Zhiyuan and Tsai Tsai peeked at the old man, only to see him sit up straight suddenly, slam his cherished hookah to the ground with all his strength, and scolded Gui Ying in his mouth: "Fuck, what are you doing here!" When Lao Ma said this, the first half of the sentence was a lion's roar - loud and rough, and the second half of the sentence was a tiger's groan - and his voice was instantly hoarse.

Boom Boom Boom Boom ...... The hookah rolled on the ground a few times. Zhiyuan and Gui Ying were so frightened that their shoulders flashed back, their bodies trembled, and Tsai was so frightened that he held his head in his hands and raised his knees. When the hookah stopped, the young man's sharp eyes saw a few cracks on the floor where the hookah had fallen.

The four of them were stunned for a while, the old horse panted and stared at Gui Ying, He Zhiyuan, who had done a lot of physical work and was tired to the point of collapse, was completely awake at this time, and quickly bent down and reached out to pick up the hookah on the ground, and then bent over in front of his father-in-law and explained to his wife in a basket of soft words, Zai Zai saw that his father and daughter hated each other, and hurriedly dragged his mother to the house, and a war was extinguished by the cold seawater.

He Zhiyuan sat next to the old man and didn't know how many gentle words and reasonable words, and the old horse's breathing calmed down a little. Seeing that Zhiyuan chattered for more than ten minutes, the old man got up and was about to leave the sofa to meditate on the rocking chair, who wanted to raise his body and sweep the afterglow to a person, and stood in his pants not far away and picked his nose - it turned out that the fall just now woke up Yangyang, and then there was no sound, and the baby slipped out of bed and was still bright! When I opened the door, I saw my father bending over and talking to my grandfather.

The old horse raised his hand and pointed to Yangyang to the west, signaling Zhiyuan to take care of the child, and Zhiyuan sent Yangyang back to the house to continue sleeping. When he came home from work yesterday, Yangyang fell asleep without his own company and coaxed him to sleep, and he slept very sweetly and sticky, and Zhiyuan was a little unaccustomed to it. I came back at ten o'clock today, and I was a little disappointed when I thought of this incident on the road, who thought that I would coax my daughter to sleep again this night, and the corners of my mouth were unconsciously curved. Three minutes later, when Yangyang fell asleep, Zhiyuan cleaned up the living room, and when he returned to his room, Zai was there, sitting next to his mother and playing with his mobile phone.

"It's not early, hurry up and go to sleep, I have to study in the morning tomorrow!" Zhiyuan sat beside his wife, holding Gui Ying's hand with his right hand to his son.

"I know!" Tsai Tsai glanced at his mother, stood up, moved from the east side of the bed to the west side of the bed, sat down quietly next to his father, covered his mouth and asked his father softly, "Just now...... the ...... Child, which uncle is moxibustion? ”

Zhiyuan took a deep breath, glanced at Gui Ying, and saw her sitting with her hands on her chest expressionlessly, judging from that expression, her anger had also disappeared a lot, so he turned his head to his son: "Uh...... It's your moxibustion. ”

"My uncle still has children!" He Yiming stretched out his head like a turtle stretched out his neck, and asked with a glare.

"Uh...... Not born! Nine months pregnant, you...... Your aunt...... Your ex-wife was in confinement at your grandfather's house at the time, probably negligently...... Anyway, I flowed to give! He Zhiyuan drooped his eyelids, not forgetting to sneak a look at Gui Ying's reaction.

"So! My uncle! I've been married! Tsai bit down on every word.

"What an oversight! It's that he has nothing to do, yin and yang are weird, the suspect eats picky, sits hypocritically in confinement, and doesn't take the problem seriously! It's a pity, you can't come back from working outside to make money when you're big neck, you're ...... That aunt was not in a good mental and physical state at the time, and your grandmother ...... Ay...... Anyway, the kid is gone! Gui Ying snatched the conversation, took out a piece of paper from the bedside table, pinched her nose and wiped her tears.

"Oh!" Tsai Tsai let out a long sigh, and that expression obviously hadn't digested such a big family matter.

"I've done it many times! What you think is just what you think! It's hard for Dad to deliberately harm that child! Zhiyuan frowned at Gui Ying, obviously he didn't agree with his wife's method.

"Am I the only one who thinks so? The second aunt and the neighbors on the left and right are like this! Gui Ying straightened up and raised her voice to correct it.

"Mom, be quiet! Don't let my grandfather hear me! Tsai Tsai stared at the door and curled his neck to remind.

"Humph! What am I afraid of! Don't you let others say anything about his mistakes! ”

"Tsk! Oops, don't you ...... You weren't at home at the time, and it was snowing in the winter to pull pregnant women out, so was that? Don't be blind! I've never heard his grandmother and my brother complain about anything anyway! Besides, if it's really like you, the person who blames yourself the most and feels the most guilty is Dad, he is seventy years old, and you still have to expose such a big scar! Yingying, what are you going to do? him off? ”

"Oops, I didn't control it just now! Besides, you want him to have no responsibility for this—how is it possible? Gui Ying also knew that she had gone too far, and she was a little remorseful at the moment.

"It's all gone! It was decades ago! Why bother! Look what you him off just now! If this is high blood pressure coronary heart disease or something, I'm afraid it will be planted on the spot! Thanks to the old man's good health! "Zhiyuan blames his wife.

Tsai sat on the side and shrugged his shoulders, listening very seriously, and when his parents were silent, he pulled the voice and said slowly: "Oh! I see! Can I share my opinion? I don't think my grandfather's attitude and feelings about this matter are definitely not simple, otherwise he wouldn't have smashed his favorite hookah! He and his hookah are going to follow him into the coffin in the future, and another time he and his hookah are going to donate them to the city as cultural relics! ”

"Humph! How much is a hookah worth? If your uncle's child had been here, he would be a few years older than you! Maybe college in the morning, you ...... My aunt didn't have an iron heart to divorce at that time! Hey, your uncle and your aunt are in love, and the relationship is very good! It's been many years since I've been divorced, and your uncle can't forget them, maybe he's still thinking about them! Pity your uncle, I haven't had a wife or a baby in 20 years......" Gui Ying patted the sheets here, crying silently.

"Alright, okay, don't cry!" Zhiyuan patted his wife's shoulder and comforted her.

"It's okay, in the future, I will give him a pension!" Although the young man is frivolous and does not know the hardships of life, his sincere commitment really made Gui Ying and Zhiyuan smile.

"Then you've got a lot of work! In addition to me and your father, your uncle, and your second uncle! Gui Ying burst into tears and laughed.

"It's okay, as long as I'm with your mother, it's not your turn, and when we're gone, you don't shirk when it's time for you to carry the burden!" Zhiyuan smiled and patted his son's shoulder.

The three of them sat together about the past, and there was warm hope flowing in their sorrow. The old man at that end was originally worried about Fan Weicheng's suicide, but he was pierced by Gui Ying's heart-piercing words, and he was instantly pulled to the vast old past Zheng

I can't remember how many years ago, but it's been almost thirty years. Before the Chinese New Year that year, Xingbang brought back a girl - big eyes and thick lips, high nose and wide ears, red cheeks and white skin, plaid jacket and loose pants, two braids on his chest, and a sweet smile on his lips when he saw people. Xingbang was a good friend when he was working in the city, and the two talked for more than half a year, and took advantage of the Chinese New Year Xingbang brought the woman back to Majiatun to live in two. At that time, Lao Ma realized that Xingbang and the girl were serious.

Regarding Xingbang's marriage, Lao Ma, who has always been dignified and thoughtful, has a set of plans. Originally, he wanted to wait for Xingbang to work better and make money, so he had the opportunity to show off in the village and in Fangyuan, and take advantage of the good news to do a good family business. After all, Ma Xingbang is the eldest grandson of the Ma family, and the marriage is not sloppy, and the old horse even counted the girls of the three or four families in advance, just waiting for the good news to catch up with the good days. Who would have thought, before his plan began, the "daughter-in-law" actually entered the door! The gossip in the village was still quite forgiving at that time, and the girl should have no tutor and was too casual, so she would enter the door of another house without saying a word, and the first time she entered the door, she slept on the same kang with Xingbang. Lao Ma knew that Xingbang was reckless and upright, but he didn't quite understand why the girl was so unorthodox when she first entered someone's house.

When a man marries a wife, he marries a reasonable and knowledgeable person, and the upper and lower generations are under the shadow of it; If you marry a gentle, kind, diligent and capable person, then the upper and lower generations will be in harmony because of their abundance; If you want to marry a spicy, unreasonable, lazy and sloppy person, the upper and lower generations must be restless, poor and sick. Xingbang's grandmother is a good example, when she was alive, she was a harmonious concubine and a harmonious descendant; Although Xingbang's mother is not as good as his grandmother, throughout her life, she is also selfless, diligent, and has no major mistakes. When it comes to Xingbang, if he marries an ignorant person, I'm afraid he will be doing a loss-making business all his life. Based on this, Lao Ma has always liked that girl from the first time they met to the future.

When the wheat was harvested in May of the following year, Xingbang came home from the city and brought the girl back, first the girl was pregnant, and then threatened that he would get married. The old horse was so neatly messed up. Since then, the girl has been living in Majiatun, and Xingbang did not listen to anyone's persuasion and quit her job for three months. Later, I saw that my belly was big. In the early 90s, the family still lived on the ground, and the daughter-in-law would shout for pork, beef, and eggs, and for soy sauce, balsamic vinegar, and sesame oil, which made the family nervous and the country anxious. There was no way, Lao Ma found him another job, so Xingbang went to the city to work to make money for his daughter-in-law. From that time to the end, Xingbang only secretly came back once or twice a month on his bicycle to see his daughter-in-law.

The due date is in the month of Layue, when the daughter-in-law is close to the month of Layue, it will hurt here and shout that it is uncomfortable there, and several village gentlemen (doctors) and old horses have invited several trips, and the doctor has no big deal to take care of, but the daughter-in-law is always humming and chirping. The old horse was stunned and big, and later she shouted that he didn't know much. Who would have thought that it would be miscarried! At that time, stillbirth was not uncommon, but it never occurred in my own home.

The old horse who had the miscarriage remembered clearly, and got up early in the morning Xingbang's daughter-in-law lay on the hot kang and yelled, and the old horse invited someone from the village medical station to come over, and the gentleman couldn't see the name, and he invited the next village, and the old man couldn't see the name. At that time, he was ready to be sent to the county hospital, but the north wind was cold in the winter months, and the ground in his yard was slippery, not to mention the ground on the road. What's more, the roads at that time were mostly dirt roads, and the half-dissipated snow was spread on the ground mixed with ice ballast, and Majiatun was on a high wall, and to go to the county, it was necessary to go down a big slope and then go up a big slope, and in the middle, it was necessary to go around the village, cross the earth bridge, and cross the highway...... How can he take out a nine-month-old woman? The people in the family were worried about an accident on the road, but they hated that they didn't call Xingbang at that time. To this day, the old man has always regretted listening to the advice of the two gentlemen to lie down at home. Stay up until noon, and the child is gone.

At this moment, Lao Ma is lying in Pengcheng Shenzhen, recalling what happened in Majiatun more than 20 years ago, just like in his previous life. Unlike the gentle and sentimental people, optimistic and open-minded people in this world always can't keep the pain in their lives. Because of this and that pain, Lao Ma and his son, the father and son, who were close to each other, became strangers.

The old horse sighed, wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, and was ready to get up and go back to sleep. If the child is born successfully, it is time to start a family now, I don't know if he is a female baby like Gui Ying or a boy like his father? Where can the old horse sleep in bed?

People in the world often think that people who die young are worth regretting, but in fact, people who live too long are even more worthy of regret. As he slowly became seventy years old, many of Lao Ma's thoughts were a little different from before. People who live too long, their extra decades of old age do not bring much happiness to themselves, but all kinds of unsatisfactory from their children and grandchildren, all kinds of uncontrollable from the body, which grinds them worse than death. Gui Ying is raising a family by herself, Xingbang is in such a situation, prosperous and so pitiful, and seeing her children live worse than herself, this is the saddest thing for parents.

In the past two years, another reason why Lao Ma feels that he has lived too long is that he is too close to the death line in his old age. Which 60-year-old person goes to the medical examination hospital and suffers from a disease that is not the same? Even if it is not fatal, there are all kinds of big stubborn diseases attached to the body. Lao Ma thought that he could be spared, but in fact it was just a fool's dream, and he played a clever trick for Lin Kang - he would never have a physical examination.

I used to feel that I was living in the village lively, there was a group of people in the big family making a fuss, and I was not lonely when I wanted to die, who wanted to leave one by one with people who were older than me, the same age as me, and close to me, the old man gradually found that the most loyal companion of the old man was loneliness. These two years of physical ailments and spiritual emptiness and sorrow were mixed together, and from time to time they disturbed the purity of his old age. Especially recently in the new environment, first the hand of the big brother's death, and then Fan Weicheng's determination to leave, the old man faintly felt that if it wasn't for a few wisps of soul floating in the night, he would definitely sink a few catties of flesh into Lin Prison in vain. Staying under the blazing sun in the south and being dragged by the world, I don't know how many bodies and souls are still intact and light.

Gui Ying's anxious words spread out endless wall paintings for the old man—his grandparents', his parents', his wife's, his younger siblings, his friends', his neighbors'...... As the village chief, Lao Ma has sent away so many people in his life that he needs to carefully select in his brain to see the people he wants to see in the dusty vast memories. In this world, all the happiness of the old people in their old age is not as much as the panic, numbness, and loneliness brought to them by the people they sent away.

Death is sobering, and too much soberness can lead to numbness—and the sooner one realizes this, the more unable to suppress the numbness of death. Lao Ma doesn't know if his numbness to death is something that many people have in his life or just himself? Is it something that many people will experience to some extent, or is it only you who are experiencing it? Memories, fantasies, and dreams are intertwined, and in his obscurity, he often can't tell or can't remember who is dead, who is still alive, and who died first. It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter, because he's bound to wake up, because he's going to fall. In the face of the coming end, all will be forgiven, because nothing matters anymore. The hustle and bustle of the world is insignificant to an old man.

In the past, it was particularly common to leave the country – sickness, disaster, difficult birth, death from old age; Further back in the wilderness, murder was common. Today, civilization has made death terrifying, technology has made death precious, and cities have made death rare...... Every grain of people in the world talks about death and discoloration. In this atmosphere, an eternal theme emerged in science – the study of death. Any discovery or invention that prevents, delays, or avoids death is regarded as significant, and even in order to find the art of immortality, human beings have extended their research to the universe. In this regard, religion and folk mythology trump science, and in ancient religious and romantic mythological tales, death is not terrible. I don't know if the numbness of the old horse is because of the rural culture, or because of the number of times he has experienced it. Perhaps, as in young people's relationships, too little or too much can distort or paranoid, magnify or lower people.

The older generation and the previous people, they believe that life is a school, all the good deeds in this life are for this life or the next life to increase blessings and longevity, but the old horse does not agree, he often feels that life is like a reverse school, from childhood to old all the bad news from the eyes, ears, nose, tongue, body and mind, all of which damage people's body and mind, the more they grow, the more turbid their minds become, and the more dull their bodies become. The best state of a person's mind and body is when he is just born, based on this, Lao Ma feels that this life is just a loss of Yuanyang, and death is actually the exhaustion of vitality. Therefore, even if people avoid all barriers, they will not live forever, and the damage from the body and mind is aggravating each other, tormenting each other, and the years change, and at the end, the aging and decaying life is like a practice that reaches death, and the "consummation of merit" is the cessation of breathing. Being alive is a long-term accumulation, and the cumulative result is devouring the flesh and destroying oneself. The so-called cultivation of the older generation is nothing more than to make the final self-destruction result appear softer and gentler. From the point of view of reverse practice, except for those who died in an accident, the rest of the people's lives were either suicide or self-destruction. In the vast history of the vast earth, there are only a very small number of lucky people who will make full use of their bodies and brains before self-destruction or the end comes, and these people are called great men, talents, heroes, masters, or meritorious people.

Seventy years of the past suddenly poured into his mind, how many hours a night was enough for him to pick up? The old man turned over and over, thinking about a dead word, not that he was holding on to death, but that the more beautiful memories in his mind, the more sad he felt in his old age - if the memories were gone, the youth would never return, and none of the people remembered in his heart were alive. This night the old horse went around in sorrow, starting from the son of Xingbang and finally the son of Xingbang.

When it was dawn and Zhiyuan got up to work, he fell asleep in a tinkling sound. Who wants to be hazy, he dreamed of Fan Weicheng, Gui Ying, her mother, and Xinghua Sheda ("big" means father in Shaanxi dialect, and Xinghua's father is Lao Ma's younger brother). I woke up again by this commotion, and when I saw that the watch was already the same, the old man got up heavily, went to the balcony to smoke and wake up, but I didn't find the hookah that accompanied him for most of his life after looking for a long time, and I don't know where Zhiyuan put it last night. There was no hookah, and the whole person seemed to wake up in a daze, and he didn't wake up completely until half past nine when he was hungry.

"Why don't you buy breakfast? What time is it? The babies woke up hungry...... "The old horse couldn't hold it anymore, and knocked on Gui Ying's door and shouted.

Gui Ying chatted with Zhiyuan until one or two o'clock last night, and after Zhiyuan left for work early on Saturday morning, she slept quietly and deeply. After being woken up by the old man's knock on the door, I hurriedly went out to buy breakfast at ten o'clock, and what I bought was some scraps of cold powder—sweet buns, fishy eggs, fried alkaline noodles, steamed rice noodles, and the like. The four of them ate together, and the old one was angry and thought that he couldn't eat or eat enough; A woman stood on an iron plate with an ice face, holding her breath and suffering resentment; One of them shook his body in a daze, swallowing a lot of saliva that had not yet flowed out; Only the boy is a normal one, where he tries to tell jokes to pull the strings between the father and daughter of his age.

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