Calm down......

He had to be calm.

In the face of such a thing, he really couldn't keep his sanity 100% ...... But at the same time, he seems to be real, and he doesn't know what kind of way he can deal with it......

He knew that he should get out of those fragmented memories as soon as possible, and he shouldn't keep talking about these tattered and messy things...... But to be honest, at the same time, he really can't do it......

"So you'd rather you never existed in this world, did you?"

The woman spoke, and in one sentence, she completely analyzed Ling Yi'an's current situation, so that he had no power to refute.

Yes, yes, he really didn't want to live like this...... This kind of life is too boring, or rather, too unacceptable...... If he could, he wouldn't even be in this place, in the sky, not to have those memories of the past...... However, such an idea, no matter how attractive it is to him, is just an idea...... In any case, it is not on the table, and there is no reasonable reason to explain it......

"I understand everything you said, it's not that I don't understand. ”

Ling Yi'an said, and then turned over, "However, you should probably know what kind of education I received since I was a child...... Growing up, I was taught by my adoptive mother, who taught me not to fight with others, not to rob others. Just live a life in peace and stability, more stable and comfortable than those who fight and kill, who want to come...... If it weren't for her, if I could grow up next to you...... Maybe everything will be different......"

If you can grow up next to me......

When the woman heard this, tears couldn't help but fall from her cheeks, and it made Yi'an feel distressed when she saw it.

"Who's to say it's not...... Do you think I don't want to......"

Her tone was very choked, and she almost wanted to scold Ling Yi'an for being skinless...... However, she endured it because she knew that she shouldn't quarrel with Ling Yi'an...... That's not what you're supposed to do right now...... What she should be doing now is to bring Ling Yi'an back to the right path, instead of being in such a place all the time, confused, going around and around, stumbling......

"You are not to blame for the past. I know that woman has a vicious heart, and it is already very surprising that she can raise you safely, and I don't expect her to do anything good, and teach you to be a kind of auxiliary general...... But I really didn't expect that your father didn't care about you in the slightest......"

Father?

Scold.

When Ling Yi'an heard these two words, he couldn't help but snort coldly. The voice sounded very uncomfortable in the woman's heart.

"You...... Don't like him?"

It's almost a pleading tone...... When Ling Yi'an heard this, he was very surprised. After all, if it is according to the evil spirit, the mother should have more or less disgusted with the father...... After all, it was a man who killed his mistress...... And share a bed with him every day...... And to bear children for him......

If she could, her mother would have wanted to run away from him, right...... That's the kind of person you are...... People who have always been disliked...... People who have never been cared about...... If that's the case, then why should he care so much? Anyway, he's been educated to be such a person...... Even if he encounters something else here, it won't change his current appearance......

"He doesn't care about me...... I really don't have any numbers in my heart," Ling Yi'an said, looking at her, and couldn't help but sigh, "When I was still in my infancy, I was separated from you...... To this day...... So far, my father has probably not said as much to me as you have said to me during this time. ”

After so many years, I have only said a few words......

Ling Yi'an said, and then saw that there was something wrong with her mother's expression, and suddenly felt that she was talking too much...... Isn't there something I shouldn't say......

But anyway, that's true, isn't it? There's no need for him to make a fool of himself. If my mother can't accept this, then I can not say it...... However, now I seem to have a little bit of it to understand my mother's feelings......

The feeling that I want to say, but I don't dare to say...... Because of the scruples of the loved ones, many things cannot be easily said......

Just like before yourself...... If it weren't for the fact that he has always been very resistant to those things, perhaps the evil spirit would have made the past clear to himself...... However, if it weren't for my resistance, maybe I wouldn't have been able to see my mother......

In short, this matter is put here, it can be regarded as good and bad...... I can't say that I hate this kind of behavior very much...... Anyway, everything has a cause and an effect...... If it weren't for this, I wouldn't have had to endure so many things...... The debt owed by my mother has been repaid by myself for more than 20 years, hasn't it?

"I thought he was going to treat you well......"

Treat me well?

Ling Yi'an looked at her somewhat sad look and couldn't help sighing. What is the standard of treating me well?

"He made me clothed and fed, and made me feel free for the rest of my life...... Let me stay with my biological mother all the time...... "That's it, how about treating him?"

Ling Yi'an didn't dare to say it, but he didn't know how to judge it clearly. To be honest, my father is not bad for himself...... At least materially, it's good, isn't it? It's just that sometimes, spiritually, I don't care for myself......

But...... He didn't think it was a father who did his duty...... After all, in this world, many times, it is you who live by yourself...... If it weren't for this, I might have had a good life.

"I thought, if only you could take me out of the palace at that time. ”

Out of the palace?

Ling Yi'an said, and then looked at her expression with a little helplessness, "If you take me out of the palace to live, maybe I won't have such an experience...... There will be no such thing...... In that case, we can live together, and maybe you won't die because of it, will you?"

Won't you lose your life?

"You're stupid, stupid. ”

The woman said, the tears in her eyes were held back tightly, and she tried desperately, not wanting to shed them......

"When I chose to enter the palace, I knew that I would definitely die......"

What the?

Knowing that he was going to die...... Do you still choose to go? Just for that, glory and wealth?

Ling Yi'an said, and then he was a little angry, he had heard some evil spirits say something before, and knew that his mother was not a good person...... But to be honest, he didn't expect that his mother would be like this, greedy for glory and wealth...... At least in my own heart, it is a really bad image......

A lot of the time, he told himself not to think about it...... Tell yourself to restrain your thoughts...... But...... In the end, he still found that he couldn't do it...... Faced with such a thing, he could only say that he couldn't judge his mother's good or bad at will...... But more or less, I have some feelings in my heart, so I don't want to go......

"Perhaps, in someone else's mouth...... They all say that I am a villain who is greedy for money...... You don't want anything for money...... However, this is all someone else's side of the story...... Honestly, do you really understand me?"

Do you really understand?

Ling Yi'an was speechless, and he didn't know what to say for a while. Indeed, he really didn't understand, but he couldn't help it, after all, he had never set foot in his mother's life...... In the face of all these things about his mother, he can only look at it as an outsider......

"I really fell in love with your father......

When Ling Yi'an was still hesitating, he was completely awakened by this sentence.

What the......

I really fell in love with my father......

Really in love with him?

How is that possible...... Ling Yi'an thought, and then looked at her with some hesitation in his eyes...... After all, in such a world, if it weren't for herself, maybe my mother would have been able to leave the palace a long time ago and leave such a cage-like place, wouldn't it...... But this sentence made him a little nervous again...... What does that mean...... What does it mean to really fall in love with my father...... Could it be that he was the crystallization of their love? But why did his father love his mother so much, but he treated himself so badly? If it were in the past, he would have said that he might be able to understand it, after all, he was such a disgusted child back then, and without the protection of his mother, he became a prince in the palace that no one liked him...... But after listening to this woman's words, he suddenly felt that things didn't seem to be so simple...... After all, in such a situation at that time, if the mother and father really loved each other...... How could his father bear to snub the crystallization of his and his mother's love, that is, himself......

In the midst of all this, there must be something he didn't know......

Ling Yi'an thought, and then clenched his fists tightly, "Say it." Tell me both. ”

There was a slight determination in his tone, and that look really startled the people around him, "What? What do you mean by that? Do you want to know again now......

Her son is really moody, she thought, and then cleared her throat, "You know what...... There is no way to investigate many things in the past, how can there be so much truth if it is true or false......"