Winter vacation, a vague past.

This semester is very different, it is the last semester of junior high school, every morning we need to arrive half an hour early, the sky is dark, it can be said that we can't see the five fingers, but we still need to go to the playground and train independently.

Yes, the school has a playground, and at this moment when the junior high school career is coming to an end, the brand-new playground is very popular with everyone, so enjoy it for a short time.

Of course, the vast majority of logarithms are junior high school students, partly because they are about to leave school, and partly because they need to prepare for physical education exams.

Moral, intellectual, physical, aesthetic and labor are in full development, so sports results should also be included in the results of the high school entrance examination, and everyone attaches great importance to it.

For me, who has an uncoordinated body, the physical education exam is definitely sent by God to test me, and it is really difficult.

……

Physical education.

The first physical education class of another semester is to measure everyone's various sports qualities, including solid ball, shot put, 50-meter sprint, 100-meter sprint, and standing long jump!

"Standing long jump?!" At this point, I didn't hesitate to chuckle in my heart, I didn't seem to have tried this kind of sport much, so I was very apprehensive, and quietly stood at the back of the army, trying to hide myself.

However, the physical education teacher is assessed one by one according to the list, and then has to record, in order to help students choose two events that are suitable for themselves, because in addition to the 800 meters that must be run, the physical education exam also needs to report two sports.

This record gives you a reference, of course, the final report is up to you.

I practiced quietly in the corner of the side, but I was embarrassed! There are simply no motor cells, it's hard!

The first test item is the standing long jump, I thought it was just a simple student to jump one by one, and each student had two chances, but the reality was that it was ......

The small standing long jump area is full of people standing around, and the surrounding water is impassable, and when a student finishes jumping, he has to discuss, or cheer, or disdain.

In short, it's embarrassing.

Why don't you walk after the jump? It's even more embarrassing.

"Next."

After the students in line in front of me jumped one by one, it was finally my turn, looking at the meters and distances drawn in front of me, as well as the strange eyes of the students around me, my heart was even more flustered.

I wanted to escape for a moment, and glanced around again, as if I could imagine their sneering expressions and smug faces.

In the competitive adolescence, everyone is competitive, likes to compare, and the same is true for me, who wants to save face.

After sitting down for two preparatory movements, he simply jumped out without doing two things, and landed not lightly, but extremely bulky landing.

Inevitably, it caused a burst of ridicule.

"Wow! Such long legs are white and long. ”

"It's just that I can't jump as far as my height."

"The sound of landing is still so heavy, it still seems too stupid."

“……”

When the teacher said that there was one more chance, I waved my hand and shook my head, and walked away. Forget it!

It's very uncomfortable to watch like this, in fact, I have always wondered why everyone likes to gather around when standing in the long jump? It's awkward to be stared at by so many pairs of eyes!

It's too embarrassing, it's too embarrassing, what should I do? Hurried through the crowd, I thought no one would notice, but a hand reached out behind me and patted me on the back, and I turned around, it was Na-san.

She and I have the same long jump skills, we are kind of people, we can empathize, even though she herself was ridiculed, but she still came to comfort me.

A rare touch.

During this time, we have a very good relationship, that is, in the dark, the unsolvable fate, and her, can always talk together, lying on the green grass of the playground, free, can forget the troubles, the feeling of having friends turned out to be like this.

Happy.

From being alone to almost inseparable, it seems that I will no longer feel lonely.

……

In this month or so, we will go to the playground for training during every recess and break, but fortunately, the civil engineering teacher told us that there was this physical education exam from the beginning of the junior year, and told us that we must get this score, and from then on, there will be spontaneous morning jogging every morning, and I have developed this habit for a long time, so there is no problem with the 800 meters.

And I love running, especially when I'm sad, as if my worries disappear as I run.

In the end, it was time to apply for the project, and most of the students in the class chose the standing long jump and solid ball, and I was still hesitating, did I really choose the standing long jump? It may not be a matter of passing the grade, and the score will be negative.

So, abandon it decisively, but I'm a little embarrassed to choose something else, after all, it's different from everyone, will it attract other people's discussions?

After struggling for a moment, Na woke me up, "Let's choose the shot put, we can pass the long jump and jump one meter five, the shot put has low requirements, as long as you throw it out, it seems to be passing, let's go to the teacher to borrow a shot put, and then practice it's good, it's very simple." ”

"Uh-huh." I nodded, agreeing with Na's statement, so the two of us chose the shot put and the solid ball, so that we could be considered a companion.

From this point of view, I really care too much about other people's eyes and opinions, the exam is for myself, my future must be in my own hands, and I don't need to care what others think and think.

This is something to learn from Na.

Due to the various throwing balls every day, my arms are a little unbearable, and I am sore all day, my motor function is really not ordinary weak, and I often work in the fields when I was young, but why? Maybe it's different.

However, it doesn't matter, even if it hurts, just practice more, there is nothing that cannot be overcome.

……

"You chose the shot put?" Next to him, there was a puzzle from student G, whose eyes were fixed on the project list that I had just filled out in my hand.

A clear tick was made at the shot put.

"Hmm." I replied to him, not daring to look at him at all, and he didn't ask too much.

During this holiday, the only thing I can remember is classmate G, I looked at him, and there was a little more embarrassment in my eyebrows, very embarrassed and embarrassed.

Because, he confessed to me.

One day during the holidays, we were chatting casually on the Internet, and suddenly he said, "I'm looking for you!"

At that time, my heart was very complicated, because I knew the meaning of this sentence, in fact, I could also feel some hidden feelings between us, and now I am in an ambiguous period.

However, I felt that was enough, and I didn't think about anything else at all, and I didn't want to go any further.

So I first sent a puzzled face, and then replied to him, "It's not April Fool's Day."

The whole process is forced to be calm.

I've forgotten what to say specifically, and in short, I'm just making an excuse to prevaricate the past.

It's undeniable that I actually like him in my heart, but I don't know why I don't have any thoughts about being together, I think it's good to be like this now, why do you have to be together? Anyway, if you are together, you will score later, so why bother!

This is just my thoughts, I personally will never believe that there is eternal love, after all, people change.

Now that I think about it, I seem to be a subconscious scumbag, only engaging in ambiguity, not falling in love?! Actually, I didn't think about it that much, I just didn't think it was necessary.

Please forgive me for being too young and immature at that time.

……

The next day.

It's a new day, and after the morning self-study, the civil engineering teacher ordered me to move my seat to the first row, she was for my good, and I could see it.

But......

I don't want to.

However, I don't have the right to refuse, I can only go, and when I am introduced, it is still a table that classmate G helped me, and for the sake of convenience, we all directly moved the table to change seats.

Our table mates are at the end of their careers.

Looking at G, I felt a little guilty, but in other words, when I thought of him and flaws at that time, I felt strange in my heart, it was a hurdle that I couldn't get over, blame me.

Maybe it's the inferiority complex again, even though Mr. G said it so directly and clearly, I still think he doesn't like me, it's just a joke.

And when I think of flaws, I agree with my own point of view even more, flaws are so beautiful, how can I compare them, so, it must be just a joke.

The next scene made me more determined in my thoughts,

G's roommates, all of whom knew about it, came to ridicule me one after another, and asked in a particularly contemptuous and provocative tone: "How can you talk so much on the Internet, why don't you usually speak?" Talking only to G, do you look down on us or pretend to be a lady?! ”

I gave me a puzzled look, "Why do you say that?"

I saw another roommate continue to add: "G showed us all your chat history, huh? Really don't consider us G classmates? ”

A fire ignited in my heart instantly, and I glanced at G, and at this moment he looked proud, sitting in his seat, looking at me.

Shouldn't you feel guilty? Why do you look machismo, you must know that what I hate the most is macho boys, in this world, why are men high! I never felt humble, but I was afraid that others would think I was humble! Thus looking down on me.

At this moment, it's really goodbye, there is no room for redemption, I think so, but others don't necessarily care, so it is necessary to continue.

It's disrespectful, because you show the chat history to others without my consent, and you're still proud?!

A moment of disillusionment.

Amusing.

Maybe it doesn't seem like much to others, but it just doesn't work with me.

Since then, I have never taken the initiative to contact him, and even if I did, it was only perfunctory, obviously perfunctory.

I hope he can also be aware of his own behavior, so that anyone who dares to talk to him is just a trick for others to make fun of.

Although it's annoying, there are always some strange feelings in my heart, and I still subconsciously look forward to his news, this is cheap!

Maybe it's getting used to it, looking for him in the crowd.

I was played around by others, and I was still making excuses for it, and I was crazy to comfort myself, but it was all facts, I will not deny it, and I will not falsify it, because such people are real, no one is perfect, and I don't believe that there are perfect people in this world.

……

"Here you go, one for each person." I took out the couple bracelet I bought yesterday, picked a women's version and handed it to Na, I'll bring the men's version, after all, I'm so strong, I'm embarrassed to wear a lady's.

But in my opinion, it's all the same, it's all good-looking, I thought it was a couple bracelet, but if you look closely, it seems to be a girlfriend bracelet, because it says "best friend" best friend, one blue and one pink, it's really easy to misunderstand.

We might be best friends, at least that's what I think.

"I'll tell you something." Na said as she looked at me earnestly.

"What?" It was noisy around the big recess, and I leaned close to listen closer.

"Can you promise me not to fall in love?"

I nodded unquestioningly, it was easy for me, and I hadn't had this idea before.

Na is concerned about me, afraid that I will be hurt, after all, I am still young.

It seems that she must also know about classmate G.

Ay! It's really a good thing that doesn't go out, and bad things spread thousands of miles.

With the sprout of some hormones during puberty, it is easy to fall in love with a certain boy, but it must be remembered that you must not be impulsive so as not to regret it, after all, the feelings of adolescence are not necessarily the most sincere.

There are exceptions, of course, but very few.

Girls must learn to protect themselves and don't pay too much attention to the likes of adolescence, otherwise they will be hurt after all.