about Zhennan, we don't want this, I just want you to ...... well" Wang Guiying burst into tears.

……

Guo Xiang ran out of the house, it was obviously summer, but the wind blew on his body and there was a chill to the bone, his brain was white, like heavy snow, and the whole person was like being wrapped in snow, cold and biting.

She ran to Ji Changlin with tears streaming down her face, startling him.

"What's going on, it's Zhennan ......"

"It's not!" Guo Xiang shook his head desperately, "Zhennan, he doesn't want me anymore, he wants to divorce me......"

"Why?" Ji Changlin was shocked.

"I don't know, I don't know, Master, what did I do wrong?" Guo Xiang squatted down crying, covering his face with his hands, tears flowing down his hands.

He ...... He must not want to drag you down, he doesn't want you to suffer, he is not the kind of person who is ruthless and unjust......" Ji Changlin sighed.

"But I'm willing, I'm not afraid of suffering, I'm willing to bear it with him!" Guo Xiang cried, "Why can't he understand me, I am willing to change and ...... for him"

"Maybe that's why he wants to separate, he doesn't want you to change for him, he thinks you're living too hard......"

"But I don't think it's hard, I'm willing, take 10,000 steps back, even if he really can't be cured, I'm willing to spend his last days with him, why did he drive me away?" Guo Xiang couldn't understand.