It's May Day, I call my mom in the morning, "Mom, or I won't go back, my clothes haven't been washed, and I've been wearing them until I can only wear the rest of the formal clothes, you know." ”

"How can you not wash your clothes?"

- "I either went on a business trip or worked overtime this week, and I didn't come back until late at night, and the landlord thought I was noisy with the washing machine at night, so I didn't dare to use the washing machine." Isn't it just the weekend and just planning to wash? ”

"Bring it back, and I'll wash you." My mom's tone was a little hurried when she said this.

Considering that I was a little nervous at work during this time, and that some cases were already in a particularly important and urgent situation, I was really a little panicked. Originally, I was planning to visit my partners during the holidays, talk about the details of the cooperation, and ask them about the market of their industry, and I also planned to summarize this holiday and review and summarize the past one or two months, and it was actually a waste of effort and time to rush around - but since she went back to me like that, well, then I will go back very, very reluctantly, very, very improvised, hehehe.

I asked her not to disturb me to sleep, and I hung up, and the moment I hung up, I couldn't remember any concerns.

Later, "X County Squad applied to play" - during the holidays, I also got together with my most tacit partner in the previous university and the seniors who encouraged me to debate at the beginning, and the three of them took a group photo, and I put my most sand sculpture in the photo, the one they look the most normal and a glass reflection into the circle of friends, with the text:

And "Look up to the sky and laugh and go out, my generation is a Penghao person?" ”//

After this farewell, I don't know how many years I will see you again,

May each be well, and each of them will be brilliant and beautiful. //

The warmth and companionship, spirit and warmth that have appeared in my life, I should cherish them. //

——The partner is going to Shanghai to chase his dream, and if he says this, life will be a little rushed. Later, he really entered the company he wanted to enter and did what he wanted to do.

He often makes me wonder if all the "willful actions" can finally achieve what they want.

But there are other things in life that will tell me that goals are sometimes not so easy to reach, and it is very likely to fall into the dilemma of not being able to reach them. And after a few humiliated but irrefutable experiences, I don't seem to have the courage to go my own way. Building self-confidence and pride is a very difficult process, and some of the forces in life that are unkind to you sometimes throw great humiliation and malice at yourself and your loved ones in the middle of your desperate process, and I can't stand it.

Therefore, I may not be able to get such a reward of high efficiency after such a desperate bet, and I accept it calmly.

Today's Xiaolai: I think the following two excerpts can accurately convey the feelings that the author Borges (full name Hors Louis Borges) gave me when I read the book of poems "Deep Rose":

1. "Unknowable

The moon doesn't know how quiet and pure she is

I don't even know I'm the moon;

Gravel doesn't know that he's gravel.

Nothing understands what it looks like.

ivory chess pieces and hands that fiddle with them,

It has nothing to do with abstract chess.

People rejoice in the fate of less and more sorrow

Maybe it's the tool of some master in the dark,

We don't know these things;

Calling Him God doesn't solve the problem, ······"

2. "Fears, doubts, and prayers with heads and tails,

It's all in vain and fruitless.

Which bow shot my arrow?

Which mountain is the target? ”

- 12 are all from the poem "The Unknowable" in the poetry collection "Deep Rose". Do you feel the same way as I do, that Borges is a great thinker, and that the depth of his vision and thinking about things is staggering, right?