When two people come out to squat, if they sit without saying a word, they are more likely to be sleepy, so it's better to chat.

It's just that Kang Ge's last sentence made Yan Xue suddenly a little embarrassed, she always thought that she was a very frank and direct person, but now she understands that she is indeed frank and direct, but frank and direct people will also be shy.

Fang Cai Kang Ge said that the moment he told Lu Xiaodong that he was "working hard", Yan Xue felt that her cheeks were hot.

Fortunately, it was dark outside, and the lights were not turned on in the car, Kang Ge didn't notice it, he just took the opportunity to talk about this topic.

"You must have had some guess about my scar, right?" Kang Ge touched his eyebrows with his hand, the thin scar didn't look obvious, but it felt very clear when he touched it with his hand, "Tell me what you think?" ”

Yan Xue estimated that she should have guessed wrong, but now Kang Ge is not testing herself for any correct answers, so she also truthfully said her thoughts, "I originally thought that you were more powerful when you were in school, and you were invincible in a fight, so no one dared to provoke you easily, so your family can rest assured that you live in school."

But then I think about it, with the way you usually deal with others, it shouldn't be like this, especially the words you advised me, if you are a person who solves problems by force, then you should think that I am not strong enough. ”

"Well, you're half right, but I don't always say that you're almost exactly the same as I used to be, so I also had a time of being stupid and trying to solve problems, but this scar has nothing to do with that."

Kang Ge paused, took a sip of coffee, looked out the window, the expression on his face became a little unpredictable in the gloomy night, he did not refuse to mention these things to Yan Xue, or this was something he wanted Yan Xue to know, but he didn't mention it for many years, and now he suddenly wanted to say it, and he didn't know where to start.

"This scar of mine was left by the arch of my eyebrows hitting the corner of the table," he took a deep breath and slowly spit it out, "I was hit open, I bled a lot, and I went to the hospital for several stitches, I was about six years old at the time." ”

Yan Xue listened carefully, and intuitively felt that there were no memories behind this that Kang Ge felt pleasant.

Six-year-old children may be more naughty, but they have long passed the age when they are unsteady in walking and easy to fall on their heels for no reason.

"This scar was a turning point in my life and a turning point in my mother's life." Kang Ge was a little reluctant to speak, but suddenly laughed again, "I don't know if saying it will make you have a bad impression."

My dad, not my sister's father, is my biological father, he is a person who has domestic violence, in my childhood memories, my mother is often blue and purple all over her body, sometimes in the summer, no matter how hot it is, she has to wear long clothes and pants, otherwise others will see the injuries on her body. ”

Yan Xue originally couldn't imagine what kind of past Kang Ge would tell her, but she didn't expect it to be like this, she was a little surprised for a while, and when she realized it, she found that she was stunned without concealment.

"Your mother, she...... I haven't met her, but from the little things you've occasionally mentioned before, I position her as a career-oriented strong woman, so ......" She was afraid that her reaction would offend Kango.

Kang Ge smiled: "Yes, she is indeed like this now, your judgment is not wrong at all, but she was still like this back then, and she was also very enterprising at that time, but she had a lot of traditional ideas and was more conservative."

This may be related to the concept that her parents instilled in her from childhood to adulthood, as well as about the fact that if you get married, you must live a lifetime, and divorce is a shame and shame for the family.

So my mother was very strong on the one hand, and she didn't want to be worse than others at work, and on the other hand, because of traditional thinking, she felt that women had the responsibility to take care of the family and be a good helper to their husbands. ”

"However, your mother is like this, hard work is definitely hard, and I feel tired when I think about it, but she can be regarded as taking care of both inside and outside, and plays the roles of both home and outside the home, which is perfect! Isn't your dad supposed to be satisfied? ”

"Most of the time my dad wasn't particularly dissatisfied, but he had three major problems, one was his inertia to not be motivated, one was his fragile male self-esteem, and the other was his addiction to alcohol.

He himself is not a person who is willing to spend a lot of energy and time on his career, but like my mother, he was instilled with the old-fashioned idea that men are heaven and women are earth, and he feels that women should be dependent on men to live, and men should be looked up to at home, and the head of the family must have the appearance of the head of the family.

In this way, my mother grabbed it outside the house, whether it was in the unit or at home, it was remarkable, and whoever saw him praised my mother for being good, saying that he was marrying such a good daughter-in-law after the ancestral tomb was smoking, and some people even joked too much, saying that he was a person who was raised by his daughter-in-law, and my father's self-esteem was repeatedly hit and a lot of resentment was buried.

How to relieve a stomach full of resentment? He chose to drink, but the wine was not good, and the vision of making friends was not very good, and he drank outside, and his fox friends and dog friends said something to fan the flames, so he was angry, and went home to borrow wine and pretend to be crazy to beat my mother.

The reasons for beating my mother are also varied, there are everything, what my mother didn't have when he was promoted, which made him very embarrassed, what my mother raised her salary, and actually earned a little more than him, making him lose face, and even his fox friends said that I looked exactly like my mother, not like him at all, I don't know if it was his child, and I also had to come back to my mother to be angry.

When I was too young, I still can't remember, I have the impression that it was after the age of four or five, I remember that at that time, my dad came back from drinking outside, and he would start scolding and scolding to find fault, I was young at that time, I didn't know anything else, I just felt that he came back and yelled at my mother, and pushed and shoved, which was not right, so I stopped in front of my mother, and every time I would be beaten because of this.

Later, every time my dad went out for a drink, she would drive me into the room in advance, let me sleep, and lock the door, and I couldn't see anything in the house, I could only hear my dad's cursing outside, the sound of something being knocked over, and the next morning my mom would definitely fill in new wounds, no exceptions.

My mother was afraid that I would be scared when I heard her beaten in the house, so she gritted her teeth and didn't say a word, and once when I got up the next morning, I found a row of bloody tooth marks on her lower lip, and when I asked her, I said that I had accidentally fallen and bitten. ”

Yan Xue's eyes widened, what Kang Ge told made her feel chills all around her, but there seemed to be a fire burning in her heart. Yan's father and Yan's mother are both gentle personalities, not to mention that the two of them are fighting, and even quarrels are rare, after all, a pair of people who dare not say cruel words are just in the cold war for a while when they are angry.

Therefore, it is difficult for Yan Xue to imagine what kind of pain and torture it is for a woman to live in the shadow of her husband's drunken domestic violence for a long time, and she can't imagine how frightened and helpless a young child is in the face of such a family environment.

"In that case, why did your mother endure such a life all the time?" She is a character who can't rub sand in her eyes, not to mention living a life like this for many years, even if there is such a time, it is estimated that she will fight back on the spot, no matter whether she wins or loses, she has to defend herself properly, and she can't let the other party take advantage of it in vain, and then break it off with the other party.

"My mother herself has also had the idea of divorce, but when she brings it up, many relatives will come to persuade her to forgive, including her mother's family, who will also tell her that there has been no divorce in the family for several generations, and if there is such a one, the whole family will not be able to raise their heads and be poked in the backbone outside.

After my dad sobered up, he would cry bitterly, kneeling and slapping himself to intercede, plus many people told her that if she was divorced, she was a single woman, with this child, and her life would not go on at all, and the child would be angry everywhere outside because of the lack of a father, and would be bullied and scolded by others.

For my mother, the old concept was a shackle, and she was worried that my situation would become a weakness, so when she was poked like this, the idea of divorce, which was not firm enough, was even more shaken. ”

"Isn't this rogue logic!" Yan Xue was a little angry when she heard this, although she knew very well that this was already an old thing, and judging from the current living conditions of Kang Ge and his mother, in the follow-up of this period of the past, the mother and son must also be the victorious side, but she still couldn't help but feel the liver fire surging, and the coffee paper cup in her hand was pinched and a little deformed, fortunately, she had already drunk more than half of it, otherwise it would be a little embarrassing now.

"Yes, but at that time, the most important thing was not the opinion of the people around her, the most important thing was that my mother didn't make up her mind, she subjectively and obviously tended to continue to endure, hoping that my dad would change his face, so she made that choice." Kang Ge sighed, "Therefore, it is inevitable that people will have times when they are not awake in their lives, and the most important thing is that there is such an opportunity to awaken, only when they wake up, can they find a real way out." ”

"yes, so how did your mother come to her senses?"

"Because of me." Kang Ge pointed to himself, "I was just six years old that year, and before that, my mother proposed a divorce to my father again because of the beating, and that time she was a little moved, turned over the household registration book and ID card, and asked my father whether to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau or the court, but in the end he beat his chest and cried bitterly to persuade him to come back."

After that, my dad was indeed honest for a long time, for fear of causing trouble, he didn't dare to go out to drink, it was absolutely impossible for the two of them to love during that time, but it didn't make much noise, but it didn't last long, and it took more than a month of hard work, and it was back to the old ways.

That day, my dad went out drinking with someone again, and before he came back late, my mom had a premonition that something might happen, and when she drove me back to my room to sleep, she locked my door again.

My dad came back very late that day, and I was still very scared and waited in the house at first, but then I couldn't wait and fell asleep, I don't know how long I slept, and I was woken up by the sound outside, and then I realized that things were even more excessive than before, because my mother, a person who was afraid of being heard, and for fear of me being afraid, had been gritting her teeth and not saying a word when she was beaten, and she was begging for mercy. ”

Yan Xue adjusted her sitting posture, she felt very nervous in her heart, eager to know what happened later.

"I was scared, I wanted to go out and couldn't open the door, I had a feeling at that time, if I didn't rush out to my mother, maybe I would never see her again in my life, fortunately our family lived on the second floor at the time, and the school talked about fire protection, so I tied the bed sheet to the window frame, took the house key, and put myself more than a meter above the ground from the second floor along the bed sheet little by little, jumped down, and rushed home to open the door.

When I opened the door, I happened to see my dad kneeling on the ground with red eyes, pressing my mom under his knees, pinching my mom's neck with one hand, and slapping her with the other. ”

Kang Ge's face didn't have much expression, but there was a slight tremor in his voice, Yan Xue didn't think about it so much, and subconsciously reached over and held Kang Ge's wrist, as if he wanted to comfort and encourage him through such an action.

Kang Ge, who was originally immersed in memories, also felt the heat on his wrist, he was slightly stunned, then a big smile slowly bloomed on his face, and stretched out his other hand to pat the back of Yan Xue's hand.

"It's okay, don't be nervous, don't forget that we are the winners!" He said with a smile, as if he was comforting Yan Xue in turn.

"And then? As soon as you showed up, your dad beat you too? Yan Xue thought about the scar on Kang Ge's eyebrows, and instinctively made an association.

Kang Ge shook his head: "He was drunk and red-eyed at the time, he didn't realize I was coming, and he kept scolding something in his mouth if he didn't subdue my mother this time, and she would have to want to run away in the future."

I rushed over to try to pull him away from my mom, but he was an adult after all, and he had so much strength that I couldn't pull him at all, and I couldn't get him to let go of the hand that was holding my mom's neck.

So in a hurry, I thought of a way, I took out the diagonal schoolbag I carried at school, the schoolbag strap was put around my father's neck, and he turned his back to pull hard, he was caught off guard, overturned all of a sudden, was strangled and coughed, got up and gave me a kick, I didn't have time to turn around, my back was at him, this kick on the back, pounced forward, just hit the face on the corner of the table. ”