Chapter 046: In and Out of Dreams
At noon that day, when I was having dinner with Xu Zhekai, I didn't mention that Ji Yang came to me in the morning. We didn't mention the episode that happened last night. It's like, it's really just a random note, and it doesn't affect the main theme of our love.
It was a few days like this, and I was relieved that the "big earthquake" I had feared had not happened, and that it had come to the end of May. It also makes me confirm once again that some things in this time and space are still different from before, and it also makes me start to fantasize that if I can stay here forever, Xu Zhekai and I may have a happy ending.
The third screening will be held on the last Saturday of May, and we will still train hard every week and study hard every day, because with the foreshadowing of the first two times, we are gradually getting used to this kind of life. But the preparation process was still hard, and sometimes I would whisper and complain, "Earthquakes can change, why can't the Olympics?" ”
Xu Zhekai, who was listening to it, was confused, and I asked, "What earthquake?" What to change? ”
I had no choice but to look at him innocently and pretend to be stupid: "No, I didn't say anything!" ”
During this period, when I didn't have classes, I would still accompany Xu Zhekai to his professional classes, and I would still meet Ji Yang. The three of us nodded as if nothing had happened.
As for Dai Siyuan, I heard Xu Zhekai say that he did not leave the student union. I think he is still unwilling, just like Ji Yang did to Xu Zhekai, both of them still hope that their willingness can be exchanged for a change of heart from the person in their hearts.
Sometimes when Xu Zhekai went to work in the department, it was inevitable to see Dai Siyuan, but fortunately, the two of them were open, and the original embarrassment gradually became less embarrassing.
The days of this time and space are moving forward step by step. Together with my lover and friends, I still run hard every day. If when I first came here, I was forced to work hard, then now, I hope to stay with a better attitude and stay by Xu Zhekai's side.
The relationship between Xiaoru and Jiang An is still sweet. The relationship between Yu Han and Chen Shuo is also getting deeper and deeper, after experiencing the pain of losing his father, Chen Shuo cherishes the person around him who comforts him and always accompanies him, and Yu Han is also becoming more and more careful in the process, more and more like a good wife in the traditional sense. Liu Jia is still in a hurry every day, alone, sometimes I feel that she is very much like me before I was with Xu Zhekai in another time and space, of course, my mouth is still not as bad as her.
During this period, Xu Zhekai and I also went to my grandparents' house for several dinners. The longer you spend with them, the more you will be touched by the enduring love between them. They are already so old, and the eyes of the two people looking at each other are still full of love and light, especially when the grandfather looks at the grandmother, it is like looking at the beautiful interview subject in that young age. Looking at them, I also believe even more that two people who love each other enter into marriage and get along to the end, and there is not necessarily only family affection left between each other. Love is love, love is the right person, love will always be there.
It's almost June, and the sophomore year is coming to an end. In the four years of college, the sophomore year should be the happiest. As soon as I entered the college campus in my freshman year, the youth of high school has not completely faded, and I am still full of unknown ignorance about everything in the future. In the junior year, it is time to specifically consider the future direction of life, whether it is employment, or graduate school entrance examination, whether to go abroad, or to stay in China for further study, all people are at the fork in the road of life, carefully making the next decision, and once decided, they will fight hard without hesitation, life is less romantic fantasy, more realistic cruelty, less carefree and relaxed, and more heavy to shoulder the future. In the senior year, the future direction has basically been determined, although he has not stepped out of the campus, but half of his feet have stepped into the society. Each is busy with their own things, and the opportunities to see each other are pitiful. And as graduation approaches, some emotions that should be given up have to be parted. The drama of youth has come to an end, and the campus of the graduation season is full of sad atmosphere, walking sad people.
is only a sophomore, faded to youth, youth is just right, and there are no imminent practical troubles, no matter how life makes sense. Running with all your strength is worthy of youth, and walking in the courtyard is worthy of life. Everything is hopeful, everything is thriving, this is the best year. And my year in this time and space is about to pass. It's a pity, but it's also gratifying, I have experienced two of the most beautiful youth times. What's more, there are always people you love to be with you, how lucky!
I also asked Xu Zhekai about his future plans in the process of chatting, and he also said very frankly that going abroad to study for graduate school, on the one hand, is to change the environment, in which the environment is too smooth from childhood to adulthood, and there may be more challenges in changing countries, which may not be as smooth as now, but you can see a broader world. He also asked me about my future plans, and I said I hadn't thought about it yet.
In the past time and space, I was very determined to stay in China, and looked forward to his return to China after completing his studies and staying with me for the rest of my life. But it didn't end up as I wanted.
In this present plane, when he asked the same question again, I hesitated. I began to wonder if I had to stay, why couldn't I have another choice, and if I went with him, why not? Why did I stick to my ideas so much in the past, without the slightest flexibility. Maybe it was because I had experienced a loss, and I didn't want to miss the opportunity to be with him again, so I began to think about another possibility in life.
Thinking is thinking, and it's not yet time to make a decision. What is more urgent to face now is the third volunteer selection, let's talk about it after this period of time, anyway, there are still more than three months before the third year, which is enough to make a decision.
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At the end of May in Beijing, the summer is already very deep, the leaves on the campus are more dark green than before, and the rows of tall trees on both sides of the road are gradually stretching out their verdant branches, providing shade for students and professors. Standing in the classroom on the upper floor of the teaching building, looking out the window, there is also continuous greenery in front of you, and the dense green trees are connected in the distance, forming a hill-like undulation, this plain city, as if surrounded by a circle of mountains.
This class is SPSS statistics, between classes, I stood by the window of the computer room on the sixth floor and looked out, the bright green in front of me and the wind blowing in from outside made my drowsy brain gradually sober up a lot. After a few days of continuous drizzle, the unique dust atmosphere of Beijing in spring was gradually suppressed, and everything in front of me seemed to have been washed in clear water, which was exceptionally fresh.
was in a daze, Xu Zhekai's text message came in, "Yiyi, the Youth League Committee has activities, we will order food in the office for lunch, and we will have a meeting directly in the afternoon." At noon, you and Liu Jia and the others will have dinner together, and you will come to the Youth League Committee office to find me after class in the afternoon, and we will go to grandpa's house for dinner together. ”
I smiled and replied with a "Okay, see you in the evening." "When I put away my phone, the class bell rang. Mr. Okami continued to talk about how to list and how to count, and I felt that my head was twice bigger. While trying to understand those professional terms, while looking at the teacher with adoring eyes, according to Liu Jia's first-hand information, this teacher called us SPSS is Chinese, graduate is pedagogy, and now teaching this data statistics class, every transformation is easy, admiration!
It was rare to have time to have lunch with Liu Jia, and she was quite happy and took the initiative to invite guests. Of course I am – I would love to!
The afternoon professional class of our department finally ended at 3:30. I quickly packed my schoolbag and said to Liu Jia and them, "Bye-bye!" See you in the evening! He rushed out of the classroom and prepared to go to the main building to find Xu Zhekai. I am not only happy to meet Xu Zhekai, but also because I can go to my grandfather's house again and eat the delicious food made by my grandmother, which is so exciting!
Rushing outside the school building, I found that it was raining lightly at some point, and the sky became a little dark before four o'clock. Fortunately, it has been raining for the past few days, so I have always carried an umbrella in my school bag. I opened my bag, pulled out my umbrella, and walked slowly towards the main building.
There is a small garden on the way from the first class I just took to the main building, which is planted with different kinds of flowers throughout the year. And now, with the breeze and drizzle, it is a good time to enjoy the flowers, and I unconsciously want to go through the small garden, look at the flowers and then go to Xu Zhekai.
Maybe it's raining, maybe it's some people rushing to the next class, and not many people pass through here, but I slowly admire the tulips that are just the right color in the light rain, and it's very pleasant. When I was about to walk to the pavilion, I suddenly noticed that there were two people standing inside, and when I looked closely, one of them was actually Ji Yang, and although the person opposite Ji Yang had his back to me, I still immediately recognized the back that was too familiar to be familiar, it was actually Xu Zhekai!
The two seemed to be arguing over something, Xu Zhekai's voice was not loud, and he couldn't hear the specific content clearly. I only heard Ji Yang suddenly raise his voice and say, "Anyway, what I do is wrong in your eyes!" You'll never see my goodness! ”
Xu Zhekai's back seemed to stiffen, and he turned around to leave, but before I could react for a moment, Ji Yang hugged Xu Zhekai from behind and said loudly: "You just like you, you just criticize me at will, why?" Am I really as bad as you say? ”
The moment Xu Zhekai broke free of Ji Yang, he also saw me holding an umbrella on the other side, and was stunned, Ji Yang also flashed out from behind him, and when he saw me, he seemed to be stunned for a moment, and then his face returned to his usual calm.
My mind was blank, I didn't know what exactly what their conversation was, I only knew that they were alone, and Ji Yang was holding Xu Zhekai. My heart ached like a knife, and I held my umbrella and turned around and ran to my bedroom......
The rain became heavier and heavier, and I vaguely heard Xu Zhekai calling my name, "Shen Yiyi!" Yiyi! Yiyi! ”
I ran as fast as I could to my bedroom, ignoring the rain on the road that splashed the mud on my trouser legs. Rushing into the dormitory, no one else was there, I took off my dirty pants and picked up a towel to mechanically dry the rain from my arms and legs.
Shivering in my bedroom at the end of May, I pulled a thick nightgown out of the cupboard and put it on, climbed to the top bunk, pulled the curtain tightly, and wrapped myself tightly in the quilt. During the whole process, my phone kept ringing, and the words "Little Poplar" on the screen were dazzling, so I hung up the phone, turned it off, and threw the phone at the end of the bed. When I closed my eyes, tears slipped from the corners of my eyes to my ears, which was cool and uncomfortable.
I felt very cold, my body was shivering in the quilt, I don't know when, I fell asleep in a daze, in the haze, there was always a voice shouting: "Yiyi!" Yiyi! According to a ......"
When I opened my eyes again, the light in the room was so harsh that I struggled to sit up, my head aching. A voice came to my ear again, "Oh my God, Shen Yiyi, you're finally awake!" "I was stunned for a moment, this voice? Yu Han's?
I followed the sound and froze, unable to believe my eyes. The person in front of him is indeed Yu Han, but it is...... The last Yu Han I saw in that time and space!
I trembled, a cold sweat broke out, and in Yu Han's suspicious gaze, I slowly looked around, even more dumbfounded, unable to say a word for a long time.
This is not my dormitory.
This is my home in another time and space!