I heard the uncle next door hitting the child very hard, again and again, and again, and again, and again, and again, The reason I think I should have heard heavy wheezing was that I heard several sounds of flesh colliding against the wall.

"It's none of your business," the child's voice sounded like a girl younger than me, seventeen or eighteen.

From the quarrel, I can hear that this is a family from Guizhou who came to the big city to work, father, mother, sister, sister, two sisters rented a room alone behind their parents' backs, but the parents who had an extra housing money were very angry and felt that the child was not sensible, so they beat the sister who kept making trouble and did not go back. The father gave his sister a choice:

1. Live with them, they live on the first floor of a rented house, bunk beds, they live in the bottom bunk, and the sister and sister sleep on the top bunk.

2. They go to live in a compartment upstairs in the house they rent.

The sister had been crying since her father left. "Girls also need their own space when they grow up", after the landlord failed to persuade him, "Your hands are broken, I'll go get alcohol". They are still very kind, if they ignore the phrase "Don't quarrel here, don't make trouble in my house." ”

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"There's a fight outside, you can't go out, the door is closed" "You can't go out, you're a little girl", I listened to my mother's voice on the other end of the phone, and nodded dumbfoundedly, "Is there anything else, then mom doesn't make noise for you, you go to bed early."

I'm ready to run away, if I can't stop this argument. I'm scared.

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In fact, by [11.28] today, I began to understand the anxiety and violence of the father, he may have left his hometown, and he worked hard to raise these two children, and he wanted to save some money to buy a house of his own in his hometown, and when he was too old to work, he would not live too hard, after all, before that, he might have to pay for the help that his two children needed, and even a dowry.

He may have lived too hard a life before, thinking that the expenditure of 1,000 yuan per month for renting a house is too much waste, and he may have done very hard things in order to earn 1,000 yuan.

Today's Lai:

I left a good night message for a few of my friends tonight

After that in your own space

I kept asking myself what I wanted, what was important, what was my head

Seeing them either yearning or immersed

Or express resentment and dissatisfaction

I saw them change into clothes that fulfilled their imaginations in their little corner of control

And a small party with love and professional life

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I looked down at myself

I didn't seem to be doing anything to add value to myself

In the past, I don't know where to start the time

OK, I tried to accept myself with a blank sheet of paper and learn from them, drawing something on it.

2020.5.17