My dad must have thought that what my mom said was a bit excessive, so he pulled her next to him, "You have something to say." ”

"How can I say it well!" My mom turned back to my dad and shouted, "Didn't I say it properly? Does she listen?! ”

"Xiaolin's kid is not bad, why are you doing this?"

"Did I say that kid is bad? What I keep saying is that they don't fit! Not suitable, understand? "My mom turned the fire and rushed at my dad.

My dad was also annoyed, "Is it up to the child to feel whether it is suitable or not?" If you say it's not suitable, it's not suitable, what age is it? Do you understand the freedom of love and marriage? ”

"Freedom of love and marriage?" My mom sneered at my dad, "That's what she said." As soon as I asked her, she told me that it was okay with that Lin Jiangnan! Never mind! Ordinary friends! Did she say she was in love? She didn't say it! If Lin Jiangnan is her boyfriend, that's another matter, right? ”

My mom pointed back at me and said to my dad, "Look at the way she is hiding today, if she is in a serious relationship, is it?" Am I that uncivilized? Now she is telling me that she doesn't want to fall in love, and at the same time she is bringing the man to her own home, what is this? ”

"Mom, what are you talking about!" I couldn't take it anymore, "Yesterday he couldn't drive because he was drunk, and he couldn't get a taxi, so I can't let him walk back in the cold, right?" I pointed to the quilt on the couch, "He sleeps on the sofa and I sleep on my bed, what do you think is wrong with me?" What kind of person do you think your daughter is? ”

"I don't know now." My mom waved her hand back on the couch and turned her head away from me, "I don't know which of your truths and which of your lies." ”

"Everything I say is true."

My mom sneered again, "Every word is true. She reached out and pointed firmly in the direction of the bathroom, "You told me ten minutes ago that that toothbrush is what you used to brush things, right?" Truth. ”

I was silent.

"I can't control you now." My mother crossed her arms and breathed, "It's now, I couldn't control you before." That Yao Feng, didn't I tell you that the kid was unreliable? That character, that family background, that's obviously playing with you. You don't listen to me! What happened? Graduation people dumped you, you are crying to me there whether you want to die or live, I still have to persuade you there! You ......"

"You're done!" My dad interrupted my mom loudly, "Don't stop here, what are you talking about!" ”

I picked up my phone from the coffee table, stood up, and went to the door to change my shoes. When I took off my coat, my dad ran over and stopped at the door, "Xiaomi, calm down, it's okay, it's okay." This time your mother is too much, and she has this temper ......"

"That's right! That's what she has the temper of! My voice trembled, "I'm a scum in her eyes!" I don't have self-esteem, I don't love myself! I'm good for nothing! I was dumped, I deserved it! I can't get married, I deserve it! ”

"Don't say that, kid, don't say that." My dad hugged me and yelled at my mom, "What are you talking about!" Do you have a mother who says this about her own child! ”

"I can't say it! Can't I give some advice as a person? Wait until it's inappropriate to break up, isn't it a waste of time? How old is she, is she delayed?! Didn't I think about her and be good for her? My mother roared back mercilessly, "Every day, I know how to compete with me and throw my face!" It's a big skill when you lose your temper with me! ”

I broke free of my dad and ran out, pushing open the fire door and going downstairs. My dad chased after me, but couldn't catch up with me, and I heard his voice echoing through the stairwell, getting farther and farther away. I ran to the first floor in one go, and the moment I finished the stairs, my legs were weak, and I almost knelt on the ground, holding on to the wall for a few seconds, and I felt a suffocating feeling that I wanted to cry but couldn't.

Trembling, I put on my coat and walked out of the building. It was cold, the wind was a little strong, and it hurt my face like pins and needles, and I touched my cheeks, and it was full of tears.

My mother's words buzzed in my head, like a round slap in the face.

She gave birth to and raised me, and I lived with her for eighteen years, even when I went to college to live in the dormitory, even when I moved out to live alone, I was never far from her sight. We have a lot of differences in thinking, we always have friction, we have occasional arguments, but I try to be considerate of her, try to understand her intentions behind those frictional arguments.

I have always believed, I have always believed that she loves me, she feels sorry for me, she just has a bad temper and is not good at gentle expression.

But today I wonder if I've been wrong all along.

The period when I broke up with Yao Feng was the saddest and most torturous period of my life so far. I hid my vulnerability in front of most of my friends, I tried to keep my cheerfulness on all occasions, and the only thing that allowed me to get rid of it was my home.

My dad made me my favorite food every day; My mom accompanies me to go shopping and buy nice clothes. When I was sad, I hugged my mom and cried, nostalgic for her arms like I had when I was a child, feeling that it was the warmest and safest place in the world.

But isn't that the case?

Is that warmth just an illusion on my part? Was she so impatient at that time? She was impatient that I would not listen to her, and that I would cry to her if I fell and was injured.

I thought she was tolerating my pain at that time, but it turned out that it was just the material she had collected, and it was the capital she used to satirize me in this moment. I could hear a smugness in her tone, a smug smug at my wounds, for it testified to her discernment and her wisdom.

I'm so sad. Even sadder than that autumn seven years ago.

I walked forward in a daze, I didn't answer my dad's call, and I simply turned off my phone. I don't know where to go or where to go.

When I walked out of the community and saw Lin Jiangnan walking towards me, I thought I was hallucinating.

"What's wrong?" He walked up to me, looking a little panicked. He wrapped my down jacket, pulled me to a leeward wall, and asked, "Did you quarrel with your parents?" ”

I nodded.

"I'll go back with you and apologize to my uncle and aunt. Don't cry just yet. He wiped my face, "Don't cry. ”

"No, I don't. It's none of your business. ”

"How can it have nothing to do with me." He put his arms around me and was about to go back, but I broke free of his embrace, "I'm not going back!" ”

He probably didn't realize that I was so resistant, and he was a little stunned, and then hurriedly reassured me, "Okay, don't go back." Where do you want to go? I'll be with you. ”

"I don't know." I wiped my cheeks and asked him, "Why didn't you leave?" ”

"I'm not at ease. I wanted to wait to see your parents leave, and I'll call you again to ask about the situation. He squatted down to help me zip up my down jacket and close it, "I didn't expect to see you come out." Cold or not? Come back to the car with me. "He pulled me, I didn't move.

I looked straight at him, at this man who was six years younger than me, and my mother's words stuck in my head again. My heart was about to explode, my temples jumped suddenly, and I suddenly stretched out my hand and pulled Lin Jiangnan's collar, and in his stunned expression, I stood on tiptoe and kissed him directly.

My mom said he was too young, my mom said he wasn't mature, my mom said he wasn't for me, my mom said he couldn't give me the security I should have at my age.

My mom said.

What my mom said wasn't really my concern, she was self-righteous and used her own experience and thinking to try to cover my life and choices. But she didn't know me at all, she didn't know what I really cared about, she didn't know what I was afraid of.

She used the last thing I could do to show off her greatness, and I wanted to prove her wrong! It was wrong before, and it's wrong now!

At this moment, I hated her in my heart. Because I love her.

Lin Jiangnan didn't respond to my kiss, which is not a kiss at all.

He grabbed my cheek and wiped my tears, then put his arms around me and took me in his arms. I lay on his warm neck and wept, accepting his comfort and comfort, he was quiet, and I vented my anger and sadness.

He took me into his Golf. I didn't know if I was frozen, or I was crying, my brain felt very slow and numb, I didn't think about it or ask where I was going, I looked at the bleak street scene outside the car window without saying a word.

Lin Jiangnan's mobile phone rang again, he pressed answer, and I heard him say, "I'm not at home today." I don't know when I'll go back, so let's go first. No, thanks. ”

I guess it should still be that Wu Yu.

"If you have something, you can go and get busy." I said, "I'll just find a place to spend a little time by myself." ”

"It's fine." He put his phone back in his pocket, sat quietly for a while, and then started the car. The car turned onto the Second Ring Road, and then turned off the Second Ring Road at Xizhimen, and drove in the direction of Jiaotong University.

"Go sit with me for a while."

This is my first time to Lin Jiangnan's home, this community is in a good location, the environment is good, and the rent will not be cheap. However, he said yesterday that his father used to be in business, and in the early nineties he could afford to hire a nanny, so he should be quite well-off when he came to his family.

The house is a one-bedroom apartment, not very large, but very spacious. The house is neat and clean, there is no decoration, and the floor-to-ceiling windows on the south side fill the living room with plenty of sunlight, which looks very warm.

"Just sit down. I'll go boil some hot water and make you a cup of coffee. ”

There was a small couch in front of his floor-to-ceiling window, and I sat down in it. The sun was abundant, and the sun melted the cold numbness of my body, and I felt very tired and a little unable to open my eyes. Lin Jiangnan brewed two cups of coffee and walked over, put them on the small table in front of the sofa, and went to wring a hot towel for me to wipe my face.

I put the towel over my face and wished I could open my eyes and my timeline would go back to yesterday.