Chapter 36 The suffering experienced will turn into unforgivable hatred

It has been almost half a year since the official divorce procedures, and Chen Xuan has almost not heard from him, just like a certain Friday night when he left home, the number of times he saw his son Xibao in a year was even counted on one hand, Chen Xuan's phone suddenly rang like an unfamiliar number that he hadn't met for a long time.

"On the weekend I want to see Xibao and take him out for a day." In addition to the constant accusations and abuse, Chen Xuan, who had not been in contact for a long time, suddenly appeared.

"Okay." Although Su Xia doesn't need Chen Xuan to take care of his son at all now, he runs around cram school all day on weekends, and arranges rich weekend entertainment for Xibao all day, which is extremely tired, but Su Xia is not tired, his heart is already completely independent, full, and not dependent, and he has a deep curse for not fulfilling his father's duties without contacting him for a year, but Su Xia understands that his son Xibao is extremely eager for father's love and misses his father, so Su Xia will not stop him at all, and will even try his best to cooperate.

"Okay, thank you."

"Sunday, I'll move all classes to Saturday."

"I'll pick up at nine o'clock that Sunday morning?"

Susha did not reply, that is, the meaning of acquiescence.

After a while, the message rang out again. "Let's be together, my son wants us to be together. Then we have a meal together in the evening, and you invite your mother and daughter to a big meal. ”

Wish we were together?! Why did you go earlier, Su Xia smiled coldly, sneered, and almost blurted out, restraining all the impulses to be reasonable, and only replied with two words: "Don't go." ”

I woke up on Sunday morning with a clear blue sky and a sunny day.

Son Xibao learned in advance that he was going to go out with his father today, and he was extremely excited and excited.

"Mom, look at this picture I painted." Xi Bao held his work and ran to the kitchen to show it to Su Xia.

I saw that under a big sun above, there were two little people, one big and one small, and there was a gate next to them.

Xibao pointed to the big little man, "This is Dad, this is me." ”

"Well, that's good. But what about mom, why don't you have a mom? ”

"Anyway, you won't play with me and my dad, why draw you." The son replied confidently.

"Why don't you go?" Su Xia asked tentatively.

"Because you hate Dad, every time you call you, you don't go, I think you don't like Dad." God, such a young child has seen through everything, even if he doesn't understand the meaning of divorce, but the relationship between his parents and his parents, likes and dislikes can't escape his careful thoughts.

Su Xia clearly remembered that when Xibao was four years old, they went to an ancient town in the south of the Yangtze River together, and his son pointed to a mural on the wall and said to Su Xia and Chen Xuan: "This is Mom and Dad!" I saw that the mural was a picture of two big, one small and three cartoon rabbits pushing open the window, and the father and mother of the rabbit were smiling and hugging each other through an antique open window, and a little rabbit stood in the middle.

"Why?" Susha asked.

"Because Dad often kisses you, our family is like this." Su Xia and Chen Xuan laughed.

Chen Xuan shook Xi Bao who was riding on his neck, and Xi Bao also laughed with Quack, and the family of three was intoxicated by the picturesque scenery of the water town.

Nowadays, things are wrong, and they are no longer loving parents in the eyes of their children.

"Xibao, that's not, mom has a lot of housework to do at home, and she has gone to play, who will work."

"Every time you say that, Dad says you're playing with your phone to be lazy at home."

"Bastard, clean nonsense." Su Xia thought to herself. "And do you want your mother to be with you?"

"Of course! I think Mom and Dad are together, it's been a long time since I've been together. ”

"Okay, I'll think about it." Hey, of course Su Xia understands the child's mind, every child longs for the affection and love of his father and mother, and he leads his father on the left and his mother on the right to sway in the scenery.

This was also Su Xia's daily life. But at this point, pretending to be a loving couple can't do it, can't say bad things about Chen Xuan, won't present the real situation in front of the children, but can't do it without dead ends from the inside out.

After breakfast, getting dressed, and at nine o'clock, there was a knock on the door.

"It's Daddy!" Xibao rushed to the door.

"Hi son." Chen Xuan greeted his son with a smile on his face.

The son ran over, and then saw Chen Xuan, turned around and turned back, picking up the painting that had already been prepared in the living room.

"Dad, I'll give you a gift."

"Oh, thank you, son. Is this what you drew Daddy and you? ”

"Yes."

"Yummy! Dad loved it. Chen Xuan stood at the entrance and communicated with Xibao.

"Dad, you come in, I still have a gift." As he spoke, he held his father by hand.

Chen Xuan glanced at Su Xia who was wiping this and that in the living room with his eyes, he knew that Su Xia was extremely disgusted to go into the house directly with shoes, even if he took a step, and asked Su Xia with his eyes if he had slippers.

Su Xia avoided it directly, and said without any expression on his face: "Go in directly, you don't need to change." ”

Su Xia would rather drag it all over the place than waste a pair of guest slippers, he doesn't deserve it.

Although he has completely let go of this relationship and has not had the slightest remorse for giving up his marriage, it would be a lie to say that there is not the slightest resentment. How can a person who has been in love for ten years suddenly betray and forgive easily, and how can a person who has broken up his hard-working family turn around and shake hands and say that he is a friend...... All the suffering experienced has turned into unforgivable hatred!

Chen Xuan was staggered in by Xibao, but only walked to the dining table at the edge of the carpet in the living room. Due to the small living room area of the old house where Su Xia lives now, the entrance hall of more than one meter is a small dining table, and then the living room of the sofa is next to it, with an area of less than ten square meters. Su Xia also only put a small two-person sofa and a full-top bookshelf in this part, covered with carpets and some puff cushions, as a reading and study area with her son.

Chen Xuan looked around the room, I don't know if it was sad or happy, I don't know, it should be much more cramped and shabby than the big house his mother gave him. At this time, Su Xia extremely regretted telling Chen Xuan the address of his new home and promised him to come upstairs. It's not that I'm afraid of Chen Xuan's ridicule or pity, but that my good feelings have nothing to do with you, so it's like being spied on by a stranger.

Xibao ran into the bedroom, ran to his father's side, and secretly stuffed something into Chen Xuan's hand, Xibao said in a special whisper, leaned to his side and said, "Dad, this is for you, don't let your mother see it." But at a distance of less than two meters, Su Xia heard it clearly.

Chen Xuan also pretended to whisper: "What kind of good thing?" ”

"You open it and take a peek."

Chen Xuan opened his palm, it was a heart folded with art paper, a little crooked, but it was enough to see that it was a love heart, and it was written crookedly on it, "T0 Dad." ”

Chen Xuan clenched that love heart, leaned into his son's ear and said, "Great! ”

Xibao was overjoyed, as if he had received a great gift. We often say that parents' love for their children is selfless, and a child's love for their parents is not selfless, pure, true and unshakable!

"Then where do you want to go today?"

"Zoo!" He replied without thinking, perhaps having thought about it countless times in his little heart.

"Okay, let's go to the zoo then."

"I'm going to go skateboarding to that square." There is a large plaza at the south gate of the zoo, which is more attractive to younger children as they can play and watch the animals, which is 10,000 times more attractive than the playground.

"Then do you want Mom to go with you?" Chen Xuan secretly glanced at Su Xia and deliberately signaled to Xibao to communicate with Xibao.

Su Xia didn't care.

"Mom definitely won't go, not every time." Xi Bao replied with a little disappointment.

"You ask, how do you know if you don't ask, in case mom wants to be with us today." I don't know what medicine Chen Xuan took wrong today, before changing it, at this time, it should be Su Xia who put on the clothes that Xibao had prepared a long time ago and sent the two of them out.

"No, no." Su Xia replied lightly.

"Mom, come with us." I don't know what Chen Xuan secretly looked. Xibao ran over and pulled Susha's arm, which was wiping with a rag. "It's been a long time since you've been to the zoo with us, and other kids have mom and dad."

This sentence touched Su Xia, yes, other children have parents. Although Su Xia will explain all kinds of seemingly reasonable reasons every time, such as her mother doing housework at home, such as her mother being unwell, and having work to deal with...... It seems to protect the child from causing him harm, no matter what, and the result is that Mom and Dad are not with me.

Su Xia squatted down, held Xibao's arm with both hands, looked directly into Xibao's eyes, and asked word by word with great tenderness, "Do you especially want your mother to be with you?" ”

"Hmm!" Xibao nodded heavily, "I especially like Mom and Dad together!" ”

"Okay, then mom is with you. Hey, a bunch of chores can only be done at home. Su Xia said with a pretended grievance. Yes, the lies woven for children should be as complete as possible.

"Oh yes! Today is truly the luckiest day. This is the mantra of Xibao, but anyone who is a little happy says that it is the luckiest day. It's really lucky, it's been a reunion for a long time and six months.

"Mom, let's go!" As he spoke, he pulled Su Xia out the door.

"Mom has to change her clothes." Su Xia smiled and twisted in the direction of the bedroom. Xibao couldn't help but be happy when she was happy, and temporarily put aside her dissatisfaction and entanglement with Chen Xuan.

Su Xia walked into the bedroom, took off her loungewear, and changed into a set of navy blue slim sportswear, "Let's go." ”

The three of them went downstairs together and drove in the direction of the zoo.