In the balcony of Lin Jiangnan's house, the sun slowly walked eastward. I turned on my phone, and there were more than a dozen missed calls, all from my dad, after I left the house.

I felt guilty and made him worried.

I stared at the dozen or so missed calls, Lin Jiangnan asked me what I was thinking, and I said, "My mother didn't make a single call." ”

"Maybe she saw her uncle fighting, so she didn't fight."

"You're really thinking about everything."

He laughed, "I can't add fuel to the fire." ”

"Yes." I also felt that I was a bit silly when I said this, "I can only think about the good." ”

"Whether you think about the good or the bad, it's actually your own guess, it's better to talk to your aunt directly and ask."

"I don't want it." I shook my head decisively and put my phone on the coffee table, "Nothing to ask." ”

"Why don't you send a message? Tell your aunt what you want to say. The brain's reaction time is relatively short when language is output, and it is easy to be affected by the emotions of both sides of the conversation, causing it to deviate from the originally set route. Words are different, they can be considered, they can be modified, and they will be delivered more accurately and clearly than words. ”

"Really?"

"yes. Have you ever seen someone arguing? often quarreled until the end of the quarrel forgot because of something, the two went astray together, the more ruthless the words became, and the sesame big thing became a watermelon big. ”

I thought it made sense, but I still shook my head after thinking about it, "I'm very bad at writing." ”

He laughed: "This is different from composition, which is written when others ask you to write, and this is written about what you want to write." You don't have to worry about the style, you don't have to elevate your ideas, and you don't need to quote famous quotes or anything like that. ”

I looked out the window at the swaying branches, thinking about what I would write and say if I sent a message to my mom, and it seemed like it would feel so much better not to have to face her intimidating expression.

Lin Jiangnan poured out my cup of cold coffee and replaced it with a cup of hot tea. He sat down on the futon next to me again, blew on the hot tea, and didn't drink it, "I found some letters at my grandfather's house. ”

"What letter?"

"My parents wrote it to my grandfather."

I was a little puzzled, "They are not in the same city as your grandfather?" ”

"It's not. They have always lived in a city. It's a bit of a long story, so where to start? Lin Jiangnan held the teacup in his hand, looked up and thought for a moment, "Let's talk about my grandfather first." My grandfather was a university professor, and the intellectuals of that era were all impacted, and he was no exception, and the family had a very difficult time, but for my mother's training, it was still cultivated according to the route of a scholarly family and a lady's beauty, after all, it was such a daughter. According to my grandfather's plan, my mother should find a boy from an intellectual family to marry, the kind of research and academic, preferably in their university. ”

"It's so meticulously planned!" I said.

"Who's to say it isn't. My mother is a very well-protected person, and her living environment is relatively simple, she is quite well-behaved, and she will not run out of the circle planned by my grandfather. ”

"Ran out?"

"That's right! The run is particularly biased. Do you know what happened to my dad back then? Lin Jiangnan looked a little excited, put the tea aside, stretched out his finger and counted it with me: "My dad is an orphan, not to mention his family background, he doesn't even have a home; Educational qualifications are primary school; I had just come out of the detention center when I met my mother. ”

I really wanted to find a proper angle and simply make a three-to-five compliment without offending the other party's superior, but I couldn't figure out what to say.

"At that time, there were still many factions and organizations in that national movement, and my dad was a small leader at that time, because he smashed a leader's bicycle while fighting with other factions, so he was arrested and imprisoned for a few days. When I came out, I happened to meet my mother. My mother was sent to study in the local area at that time, and she had no friends, so she was alone every day, but she met bad people on the road. ”

"Heroes save beauty?"

Lin Jiangnan waved his hand, "This paragraph is actually nothing, after all, my dad just came out of the detention center, and his image at that time may be more like a bad person than a bad person." When my dad hit the bad guys, my mom ran away in fright. ”

I thought it was funny, and I couldn't help but lean closer to him, and put my hand on my chin in a listening gesture, "What about later?" ”

"What happened later was very dramatic." Lin Jiangnan took a sip of tea and moistened his throat, "After a few days, the leader who smashed the bicycle by him seems to have been found out something, I don't know what the specific thing is, anyway, he was charged with reaction." Then my dad smashed his bicycle and it was turned over again, so he was praised as a hero with a burning eye, saying that he had already seen that there was a problem with this leader, so he would smash the bicycle. Later, he began to give reports everywhere in the area. ”

We both laughed together.

"My mom met my dad again at a briefing. My dad was very handsome when he was young, he shaved his beard and washed his face, and he was dressed in clean and new clothes. Lin Jiangnan straightened his back, stroked his bangs, and made a blazing look, "Can you imagine the spiritual outlook of that era." ”

I nodded repeatedly.

"He was making a report there, and my mother looked down and recognized him, and found that she had been saved by such a hero that day, and she couldn't help but feel a little excited. As soon as the report was over, my mom went to my dad. ”

"Heroes of those days were more popular than celebrities today." I said.

"Well, you just imagine that you were saved by Guo Degang, that mood."

I waved my hand, "No, no, no, I can't imagine this." ”

Then my mom gave my dad a book, and my dad gave her a notebook with her thoughts on reading that book. Anyway, just going back and forth, the two fell in love. ”

"Didn't you say your dad graduated from elementary school?"

"I graduated from primary school because I can't afford to continue school, but my dad loves to read and has a good memory, and he is not the kind of person who is uneducated, otherwise how can he go around making reports."

"Yes."

"My mom studied there for half a year and came home with my dad. It was said that it was not possible at that time, and it was difficult to move an inch without the organization, but my father was also bold, so he followed my mother to Xi'an. Then my grandfather found out and fryed. ”

"And then?"

"I heard that my grandfather and my mother quarreled very fiercely at that time, and my grandmother couldn't persuade me, and the two were basically on the verge of severing their parents' relationship. My mom ran away from home and went to my dad and said that even if she didn't have a household registration book, no letter of introduction, and couldn't get married, she would still be with my dad. ”

"Your mother is so brave, your father must not be moved to death."

I don't know the specifics of this paragraph. Later, I read through the stack of letters from my father, who told my grandfather that his love for my mother was sincere and hot, but that he was willing to persuade my mother to come home. Lin Jiangnan narrowed his eyes and recalled, "The original words seem to be like this: 'Because love should not be selfish, it should abandon all distractions of control and possession, and make the loved one feel happy.'" ”

"Your dad is very good at talking, this is talking about your grandfather, right?"

"Actually, I think that's a bit of that. Later, my mother wrote a letter to my grandfather, saying that it is difficult to make everything as planned in life, and that some accidents happen when they happen, and all you can do is accept them. She didn't want to choose between family affection and love, and hoped that her grandfather would leave the answer to time. ”

"Your mom is pretty good at talking, too. Later, your grandfather accepted your father? ”

"After all, my dad is a 'hero'." Lin Jiangnan shrugged his shoulders, "My grandfather asked someone to get to know me in my father's hometown, maybe the prejudice is not so deep, and I didn't attach much importance to material things in that era." Plus those letters. He pointed at me, "That's really the point of my story. ”

I laughed.

"It's really not easy for me to get to the point." Lin Jiangnan took a breath, "I just want to give an example of writing if you don't have a chance to speak, or if you can't say something in person." No one will read a letter in a hurry, your mother may not listen to your words, but your mother will definitely read your letter carefully. ”

He said it very seriously and sincerely, so I nodded, put the teacup to my lips, and whispered, "I'll try." ”

"Are you hungry?" He asked me.

"A little bit."

"I'll cook you something to eat." He got up and went to the kitchen, took out the quick-frozen dumplings from the refrigerator, and then connected the phone to the Bluetooth speaker and handed it to me, "Find out what you want to hear." ”

I opened the music software on his phone, slid twice and saw a Li Zongsheng song list, so I clicked in, and the first song in the list was "Song for Myself", I hadn't heard it, but the name was very attractive to me.

What song will it be for yourself, for yourself? I'm curious.

If you want to get it, you can't help it, you can't give it up, you just care about talking nonsense with the past, and when you find out that time is a thief, it has already stolen your choice. Love is just a high fever, and longing is followed by a cough that can't be improved. It can't be forgiven, but it can't be stopped, hatred goes over the wall at night, it's empty but buzzing, who puts a cold gun in your heart......

I leaned against the kitchen door with a warm teacup and listened. Listening, he smiled with concern, it turns out that Li Zongsheng is also like this? Or has he already eaten through life but everything is changing, and this "Song for Myself" is for the listener to give the listener his own?

Before the song was finished, Lin Jiangnan pressed the stop button, "Your current state is not suitable for listening to Li Zongsheng." ”

"So what am I suitable to listen to?"

"I'll find it for you." Lin Jiangnan wiped his hands, took the phone and flipped it over, and then a very familiar melody came out of the Bluetooth speaker, and then, a high-pitched and loud female voice sang: "Good luck to wish you good luck, good luck brings joy and love, good luck comes to us, and prosperity leads to the four seas." ”

I choked on a sip of tea.

Lin Jiangnan stared at the dumplings in front of the stove, and sang along: "Stack a thousand paper cranes, and tie a red streamer...... I was stunned, and turned off the speaker with an arrow step, "Great Sage, you have received magical powers!" Don't sing. "I was lying on the cupboard coughing and laughing, and I couldn't breathe.

"Alright." He took out the dumplings and handed them to me, "Bring them over and eat them while they're hot." ”