Chapter 9: Humility

Su Xia didn't understand what the problem was, when it started......

In the dead of night, looking at the images, last year's family portrait of two people slammed into their son's face one left and one right, and their round faces were deformed, and their faces were full of flowers......

Browsing through the past messages: "Daughter-in-law, I miss you", "Marrying you is really a blessing for my life", "Don't worry, with my husband, we will get better and better"......

Reminiscing about the bits and pieces of the journey, falling in love, getting married, getting pregnant, having children, changing houses, ...... Maldives, Hawaii, Xiamen, Yunnan...... Too many footprints and memories to walk......

So clear, so real, like yesterday......

Su Xia's tears ticked down, wetting the corners of her clothes and soaking the air......

As time passed, Su Xia continued to dilute the resentment and incomprehension in her heart, and she didn't know where to look for the answers to her questions.

The gardenia on the balcony bloomed, the pale white petals looming, stretching their wings slightly like a butterfly, poking their heads straight and hard, and blooming proudly little by little. The breeze is blowing, and the faint fragrance spreads. Su Xia stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window and looked forward, the sky was still so blue, and the clouds were still so white. She found the answer in her heart, she loves this family, she still loves him so much, loves her son, loves every table, chair, grass and tree in the house...... In the 120-square-meter space, every corner condenses memories, and every grain of dust fills the breath of home.

This family can't be said to be scattered, this is the ending and life trajectory that Su Xia did not expect. She can't just give up, she doesn't want to give up like this! Now there are some problems in this home, and to solve them, it is like a machine that needs to be repaired for a long time.

Letting go of resentment, only Su Xia, who was unwilling and missing, made unanswered calls over and over again, sent messages that were lost in the sea, and even wrote out the bits and pieces of the once sweet past one by one to edit the messages and send them to the past, and even begged to go home pitifully and humbly. It turns out that this is just a person's heartache and hard to let go, and for Chen Xuan, who is at the peak of his cheating hormones, it is just a garbage for harassment and a catalyst for feeling better about himself.

The final result was that Chen Xuan blocked all Su Xia's WeChat and phone calls, and he could no longer be contacted. In addition to the address of the unit, Su Xia found that the relationship of ten years had become a stranger like this. Of course, Su Xia will not go to the unit to find it, will not go to the unit to make trouble, will not find the leader, will not contact his colleagues, this is the dignity that Su Xia left to himself, but also the face left for him, and it is also a retreat for their marriage, and until the last step, things cannot be allowed to develop to the point of no return.

In the early morning of the weekend, in insomnia, dreaming, and intermittent sleep, the location of the mobile phone suddenly showed that Chen Xuan was in the Rongsheng Community in Heping District, Tianjin. Unable to find the exit, Su Xia, who was almost crazy, decided to go to him and ask him for an explanation, even if he chased him to the ends of the earth!

Xibao was arranged early in the morning, and chased all the way by train, taxi, and foot to the positioning community. Looking and wandering around the community, looking for a parking lot, but not finding a car; In the located building, there was no harvest from sweeping the building up and down, and in the end I had to hope for the "catch of the traitor" at the gate of the community. The weather in April was cold, Su Xia was shivering in thin clothes, his hands were clasped around his chest, pacing back and forth, his tired but concentrated eyes were staring at one direction - the entrance and exit of the community gate, staring at every vehicle and every person entering and leaving. She even thought that if she found her car, she would sprint at a speed of 100 meters, even if she lost her life at the bottom of the wheel. After wandering all day, the positioning display was close at hand, but nothing was found. Except for the positioning mark flickering, not even Chen Xuan's shadow was seen.

When faced with men's derailment and betrayal, too many people tell women who are deeply involved to pack their luggage and mood in a particularly productive way, just leave, and break off, but in the real world, the other party's cheating cannot be predicted in advance, and it is not ready to be mentally prepared at any time.

On the night she returned, Su Xia was bedridden with a high fever.

Sister Su Yu made a video call. "Su Xia, what are you doing?"

Su Xia and Su Yu are only two years apart, but their personalities are very different. Su Yu has a strong appearance, an easy-going personality, a boyish temperament, and a big grin, and has always called Su Xia by his name. Su Xia is weak in appearance and introverted. Since the two of them went to school together and were bullied, Su Xia, who had a delicate appearance, always hid behind, and it was Su Yu who rushed to the front, and in some ways she was more like a sister.

Except for her mother-in-law Jin Yahui, Su Xia did not tell anyone about it, including her parents and Su Yu. Therefore, Su Yu didn't know much about Su Xia's recent situation.

After a day's hard work and the sadness of illness, the moment he heard Su Yu's voice, Su Xia's strength collapsed, and he could no longer suppress it, and tears full of sadness and grievances poured out like bursting the embankment.

"Hey, what's wrong with you? Don't cry! "Su Yu saw Su Xia over there, looking haggard after a long time, and he was anxious." What about Xibao? ”

"At Grandma's house."

Seeing that Su Xia was still crying bitterly, tears poured down her already thin face, and Su Yu suddenly became confused.

"Don't cry yet! What the hell is wrong with you? Su Yu shouted hurriedly.

"Chen Xuan cheated, he didn't go home anymore, and now he has a fever and is uncomfortable......" whimpered and said intermittently.

"Ahh What the! Don't cry, don't cry, I'll go now. Su Yu immediately hung up the communication.

About forty minutes later, Su Yu appeared at Su Xia's house. After graduating with a master's degree, Su Yu gave up studying for a doctorate and directly chose to stay in the imperial capital to work, and later settled down and bought a home. The area of the imperial capital is too vast, her house and Su Xia's house are one west and one east, at least nearly an hour's drive away from usual. It's only forty minutes away today, so I should be in a hurry.

She used the spare key of Su Xia's house that she had kept to open the door lock, kicked the fisherman's shoes on her feet and threw them directly at the door, and walked to Su Xia's bedroom in three steps and two steps.

"When did Chen Xuan cheat?! Why don't you say such a big thing! Su Yu asked aggressively.

Su Xia was even more aggrieved, with tears in her eyes but couldn't say a word.

I saw Su Xia's face sallow, her hair was messy, and she was extremely weak and sick lying crookedly on the bed, looking very uncomfortable, as if she didn't even have the strength to say a word, Su Yu suddenly felt distressed, no longer questioned, brought water, and brought antipyretic pastes.

"Here, take a sip of water. Did you eat at night? ”

"Nope." It's not just that I didn't eat at night, but I didn't eat for a day. When I got home, I just ate a bite of an apple.

"How can I take medicine without eating, what do I want to eat? If you have a fever, make a bowl of clear soup noodles and eat it. ”

"Okay." Su Xia responded weakly.

Su Yu began to get busy, and twenty minutes later, Su Xia ate a warm clear soup noodle. After the mood calmed down, the person was resurrected, and slowly told Su Yu about Chen Xuan's derailment, including following him to Tianjin today and running all day.

"Why are you so stupid!" Su Yu said extremely angrily. "It's all like this, what are you looking for him!" Su Yu was angry, feeling sorry for her sister and angry with her.

"But you can't say that your home is gone." Su Xia suppressed the tears that gushed out again, and rubbed her hands together unnaturally. She wasn't sure if it was right or wrong.

"Why don't you tell your family about such a big thing! I can help you. ”

"Anyway, don't you also want you to get angry in a hurry, and besides, our dad's temper won't explode when I hear it, and I dare to come over with a knife." Yes, Su Xia has been Su Guangchen's pearl since she was a child, perhaps because of her first child, and in the words of her mother Xia Qin, Su Xia had big eyelids when she was a child, and a pair of big and watery eyes could speak. Su Guangchen had a stubborn temper that admits death and is not afraid of heaven and earth, knowing that his daughter is so wronged, he will definitely be able to find Chen Xuan to play with his life.

"Don't tell your parents!" Su Xia said to Su Yu with a tone of threat and order, Su Yu has always been fond of making small reports.

"Okay, got it!" Su Yu said quietly. "That can't be like that! I'll go to his unit tomorrow, if you don't go to me, I'll see what kind of face he has! Su Yu's words were fierce, and he looked angry for his sister. Just like Su Xia was often bullied by male classmates when she was a child, Su Yu jumped out to fight with boys to protect her.

"Why bother, why do you have to come this far, there is no need. If you don't plan to break up this home, it's not for nothing to let others laugh at you. If you have to break up in the end, then it's good to get together and disperse. Susha stopped.

"Hey, you just love him too much."

Yes, when love became a person's weakness, she became a madman who was humbled to the dust.