But when I was a very small boy, how old was I? It seems like when you were seven or eight years old? At that time, I was still relatively happy, compared to my younger brothers and sisters, my childhood was very warm and happy, because my grandparents were still alive at that time, and I lived with my grandparents every day at home, and where did my parents go? I don't know where my parents went, but I was sensible and told me that my parents were doing business outside, they were very hard, and my grandparents instilled a concept in me since I was a child, that is, my parents' work is very hard, so I want to be kind to my parents, I am very glad that your grandparents have at least gone to elementary school with the company, and my younger brothers and sisters are not as lucky as me, when they are born or are sensible one after another, grandparents have passed away one after another, and only our three children are left in the family, of course, there are nanniesMore often than not, the nanny actually embodies like a subordinate, just cooks for us every day, serves us laundry and eats, and the others he never tells us anything, we grew up in such a family environment.

After I went to primary school, I found more and more that my parents seemed to have arranged everything for us early, where do we need to go to school? To what extent do you need to learn? What do we need to learn? These are all arranged for us by our parents too early, but the more this is the case, the more I feel very uncomfortable in my heart, why should my life be arranged by others, why can't my own life be controlled by myself? I had to be told by my parents for the rest of my life, and this sense of rebellion came to me when I was 16 years old

When I was 16 years old, maybe it was the most exciting year in my life, at least the most exciting year before I met Li Peng, I was supposed to go to high school that year, in order to resist my parents with a few hundred dollars, I ran away from home, and my parents kept telling us that the reason why he was jealous that we would have such a superior life today was because they were constantly busy outside, and the reason why they kept busy outside was to give us these superior lives, and this reason obviously couldn't convince me at the age of 16. After getting off the train, I looked at the little money left, Beijing is a strange city to me, although many of the family's businesses are in Beijing, this city is clear to me, I never live in Beijing, because we are typical southern children

Before I came to Beijing, I was full of confidence and longing, thinking that I could rely on my own hands to work hard in Beijing, my own future, but the reality soon let me fight, dragged in the city of Beijing, I can only live in the cheapest house, when taking a bath, I can only go to the kind of big bathhouse that costs five yuan once, dozens of people stand under the shower to take a shower, my uncle has been pampered since childhood, I really can't stand such an environment, and I have been looking for a long time, In the end, I only found a job serving dishes in a restaurant, although this job was very unseemly for me, but at least he could let me solve the problem of food and clothing, the kind of rebellion when I was young, so that I would rather suffer a lot than compromise with my parents, until one day, I carried the plate to the guest's table, but then I was caught, and was splashed in my face by the guest with a glass of beer, I seem to always remember that feeling, you were beered in the cold winter, down my head, even in the indoor air-conditioned place, It still makes me feel very cold

Because of the wrong dish to the guest, I tasted the feeling of being insulted for the first time since I was a child, I don't like that feeling, but I am also unwilling to compromise with my parents, I always feel that I have other ways, I can get the life I want to live, I realized the importance of money for the first time, but there is no money in Beijing, you can't even want to eat what you want to eat, I began to mingle in nightclubs and bars, this seems to be the place where all rich people like to mingle, If I used to be a consumer, I probably appeared on such occasions as a consumer, but now I can only wear dresses that look decent, but those dresses are really hard and piercing, because only in this case can I survive in this environment, and only in this environment can I appreciate the importance of money to me

It was also here that I first met the first relationship in my life, many years later, whether it was my subordinates or my relatives, they all thought that I was someone who would not love anyone, in fact, many years ago, I had the experience of being too active in loving people, it was the first girl I met in my life, like me, he worked as a waitress in that bar, he was three years older than me, I was 16 years old, he was 19 years old, but at that time, he was the best thing in the world for meMaybe I met many women who were better looking than her later, but the first love was always so unforgettable, and I also had one

I really think I remember that girl had the simplest ponytail, wearing the simplest clothes, when she didn't go to work, the two of us always walked on the road holding hands, he would often lean on my shoulder, ask me Li Rui, when can we become rich, I always encouraged him, said soon, soon we will become very rich, I once thought, for this girl to go home to compromise with his parents, and continue to be with him, but when I tried to get money from my parents, My parents always tell me that instead of letting go of their dignity and asking us for money now, why don't you take a look at the girl you like, what kind of person is it? I didn't expect my parents to refuse my compromise, I tried to compromise with my parents, and was willing to return to my parents' arrangement and enter the company to work, so that I could get a lot of money, but my parents knew that I was because of a woman, and when they did this, they actually rejected me, I have to say, my parents' advance ability is still very strong

In fact, many times I have forgotten what the girl's real name is? I only remember that I always called her Fei'er, it's really strange, the person I loved so much before, after many years, I can't even remember his name, and when I have to be with me, I am a person who is very obsessed with money, but the environment that I have been in contact with since I was a child makes me feel that I am very obsessed with women, and I am not a very dangerous person? At that time, the two of us were each doing their own work, and the task was to order songs and deliver drinks to those who consumed in the bar every day, and my task was more often to be a pick-up at the door, it seemed that the two of us had nothing to do with each other, but when we were at work, we would always pass by my side, and then gently tug my little finger The group was opened, which was the happiest thing for me, and working in the bar always had to keep in contact with all kinds of women, except for Fei'a, There are still many women in the bar, some are here to consume, and naturally there is the nature of work in the bar, and those women who stay there seem to make money much easier than Feiya, they only need to wear them every day, and they can make a lot of money by walking around in those factories to show their figures, naturally, although they drink boiled water, and they are drinking, their alcohol consumption is very good, after entering the night club, I realized that women in the world always drink much better than men, and sometimes it looks like men are already drunk, but women can continue to talk and laugh calmly

At that time, I naively thought that at least Fei and I were clean, in fact, not only girls, but also many boys who made money by selling their bodies in the night club, but I would never want to do that, my body is noble, how can it be defiled in such a place? I think Fia is the cleanest girl in this environment, because he never accepts those men's teasing for money, and even because he has to refuse the customer's kindness several times, the manager's criticism, what if then? This is such a peaceful era, no one can force us to do anything, I personally remember one day the manager pointed to Fei's head and said, one day you will find yourself a fool, let go of the opportunity to make a lot of money, do not let go, just to be the hardest waiter, you will regret it, let you regret it, you will find that you regret it too late

I naturally know what the manager means by this sentence? He hopes to be like Feiya and become the other women, walking around the night market in those revealing clothes every day, relying on his young and beautiful body, earning easy money, putting down the preparation for drinking, and holding the drinking glass, which seems to be the way women can make money

I don't know if I have to be moved, I just know that it didn't take long before I suddenly asked me one day, Li Rui, have you ever drunk? In fact, when I was at home, I drank alcohol, and our family never rejected the culture of alcohol, and I told me that I had to drink alcohol, and I slept hard to tell me if I could make a lot of money by drinking? I don't know why I was a little scared in my heart at that moment, I was afraid of losing my sleep, or I was afraid of losing her innocence, that day at Feiya's begging, I bought two bottles of liquor, the cheapest liquor, I opened a bottle with Fei Press, did not pour it into the wine glass, and drank a large sip of liquor directly with the bottle, the heart of the face was red, but after drinking a sip of wine, I had to smile, it turned out that the wine was not very difficult to drink, just a little spicy, I don't know if it was a habit to drink, In the future, I will feel that it is not a spicy thing, I seem to feel that there is something unspeakable in this way, but he didn't tell me, after I went home that night, I received a text message from Feiya to me, not surprisingly, naturally it was a breakup, the text message told me that she wanted to transfer those big money, I didn't know how to reply to Phil's text message, I couldn't see it again when I went to work the next day, the one wearing an ordinary shirt, what I saw was a perm with delicate curly hair, smeared with bright red lipstick, When Fei'er, who had a good figure with bare feet, passed by me very much, she would no longer quietly pull my fingers, as if she had never known me, he smiled and walked towards the guests, picked up the wine glass on the table and drank it on the table one by one, she herself did not like to drink the wine, from that day on, she had to become a woman who made money by drinking, he made more and more money, and I seemed to have only become a passerby in his life, she never looked at me again

In fact, at that time I should have left, but maybe the first love is always stubborn, at that time I was reluctant to leave me, always felt that one day it would return to my side, until one day, the manager sent someone to send me to the guests of the box to deliver drinks, when I pushed open the door of the box, found that the rags were flying, sitting on the lap of a strange man, at that moment, my heart seemed to be completely awake, I rushed over angrily and pulled away lung cancer, It was a beating at that man, of course, my beating was in exchange for beating me more seriously, and even being beaten to the point that the corners of my mouth were bloody, but it was very difficult, I thought Phil would intercede for me, but from beginning to end I was very supportive and dumbfounded, and finally I was completely sober. It turns out that money is so important in this world, and Dongyuan's decision to have money to get so many parents has always been right. Although they were not with us, he had the money to get so many parents, and his decision was always right. Although they are not with us, they are something we can't spend all our lives, and that's enough

Because I was beaten severely, I had to be hospitalized, when I was hospitalized, I had to be by my side, with a day, he told me that he owed me, just use today, all the time, I have to have something to have a relationship with me, but I refused, for me to find that the lungs at this time are no longer worthy of me, he is not even qualified to be my plaything, I called my parents to tell me, I want to go home, my parents just smiled and told me after hearing it, you finally understand, this society is actually very good

But I made a small request like my parents, if I successfully appeared as a rich person, Fei, after my parents heard the news, they just helplessly told me that it was not necessary

My parents thought it was too naïve for me to get revenge on Phil, and it took me many years to understand that the reason why my parents thought I was naïve was actually really naïve.