But when he got bigger and bigger, he found that his aunt's eyes were getting more and more wrong with him, this kind of thing made him feel scared, but he had no place to leave the group, no place to hide, even if it was his closest sister, he had no way to tell his suffering, but he subconsciously wanted to avoid his aunt, as long as he could get farther and farther away from his aunt, this was already a good thing, he didn't ask for anything, he didn't want anything, he just hoped to be far away from his aunt, Because of the aunt's eyes made him feel scared, she was afraid that the aunt would do something one day, at that time, if it was irreparable, he and his sister would never be good friends, he was a person who really liked his sister, even if his sister was unfriendly to him from the beginning, but he really felt that his sister was a very good person, so he really wanted to be close to his sister, as long as he could be close to his sister, even if his sister beat him and scolded him, he was always happy in his heart, So at this moment, an unprecedented panic rose in his heart.

It wasn't until the back when my sister's scream broke all my expectations and fantasies, and in the end, my aunt still chose to understand my life, at that moment she was sluggish, and there seemed to be countless things broken in his heart, countless ideas and beliefs were broken, and there could never be a chance for peace between him and his sister and his father, even if he knew that the father might not be his real father, or not the father in his memory, But there is no longer anything between them, maybe his father is gradually moving away from him, and his sister doesn't like him anymore, so his life in this family has become as bad as when he first came, but he never felt anything, he just hoped that his sister could smile again, these have not laughed for a long time, so he is really worried about him in his heart, and hopes that his sister can laugh, even if it is just a fake smile, it is also very good, so he tried his best to make his sister laugh, But his sister looked at him with hatred and disgust in her eyes, and such a look made him dare not do anything more.

He subconsciously wanted to avoid his sister, but how could he avoid his sister My sister is the first person he likes in this family, if he really avoids his sister, who can he stay by in the future? In the final analysis, he can be regarded as his only reliance in this family, so when he sees his sister, he can't help but feel at ease, so for a while, he is a little more panicked than even he noted, if he really can't even stay with his sister, then who else can he stay by? In the end, he is still afraid of fear in his heart, in the end, no matter what time it is, he is just a child, he is not old now, he doesn't understand anything, he doesn't know anything, he only knows that his father is becoming more and more sluggish now, in the end, his father is the pillar of this family, even if his mother is gone, he thinks his father can still stay.

After all, when even the mother filed for divorce from her father, the father had never stayed like now, not that the aunt herself was no longer qualified to call her mother, even when the aunt and the father said that they wanted to divorce, the father flashed a trace of shock in his eyes at that time, but he reacted in an instant, and tried his best to make the aunt not divorce her, and he saw it in his eyes at the time, so he naturally knew that his father was a very powerful person, He was able to use all the means around him to keep his aunt by his side, even if it was to tie up his aunt by his side, he felt that this kind of love was very paranoid and terrifying at the beginning, but later he found out that this was actually a good way, his father used a good way to keep his aunt by his side, even if the two of them were like this, no one would be happy, but as long as he saw him, he knew all the bursting factors in his father, And it was all quiet.

As for why this is the case, because he is the same person as his father in his bones, he naturally knows how to make himself more comfortable, just like as long as he stays by his side, the whole person seems to be a lot younger, in fact, he is still afraid of his sister, because he is afraid that his sister will look at him with that kind of hatred, so he doesn't dare to get close to his sister now, and he can get as far away from his sister as possible, as long as he doesn't let his sister see him, or don't let his sister look at him with that kind of hateful eyes, That's all good, so he subconsciously forced himself to escape from his sister's eyes to understand that it was getting farther and farther away, only in this way could he not see the deep disgust and disgust in his sister's eyes, and only in this way could he deceive himself, saying that he still favored himself and loved himself as before.

Until the shocking thing happened, his father chose to commit suicide by jumping off the building, because he heard that there were more and more debts in the company, and his father couldn't accept such a thing, and finally chose to commit suicide by jumping off the building, but he had heard countless people say that his father was a commercial subject, and no matter what decision he made, he was right, so he didn't know why his father would take such a measure, and he didn't know what was going on, and his sister's grandparents wanted to take him home, but my sister refused, they led him to live a poor and miserable life in this family, he didn't know why he was bleeding himself, he was moved at the beginning, and wanted to help you quench your thirst, but he found that his sister's eyes were still not very kind when he looked at him.

Later, I found out that my sister wanted to support the family alone, and she was just a young sister who was a member of the family, and she tried to support the family on her shoulders and didn't want the family to be broken, even if he supported the family for a day, as if everyone in the family was there, they were still that perfect and happy family, in the end, my sister was just maintaining this illusory fantasy, and when it came to what he was thinking about in the first few sections, he was a little unclear, But he can know that this is the only idea that his sister can persevere, so he is more afraid of him in his heart, afraid that his sister will not be able to hold on one day, and he can let his sister reach the day when she is disillusioned, and at that time her sister will definitely collapse, so the day when he will send the party next time, he even hopes that he can let his sister maintain this dream for a longer time through his current performance.

But my sister didn't break this illusion at all, he still worked hard day by day, my sister, and even chose to crawl in the society for himself to go to school, when he knew at that time, he was scared in his heart, and even afraid that his sister would hate himself because of this month because of what a good right and opportunity it is for a person to be able to study, so he felt afraid in his heart that he was afraid that his sister would be completely lost in such a society, after all, society is too complicated, Even if he hasn't been in contact with it, but those rumors are enough to make him crazy, so he subconsciously wants to pull his sister back to him, so that his sister will no longer bear this, after all, his sister's shoulders are too immature, he tried to make himself grow up quickly, but there was nothing he could do to change all this.

Later, I learned that my sister's grandparents had passed away, even if it was my uncle who wanted to help, but after all, there were still a lot of troublesome things that had not been done, so it had been delayed for a while, not to mention that my sister didn't want to accept any help from them at all, and my sister even felt in my heart that it was my grandparents who killed her mother, if my grandparents didn't persuade my mother like that, my mother wouldn't have ended up in such a situation, so my sister's heart was full of hatred, She hated her grandparents, but at the last time she went to see them for the last time, she saw her sister's tears at that time, and she wanted to go forward and hug her sister, but she knew that she couldn't, she couldn't force herself with her own identity, her identity stopped her, she was not qualified to stand in front of her sister and hold herself in her arms and said the ground, even if she had more thoughts, she could only hold it in her heart, and she thought alone, if she really revealed a drop by drop, I will only get nothing at the end, after all, my sister is probably disgusted with a disgusting person like herself?

I also once proposed to my sister to go out to Xia Bu by myself, so that I can get everything I want, after all, sooner or later I still have to have my own life through my own labor and my own hands, so I said that I and my sister said that I went out to work to insist on work-study, but I was severely criticized by my sister, and my sister has become mature at this time, and she has a strong hope in her eyes, which is the hope of life. But the resentment towards herself is not so less, as if these days have been smoothed out, the resentment in her heart, her sister is already an adult beautiful and beautiful, but mature and steady, he no longer does those not very good jobs at this time, but has some jobs that others can't compare, he was admitted to the best university through his own efforts, and graduated from the university and has a suitable job.

I just listened vaguely, so I didn't know much in my heart.