This morning is really miserable, I have to pass the online test of some courses before four o'clock this afternoon, and the screenshot of the work group passed, but after I got up at nine o'clock and got up at seven o'clock, I found that the video in the software was still stuck, and I couldn't watch the video, and I couldn't take the exam after the video. The reason why I didn't watch this class video last night was because I was also stuck last night. I tried it from seven o'clock to nine o'clock, but it wasn't until nine o'clock that the video could be played normally, but there were things to do after going to work at nine o'clock. I was working on the video while playing the video.,Wait until noon.,As a result, I forgot everything at noon.。 The first few times, I also took the 90 test, and then I began to guess that the questions were done wrong, and the variables of these questions were controlled - if I thought it was wrong, I changed the option, and then changed it next time - and then changed it, and it became 50. 100 points to pass the electronic test, I s.

I ended up writing down all the questions, but I didn't know the correct answer. Some of them weren't mentioned at all in the previous lessons. In the end, I was not sure about some of the questions that I could have answered correctly. I'm almost fong.

In the end, I took my brother to save my life, he called, I reported the topic, he told me what to choose, and finally made a wave, all of them were eighty or ninety, and they hadn't passed yet. In the end, I used my brother's mobile phone to record the screen, and while I recorded all the questions, and then according to my scores, I and my brother and I found the wrong questions, and then corrected them - the result of the test this time, 100 passed.

Because of the speed of passing in the end, each department has to score according to the speed of the members' clearance and the time of customs clearance, I am counting a few, and I have dragged our department back. Is it my ability? Otherwise, why is everyone faster than me?

Bringing my brother to help me in the snow made me suddenly want to sing:

"I've thought about it a hundred times before

It's because I haven't met you yet

People like you exist in this world

It makes me feel a little bit like the world

Beings like you are in this world

It made me look forward to the world a little bit."

——I can't do what to do, the score is still from 90 to 50 points, the leader over there is urging, and I don't know what to do, I can't pass the brush all the time, I really have Li Bai's feeling of "wanting to cross the Yellow River and ice congestion river, and will climb the mountain full of snow in Taihang", and then because of my brother's help, there is really a feeling of light in the dark.

Today's Xiao Lai: When I read Dostoevsky's letters to his brother, I saw such a humble, sincere and naïve man, a man who was always distracted by wealth and affection for the sake of false friendship and false sense of duty, and who was sentenced to death for this kind of death—a man who was on the execution ground, who was about to be executed the next moment, but was pardoned and exiled to the extremely cold Siberia······ I think maybe there is not so much difference between a human being, because I have some of his personality traits, or some of the elements that make up his personality, and I have seen a lot of people in movies or real records, and I can fully understand how he feels when he makes these moves.

I think that maybe when Nuwa created a man, she would put the clay figurines into a pool that gathered a lot of personality elements and dip them, so some of the personality traits of the people are the same. And because the hardness and unevenness of each part of the clay figurine pinched by Nuwa are different, the ingredients absorbed by each person from the [pool of personality characteristics] are different.

Here are some excerpts from the book "Six Lectures on Dostoevsky":

"In a little while we shall see how clumsy he must be when he is to speak in his own name; And on the contrary, how eloquent he is when his own thoughts are expressed through the mouths of the characters. It is by giving life to the characters that he finds himself. He lives on each of them, and in this way he entrusts himself to the diversity of characters, the initial effect of which is to protect himself from incoherence. ”

- I think it's the same way, my characters speak more sharply, harshly, and emotionally than I do in my daily life, where I always look quiet and well-behaved, and in my words, I fully reflect my paranoia. On the other hand, I also feel that other elements of my personality that have not become the dominant character, and the realm that cannot be reached in my imagination, can be reached through words and imagination.

"There is no one who lives without a purpose and makes some effort to achieve that purpose. Once purpose and hope are gone, anxiety often turns a person into a monster······"

- Every month, there are a few people who fall asleep with their eyes open until they are very sleepy, and they think so.

"As soon as I come out, I'm going to start writing; I've been through a lot in these months; And in the coming time, what kind of things I will not see, what will I not experience! For future writing materials, there will definitely be no shortage of materials. ”

- At the time of writing, Dostoevsky was on the eve of his exile to Siberia, probably at this time, when he was about to do labor in the snow and ice, and the child was still happy to get the material, alas.

"But the fresh air made me refreshed, and as with every change in life, my own strong feelings alone gave me courage, so that after a while, I regained my composure."

- I see Dostoevsky with a wonderful spiritual world, his world is full of all kinds of tangled and painful pulls, but sometimes I have to say that he is optimistic and brave. And the reason why I am not so willing to say that he is optimistic and brave is because it hurts me that he is so optimistic and brave in these experiences full of suffering.

2020.2.20