"After I went, Zhao Xun did give me 100,000 yuan, but he asked to do that, and I refused at the time, but in the end I didn't stick to it.

I have a demon in my heart who tells me that there is already a first time, and even if there is a second time, it doesn't matter.

I know that there is no such thing as a demon, that demon is actually me.

I left Xue Meng's house, and I regretted and blamed myself again.

But I kept doing it over and over again.

Every time he came to me, I refused, but I couldn't hold on, and after it happened, I reminded myself that I would never say yes again next time.

I started to doubt myself, I felt like I was a bad woman at heart.

I've always felt like a good wife and a good mother, but these are what I see from your eyes, and I don't see my true self at all.

I thought about it, I'm insatiable.

In the beginning, my pursuit was to find a husband who was sincere to me, and then I found that you are the best person in my heart, and for so many years, you have always met the best standards in my heart, and I have time for my pursuit.

But at this time, although I have you, I have no pursuit.

I was very unwilling, I felt that my life should not be spent in the ordinary.

I'm not willing to let myself have no expectations, and I want to pursue it again.

It was at this time that the demon in my heart, the real me, appeared.

But I've been playing the role I'm supposed to play, the role of a good wife and mother.

But Zhao Xun appeared, and he easily made the real me the master of my body.

I'm sorry, I'm really sorry......

I understand that no matter how much I say sorry, it won't help, it's me who betrayed you and betrayed this family.

I'm not saying this to justify anything, I want to tell you that although you hate Zhao Xun very much, he is indeed not a good person, but in this matter, he only induced me at most, and the real fault is me, I ruined myself step by step, ruined our home, you should hate me.

The reason why I chose to divorce is not because I plan to marry Zhao Xun at all.

Because all along, I never thought of marrying him, to be exact, I never had a trace of affection for him.

Between him and me, it's just taking advantage of each other.

I'm just tired of that kind of plain life, so I go for the pleasure of cheating.

If I marry Zhao Xun, my life will only go from one pool of stagnant water to another.

Although I understand the truth, I just can't overcome the desire in my heart.

I'm just an ordinary person, and in the struggle with desire, I'm a lost mess.

Every time I did that with him, I felt the urge to kill him.

I don't lie to you, I really want to kill him.

However, when I thought of you and Xiao Ke, I didn't dare to do it.

I can't bear you!

And, even if I kill him, what happened to me and him will still be known, and you will still be hurt.

I've always hoped you didn't know about it, but I also know that it's just me lying to myself, and one day, you'll find out.

Please let me call you husband again, I really don't want to see you hurt, so you must not go to Zhao Xun, Xiao Ke can lose me, but she can't lose you.

If something happens to you, I don't know what to say to her.

Her life will be spent in the dark.

Every time I think about it, I feel terrified.

Now, Xiao Ke is sleeping next to me, and as long as I see her innocent face, I feel uncomfortable.

Please, husband, don't do things that hurt yourself, it's not worth it for me.

You sleep in the living room, only a few meters away from me, but I feel like there is an abyss between us, and I can't leap over it.

I hope that these things don't happen and that we can still be as loving as we used to.

But I knew that it had already happened, and there was no possibility of doing it all over again.

I don't know how you found out about it, but I'm sure you found something when you came back from that stockpile.

For so many years, I know you more than I know myself, you are very sensitive, and you don't hide your emotions at all.

When I noticed a change in your attitude, I knew that you must know something.

I wanted to say it in front of you several times and ask for your forgiveness, but I didn't dare, I was afraid that you wouldn't forgive me.

I'm such a hopeless person, I'm going to ruin your love for me and hurt you so badly!

Husband, I hope you can forget about me.

You are a good man, you have a bright future ahead of you, and I sincerely hope that you can find it again and have happiness. ”

Finally, the recording ended completely, and Zhao Mengya's voice did not come out again.

Gu Xiaobei still maintained that posture and remained motionless.

By this time, his heart was full of mixed feelings.

It's really ironic, the reason why Zhao Mengya cheated was because she was too fond of her.

Moreover, for so many years, I have never understood my wife, Zhao Mengya's usual image is actually disguised, but the real her is so crazy.

"Hehehe......"

Gu Xiaobei suddenly laughed, but he felt that his laughter was worse than crying.

It turns out that I've always been stupid, stupid and don't know anything.

From childhood to adulthood, he has been a very simple person, he has been straight to the point no matter what he says and does, and he never beats around the bush.

In his opinion, others should be like this.

In the face of his beloved Zhao Mengya, Gu Xiaobei did everything he could, he felt that he should do this, this was his obligation.

However, all this is just a bubble, a bubble that bursts when you poke it.

I'm just living in an ideal world that I've built.

And Zhao Mengya, who has known and loved each other for so many years, she doesn't want to be as simple as she has in her mind.

I only saw a part of her, just the tip of the iceberg.

I don't know how long it took, Gu Xiaobei finally came to his senses again, he let out a long sigh and turned off the computer.

In his mind, he repeated what Zhao Mengya said: It was you and me who were wrong, and Zhao Xun didn't do anything wrong.

No way!

Zhao Xun was wrong, he was very wrong!

Because it was he who ruined his marriage, destroyed his family, and gave himself a green hat that he could never take off.

Gu Xiaobei stood up, a pair of fists clenched.

"Zhao Xun, between you and me, we don't share the sky!"

Gu Xiaobei gritted his teeth and muttered to himself.