"Girl, why did you come alone this time?" The doctor asked.

"Oh...!" Xiao Qi came back to his senses, "He... He's busy today... I didn't bother him, I remembered the location of the hospital, so I came by myself, ahaha..."

The doctor smiled kindly, "It's your boyfriend, right?" ”

The smile on her lips stopped, and the question came unexpectedly. Seeing this, the other party immediately changed his words: "No, friend, right?" Or brother? ”

She took a deep breath and said with the cheeky strength of lying without blushing in her life, "It's my boyfriend...!" ”

Hey, this girl is so happy that her whole heart is jumping up and down, as if she is cheering for this sweet lie.

The doctor looked at the knife wound on her arm again and again, all of which were deep and shallow, and too uncomfortable. He told the girl that there was no such thing as an ordinary person who would use a knife on him. "If you're feeling depressed for more than a week and can't get rid of it on your own, you need to pay attention to it while you're self-harming, which could be a precursor to depression."

Tong Xiaoqi lowered her head: "At the end of December last year, I was diagnosed with severe depression. ”

The doctor's expression changed slightly, and he looked at her. She answered: "I was dragged to a forced hospital for more than three months, during which I did not receive psychological counseling, and I have been treated with medication ......"

"It was the darkest three months of my life."

The girl wants to hide the scars of the hospitalization and show them to others.

The doctor shook his head a little distressed and asked, "Does your boyfriend know these actual situations of yours?" ”

She nodded, "Yes." ”

"You're really brave." The doctor crossed the tips of his fingers between his fingers, "The two of them can walk together, first of all, they must face up to the shortcomings of both sides, he accepts your disease, and chooses to face it with you." ”

Xiao Qi trembled and cast her gaze on the doctor's hand and then on the man's face, tears rolling in her eyes.

"Girl, depressed patients also have the right to choose to be with the person they like, but this kind of relationship is much more bumpy than the feelings of ordinary couples......"

She knows.

In such a relationship, the sick party will be saved by him, go to heaven, and be happy all his life; But if he is not careful, the sick side will also involve him, and both parties will fall into hell until they perish. ”

She knows it all.

The girl wanted to ask the doctor, but suddenly thought of something and swallowed the question back into her stomach: "I'm really sorry, will I delay your work if I tell my heart like this?" ”

The other party said that it was fine, and there were no patients to consult for the time being.

"What were you just going to ask me?" He asked.

Tong Xiaoqi scratched her head: "You said that in the process of getting along with the two, even if I am suffering from this disease, is there any way... How can it make the other person happy more often? ”

The doctor raised his eyebrows, and his expression quickly flattened: "Yes." "Since you're a couple, you can hug and kiss often, which has been proven medically and scientifically to not only promote affection, but also make both parties happy."

She didn't expect the doctor's answer to be so unexpected: "Yes, yes...?" ”

Xiao Qi's mind was still flowing casually, and because of the other party's answer, she was stuck in the word "kissing", and her heart was pounding. Speaking of hugging, she had it with him once, and the other party took the initiative. At that time, the girl felt that for the first time in her world, she was bathed in the light of day, very bright and thorough.

A doctor is a doctor, and he can explain the two romantic things of kissing and hugging in the most serious medical terms: "When you kiss, the pituitary gland secretes endorphins, which are natural analgesics. When kissing is more passionate, the more endorphins are secreted, which can effectively reduce physical pain and can also significantly reduce mental stress. ”

"When you feel depressed, want to cry, can't help yourself, or even have thoughts of self-harm, you can try to kiss the mouth or face of the subject." Speaking of this, the doctor rubbed his chin and glanced at the girl meaningfully, "Actually, you don't need to say too much about this, you can feel it, right?" ”

"Huh...?" Xiao Qi's ears were red, but he still decided to uphold a cheeky spirit of "lying to the end, without the slightest hesitation", and there was a sense of firmness in his mouth: "I... We... Haven't kissed yet, only hugged... Hey, hey, hey, hey. ”

"Oh?" The other party was a little surprised, "Then it seems that you should have just been together for a short time, right?" ”

"Hmm...!" She suppressed the turbulence in her heart caused by the feelings she liked - she hadn't lied about her emotions for a long time, it was really cool! As long as Ah Zhe doesn't know, her happiness of lying won't stop there!

Haha, it's a bit excessive, if Ah Zhe knew that she thought like this one day, she would be willing to be scolded.

They talked a lot.

The doctor talked about hugging, saying that it would also make people happy and forget their worries. "You know, in the cold knowledge of the sexes, hugging each other for 20 seconds, oxytocin is produced in the human body. This hormone will make the other person trust you more and like you. ”

Really. Xiaoqi hugged him that time, and there was an obvious sense of love and dependence in her heart, but she didn't say it with her mouth. But she didn't know what kind of feelings the man had in his heart when he hugged her.

Ah, a little more sentimental, maybe nothing.

"In addition to kissing and hugging, after marriage, couples can have proper sex/life to relieve stress......"

The girl felt that the topic had soared to a level of shame, and she hurriedly interrupted the doctor: "Ah... Ah, I know, I know, you don't have to go into details, and... Getting married is a long-term thing for me. ”

If Ah Zhe rejects herself one day, she has never met the one she likes and is suitable, and Xiaoqi will never come into contact with the lie of marriage for the rest of her life.

The doctor remained silent and said, "You will be fine at first, take your time, and you will always find a warm and comfortable place in each other's hearts to place yourself." "Falling in love has both advantages and disadvantages for your condition, and I hope you are getting better and better."

These are the most sincere wishes from doctors who have been exposed to psychology.

A warm current rushed through her heart, and Xiao Qi has always admired the profession of a doctor to save lives and help the wounded. Today, I was fortunate to have a lot of communication with the doctor, which soothed and encouraged his depressed mood.

is worthy of being a doctor, treating diseases and hearts, she admires these people even more.

I felt like I had been talking for a long time, and it was time for me to leave. The girl looked at the time, then at the doctor, and she slowly stood up and moved the barstool to the side without making a sound.

"Thank you so much for telling me so much about your valuable working hours!" She clasped her hands together, and she looked like she was grateful to people. She's not very serious about thanking people, and she's not used to being serious.

The other party smiled indifferently: "Although I am not a psychiatrist, I am very happy to be able to help you." ”……

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On the way back, Tong Xiaoqi looked at his mobile phone and noticed the message sent by Ah Zhe on WeChat half an hour ago, and he apologized vigorously.

"I'm lost... I took a nap in the afternoon, but I didn't expect to sleep until now, and I washed my face with cold water, and then I remembered that I was going to take you to the hospital to change the dressing today, Xiaoqi, are you free at this time?"

She suddenly felt that this man was undecently cute, and replied:

"It's okay, I went alone, the doctor removed the stitches, the wound is almost healed√ let you worry, you have a good rest."

Tetsu: "Then it's good to be as witty as you."

Zhe: "He didn't pay for the stitches, right?"

Qi: "No, the doctor said you paid it all at once, thank you so much!!"

Zhe: "Don't be so stupid in the future."

The girl closed her phone and held it tightly in her hands, as if she was determined to do something. Finally, she plucked up her courage and sent a "kiss" dynamic emoji to the other party - a villain hugged another villain's head and kissed passionately.

Xiaoqi snickered and closed her phone again, and put it in her pocket.

Soon, the man also came with news, the same meme, and an exaggerated big red lip bore the brunt.

Satisfied. Walking on the road, the girl's face was full of happiness, which was mixed with the girl's admiration for the person she loved, as if at the previous moment, she was the happiest girl in the world who confessed success to others.

*

When she went back to the hair salon, she was quickly scolded.

The mother saw the deep and shallow cuts on her daughter's arms and expressed disbelief: "I never thought you would hurt yourself so hard...?" Then, she accused her: "You hurt yourself so much, if you don't get better, we will go back and continue to treat?" A little girl has so many scars on her body, is it good-looking? People who don't know think it's me, the mother, who abuses you. ”

Xiaoqi never spoke, lowered her eyes, but did not want to lower her head, she thought that she was right, she did nothing wrong, it was always those harsh words in her mother's mouth that hurt her.

The girl understands that her mother feels sorry for her like this, why does she feel a burst of malice?

In the back, she forced the sentence "It's all your fault" back into her stomach, entered the room, closed the door, and swallowed her anger. Tong Xiaoqi has talked to her mother a lot, every time she says something similar to complaining, her mother will chase her crazy and scold, spitting and crackling, and finally slap Xiaoqi together.

This is suffering, not artificial, not exaggerated.

The girl took an inspirational book on the bed and opened it at will, pressed it with her two elbows, swept her eyes over a few words on the book, and sang in her mouth:

"Your good night is subconscious compassion, and I will stay until late at night to treat insomnia and dreams. The handwritten letter...... Stay in ...... Stay in ......" sadness stuck in her throat, she couldn't make a sound, and tears fell on the book one by one.

Wiping away her tears, Xiaoqi tore a tissue and blew her nose, threw the paper aside, and then finished singing the climax of the song. At the end, she sniffed and said to herself, "It's so painful to live, and singing can't make me happy......"

However, the girl tried her best not to immerse herself in pessimism. She has read a lot of articles about people with depression who have recovered from their illnesses, and there are a few articles in which girls have gone through it several times, but they still can't imagine what they will look like, and "mental health" has long become an illusion for her.