Ye'er's homecoming is almost the same lifestyle and state as at home before, and I am still alone as both a father and a mother with my Xiaobao, Dabao already has a job in the city, and only goes home to visit me and Xiaobao on weekends.

Ye'er, who hasn't seen her for nearly ten years, still has the kind of sincerity and lofty posture that is good at disguise when she comes home, she doesn't have any shame about all the mistakes she has made in the past, but feels that all this is so logical and reasonable. She always thinks that all the mistakes she has made are caused by me, obviously she begged me to let her go home, but when it came to her mouth, she said that it was because she pitied me for working hard with Xiaobao alone, so she couldn't let go of me, pity me and chose to go home to help me.

I don't need to be pitied by others, for so many years, I have become accustomed to anyone's farewell, I am strong enough to enjoy my solitude alone, and carry my pain alone. In life, sometimes as long as you hold on a little bit, everything will pass. What Ye'er said about pity for me was just an excuse for her to beg me several times to let her go home.

Ye'er said that since she owed a high amount of gambling debts and forced the old accountant to death because of the bank loan guarantee, she really couldn't continue to work in the community, so she had to resign and go out to avoid debts.

Dizzy, I've seen shameless people, I've never seen such shameless people. At the beginning, because of Ye'er's gambling cheating and betrayal, we have divorced twice, and Ye'er soon married another man who was not her cheating partner, and now she still can't change her nature of eating, and she is still biting me back with her disguised sincerity, saying that I don't have any husband and wife affection, and that I can't save her when she dies! Yes, you must stay away from rotten people, because rotten people have theories of rotten people, and her theories make you and her forever entangled, only by staying away from rotten people, your life will become quiet, beautiful and clean and calm.

I don't want to reason with her, let alone quarrel with her, "dog eats dog hair", I'm reflecting on myself, I don't belong to a good person in my life, I don't belong to a positive and good person. In the face of the tribulations that life has given me, I actually chose to be reluctant, I actually agreed to let this woman who cheated and betrayed me come back to me, if a good person chooses to forgive the evil of the wicked, then this so-called good person must not be good! He must have his own selfish or pessimistic thoughts in his heart, yes, my selfish and pessimistic thoughts made me choose to be reluctant, I didn't choose the courage and courage that I should have in the face of difficulties, my reluctance will only be used by women like Ye'er, and this is by no means love!

Ye'er said that there were many men and women in the city who went out with her to avoid debts, and there were dozens of them, all of whom were forced to flee because they owed high gambling debts and were unable to repay them. At first, they traveled between the streets of various cities and villages in the south, but later because the police in the south investigated them strictly, several of them were arrested and imprisoned for being involved in pornography, drugs, and gangsters, and they had to return to the surrounding counties, districts, and towns of our city. Even so, they are afraid to shoot a shot to change places, sometimes in abandoned factories, sometimes in dense mountain forests, sometimes in the fields, anyway, as long as there is an abandoned hut in that kind of inaccessible place, it is simply their paradise, sometimes they will choose to be in the sea, in the river fishing boats。。。。。。

Ye Er said that the life of their big family of gamblers is very lively, and when they encounter the police arresting gambling, it is like a police movie on TV, which is even better. Once, because the police suddenly came to arrest the gamble, Ye Er jumped directly from the second floor of a peasant woman's house, fortunately there was a cotton stack on the ground, otherwise it would be unimaginable. Speaking of this, Ye Er was so proud and glad that even if he jumped and broke his leg, it was better than being caught by the police. Because once caught by the police, he will be fined and detained, or he may have to go to prison for several years, and his leg is broken because of jumping off the building, at most he will be put on a plaster bandage, and he can still limp back to the battlefield in a few days.

This is a group of human garbage who don't know how to live or die and don't know how to be honest, why didn't God take them away early!

Ye'er said that once the police came to arrest the gamble, six or seven of them were crammed into a small bed and covered with a quilt, thus avoiding the police's sight and allowing them to escape. After the police left, they were crowded into the same bed with six or seven gamblers pretending to sleep, and they couldn't believe how they did it at that time, and they could only say that the strong desire to escape made these people's energy play to the extreme.

The big family has the bustle of the big family, and the small family also has the romance of the small family. Ye'er said that those of them who go out to hide debts and make a living from gambling are gamblers on the field, and after they get off the field, they are like a one-on-one dewy couple, and Ye'er is no exception. But when Ye'er told me this, she didn't feel ashamed at all, but was proud. Ye'er said that for the sake of money, for safety, and for others to trouble them for economic reasons, they must find a backer, and this so-called backer has contributed to this pair of men and women who are reluctant to G. They don't have any feelings, some are just money, physical use of each other and short-term comfort, and they have long been out of the category of normal human beings. They are just a group of bipedal animals with no heart, no humanity, no family, no affection, and even the motherhood unique to women has long been lost and disappeared in them, they are a group of unseen garbage, living like walking dead in a dirty and dark corner of this world.

When Ye'er told me this, she seemed so satisfied and show-off, some people are like this, she always hides her scars tightly, but what she shows to the outside is her exaggerated vanity and show-off. Ye'er was no exception, when I asked her: "Since life outside is so good, then why do you choose to go home?" ”

When Ye Er heard my rhetorical question, her expression that was still complacent just now suddenly became sad and lost. Ye Er said that behind the glamorous, there is actually more suffering, displacement, and drifting.

She was sometimes penniless because of the loss outside, and she could not eat for several days, and even if she had food, she was hungry and full, far less comfortable and rich than eating at home. She would squat in the cement pipe on the side of the road with several people for several nights because she had no money for accommodation, she would fight with others because of casino disputes, sometimes she could be beaten to death by others and did not dare to choose to call the police, she would hold on because she was sick and had no money to go to the hospital。。。。。。

Ye Er said that in fact, the things that make them feel the most sad and sad are not the things mentioned above, what can really make them feel sad and sad and cry is the Mid-Autumn Festival and Spring Festival every year. They can't go back to their husbands' house, because they have already divorced; They can't go back to their parents' homes, because almost everyone in their mother's family has borrowed money from them to a greater or lesser extent; They can't go back to see their children, because they don't even have enough money in their pockets to buy a piece of candy to bring to their children!

Looking at the lights of thousands of homes and looking at the family reunion, these gamblers in a foreign land are sometimes poor and can't even afford to eat a Chinese New Year's Eve meal of rice and pork stewed vermicelli!