I have a cousin who usually plays games and chats together, he is very nice to me, almost never talks about me, and always gets along. Until one day, my mother and I had a quarrel at my grandmother's house for New Year's dinner.

It's very noisy!

I cried, and so did my mom.

I ran under a tree in the yard and looked at the sky, it was jet black and there was not a single star. At that time, I felt very aggrieved, tears fell down in large pieces, and there was the sound of wind next to me, whirring and blowing, very cold.

I vaguely heard my grandmother say that she was going to bring me clothes, and someone said, don't disturb her now, let her be alone. It's my cousin's voice.

That's right, I really need to be alone right now, I thought. Then he continued to bury his head and cry.

Then, I heard my mother and my cousin talking again, and I turned my head in the direction of the main house, but it was too far away for me to hear clearly. It was dark around me, and I was scared, but considering that it was an embarrassing time, I thought about it and continued to squat with my collar tightened around my neck.

Dozens of minutes later, after I changed my numb feet countless times, two bundles of mobile phone flashes lit up my world.

It's my cousin and cousin.

I stubbornly said, "What are you looking for me?" What's wrong? ”

Cousin: "Let's go, go back to dinner." ”

My stomach rumbled, and I pursed my lips, got up, and went back with them.

When I was about to get to the living room, I asked "calmly" and quietly: "None of them are there?" ”

My cousin said helplessly, "No, you can eat to your heart's content." ”

So, I picked up my bowl and ate the most eagerly awaited meal I've ever eaten.

In the middle of my meal, they disappeared and did not come back until I sat in my room and played with my phone for nearly half an hour after eating.

"Grandpa should have gone to find my aunt."

"Probably not, I didn't see him."

"I don't know, my aunt should wait and come back."

……

I hid in my room and eavesdropped, and I couldn't hold back, so I rushed out of the room and blurted out, "What, where is my mother?" ”

They were stunned, and their cousin: "Still crying on the side of the road." ”

I withered and retreated back into my room.

A few minutes later, as expected, they entered.

Sit down seriously.

I tugged at my hands and waited silently to listen to the training.

Cousin: "You have to know that my aunt is all for your good." ”

My cousin chimed in.

"I know, but I couldn't bear it today, so I was angry with her." I was a little aggrieved, in fact, I also felt that it was wrong for me to make my mother sad like this.

"When your parents scold you, you have to go in one ear and one ear out. Automatically block as if you can't hear it. "Why does my cousin seem to be quite experienced?

"I know, but when I was arguing, my mother kept saying that I didn't hold back, I really didn't control it, and I didn't want to."

"You have to learn to control your emotions, you can't control others, but you have to learn to control yourself, if you can't even control your emotions, then you are useless. You have to learn not to be surprised when things change, so that you can get things done. Be emotionally controlled, not controlled. My cousin said to me earnestly.

I don't understand, I don't really understand.

The cousin was silent for a few seconds, and then said, "You may not understand it now, and you can't control it now, but you must learn to do it slowly." Otherwise, you won't be able to do anything. ”

I let out an "oh" and lowered my head.

"I have to say, you did overdo it today. Do you know how sad your aunt is? ”

Cousin: "Really, when we went to find my aunt, she was still crying. I couldn't even look at it. ”

I couldn't even speaker.

"Sometimes it's unnecessary, and sometimes it's okay to have a positive effect. Do you feel like your quarrel has changed things for the better? ”

My cousin asked me a question.

I thought about it, then shook my head: "No." ”

"You know no, so think before you get into trouble. You see that you quarreled with your aunt, you are not happy, your aunt is not happy, your grandparents are not happy, and the whole family is unhappy. You see, your quarrel like this has not effectively resolved this matter at all. You tell me? ”

My head was buried lower and lower, lower than in the yard, and all grievances disappeared, all turning into guilt and self-blame. I whispered an "um".

Outside the window, the moon rose higher and higher, and the stars peeked out of the black cloth. My brother told me a lot of truths, and I didn't seem to understand them. But I deeply understood that I was wrong.

Before leaving, my brother said, "I think you should apologize to your aunt." ”

I was a little embarrassed: "Huh? So what should I say? How can I apologize? ”

My brother looked at me, dropped a sentence at me, and left.

"Use your own methods."

I:......

What can I do!!

Sit for a while and take a deep breath. I picked up my phone and rushed out.

The side of the road was dark, as dark as the yard where I was squatting.

I turned on my flashlight and searched the side of the road little by little, but I couldn't find it. I'm in a bit of a hurry.

Time passed little by little, I became more and more anxious, and silently comforted myself that I was okay and would find it. But my hands still trembled a little. I suddenly remembered the way my mother scolded me every time she said those words with tears in her eyes.

Why, why can't I endure it any longer?

Tears kept pouring out. Scramble to fall to the ground.

Suddenly, the flashlight shone into a dark darkness. The black crouched on the ground and trembled, as if frightened.

I wiped the tears from my face with my hand and walked forward quickly.

"Mom, I'm sorry! It was me who was wrong. ”

"Mom, let's go home!"