Originally, I was in a bad mood, but I haven't been in a good mood these days, and I don't think I'm in a bad mood, I still have to act in a good mood. But when I went to buy milk tea today, the little brother who handed me milk tea smiled at me, "I'll give you another coupon, come to me again when you run out", "Okay" - I was forced to feel good because the little brother had starry eyes when he smiled and this very pleasant sentence.

On the way home, I thought of the phone call I had with my mother yesterday, and she pointed out in one sentence the point where I was really angry about the few things I confided in her. I went to the snack bar I frequented, said hello to the proprietress of the snack bar, and finally went to the fruit shop owned by the uncle's house who "I'm afraid you will fall" and bought seven bayberries and a peach.

"I'm afraid you'll fall" is the case, the day before yesterday when I got off work, the street lights were already on, I walked slowly home from the company alone, and when I passed a square near the rented cottage, I didn't walk on the sidewalk on the ground, I walked on the narrow edge of the flower garden. So I walked on the edge of the flower garden about forty centimeters from the ground, and as I walked, there was an uncle next to me who was very close to me, and when I saw him approaching, I jumped down in a panic, "I'm afraid you will fall" - he explained why he suddenly approached me, and then he continued to walk briskly with a cold face.

Walking on the road and in the alley of my home, I thought that if I were in a loveless and violent place, I was often slapped in the face, kicked, and beaten to death. After escaping from the house, when I went to the bubble tea shop to buy milk tea, the boss maliciously said that there was no hurry up. I didn't walk a few steps away from the bubble tea shop when I was hit hard by a car carrying a gas canister, and the gas boy turned his head to see that I had been knocked down and couldn't move all of a sudden, and he smiled and walked away. I walked to the fruit stall, I just looked at some fruits, and the boss asked me to buy them all, forced me to pay and put the good fruits in the bag back into the basket for sale, and then filled the bag with a bunch of rotten fruits and told me to leave. And I was suddenly pounced on by a big dog, and the owner of the dog who came after me did not apologize to me, but indifferently called his big dog home for dinner.

After a while, I got up from the cracked road and the sewage in the cracks in the road, and I saw a young woman who was pushing one of the two small children to the ground because the child accidentally hit the other child while playing and crooked.

······ I can suddenly understand the mood of the protagonist in "Split", totally, and if I am bullied by the world like this at this time, I am a scientist, and I have scientific research results related to the fate of mankind in my hands. I should hesitate for a moment and give this thing to the villain. When the consequences were finally serious and I was found out, I had nothing to say, and I didn't feel wrong: the world had plunged me into darkness, and why should the people who caused it all get light? Let's sink together.

Tsk, I feel it. The change of the characters needs to be pulled in different directions step by step, if they have been pulled in the positive direction, then no matter what kind of situation the person is in, they will get better little by little, and if they have been pulled in the opposite direction, everything in their eyes will be guided in the opposite direction, so no matter how sunny and decent the original person is, it will eventually turn black. And I think most people, including me, are in the gray area between black and white, constantly being pulled in different directions because of various things.

2020.5.16