No shame on you
Maybe it's almost the New Year, and although it's very cold, the retro smell on the street is still strong. Old-fashioned things are hung everywhere, and no matter how new they are, they are all dirty stuff. Peng Cheng called and asked Bei Bei to go to the hospital in the provincial capital to see him, and he said that the sooner the better.
"What are you doing in the hospital?"
"Daughter-in-law, I'm going to go in for surgery right away, come on! ”
"What surgery do you do?"
"You come first! Call me when you arrive, and remember to call me. ”
That's all he said, and he told her to come quickly, she didn't want to go, but he begged her in the hospital, and that was begging her, right? She couldn't help but feel that it was a plea, and she became powerless for it.
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In this provincial capital, the urban area is much more prosperous than the city where Bei Bei is located. The road is also wider, full of overpasses and worryingly tall buildings, more than 30 kilometers from her home, almost as far as Peng Cheng came to see her.
She sat alone at the back of the intercity bus, looking at this beautiful modern city, a little dazed. She doesn't go out often, she doesn't like too many people, but there are people everywhere, she sits stiffly, this city makes her so strange that her body hurts, that's nervous.
The children who are further away have gone to Beijing and Shanghai, or some have gone further abroad, and the rest still have some itchy inner skills, and they can't go too far, so they came here.
The hospital Peng Cheng said is a state-level hospital, and it is a well-known good hospital in this province and even in the three eastern provinces. Many of the people the girl knew had to come here for a check-up before she could be sure that she was indeed terminally ill, which made Bei Bei feel that the place shuddered.
The car she took took went around the hospital before driving in, and the driver told her that this was not to make more money, this is the rule of this hospital.
Peng Cheng kept talking on the phone along the way, and he called once every three and a half minutes, and he asked Bei Bei where he was.
"Daughter-in-law, you can take a taxi when you get to the train station, call me first and then take a taxi. He said that, I don't know why, he had to say that.
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After getting out of the taxi, the anxious driver ran away, and the girl stood in a large open space in front of the hospital, where the wind was stirring in all directions, and her hair was curled.
Bei Bei was a little blind, the towering building of the hospital was like an office building, high in the sky, on the distant spire, the windows had already been counted, the girl looked up, only felt dizzy for a while, and fell backwards, how many patients did this have to be loaded.
The gate is full of people, the floor-to-ceiling windows with glass covers, hanging heavy cotton curtains in army green, opening the curtains and pushing the doors, people pushing back and forth are pushing flat cars, some have people on them, some have not. It was the first time she had come here, and she had listened to him before taking a taxi and had contacted Peng Cheng, and Bei Bei remembered that he said, "Okay, I'll pick you up downstairs." But now, she didn't see him.
"Daughter-in-law, where are you?" Peng Cheng called again, and he asked her anxiously.
It was too cold, and Bei Bei stood on top of the empty and huge clearing, still in a daze. She waited firmly at the door for Peng Cheng to pick her up, motionless, although so many people cowered and ran into the hospital, she didn't think that Peng Cheng might not be able to get out. She was like someone looking at another world, she watched the people around her run in and out, they all looked at her, the wind was more energetic, and she felt the pain on her face.
"I'm at the door, where are you?" The fat girl pinched her mobile phone, looking at the sky like a contrived heroine in a TV series, like a blind person, she couldn't find anything in this strange place.
"I just came back from the door, I didn't see you!" Peng Cheng's voice sounded more anxious.
"But I'm really at the door. The girl said with some grievances.
"Well, I see you. "Xu really saw it!" Peng Cheng said suddenly.
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Just now, the door in and out opened again, Peng Cheng was wearing a plaid patient gown, draped in a dark down coat on his body, he seemed to be squeezed out of the heavy cotton curtain, as soon as he saw her person, his brows were lowered, and the person was relaxed.
He was still unusually emaciated, his legs looming in his trousers, and his snow-white flesh peeking out of his neck, and he beckoned to Beibei, motioning for her to come quickly. He leaned out and took two steps out, seeing that Bei Bei was still stupid and didn't move, he said, "Daughter-in-law, come here, I'm a little cold." ”
Peng Cheng's voice was very bad, the urn was angry, it was not obvious on the phone, and it sounded much more vague now, or maybe Bei Bei saw the bandage on his mouth, so he felt that it was like swallowing dates.
The bandages had almost been removed, only the inside of his nose was stuffed with something she didn't know, it was so black that she couldn't see his face clearly, and the pile of things made his face look like a mutant from a science fiction movie.
"What's wrong with you?" Bei Bei said as she walked over, Xu was afraid, she was not walking fast, she looked at him, as if reluctantly, she took the hand he stretched out to her, and then looked at Peng Cheng's face and opened her mouth slightly with joy.
She wanted to back down, but she knew she couldn't now, Bei Bei met Peng Cheng's longing eyes: "You got that?"
Peng Cheng's cold hand tightened hard, and his thin white fingers pinched out a piece of pink mark because he was too hard, what he longed for may not be Beibei's stunned reaction, he may want to see her hug him gently, but this is good.
"Hmm!" he answered, staring straight into her eyes, his right hand clutching her arm tightly, the girl was in pain, but she didn't move.
"Why, why should I suffer this sin? ”
"Daughter-in-law, I want to one day, stand by your side, I won't embarrass you. ”
The wind blew his hair, this convulsion was the same wind, Peng Cheng's hair was in front of him, he subconsciously closed his eyes, this is a great opportunity, otherwise how would the two of them face Peng Cheng's words.
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The young man was a little unsteady on his feet, he had only undergone surgery yesterday, he was obviously still very weak, he shook his body and said, "Let's go upstairs, I have a little pain, I want to lie down." ”
Bei Bei hurriedly reached out to support him, he shook his head, and lifted the placket of the plaid patient gown, revealing a snow-white belly, and an even more snow-white bandage on his ribs, which was blood-soaked red and very bright.
"A bone was cut from here. He said, looking at the girl's face, satisfied with her frightened response, and then timidly pulled down his clothes and pulled them lower.
His arm reached over and wrapped his arms around the girl's waist, and Bebe hurriedly reached out to support him. Peng Cheng dragged her arm, used all his strength to walk in the direction of the elevator, the steps were extremely difficult, and told Bei Bei as he walked, he said that his ward was on the fourteenth floor, and it was best not to follow anyone upstairs together, otherwise he would want to vomit as soon as the elevator opened and closed. Then he stood near the back of the elevator in front of the large glass that reflected the figure, and turned, leaning against the glass, his lips white, and the shriveled flesh like a burnt plastic rod, and he tentatively let go of the girl's arm.
"Pull me, okay? She begged him, to hold his arm, or that way she wouldn't feel so much guilt for her absent-mindedness.
He didn't answer, Xu was in pain, he lowered his head, shook it hard, and struggled to look up at her, he said: "Daughter-in-law, I'm all because of you, because of ......" The elevator started suddenly, and even God didn't want to give him a chance, Peng Cheng closed his eyes tightly, and when it came to his mouth, he didn't say it.
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The elevator went smoothly to the fourteenth floor, and no one stopped the elevator in the middle, which is really good, Peng Cheng raised his head, as if he had survived the catastrophe, he pulled the corners of his mouth slightly, pulled Beibei's hand, and the other hand still insisted on holding her waist, he may feel that if it is a man, he should hug the girl next to him.
The elevator door suddenly opened, and Bei Bei subconsciously looked out, although Peng Cheng dragged her, she still looked outside first, so her eyes were full of colorful pictures. Those were really more attractive, Beibei's eyes were tugged, and the tears and sympathy that she almost contained in her eyes were taken away in an instant, and she couldn't take her eyes off her anymore.
Starting from the elevator room, this floor, probably full of patients like him, Bei Bei looked at the posters on the wall, those faces that were damaged by God, in the simple and beautiful eyes, many of them were smiling, as if they were about to tear apart, and the frustration made her unable to move.
Peng Cheng pulled her and walked out quickly, he swallowed his saliva in pain, he probably didn't want her to see more of this, so he kept talking, he was already very difficult to speak, and he had to escape faster.
"Daughter-in-law, I got off the operating table by myself yesterday. ”
Bei Bei subconsciously retracted her gaze, and when she looked at him, although her body subconsciously dodged, he was still relieved.
"No!" she swallowed raw, but not because of what he said, she could still see his face, the scar on his face, maybe no one else could see it, but she could.
"You go to the ward and ask the people there, and they're all stupid when they see me walking back by myself. He was sweaty and looked proud, so he smiled at her, his eyes followed the changes in her face, and it seemed not easy to step off the operating table for the open-bone.
"Then why do you have to walk down by yourself. "It's such a useless word, I've waited so long that Peng Cheng is almost about to call her. He held out a hand and shook his head, thinking that it was so painful that he could no longer speak.
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After turning a corner, I arrived at the ward, which was so crowded that the wards were full of patients, and all eight beds were filled with patients. Peng Cheng's return seemed to be in the spotlight like a hero, and the man on the bed was tightly wrapped in his whole head, and he raised his eldest mother and son to signal to Peng Cheng.
Peng Cheng didn't say anything, just raised his hand, as if he said hello, he lay down and covered himself with the quilt, and turned his head to look at Beibei: "Daughter-in-law, you come to me." He shifted to the middle so that Bebe sat on the edge of the bed, and he took her hand, rubbing his thumb back and forth against the back of the girl's hand, but it was far less reluctant than his greedy eyes.
"Daughter-in-law, I like you very much, do you know?"
He stared at her with attachment, and he said he liked her. All this is not too sudden for Beibei, but she really doesn't have time to think about it yet, she almost ignores Peng Cheng's love at this moment, the most beautiful love at this moment.
Even though she had never asked him, she knew that it was no ordinary scar, and it wasn't until she walked down the hallway that the impact of those pictures was so strong.
"I shouldn't have gone down today, the people in this room are all doing surgery, I am the heaviest, I have to cut a piece from the rib, but I said that I will pick you up when you come, and I have to go down halfway to death, not to mention that I know I can't die." ”
He was still greedy, staring at her, Bei Bei may not know what he was thinking, but Peng Cheng understood her. So she subconsciously wanted to withdraw her hand, but Peng Cheng clenched it tighter without backing down. He didn't say anything more involved, and perhaps he didn't think he had anything to say.
"Let's have a meal in a while, you go back again, you don't have to worry about anything, I see that I will be able to go home to find you in a few days, you wait for me at home, call me when you get home." ”
He looked at her, giving her no chance to prepare, and she nodded jerkily.
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Tossing upstairs and downstairs, Peng Cheng slept faster than Bei Bei left, and they didn't go to dinner, although he took her by the hand and said again and again, he didn't listen to anyone's persuasion.
Bei Bei didn't know the people around, Peng Cheng said that she didn't need to know those people, she just looked at him, he said that he had to sleep for a while: "Fifteen minutes, okay? Daughter-in-law, fifteen minutes, you wake me up." ”
No one could screw the patient lying on the bed, Bei Bei kept nodding, nodding like pounding garlic, and then Peng Cheng really fell asleep.
Peng Cheng's aunt, the woman who sent the fossil sent Bei Bei back, they didn't say a word all the way, finally, Bei Bei arrived home, before getting out of the car, his aunt said: "Wen Beibei." ”
"Huh?" the river fished, and Bebe turned her head sideways to look at her. Auntie took off her glasses, she was indeed amazingly beautiful, like an oil painting. She prefers this dark lipstick, which makes her clear skin even more enviable.
"My nephew, do you like him?"
It seemed to be a soft question, she opened her mouth to ask, and Bebe felt her mouth moving, but the voice that was not right for her to speak, was her hearing half a beat slower?
"If you don't like him, don't hurt him. She seemed to understand, and slightly curled the corners of her mouth, is that a smile?
Then she said, "My nephew, hey." ”