It seems that the last night of the holiday is not destined to be peaceful, and I can't sleep anyway, so I simply got up and came to the computer desk to see if there were any guys in the group who were having fun in this lonely night? What I didn't expect was that it was not deserted because the school year was approaching, on the contrary, there were more people than usual, and it was more lively, which was probably the so-called last night of carnival, a group of lonely people. I didn't have the heart to join them in the conversation anyway, so I just watched their conversation quietly. But when I saw Qi Gege appear in the group, my mood couldn't calm down, she sang a very sad song, and in everyone's applause as always, she sang two more songs in a row, and the style was still as sad as ever.

I actually narcissistically thought that her sadness was caused by me, a guy who didn't appreciate it, and I thought I was too important to myself.

"Let me tell you a piece of news, I have now found someone who loves me " Qi Gege posted such a message in the group, and the group exploded in an instant. This is also very understandable, a beautiful girl, a good singer, and a naughty guy, will become the focus of attention anywhere.

"Who is it, this person, tell us quickly, let's see if we are worthy of you", yes, yes, tell us quickly, don't sell it." The guys in the group can't wait to find out.

I'm wondering too, because I'm starting to wonder again if it could be me? Narcissistic Chen Yitian, when did you become so cheeky and narcissistic, is it because of the Internet?

"Don't guess, this person is me," said a guy with a group name no longer hesitating.

"Honey, you're here" After speaking, Qi Gege also sent a picture of a hug.

"Well, did you miss me?"

"Of course there is".

Looking at their "show of affection" in the group, I felt unprecedented sadness in my heart, and the corners of my eyes moistened, damn, is this crying, I don't remember the last time I cried. Is this me Chen Yitian, who Qi Gege likes now actually has nothing to do with me, I am a passerby. It's just that at the moment, this passer-by is in turmoil, is this the feeling of heartbreak, I don't know. The world is big and it's wonderful, and what I'm experiencing right now is also a wonderful thing, and for the first time I have that feeling of real loss, and yet, I don't have it, but I feel lost, isn't it amazing? Oh, that's probably what jealousy feels like. Ah, I couldn't take it anymore, I turned off the group message and fell into that clueless contemplation.

Is this love, is this what it is, I don't know, I'm just a teenager who likes music, likes freedom, is a little melancholy, sensitive, how can I experience love?

I deleted Qi Gege, quit the group, and goodbye to all this, it's time for me to leave the Internet for a while, in fact, it's an escape, an escape from all this, hoping to make myself feel good, this experience is really amazing, so wonderful that I feel love, and I'm really so fucking grateful to this network, but I'm going to say goodbye to you.

Lying in bed, I was not calm, but recalled my experience on the Internet during this time, remembered a girl, remembered that I also felt love, remembered that it was people in the online world who accompanied me in those unaccompanied days, tonight, don't think too much, fall asleep quickly, and set off towards the dawn.