The most terrible thing about love is not that you don't love, and it doesn't hurt if you don't love, the most terrible thing about love is that you have loved, you have loved, and you have passed.

Adversity is always more tempering, fluttering in difficulties, doing everything, that bursts out of great strength, doesn't it? You have to unleash your greatest potential, and you have to resist the harm that adversity may bring to yourself.

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After the hotel work began, the young man suddenly became busy, he still insisted on coming every morning, went downstairs to Beibei's house to smoke and wait, and the two of them went to have breakfast together, rain or shine. He always said that he was busy now, that he had met new friends, that he had a nice sister at the bar, that he always brought him good food, that she was very good-looking, that she was a little dark, and that he wanted to be a baby every day.

"Hmm!" Bei Bei responded most casually, all in response to him, responding to his overly enthusiastic thoughts, like a basin of cold water on his head.

"Are you still so busy these days?" Bei Bei handed the shrimp dumplings to Peng Cheng, they would not order five kinds of shrimp dumplings again, and the kelp stuffing was enough.

For a person like Peng Cheng who has not studied much and has not worked much, he can be a small waiter in the hotel and do some of the heaviest work, so he will naturally be busy. The time in that place is tight, and it will be nine o'clock in the evening after getting off work, if you catch up with a drunken person, there will be no time to get off work, and they will not have time to meet at night, Bei Bei doesn't think it's inappropriate, but Peng Cheng is always very reluctant.

"Oh!" he was a little distracted and looked very sleepy: "It's okay, I was a little tired yesterday, there were guests at the table who didn't leave in the middle of the night, I was on duty, and I went back a little late." ”

The young man seemed to have no appetite, he ate less and less, and as soon as he had a little to eat, he said that he was not too hungry, and sat down for a while, and the person was hooked, as if his brain had fallen asleep.

"Why don't you go back early and catch up on some sleep. ”

"No, you'll go to work in a while, I'll make up for it. ”

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For this breakfast every day, Peng Cheng has to get up at about five o'clock, walk from the hotel to Beibei's house, no accident, it takes about half an hour, eat breakfast and then walk back, if time still allows, he can stare for a while, that is the most comfortable.

Catching up with the morning shift at nine o'clock, Peng Cheng didn't have to sleep, and there was no time left. Probably because the object is too hard, this son, he is eating shrimp, and the dumplings are asleep. Bei Bei had a small talk without a match, and when she looked up, she saw him sitting with his eyes closed, his chest rising and falling evenly. I don't know why, the girl felt a hot heart, she couldn't bear to wake him up, quietly drank the porridge, wrapped the remaining shrimp dumplings and porridge, and waited silently alone.

It was not early, the second guest this morning came, the door was suddenly opened, and the girl in the bar suddenly raised her head, and even she fell asleep. Peng Cheng also woke up, he seemed to be startled, and he was excited, and he propped himself up: "Am I asleep?" When he saw the girl sitting opposite, he was relieved and relaxed, and the person suddenly became shorter, with an inexplicable slight anger.

"Don't come here in the future. Bei Bei lowered her head, picked up something on the table, and prepared to leave, she was not happy.

"I don't, daughter-in-law, I didn't mean to, I stayed up until the second half of the night last night, the bar sister was on duty with me, her husband didn't come to pick her up, I sent her back, I just went back to sleep, I didn't mean to. Peng Cheng turned around and sat on the chair next to Beibei, sandwiching the girl inside, he kept coaxing her, coaxing her He always seemed very enthusiastic, he hoarsely voiced, coaxing Beibei's face to become more and more gloomy.

"Cheng Cheng, don't speak, stop talking, your voice is hoarse. I didn't mean that, I thought you were too tired, and if you came out in the morning, you wouldn't be able to stay up. ”

"I don't, I can, I can survive, I can, I can't go out at night, I can't see you in the morning, so what am I looking for this job for?" he finally put his mind at ease, and as he spoke, he put his head on Beibei's shoulder, like a puppy that hadn't slept comfortably, he hunched over, nestled on her shoulder, and closed his eyes steadily.

"Daughter-in-law, it's so good, you feel sorry for me. ”

"No, you're thinking too much. Bei Bei leaned on him motionlessly: "Then don't come, okay? It's so cold, and I don't like to go out to eat when you come." ”

"That's fine. As if he had figured it out, he quietly answered.

Maybe she was too tired! She could understand, but her heart was still sour. The girl laughed at herself for a long time, got on the commuter bus, and when she saw Xiao Ai, she still felt lingering dissatisfaction.

That night, Bei Bei received a call from Peng Cheng from the county seat, saying that he would go home first, and when the weather was good, he would come to eat with his daughter-in-law. In the end, he didn't forget to threaten Beibei, saying that she was already his Peng Cheng's daughter-in-law, and asked her not to always worry about other men.

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New Year's Day is coming soon, Qin Tian called just after midnight on New Year's Day, wishing Bei Bei a happy New Year, and he said that he hoped she would be happy.

Bei Bei pondered in her heart, his blessing, listening to people's hearts sour, he said that he hoped she could be happy, how sad this should be! The girl didn't know what else she could say, did she want to bless him, but she couldn't think of a better word, so she also said that she hoped Qin Tian would be happy, how stupid.

Beibei's blessing Qin Tian seemed to be very useful, he smiled very happily, it was really a happy life floating out of his heart, and then they hung up the phone, like old friends.

After talking about introducing her boyfriend last time, Qin Tian's phone calls were obviously less, and she called a few times to ask Bei Bei if she was dating him, and the girl knew that he hoped that he could develop well with his new friends, so he didn't explain anything, and any more contact would only make her feel that she was a shameless slut.

Since the matter of going abroad was finalized, Qin Tian seemed to be more confident. At least at home, he may not be so full of confidence or hope. Although the procedures for going abroad were not smooth, this did not hinder his expectations for the future, he was excited like a whistling bird, every time he called, he would blow once, which would always hurt Beibei's heart.

Qin Tian asked Bei Bei if there was a lot of snow in the northeast? Then he heard Bei Bei talk very exaggeratedly, saying that the northeast was all like the big and small Xing'an Mountains. He asked if he couldn't pull out his feet when he stepped into the snow, and Bei Bei said, "No, the whole person can sink in the thick snow." ”

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In January, Laba arrived, at noon on the same day, the cemetery prepared eight treasure porridge, the taste was very good, Bei Bei drank two large bowls of porridge, and his forehead was sweating. In winter, there is not much work in the cemetery, and the mountains are full of snow, and it is also in this season that the cemetery looks much more desolate, and the snow weighs down on the graves, lonely and desolate.

In the afternoon, I went up the mountain to check as usual, and as soon as I entered the cemetery, I received a call from the boyfriend last time. It's been more than a month, and this person should have forgotten about it a long time ago.

He didn't feel unfamiliar at all, as if this month's gap didn't exist, it seemed that after he ate that tomato scrambled egg bowl, he woke up and it was today, and he asked Bei Bei if he had time to come out for an appointment.

Bei Bei just wanted to refuse, but was stopped by a colleague, who quietly whispered in Bei Bei's ear and said, "It's not small, it's almost enough, give him another chance." So she agreed, despite her helplessness.

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The north wind and snow of the little Laba, the temperature was so low that passers-by had to tremble, Bei Bei went home, deliberately changed into a thin mid-length coat, and the pair of high-heeled leather boots that had been sold for a long time but had never dared to wear out.

When I went out with less clothes, it was naturally colder, and as soon as I walked out of the corridor, Bei Bei wanted to go home. The man was much smarter than her, wearing a dark gray down jacket, a cotton hat and cotton shoes, wrapped so that he couldn't see his face. Coming from afar, Xu hadn't seen him for more than a month, Bei Bei didn't recognize him, he said that he was going to drink Laba porridge together, so he took the girl to a nearby porridge shop.

The location of the porridge shop is not far away, and it will be three stops, and it is not easy to walk over, Bei Bei wears less, and she froze all the way. The man had three layers of sweaters inside and out, he didn't think of this, and chatted with her leisurely, walking very slowly.

When she finally arrived at the porridge shop, Bei Bei was already frozen, and the hot air on the face of the shop was steaming, and she felt that she was alive in an instant. On the contrary, he was not used to it, he was still wrapped in a coat on the outside, and he began to take it off as soon as he entered the door, one on the left and one on the right, and it was even hotter after a while, and he took off the down shoulder on the inside, and fell high on the stool next to him.

"Why is it so hot in this room?" The man was so hot that he pulled his neckline, his face was full of moisture, and Bei Bei looked at him sideways with an uncomfortable look: "It's a porridge shop! It's too cold to eat." ”

"What's uncomfortable, it's uncomfortable when it's hot. As he spoke, he took off another sweater.

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There are a lot of people eating laba porridge in the porridge shop, and the seats of Bei Bei and the two people have been waiting for a long time, and they are still sharing tables. The man's pile of clothes had nowhere to go, and he looked around: "Why don't you even have a serious table?" He complained, seeming bored.

"Waiter, move a chair. He shouted loudly, but there were too many people, and the shouting was drowned out in the crowd. The heat makes people lose their good temper, there are people everywhere, the waiter moved a plastic stool, how can there be plastic stools everywhere, everywhere is full of people, not only is there no place to put it, but he really can't put so many clothes.

"And where do I put my clothes?" he snapped into a frenzy. After a long time of circling, the waiter suggested that the clothes be stored in the bar.

"Is that clean? I tell you, don't get me dirty. The waiter promised again and again, and the man followed him, leaving Bei Bei to sit awkwardly alone, and the other pair of men and women on the four-person stage looked at her strangely, and the girl shrugged her shoulders embarrassedly.

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"What would you like to eat?"

Finally saved his clothes, he had plenty of money, and hurriedly came over again, he sat down and brushed his hair, and put another one on his white shirt, and the gray snow-dotted fur coat looked very elegant.

Today is Laba, although she has eaten it at noon, Bei Bei still chose Laba porridge, she seems to be unsatisfied, this time with the experience of the last two times, she directly said that she wanted to order a side dish, and then asked for a cage of shrimp dumplings.

"The porridge shop is delicious, and everything else is average. He said this, it seemed to be a suggestion, and it seemed to be a decision, so he called the waiter and ordered two bowls of laba porridge and brought another sugar: "I'll go to the small vegetable area of my choice, pick up the vegetables, what do you want to eat?"

"Whatever, anything. Bei Beishang was a little relieved, although the shrimp dumplings were not ordered, but at least this time he recognized the side dishes.

After a busy period of work, the other couple of men and women on the four-person table finished eating, and there were fewer people in the store, and finally Bei Bei himself was left at this table. The man came back with a side dish, stacked neatly in a small dish.

He seems to be a regular person, and the small dishes are stacked very neatly, layer by layer, so that they can fit so much. Clamping side dishes also requires technology, if you change others, I'm afraid you can't clip so much, a stack of dried tofu that rises high, you don't need to drink porridge, and you will be almost full when you eat it all.

"No one pulled? I'll bring my clothes. "Chen Xiaodong" put down the side dishes and went to the bar to get his clothes, Bei Bei looked at the stack of dishes in front of him embarrassed, and he was really embarrassed.

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It's the same, two people eat porridge with one spoonful, and I eat porridge with one spoonful, and no one talks to anyone. Before the food is finished, he has always rarely spoken to people, there are probably many people in the porridge shop, it is very noisy, the side dishes are too neatly stacked, Bei Bei can only eat in order, otherwise the bottom one will be removed, and the top one will fall off and fall out of the plate.

She looked down on this beautiful man a little, and thought to herself what a door-picking guy. She began to look for the brands of his clothes, and took a closer look, although Bei Bei didn't know a few, she also knew that he really had some big brands with a lot of value, and the most valuable thing was his shiny watch.

"What a table is this, so beautiful. Bei Bei pointed to his wrist and asked curiously.

The man put down the spoon and touched the watch, and seemed very proud, and he said a strange name, which Bei Bei had never heard: "This is a gift from a friend of mine, almost 30,000!"

The girl lowered her head and thought about it, it was a little strange, she couldn't think of any friend who could give someone a watch of 30,000 yuan, a small worker who could only write some articles, had no wealth and no power, what friend was so generous and gave a watch of 30,000 yuan?

"A female friend. He seemed to see Beibei's doubts, and explained it in particular, or showed off. He said that although they were female friends, they had an incomparably innocent friendship, but the friendship was too strong for her to give him this 30,000 yuan watch.

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"Let's take a taxi back! Don't take the car, and then you take a taxi and go home." Bebe shuddered at the suggestion, and when she came out of the restaurant, the air cold seemed to be more intense, blowing through the bones and directly into her heart.

"It's still time, I'll take you home, and I'll go back to the station. As he spoke, he tightened the hat of his down jacket and got ready.

"My family has to walk three stops!" said Beibei, somewhat reluctantly.

"It's okay, I can walk in half an hour. ”

"Don't, you're letting someone snatch the watch. ”

Hearing Bei Bei say this, the man seemed to think about it, he raised his arm and stuffed the watch into the cuff vigorously: "Okay, it's okay." He looked at the girl so proudly that everything was in order, and no one could see that he had brought a watch of more than 30,000 yuan.

"Then you can take the car yourself! I want to take a taxi. Bei Bei lowered her face, turned around and left.

"Oh, don't take a taxi, why can't you pass it like this!" Chen Xiaodong grabbed the girl's arm without getting angry, and scolded him angrily.

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Lexin's baby was born, this is really a winter without playing, on the fourth day, the little princess was diagnosed with congenital heart disease, and there is a hole in the heart that should not be there, and the heart that was originally very well sealed becomes extended, and venous blood and arterial blood will be fused in the heart.

Bei Bei called Qin Tian again, because of the huge self-blame in her heart, after the child was diagnosed, she asked herself more than once, if she told Qin Tian's words to Le Xin, maybe it wouldn't be like this.

"Little Ben, listen to me, in a situation like Lexin, even if you tell her, she may not be able to kill the child, she will be worried that she will not be able to get pregnant again in the future, and she will definitely take this risk. Qin Tian anxiously comforted, he was very careful with his words, hoping that she would feel more comfortable, but that didn't have much effect. Bei Bei always accepts it sometimes, sometimes it doesn't, there is no why, there is no can't, there is no reason, she will change her mind. She always thought that maybe she said it herself, and maybe Le Xin would have a chance to change her mind, and soon she began to lose sleep again.

After that, Qin Tian would call her every day to ask if she was feeling better, he tried to find a new way for her to let go of this matter, but it was still not easy, the two of them were always entangled in this topic, Bei Bei was not easy to trust others, she was always denying herself, she liked to think for herself, so Qin Tian would always be overwhelmed.