20190714 Sunday struggles

I don't think he's a Christian. And I'm a Christian. I couldn't break the flag I had set up, so I prayed that if he would go to church on Sunday, I would consider joining him.

After texting him in the morning to ask if he was coming, I started to take a fitness shower. He woke up and replied, "Wake up so early?" I said yes. He said I won't go, my sister will go, the church is a bit boring. I said, Meilian was not feeling well, I could go with her, but I have to give a class to the big class today, so I won't wait for your sister. He asked me to cheer up, and I made a little sun emoji and didn't talk to him.

At noon, Sister Mei Lian told me that he had gone out to get into the car today, but unexpectedly his clothes were torn, and he went home again. I smiled.

Nothing to say to him all day. I talked to people all day, but it was all about him. I asked PL early in the morning for her opinion on the matter, and she said that she was not a Christian and did not speak to me of my concerns. I made an appointment with PX to talk about "one thing" in the evening.

Today's Sunday school was very lively, I had classes in the morning, I visited the Drum Tower at noon, and I asked JP about Christians and non-Christians, and she said that she didn't like human feelings in vain, and there was no answer so far. Back at church, we made dumplings, went to class, ate milk dumplings and birthday cakes. Fortunately, I was very busy and happy all day, otherwise I would really want to break my head.

After the meeting, the working group meeting was also very happy, and I said that now I have learned that as long as I have a pimple in my heart, I can say that there is nothing to do, and it is not beneficial to keep it in my heart. They asked me if I had any intercession (on my mind) and I said yes, but I waited to talk to PX privately. They laughed and said that it was okay that I would take the initiative to solve the pimple now, otherwise my husband would definitely be difficult to find, because he would ignore people when the moment changes. Say I'm an atypical girl. I said, no, I'll be nice to him.

After everyone dispersed, Sister Meilian asked me to accompany Sister Xiaoxiang back, and we took the bus directly to Wanli College. I plan to walk slowly back to Yintai from the college. I walked for a total of three hours.

I was on the phone for three hours, first my mother called to buy electric mosquito repellent liquid, and she also mentioned that I would settle in Ningbo in the future. Mother's urging to marry.

We had a phone call at about eight o'clock, and it was still early, so I called Sister Meiying, one of my best friends, whose husband was not a Christian. I told her three stories, Dan, Lilian and the Prince. One is ignorant, the other is a friend, and the other is throbbing. My friend made me confess that this ignorance was too hard and sunk in the sea. The throbbing convinced me that he was special than his friends, and that the fawns were ramming.

She advised me to take the initiative, because I am lithromantic, I must take the initiative, and I will refuse if others take the initiative. It dawned on me that I overturned her suggestion in a second, saying, do I really want to take the initiative? Isn't it? I confessed to you that I liked him, and it was my initiative. Look at the rest again.

I asked her if she imagined being with her husband when she wasn't married. She said no. I said I have, I even saw a very cute little child today, and thought, this is our baby, and then suddenly my heart is so excited. She laughed and scolded me for my nerves.

I said I had a test in the morning, but he didn't pass. Meiying said that you are equivalent to picking rose petals, which is a matter of chance. It dawned on me that yes, I was picking the petals of an invisible rose, to see if it was suitable or not.

So I planned to take the initiative to go to Sister Meilian's house to see her wedding photos, so that I could see the prince. I washed up and changed into a pink dress, and called the PX sisters on the way. PX is the answer to many of my questions, her husband is a Christian, and both of them love the Lord. She said she was not at ease with work and faith. I said I didn't have the courage to ask anyone these two questions, I didn't care about those two questions for those who cared, and I didn't care about those two questions for those who didn't. She said, "Do you want to wait, maybe you're not suitable."

I followed her words, maybe I was overflowing with maternal love, and I felt that someone like him should have someone to accompany him.

She said, you can't do this, I suggest you don't go to their house just yet, don't meet for a while. If he's your significant other, he won't miss out on a brief avoidance.

I said yes, and such clear instructions sobered me up. I went home, ate the cakes from the cake shop, and posted a circle of friends who walked for 3 hours. Before he could like it, I went home and fell asleep.