If the childhood Ruge is still ignorant, the young Ruge has learned how to relieve her emotions, she secretly wrote a girl's diary, vented all her emotions into the diary, and she wrote five thick diaries before being admitted to college. The main character in the diary is still Jin Bo, and although they are no longer in the same class, she can still learn some news about him through her elementary school friend Hongmei, and although they don't even see each other, she is still full of him. In such a state, although Ruge's academic performance is still very good, but she has obvious bias, mathematics scores are unbeatable, far ahead of other subjects, although Jin Bo no longer asks her for math problems, but the habit is too terrible, terrible to stop, and finally in the college entrance examination Ruge's math score scored 145 points (out of 150) high score, she was admitted to a well-known seaside university in the province, it is said that the school is only one road away from the seaside. And her elementary school classmates Jin Na and Hongmei chose to drop out of school early because of their bad grades and became working girls in the factory, and Jin Bo was only admitted to a three-year vocational school.

At the suggestion of her father, Ruge chose a law major that is said to have good job prospects, and took the green train alone, and finally arrived in this seaside city after nearly 10 hours of bumpy ride. After getting off the train, with a heavy suitcase, Ruge got on the seaside sightseeing double-decker bus that went directly to the school, she chose the upper deck, with a wide view, and the bus drove slowly on the seaside asphalt road, and she saw the sea for the first time. On that day, the sea breeze was particularly strong, and the waves were coming, slapping the reef on the shore one after another, as if they were going to break through the reef and rush to the bus, and the people watching were thrilled, this kind of scene was new to Ruge from the town, she was a little excited, and she was also full of anticipation for the upcoming college life.

The bus stopped at the school, and she walked into the beautiful university campus with the freshmen who got off the bus one after another, and found the freshman registration place after the enthusiastic guidance of the seniors. The new senior enthusiastically took her to report, assigned the dormitory, received the bedding, and finally settled down after some tossing and turning.

She was a little nervous, after all, when she arrived in a new place, it was inevitable to feel insecure. And she found that the seniors here are all speaking pure Mandarin, such as songs without formal Mandarin training, speaking with a hometown accent, and the speed of speech is too fast, easy to make people not understand, several times, she is a little afraid to speak, and the roommates are also a little timid, 6 roommates, only she and another slightly older girl are from the province, and the speech is also a little accent, the other 4 are all outside the province, Mandarin is also about to pass, in order to communicate smoothly with everyone, not to be ridiculed by others for the lame pronunciation, In the first three months, Ruge practiced Mandarin hard, in a place where no one was, she read articles aloud, talked to herself, and after three months, she was able to speak pure Mandarin, and the language finally passed, and Ruge gradually adapted to university life.

When she finally mustered up the courage to join various associations in the university, she found that she had no expertise except for her academic performance, and the result can be imagined, none of the associations accepted her. On a college campus with many outstanding classmates, she was even more reticent, and she didn't have the courage to participate in the class committee election. The only academic performance she took out was because of the boring major, coupled with the relaxed learning environment of the university, which became more and more ordinary, and coupled with her mediocre appearance, she became more and less confident.

She was taught a new teacher who had just graduated from graduate school, and he was ordinary-looking, wearing a pair of heavy black-rimmed glasses, dressed plainly, and was a little stumbling and not very confident when he first started teaching. Ruge judged that he should also be the golden phoenix who came out of the town, in college days, his family was poor, his appearance was ordinary, his academic performance was ordinary, he was an ordinary student who couldn't be ordinary, like Ruge now.

In college, most people are not rich, and life is embarrassing, and Ruge is even more so, in addition to her ordinary family background, she has no good same-sex friends who are taciturn, because she has always had Jin Bo in her heart, and she has not talked about her boyfriend, and she can't solve the depression in her heart just by writing a diary, and most of her college life is gloomy.

It's not that she didn't want to change in the past, and she also tried to let go of Jin Bo and accept an ordinary male classmate who had a crush on her and was like herself, at least someone shared her life experience with her, and she could also dispel the loneliness in her heart, but Jin Bo was like a thorn growing on her body, and it hurt if she wanted to pull it out, maybe Jin Bo's image in her heart was too beautiful, and she couldn't catch up with her ordinary self in her life, so she wanted to have, not add an ordinary self. Ordinary chasing is beautiful, and when she still has the strength to chase, she is afraid that she will desperately want to get it, even if it is like a brilliant fireworks set off in the night sky, she can only have it temporarily.

During the college vacation, Ruge returned to the town, and she mustered up the courage to ask someone to ask Jin Bo to meet her, but Jin Bo came to see her, but his tone was cold and detached from her. Ruge's heart is like a knife, she just wants to see him, and she has no other requirements, so many years of fellow villagers, even an ordinary friend shouldn't be treated like this! Perhaps, Jin Bo knows that Ruge has been silently liking him, and he has nothing to fear.

The first official meeting between Ruge and Jin Bo greatly hit her already fragile and fragile heart, and she asked herself over and over again: Can't this bit of beauty in her heart be kept? Such a pitiful and humble life is so painful, but, as the eldest daughter, she was the pride of her father, a role model for her younger siblings, she can't let herself sink, she still has responsibilities, her parents rely on her, her younger siblings love her, she can only be strong, force herself to cut off the faint silk thread connected to Jin Bo's body like silk threads, she burned all the diaries related to Jin Bo with tears, for a man who doesn't care about herself, she lost almost all the emotions for so many years, it's not worth it, it's okay, It's not too late to wake up.

Except for Jin Bo's incident, the holiday life is still happier than the school, and the warmth of the family gradually warms the heart of the song. The father who was running around came back specially to bring good things for her mother to make for her, and even he personally cooked some dishes that Ruge loved to eat, and the younger brothers and sisters were also well-behaved and cute, especially the youngest brother was a sister, called Ruge's heart was crispy, needed, loved, and recognized by people It feels so good.

Ruge made up her mind that even if she was ordinary, she still had the courage to pursue her dreams, even if it was for the ardent expectations of her family, she would be a better version of herself.