After finding a hotel near the blessed land of Jinhua, He Zhiyuan went home to pick up his things. Two sets of clothes and a few daily necessities in the crossbody bag are enough. After packing his things, he knocked on his son's door.

"Dad will give you a few words." At eleven o'clock, He Zhiyuan sat on the edge of his son's bed with a heavy sweat and a solemn face.

"Huh?" The boy who had just stopped his homework and was about to go to bed moved his legs and let his father sit down.

"Dad...... I plan to go out and live for a while...... "He Zhiyuan was extremely slow, and the boy froze when he heard it, holding his breath, and couldn't believe it.

"Stay in a hotel tonight, and go find a house tomorrow. I...... Go out for a while and be quiet. The middle-aged man stiffened his head and pursed his lips and finished sentence by sentence.

Tsai Tsai was stretched in mid-air, motionless, not knowing how to respond, remembering what had just happened.

"Don't think about it. That one...... When your mom comes back, you follow her! I'll turn it off when I go out later...... Dad just wants to be quiet. ”

Zhiyuan looked at his son pleadingly, and Tsai nodded and lowered his head.

In silence, He Zhiyuan put his hand on the back of his son's hand and patted it.

This one is a beat, and the father's eyes are full of tears.

"Boy, you're older...... Take care of your sister more, don't talk back to your grandfather, and be considerate of your mother. ”

The middle-aged man brushed away the tears in his eyes, quickly got up to open the door, and left with his bag.

Tsai Zai sat on the bed for a long, long time, and in an instant, the boy probably reacted - Dad was going to separate from them. He couldn't figure it out for a while, so he went out of the room to look at his grandfather who was sitting on the rocking chair on the balcony as always, and went to Yangyang's room to secretly look at his sleeping sister, everything was the same as before. It's business as usual, why is Dad leaving?

The sixteen-year-old boy sat on the sofa in the empty living room, and his doubts were even more sad. He tried to recall what happened after the sauerkraut fish and the sauerkraut fish, as if he didn't hear his grandfather and father arguing, but his sister was crying, and then crying...... The boy sat there thinking, and memories came flooding back like waves. The family seemed to have changed since the grandfather arrived, and the boy went one by one to discover the changes in each of them—the good and the bad, the intense, the slow, the happy and the painful, until he thought about it after midnight.

Grandpa went to bed early, and Mom hadn't gotten off work at this time, and Tsai was lying on the sofa and fell asleep unconsciously.

Push open the door and turn on the light, orange and yellow lights, light and fragrant air, beige brand new curtains, spotless floors, and white walls hung with long landscape paintings...... The room of more than ten square meters is empty and deserted. Nothing here belongs to him, and nothing can entangle or friction with him. He Zhiyuan put down his bag and sat down on the white sheets of the hotel relaxedly.

He felt twenty years younger, but at forty-five, he could not bear such strangeness, youth, and emptiness. At the age of forty-five, he could not afford to be so young and relaxed. However, he categorically did not want to stay at home, he could not stay any longer. The room made him feel depressed and breathless.

Everything that happened in the house made him feel unlucky, angry, incomprehensible, and sad...... The wife has stomach bleeding for work and is running around without home; The daughter was bitten by a wild cat and injured by a classmate; My son is obsessed with videos and has eye problems; I missed the deadline of more than 400,000 words, couldn't get a new one, got an unsatisfactory ending for my unsatisfactory work, and I could overturn the whole basin by eating a sauerkraut fish! Where did the many bad luck in life come from, rushing to this time with all their hearts, rubbing them with all their hearts, embarrassing him without bending, and designing him!

It is unavoidable to say that the arrival of my father-in-law accelerated all this happening, and the big silent resentment was blocked in my heart and fermented, so I have today. He Zhiyuan was very sober, if he didn't be quiet outside, he really didn't know what kind of serious thing he would do or make him regret. He just wants to catch his breath, be quiet, live a quiet life without noise and distractions, and then think and worry about it in this quiet, and pray that he will get something in the end.

"How do you sleep here?" At one o'clock in the evening, Gui Ying came back from work and saw her son sleeping on the sofa and almost fell down.

"Huh? Uh......" Tsai Tsai rubbed his eyes and woke up, looked at his phone and replied, "Mom, you're back so late!" ”

"Don't you go to school? What are you sleeping here for! Gui Ying roared softly.

"My dad...... Go out and live, let me talk to you. After sitting upright, he leaned on the sofa with both hands, probed his mother, and then lowered his head.

"Going out to live? Where to? Gui Ying was puzzled.

"Hotel, he's looking for a house."

Seeing his mother staring in surprise and opening her mouth but not speaking, Tsai Tsai added: "My dad wants to be quiet for a while." ”

After being sluggish for a long time, Gui Ying quietly asked her son, "Did you quarrel again?" Is something going on? ”

"It's not noisy...... We ate sauerkraut fish, and a pot of soup from that sauerkraut fish fell to the ground...... At eight or nine o'clock I heard Yang Yang crying...... My dad talked to me at eleven o'clock...... I don't know, I didn't hear the big noise anyway. Tsai muttered.

Gui Ying was stunned, lowered her head and said coldly to her son: "You have to go to school tomorrow, go to sleep." ”

"Mom, are you alright?" Tsai Tsai is distressed.

"It's okay, you...... When are the midterm exams? ”

"Tomorrow morning."

"Then let's get some rest! Hurry up, hurry up! ”

Gui Ying pulled the sheet in her son's hand, sent her son into his room, and watched him sleep, the woman who was so tired that she collapsed had nowhere to go, so she fell to the place where her son had just slept and left residual warmth. I drove back with a yawn along the way, and I just wanted to sleep next to my husband and sleep steadily, and such a wish was always difficult to achieve.

It is undeniable that the arrival of the old man has changed her life, but the old man is just a little weird, a little anxious, and a little stronger, he is a good person, a good person, and a warm-hearted person in his heart.

The contradiction or rift caused by outsiders does not exist when the third person disappears or does not appear, it is simply submerged. Gui Ying didn't understand, but she was helpless and sad. In the first half of her life, she was most proud of her relationship with He Zhiyuan, who would have thought that the entanglement would be so fragile.

Gui Ying was angry with him, so angry that his stomach was bulging and tears flowed. Knowing that he is now in the busiest time of the year, less than ten years away, why did he leave at this time. Gui Yingqi is not tactful and smart enough, he doesn't know how to be light and humorous, he always resists the old man with a heavy appearance, and he can't even fool the old woman and coax the old man to spare him; When he encountered a problem, he didn't communicate or open his mouth like a mute, and asked her to guess like a cold stone man, and she was too tired to guess anymore when she was tired of guessing; Gui Ying was angry that he didn't say hello, and he was so indifferent that he left as soon as he left......

In the face of overload of work, she has been holding on for days, and in the face of various contradictions at work, she has been carrying it herself, Ma Guiying, who has long been fragile and immovable, hopes that someone can comfort her at this time, encourage her, and give her the confidence and strength to face disorder and disorder again. She couldn't find anyone but her children. The old man always acted according to his logic, and never considered other feelings or opinions in his life. As a husband, He Zhiyuan? When he was high-minded, Gui Ying's world was unimpeded, and if he was indifferent and decisive, then her world would come to a stagnation.

Forty-year-old Ma Guiying has a lot to say about life. She just wants to be able to hug her when she is so tired that she can't speak, rippling today's troubles, and Zaizai's strange things yesterday; When she longed for the full moon, he could take her hand and walk downstairs and on the road, looking for the shadow of the bright moon; She hoped that when life was so stressful that she could insomnia, he could give her a few words of comfort, praise, and encouragement...... Gui Ying lifted the soaked clothes on her chest and wiped the tears from her nose.

The sad Ma Guiying found a cigarette from home, went to the balcony to find the old man's lighter, sat on the old man's rocking chair, took off his narrow high heels, exposed a few swollen feet, lit the cigarette and smoked it alone. The left hand holding the cigarette gently removed the tears from the bridge of his nose with his vertical thumb, and then continued to smoke in large gulps. The smoke curled like the light soul of her dreams.

Who wouldn't want to flee from the heavy days of this chaff?

She also wanted to see the sea—the quiet sea, even once, and she was alone, lying on the beach, half lying down. Whenever she felt that life could not move forward, she always wanted to see the sea, always wanted to smoke a cigarette, and always wanted to find a quiet place to sleep...... But not once in all these years has not one been achieved. So she didn't bother to hope because she knew it couldn't be done. Ma Guiying's picture in this life is nothing more than two things - happiness and peace of mind.

In this family, he He Zhiyuan is not the only one who is homesick, filial, and runs to Hunan at every turn, Gui Ying also wants to go back to the place where she was born when she is homesick. Stay on the quiet hillside, see the crops growing tenaciously one acre after acre in the hometown, see the grass on the slope of the hometown spreading one by one, and see the unique cauliflower golden and thousands of miles of wheat rolling in Majiatun Spring...... Since she left her hometown, she hasn't been back—literally. All kinds of reasons stand in front of you, and if you leave home one day, it will be difficult to return home.

After leaving her hometown, she never saw the living acacia flowers, the yellow-green and slightly sweet elm leaves, and the white buds after the Lantern Festival...... After leaving her hometown, she never ate her favorite gourd-like sweet melon, the unique spicy soup at the market, and the rolls that her mother made for her when she was a child...... After leaving her hometown, she never saw the paulownia flowers in her hometown, the crows in her hometown, the ravines and ravines in her hometown, the wind, birds, snow, hail, and dogtail grass in her hometown...... There are also the second uncle, third aunt, brothers and sisters in their hometown, and the villagers who are covered in swarthy clothes and holding hoes under the scorching sun......

He who can heal her ears can also heal her heart; But what pollutes her ears pollutes her heart. The bullneck copper bell is hoarse all the way, the rain falls and the iron basin clicks, the hummingbird yard is busy in March, and the west wall of the cricket is also welcoming in October. Majiatun - a village in the shape of a turtle's back with a ravine, a loess wall surrounded by fields in all directions - Ma Guiying used to hate the most, but when she was too tired to move, she missed it bizarrely. The closer she gets to the age of forty, the more she fantasizes about a home she can return to her hometown.

Gui Ying once wanted to collect a handful of wheat ears from her hometown - the ears of wheat at the end of April and the beginning of May, the ears of wheat with the dust of her hometown, the ears of wheat full of the pulse of the loess in the four seasons, and the ears of wheat that can bring her peace of mind...... She planned to dry it herself, and put it at the head of her bed, in the best vase she could possibly have, and put it in the most precious and safe place at the head of the bed. It's ridiculous that something as simple as it can never be achieved, so she will never bring it up. Over time, she became a person who would not make demands for herself, and all her energy was spent on coping with other requests.

The happiness and tranquility she wants, smoking, fantasizing, got it! Never mind! That's it!

When someone in the company calculates her, doesn't she want to run away? When she was named and criticized by the leader, didn't she want to run away? When the pressure is so high that she turns around in the office and cries, doesn't she want to run away?

Escaping and escaping is the easiest and always the first option, and life should not choose the simplest and easiest, because life is never simple. What kind of life you choose, life will give you what kind of ending.

Looking at the night scene outside the window, Gui Ying thought of He Zhiyuan who left her, resentful and sad.

Recently, she has had a terrible headache and insomnia. Gui Ying clearly noticed that her body was no longer energetic, and her spirit was not so relaxed and relaxed. She always felt the pressure in her teeth, her brows furrowed, and occasionally she would wake up at two or three o'clock at night for no apparent reason, and she couldn't sleep again. Her scalp — from the left ear to the right ear, from the top of her head to the back of her head — was always sore here and there. Her forehead, which stretched from her eyebrows to her hairline, was as bare as her second brother's, forever wrinkled or taut. When she went to bed at night, she couldn't help but get up suddenly when there was news of work, and as a result, she didn't feel sleepy at all; Recently, I woke up early and felt my heart beating rapidly from time to time.

When I was thirty-six or seventeen years old, I had learned to squat slowly, get up slowly, turn around slowly, and walk slowly when drunk. Is this the old Peugeot? Ma Guiying didn't dare to speculate, or she didn't dare to think about the answer. Her liver was mildly to moderately damaged, her body was so weak that she could breathe after a few steps, and she relied on coffee or strong tea to support her hard work......

She is often afraid that she will fall, the kind of fall that she can never get up again, just like her mother - she died suddenly from exhaustion, fainted and died after drinking, and died in a car accident on the road...... Ma Guiying, who looks as fierce as a mountain, is really so bold in her heart, so she buys expensive accident insurance for herself every year, and the beneficiary column always says He Zhiyuan. In order to provide a guarantee for this family, she did not dare to stop working, working, working.

In the past, Ma Guiying would be happy when she encountered problems at work, thinking that the opportunity to show herself had come; But now, the intricate contradictions are intertwined, and she can't cope with it. In order to sign the order successfully, she endured all kinds of unpleasant words from tricky customers, she didn't know how many disgusting and disgusting words she had at the wine table, and she didn't know what she had forced herself to do in order to support her family......

In the scorching workplace, you are working, and people are going to work.

Several times when she was tired and collapsed, Gui Ying came up with a funny idea - she wanted to listen to Qin opera, such as at this moment. The thoughts that flashed in her mind were so strange that the tearful woman was amused by her own thoughts, because she didn't understand Qin Yan drama at all. However, once the melody entered her ears, she naturally felt a kind of relaxation, like a quirk brought by her mother's womb, as if the Qin dialect had some kind of healing function for the people of Shaanxi.

Life can't be perfect, since she has been given the ability and ambition, pattern and path, just fight. It has been determined, so why should I be wronged. Emotional problems are moved and put away, He Zhiyuan wants to be quiet, then let him be quiet. Ma Guiying believes in the relationship between the two of them for nearly 20 years, believes in the stability of the family they have built with their hearts, and believes that she will not have emotional problems and the marriage will not go on.

After a few cigarettes, Gui Ying went to change her shoes, and then went back to her room to sleep. She couldn't cry anymore tonight, because Akiichi's overwork didn't require a pair of red and swollen eyes to face. She can no longer have insomnia, she can no longer be fragile, and she can no longer complain, be wronged, calculate, and cry to fate...... Strong and self-confident are like inherited genes, and Gui Ying's tenacity is the same as that of an old horse.

Early on Monday morning, the old horse got up at six o'clock, as usual, and then admired the brilliant morning glow in the unique incense of the northwest tobacco leaves, tore off the old yellow calendar of yesterday, and the old man went to wash up leisurely, and he sent off his daughter and grandson in his kind eyes. At seven-twenty-o'clock, when it was time to wake Yangyang up, he went to the girl's house with a basin and some clean water, and washed her hair in all directions, according to the old way, and poured water on her swaying hair, and then combed her hair and washed her face with all her heart—and at this time the princess would open her bright eyes.

"Awake?" The old horse helped Yangyang up.

When she sat down, the old man lifted the thin quilt and was about to pull her out of bed, when he suddenly saw two or three urine stains on the sheets, and there were also a large patch of pajamas and thin quilts on his body.

"Good fellows! How much water did you drink last night! Are you from the Dragon King family of the East China Sea? Pee like this! My lord, you pee more than I do! The old horse roared, and the people woke up completely.

When I touched it, the sheets and quilts were still wet, and the old man quickly pulled off the thin quilt and sheets. Usually changing Yangyang's clothes is Zhiyuan changing, but at this moment the old man remembered that he hadn't seen He Zhiyuan this morning, and when he went to the room to look for him, he realized that he was not there. The old horse wondered in his heart, remembering that he didn't go out in the morning. There is only one old man left in the family, and the time for the child to go to school is very urgent, so the old horse has no choice but to command himself and let Yangyang change his clothes. Fortunately, the four-and-a-half-year-old doll is worthy of its heavy responsibilities and can take it off and wear it. In this way, after the old horse stepped up to clean up, he took the child out of the house.

He Zhiyuan stepped on the dot and went home, moved out of the box, and packed up the things he lived outside. I never thought of leaving, but now I have to leave. The middle-aged man quickly searched for things and stuffed them into boxes at random. Last night, I tossed and turned all night, thinking that he wouldn't care too much, but when he cleaned up his things today, even a towel and socks in his hand hurt in his heart. He thought that he didn't need much to live alone, but when he cleaned up at this moment, he realized the difficulties and sorrows. The more you take away, the more you will keep a souvenir, Zhiyuan thought of this, closed the box cleanly, and licked her tears and went out.

"Auntie, can I go in for a while? Look at a classmate, she is sick, I brought her chicken soup, at most half an hour! At half past nine in the morning, during the recess, Chen Luo came to the aunt in charge of the girls' dormitory with a can of chicken soup.

"Student ID!" The dormitory manager held the pen and reached out for the documents.

"Give!"

"Half an hour, not more!" The chubby dormitory aunt saw him with hot soup and let him in.

Carrying chicken soup, Chen Luo strode to the girls' dormitory building where Zhong Xuemei was, and went up the stairs to Zhong Xuemei's dormitory in one step. After knocking on the door, he identified himself outside.

When Xuemei heard that her senior brother was coming, she chuckled in her heart, she was really not suitable for seeing people in pajamas and unkempt.

"Senior brother, do you have something to do?" Xuemei asked in the dormitory.

"I heard that you had a cold, so I ordered you a chicken soup and two cold medicines." Chen Luo, who was separated by a door, replied in the corridor.

"Uh...... That one...... I...... Wait a minute! "Knowing that Senior Brother is kind, if it is too cruel to drive people away, Xuemei hurriedly got out of bed, dressed and freshened up.

Seven or eight minutes later, the door opened, and the two men met with scratching their cheeks.

"I'm not going in, you girls can't get into the dormitory, I'll give it to you here." Chen Luo was worried that he would be inconvenienced by a big boy entering the girls' dormitory.

"Uh...... That's it. ”

Zhong Xuemei took the things that Chen Luo was holding, listened to him introduce the functions of the two medicines, and then asked, "How do you know that I am sick?" ”

"You were in the morning jurisprudence class, I met Guan Yingying in Building No. 4, and when I saw that you weren't there, I asked by the way, and then I knew that you were sick."

"Thank you, brother. It rained as a tutor yesterday......" Zhong Xuemei was a little twisted.

"Girls pay attention, Chongqing's atmosphere is different from Guangdong's, it rains at every turn, and umbrellas are a must." Seeing that Zhong Xuemei's face was pale and her thoughts were not good, Chen Luo turned the conversation and said, "That junior sister...... I can't talk any more, in this girl's dormitory...... It's inconvenient and doesn't affect you well. How about going to the North Restaurant for dinner at noon? ”

"Uh...... Hmm......" Zhong Xuemei, who originally wanted to make instant noodles and then fall asleep, didn't know how to answer.

"If it's inconvenient for you, I'll send you some food, you can't skip eating if you have a cold."

"Uh...... At lunchtime, the students came back from class, if you want to come......"

"Then let's go to the restaurant to eat together, I've already thought about what to order for you along the way!" Chen Luo stared at Xuemei's eyes from beginning to end.

"Okay. I'll be waiting for you at half past twelve at the entrance of the North Restaurant. ”

"Yes, yes!" Chen Luo, who had achieved his goal, was very happy, and left the girls' dormitory happily after saying goodbye.

When the old horse came back, He Zhiyuan had already left, and the old man always felt that there were some changes in his family but he didn't know where he had changed, and he wanted to ask where He Zhiyuan had gone, but there was no one to ask. The bored old man listened to a play in the rocking chair, and couldn't sit still when he remembered the rippling bedwetting. The child's sheets and mats were removed, and clothes and pillowcases were taken and thrown into the washing machine to be washed. The old man, who originally looked down on these tasks, saw that no one was doing them, so he could only do them, and he thought about washing and drying them early, and laying them clean when she went to bed at night, so that the children could sleep comfortably and refreshingly.

"Wonton, tomato eggs, preserved eggs and lean pork porridge, mixed noodles and ginger brown sugar rice wine soup!" Nineteen-year-old Chen Luo ran around the restaurant on the second floor, lining up one by one, and finally put together the meal he had imagined to deal with the cold.

"Senior brother, don't be so grand, I can't eat much!" Zhong Xuemei sat in the crowd of people, reserved and shy.

"It's okay, you can eat as much as you want, a cold is very draining to the body, and the energy must be replenished."

Two people are separated by a half-meter-wide table, chatting a few words, eating a few bites, occasionally looking at each other and smiling, occasionally making a joke, and occasionally bowing their heads and being silent...... The burning feelings burst into romantic colorful sparks between the two, and they didn't say anything to each other, but they were deeply involved

After a brief lunch, the two went for a walk around campus.

"How are you feeling now?" Chen Luo asked Xuemei.

"Still dizzy and sleepy, maybe it's the effect of cold medicine. My nose is a lot better, and I don't cough anymore, I guess - it's almost better. ”

"That's good."

Walking through a peach forest, the two went to the Grand Canyon lookout pavilion behind the campus. A big tall man with thick eyebrows and big eyes, and a slender man with ice muscles and jade bones. The two of them sat on the red bench in Huating, looking down on the style of the valley, with joy in their eyes and clear in their hearts. The valley wind blows the willow leaves, fine bamboos, and autumn flowers around them, and the scene is indescribably beautiful. The girl stared at the verdant valley, remembered the family affairs, and lost her mind. The young man's eyes facing the bottom of the valley peeked at the beauty, she liked him and was happy, and he was worried about him.

When the valley wind came from the north, the beauty sighed softly and coughed softly.

"Isn't it uncomfortable to be windy here?" Chen Luo, who was sitting half a meter away, immediately asked.

"It's not!" Xuemei shook her head, frowned, and was silent.

"What's wrong? Unhappy or uncomfortable? ”

"Some people are unhappy when they're uncomfortable, some people are uncomfortable when they're not upset, and some people often separate the two."

"So junior sister...... Which one are you? ”

"The third one." Xuemei glanced back at Chen Luo's eyes.

"Then you're not happy right now...... Or are you particularly unwell? ”

"It's all there."

"Why aren't you happy?" Chen Luo turned diagonally and stared at Xuemei.

Xuemei shook her head, turned to look at the valley, and was silent for a long time.

Chen Luo wanted to hold her hand and even hug her into his arms to give her warmth and encouragement, but his reputation was not right, he was not fat, his heart was not ruthless, and he could only look at her who was also depressed and distracted.

"Me and my dad...... It's been a long time since I spoke......" Turning around and blinking, Zhong Xuemei, who was suddenly in tears, looked up at her with a sad look on her face, the only person who could speak in her heart in this strange place.