Nana sighed, knowing that she was actually very old.

Seeing that his daughter was already so tall, and he stood in front of him at such a young age, he felt even more old.

It's really ridiculous to myself, in fact, sometimes I think that even if I am not old, but I have never lived.

It seems that before the age of 6, when I was three or four years old, it was two or three years, and I have a little memory, and it should be the happiest moment in my life.

At that time, I was with my grandparents, who spoiled themselves very well and were very good to themselves.

When I was a child, I only remember being with my grandparents, and those 23 years were the happiest.

Although the family conditions were hard at that time, the grandparents were never willing to let themselves be wronged.

I remember that I didn't know who gave my grandmother such a big bag of walnuts, and then my grandmother used a kerosene lamp to burn walnuts for herself to eat walnuts.

There are also those peanuts that grandma is reluctant to eat, but the small ones are wrapped for themselves.

At that time, I was really happy, like peanuts, melon seeds, etc., grandma carefully wrapped a little bit and fed herself.

Then, when you are a little older, you can also follow your grandfather down to the field to pick up those silkworms that have not molted.

After picking it up, I fried it in oil, and although I couldn't get used to eating it, I was full of happiness when I thought about it.

I still remember, because everyone was poor at that time, and in order to make himself have fun with his friends, grandpa made those kites for himself and let himself go outside to play kites.

At that time, I was really happy, so happy to remember that this pair of doors and the two friends next door have been playing with me, like playing pinball.

It's really full of happiness and joy, but it's a pity, there are no 100 days of flowers!

My grandparents live with my second uncle, and the second uncle will get married eventually, and after the second uncle gets married.

I went back to my parents' house.

But Mom and Dad didn't like me very much, and I remember whether I was 6 or 7 years old at the time.

is still a virtual age, if according to the children in the city now, he is only 5 years old.

Mom and Dad don't like their grandparents and can't support themselves anymore, and they stand outside the gate of their own house and cry, crying for a long time, and no one cares about crying until dark.

Then I forgot about it, right? It seems that the door of his house has been knocked open and he has been allowed to go home.

But what about getting in? Dad, mom, brother, and family, a family of three living happily and happily? And he is a foreign intruder alive.

Being beaten and scolded every day, so little self has to do a lot of housework? But I am still scolded by my parents every day.

It seems that you can't do anything yourself? Nothing is right.

Maybe my parents don't know that their abuse of themselves is even more than the pain on their own body, leaving a shadow on themselves.

What are you doing in your mother's mouth? There's not enough to eat.

Although I haven't eaten anything myself, even my mother has always said it since I was a child? When your brother was born, you treated your brother very badly? I even wanted to step on my brother with my foot.

Because of this, my mother had no choice but to let herself live with my grandparents.

My mother has been saying this for a long time, and it has also provoked my younger brother to seem to have hated him since he was a child.

Although I don't even know, what did I do when I was very young? But this pot has kept itself on its back for decades.

But maybe it's not a pot, right? It's just a very small child who doesn't remember the kind of dizzy thing that he did, but in fact, it made his mother hate herself for the rest of her life.

Yes, isn't it me, I died when I was 6 years old, and only two or three years of happy life have passed.

Mom and Dad, excuse me? I really shouldn't have been born as your daughter, if I wasn't your daughter? You don't hate me so much, do you?

I can remember that my father lost money in business, and my mother also said that they would lose money because they did business with their own father.

Or even say? Say that their lives are harder, and you can't kill them? Do you think you're often frail and sickly? And this became one of his other crimes.

Ke's parents are very bad to their younger brother? It's quite stupid, not smart and has no eyesight...

All kinds of things, if you let your mother count her own sins and shortcomings, I'm afraid she won't be able to count them for three days and three nights.

Sometimes they let their little selves develop world-weary thoughts when they were teenagers.

I really thought about suicide countless times, and later, I saw that the sky outside was very blue, and the birds were flying freely in the sky.

Then I had the idea of running away from home, and even practiced it myself, but in the end I was found by my parents, and then I was criticized by everyone that I shouldn't run away from home.

Although those people didn't know themselves, or they actually knew what kind of life they were living at home, they were weak at the time, and they were good at moral kidnapping, so all the mistakes were their own fault.

I often dream of my grandparents when I dream back at midnight, but I actually feel guilty about them.

also because I went home when I quarreled with my husband, because I was probably worried that my grandfather would worry about me, so I didn't notify my grandfather, but my grandfather knew that he was coming.

As a result, on the second day, my grandfather fell ill and became a regret in my life.

And grandma is my own grandmother, although I have been sick for a long time, I often go to see it, but I was too busy for a while, myself? Call yourself and tell yourself that your grandma is sick.

I wanted to go, but it was too late that day, and on the second day, I thought that my grandmother was not so serious, and even did a little personal thing, and at the end my mother called me to see my grandmother.

Grandma is already dying.

Grandma didn't open her eyes at that time, why was she so stupid at the beginning, she didn't hear and understand her mother's words, if she knew that her grandmother was going to die, what money she would make, and she would have to go back to see it if she lost her job.

But no matter what, his grandmother still walked away like that, and she didn't even see her grandmother's last face.

Grandma, you know what? I've always missed you, I miss you so much.

But the last time I saw you, you didn't open your eyes, and your body was slowly getting cold in front of my eyes.

I remember that I couldn't stand it at the time, so I just pushed you, and I said grandma, look at me, look at me.

Then my brother and brother pulled me, and he said sister, don't push grandma.

You're going to be miserable with grandma.

But I didn't understand at the time, why do people suffer when they are dying?

But I only know that this is a regret, a lifelong regret.

The two people who are the best and best in the world have not seen them for the last time.

Before they had time to be filial to them, they were already gone.

After they left, they knew that they had no relatives.

Does this mom and dad have feelings for themselves? I haven't understood it all the time, and I don't understand whether they really have feelings for themselves.

If they have feelings for themselves, why do they keep hurting themselves?