"Age doesn't mean anything, people's experience is the key, and your own heart.

Although I can't do it, I will try to persuade myself, because no matter how unwilling I am, I will never get what I can't get, even if you try hard, it will be empty in the end, so why bother? ”

Xue'er didn't want to see Xuanyuan unhappy and tried to convince him, she liked to see him happy and uninhibited.

Sometimes she herself feels that she is a little too much, no matter how poor Xuanyuan Mo is, she is better than herself, whether it is in her previous life or in this life, she will always be the loneliest one.

"Xue'er, why do you always have so many great truths, I think if you continue to understand like this, you will become an immortal!"

Xuanyuan Mo felt that Xue'er was so far away from him at this moment, like a veil, he couldn't see her clearly, only hazy, which made him scratch his heart and liver.

He really wanted to tear the veil in front of him, imprison her in his arms, and never let go for the rest of his life.

This feeling made him speechless, and he even called her name, a name that he had silently recited countless times in his heart.

His ten fingers clenched unconsciously, and his nails dug into his palms, also controlling his body that was about to go out of control.

Xue'er didn't seem to notice the question on his name, and replied to herself: "Yes, I also feel that I am very annoying, I can see through everything at a glance, and I can figure out everything without using my brain, and I don't like this kind of me either." ”

"I, I didn't mean that." Xuanyuan Mo took a deep breath and forcibly suppressed his uneasy emotions.

Cher drank a glass of wine slowly, and the poetry on the side gently filled it for her again.

She nodded and continued: "I know, in fact, I am also very conflicted, not as desireless as I say, these words are to comfort you, why not comfort myself?

In fact, sometimes I want to go crazy once, live for myself once with my heart and lungs, and like someone recklessly, but every time I come to a critical moment, I always stop abruptly and give up for some reason.

I sometimes wonder if I'm being too selfish. But I don't think I'm supposed to be that kind of self in my bones.

What kind of person do you say I am? ”

She tilted her head and looked at Xuanyuan Mo opposite, and the confusion in her eyes shocked Xuanyuan Mo.

Unconsciously tugged for her again, he wanted to tell Xue'er: You are the best person in the world, my favorite little lady, the person I want to protect for a lifetime, and the only person I love!

But he couldn't say any of these words, and there was an insurmountable gap between them.

Xue'er's words touched him deeply, why didn't he want to go crazy once, why didn't he want to live for himself once with his heart and lungs? He also wants to like Xue'er recklessly, he doesn't want the relationship between them to be between his uncle and sister-in-law.

But at some point, he had to stop abruptly.

Xue'er asked him what kind of person she was, and Xuanyuan Mo was also asking him himself, what kind of person was he?

"I, the first time I saw you in the Taiji Palace, at that time I thought you were a beautiful, intelligent little lady, and later you competed with everyone, I think you are a talented person, a frank person, you are the first person to admit that you are not good at chess in front of your father, and take the initiative to expose your shortcomings.

At that time, I was thinking that you are not suitable to marry into the royal family. ”

Xuanyuan Mo said as he fell into memory, it was Xue'er's eyes that made him unable to bear to refuse to answer her question.

"Later, I became friends with Cheng Yi, and I learned something about you from his mouth, and I thought you were a wise person at that time.

Although I haven't inquired carefully, I know that the county government has today's scenery, and your credit is indispensable, and I think you are a person who is good at planning. ”

He reached out and picked up his glass and motioned to Cher, and the two of them took a sip each.

"After I came to Changhai County, I got along with you for a while, and I found out that in fact, you are just an ordinary little lady, you also have joys, sorrows, and sorrows, as well as seven emotions and six desires that you can't let go.

I have seen with my own eyes that Madame does not like you, and even angers you as a daughter because of her own son.

You were smiling at the time, but I saw the bitterness in your eyes......

At that time, you were like me in the past, I can understand your feelings, and you were actually painful and forbearant at that time.

Later, I found out that although you are only a person in the boudoir, but your knowledge and mind are not inferior to men, you always have endless ideas, learn everything quickly, and be smart and jealous! ”

He delicately described Xue'er's face with his eyes: "And you have the unforgettable appearance and temperament in this world, which will make all men in the world crazy."

You seem to be perfect and impeccable, but I always feel like you're so far away, like you're going to disappear anytime and anywhere. ”

Shiwei, who was waiting next to her, trembled because of his words and her hot eyes, and she moved back quietly.

She felt that His Royal Highness the idle king's words had passed, wasn't the county lord of her own family his sister-in-law, was he overstepping the bounds like this?

Xue'er listened quietly, she didn't think there was anything wrong, after all, it was polite to talk to people in modern times and look each other in the eyes, but she felt that what Xuanyuan Mo said didn't seem to be herself.

Sometimes she also wonders if her crossing is real, Zhuang Zhou dreams of butterflies, butterflies dream of Zhuang Zhou, is it that when she wakes up one day, she will find that she is still living in that small mountain village in modern times, living a lonely life.

This is a dynasty that she is not familiar with, although the history before the Daxi Dynasty and her history in modern studies are echoed, but why did it change in the last years of the previous dynasty?

Is it really a parallel world?

If all this was just a dream, why did she feel everything around her so clearly, and why was she still so alive?

Xuanyuan's voice interrupted Xue'er's thoughts: "Sometimes I can feel that you give affection to everyone, but sometimes I feel that you have reservations for everyone!"

There always seems to be a knot in your heart that you can't untie, that you can't unravel, that you can't release your true self. ”

Xuanyuan Mo's words reminded Xue'er of the poem: "The sky is not old, and the love is inexorable." The heart is like a double wire net, and there are thousands of knots in it. ”

She has always felt that she has long forgotten that she was an orphan, that she had forgotten the relationship that ended without a problem in her previous life, and that she had forgotten the painful and helpless childhood of the original owner.

But it turned out that she had never forgotten it, but it turned out that those thoughts had formed a cocoon in her heart, and she was always waiting for the day when she would break out of the cocoon and become a butterfly.

She thought that she had already opened her heart, and she also thought that she had really let go of those experiences in her previous life, but unfortunately she still overestimated herself.