Chapter 6: My Change
Ye'er's attitude towards my decision to let her move out of this house has changed significantly, but it is obviously unfeasible for Ye'er to force me to give up the restraint on her by relying on this kind of cold and violent confrontation.
I hate a woman's self-righteous behavior that is not self-righteous, and she mistakenly underestimates her place in the hearts of others. If a woman doesn't even have the last hole card, but still tries to take advantage of other people's feelings for her and continues to behave mishaps, then such a woman can only die faster and die more miserably!
Ye'er belongs to such a woman. An Shou is a woman's biggest hole card, but Ye Er lost this hole card that can save her life, the key is that Ye Er lost her biggest hole card, but I can't help but think that I can't do without her, the child can't do without her, and our family can't do without her. She's too self-righteous and a little silly and ridiculous.
I will not tolerate such a woman living at home all day long under my nose, Ye'er does not want to change her mobile phone number, and is still obsessed with gambling, so I have to ask her to leave this house again and again.
In the end, Ye'er saw that I was urging more and more urgently, and even brought two puppies from the community residents to raise at home, and grabbed two chicken babies to feed at home. I know Ye'er's thoughts, her thoughts are nothing more than that, she is ready to stick to this family for a long time.
We ushered in the Spring Festival in this tug-of-war, the festive Spring Festival of thousands of families, but for me, it was full of regret and dissatisfaction. If it weren't for my soft-heartedness, if it weren't for my mistake of underestimating Ye'er's kindness, maybe my children and I would have been happier this Spring Festival this year, or maybe my children and I would have already walked out of the shadow of this unhappy marriage. However, everything is to blame on me, there is no bottom line of kindness, it can only show that I am not a kind person, at least it shows that I was very selfish at that time, thinking that Ye'er's return can make our home look more like a home, and thinking that the existence of a mother should be more beneficial to the healthy growth of the child in the future. However, I forgot that I should be able to carry the weight of the child alone!
Kindness to the enemy is the greatest betrayal of oneself! Ye'er has cheated and betrayed this family, she has abandoned her husband and daughter and has chosen to divorce twice, Ye'er is already a gambler riddled with vices, and I still have a merciful heart for her, which can only show that I betrayed my own original intention.
This Spring Festival, I got drunk, and the more I drank at home, the more I wanted to drink, the more I drank, the more sad I became, and before I knew it, I was drunk and made a mess. Yes, for so many years, this home has been supported and held by me alone, and Ye'er just treats this home as a temporary inn that she can use to rest at any time, the key is that even if she doesn't cherish such an inn, all kinds of injuries have befallen our family again and again. Alas, it's all my fault for choosing a moment of forbearance, in exchange for which it will eventually be more harmful, and when the spring flowers bloom, I will arrange my life with my children, love, and leave it to those who deserve to be loved.
"It is better to save a hundred sheep than a wolf", wolves can harm people, this is the nature of wolves. Your momentary kindness in exchange for the future must be a reproduction of the story of Mr. Dongguo and the wolf, the farmer and the snake in the future, you will only be hurt more deeply, you will only be killed more badly, and even your life will be taken.
During the Spring Festival, the community also had a holiday, and Ye'er went out to gamble more frequently, but I didn't know what she was going to do after all. I don't want to worry about anything anymore, because I can only care about those who are worthy of being taken care of, and when your calculations are indifferent to others, or even a kind of rogue entanglement and harassment, your calculations will seem so humble and unworthy.
Throughout the Spring Festival, Ye'er hardly ate at home, and I could only take my children to my parents' house from time to time to eat. Every time I go to dinner, I am inevitably lectured by my parents, especially my mother, I understand the good intentions of my parents, and I also know that if Ye'er does not change substantially, then my home will really close the door to her.
The winter vacation is very short, and it passes quickly, and the smell of the New Year gradually fades. Ye'er has already started to work, and my children and I will start going to school and work in a few days, but recently, Ye'er goes out to gamble and comes home at night, no longer around ten o'clock at night like a year ago, but goes home more and more late, always going home at two or three o'clock in the second half of the night.
Usually we are busy with work, and there is almost no time for communication, but one night, when Ye'er came home at two or three o'clock in the second half of the night, I had a showdown with Ye'er. I told Ye'er what I thought, either change my mobile phone number, break off that bad relationship, no longer go out to gamble, go to work hard, and live a good life; Regarding gambling, even if you can't quit for a while, you must have a temperance and don't go home at 12 o'clock at night. If not, please move out of this home, and from then on the well water will not interfere with the river water, but only be a stranger.
But Ye'er ignored my showdown warning-like conversation, only washed herself and went to bed, and finally said to me impatiently: "Are you okay to do?" Are you not sleepy? I'm going to sleep, don't be there anymore Rory! After saying that, he covered his head with the quilt and fell asleep in the quilt.
You can ignore me, but please don't be so arrogant and self-righteous as your place in other people's hearts. If I cherish you, you are my treasure; If I dislike you, you're not even a piece of shit. Men must not easily forgive a woman who has touched the basic moral bottom line without principle, such a woman has long lost the bottom line of being a man, not to mention conscience, that is, people's hearts, she will not have it, it will only hurt you more and hurt you worse!
The story of Ye Er and I was only the first time I divorced, I sincerely asked Ye Er to go home, and the others were not my initiative and original intention, I just agreed to Ye Er to go home for the sake of the children, family, and husband and wife. However, my true feelings and helplessness in Ye'er's heart have become her misestimating and overestimating her own capital, and she is always touching my bottom line again and again.
I'm sorry I don't play with you anymore.
The next day, Ye'er ignored my showdown and warnings, and still took a taxi straight to the casino after work, the key is whether she went to the casino or not, I learned from it, I only know that Ye'er still came home at two or three o'clock in the morning in the second half of the night.
I won't play with you anymore, before that, I left the door for Ye'er. However, this time I have locked the door, and Ye'er can't enter. I only heard the sound of Ye'er's footsteps coming home in the wee hours of the night, and then the sound of the door opening, the door had been locked by me from the inside, and Ye'er couldn't open the door at all. Ye'er shouted to me to open the door in the direction of my room, and after shouting several times, I finally got up and opened the door. Ye'er angrily asked me why I locked the door, I just replied coldly, this is the first chance for you, you either change or move out of this house, anyway, we are not a legal husband and wife, if you still do this, I will lock the door from the inside in the future.
Ye'er saw that my attitude was a little tough, so she didn't argue with me, and just washed and rested by herself.