"The environment of that small hotel is really bad, I don't have hot water for bathing.

But this is nothing, the most annoying thing is that the sound insulation is even worse to the extreme, when I was lying in bed, the voice next door came without a word, and I was hot all over my body.

I covered my ears with my hands and got under the covers, but it didn't work, the woman's voice was very penetrating, and it all came through.

I wondered how involved they were, and how loud they were.

Then I noticed that there was a small hole in the wall between the two rooms, and a ray of light was shining through.

I didn't notice it when I turned on the light, but when I turned it off, the light became very obvious.

I didn't want to peek, but my body wouldn't listen to me, and I poked my eyes into the hole.

I was shocked, it was the first time I had seen such a scene!

All I felt was dizziness, and my mind was like a mess of porridge.

I knew it wasn't right for me to do that, but I couldn't control my body at all, so I just stayed there until the other side was over.

After turning off the lights on the other side, I still couldn't sleep, and this incident was completely imprinted in my heart, and the figures of those two people often flashed in front of my eyes, which made me confused.

After this incident, I felt that I had changed, and an inexplicable expectation appeared in my heart.

But I don't dare to think like that to you, because I know that you have always thought that I am innocent, and I don't want to ruin the way I look in your heart.

And you know, there was a time when you wanted me to mention something like that, and I wanted to say yes, but I refused.

I want to keep this mentality in my heart and wait for it to slowly fade away.

But in fact, instead of disappearing, it is getting stronger and stronger.

Until that time, Xue Meng asked me to go to his house, and it was on that day that Zhao Xun also appeared there.

Finally, the seed in my heart broke through the ground and irrepressibly controlled me.

At first, I thought it was all Zhao Xun's fault, but then I realized that it was me who was at fault.

Even if Zhao Xun didn't appear at that time, sooner or later there would be Zhang Xun, and Li Xun made the seed in my heart appear in its original form.

Because it is buried deep in my heart, waiting for the day when it will break through the ground.

I'm really sorry, I've always wanted to be a good wife, but I'm going further and further down this road. ”

At this point, the sound stopped.

Gu Xiaobei held his head in both hands, and the whole person curled up together.

It turned out that everything was because he loved her too much and cared too much about her image in his heart.

If she had taken the initiative when she made this request that time, and let herself be the one who tapped the seed in her heart, perhaps, these things would not have happened.

Gu Xiaobei rushed to endless remorse, he was so busy with work that he didn't notice the change in Zhao Mengya's mentality at all.

Zhao Mengya's voice sounded again after a pause.

"That time I talked about the first time with Zhao Xun, that time, I saw Zhao Xun and Xue Meng doing that, but I didn't see it secretly, but they deliberately showed it to me in front of me.

My first instinct was to leave, but my body was once again uncontrollable, even watching their every movement.

Slowly, I hallucinated, I began to stop rejecting, and slowly tried to accept it, and even I felt that it was not Xue Meng who was doing with Zhao Xun, but myself.

And then the rest of it, believe me, needless to say, you know what's going on.

I regretted it, and I didn't know afterwards why I did it.

I have a family and family that others envy, my husband loves me so much, and my daughter is so lovely.

I have such a good life, I can't understand why I would do something like that!

I always wanted to forget that day, but the image of that time lingered in my mind.

The first time I saw Zhao Xun, I should have known that this person was not a good thing.

When he came to the clothing store to buy clothes, I shouldn't have bothered with him at all, but I played with him because of the business in the store, which made him even more unscrupulous.

I miss our past, we have been together for so many years, from the first meeting, to acquaintance, to love, we have not stopped in the face of many obstacles.

We have been questioned by others, suppressed by life, and patronized by poverty, but we have survived to have the life we have today.

I've always been content when I want to say it, and even though you won't say anything sensual, I've always known how much you love me.

For this kind of life, many people can't envy it, but I feel some irritability, that irritability is in my body, I want to clean it up, but I can't find a way to clean it up.

Until that seed appears, takes root, and sprouts!

That day, when I walked out of Xue Meng's house, I gradually came back to my senses, and I realized that I had done something that you can't forgive.

I couldn't believe I had done something like that, and at the same time, I was scared, I was afraid you would know.

When I got home, I rinsed in the bathroom for a full two hours, and I wanted to clean every place on my body that Zhao Xun touched.

However, there are some things that are destined to be washed away.

I'm so weak that I'm afraid you'll see something, but luckily, you don't notice anything.

But I know that I have become different from what I used to be.

At that time, I vowed not to meet Zhao Xun again, and even Xue Meng, I would stay away.

This secret will be buried deep in my heart until I die.

In that case, in your heart, I will still be me.

But two days later, Xue Meng called me.

I didn't want to answer, but she kept calling, and I couldn't help it, so I answered the phone.

After answering the phone, I told her directly not to call me again, I didn't want to have any more contact with her.

But Xue Meng told me that everything that happened that day was recorded, and if I didn't go to her, you would see the video of that day.

At that moment, I was terrified.

Xue Meng told me that if I went to her house, you wouldn't be able to see the video, and Zhao Xun would give me 100,000 yuan as compensation for that day.

You know, but the sound of the clothing store is not very good, and I thought to myself, it has happened, and I deserve the 100,000 yuan.

I felt that something bad might happen when I went, but I just went. ”