After leaving the room, a very real question was placed in front of me, I did not know whether to go home or continue to stay here. I began to get into a huge tangle, how boring it was, and it was only a matter of time before I left or stayed.

But I didn't know what to do.

Walking alone along the arrows on the side of the road in the midday sun, I didn't know where I was going, and it wasn't until I was sweating that I realized that I didn't want to leave now, and who knows why.

My mood began to brighten up like this sun, and I didn't hesitate to go with the flow.

The natural result of this was my return to HF City train station. Spend an extra day in the city, contribute your own meager GDP increment to the city, and that's it.

"Are you free tonight"? Staring nervously at the screen, afraid that if she suddenly said no, then I would explode.

A minute, ten minutes, an hour, no reply.

It calmed me down a lot without any agitation. Looking at the scenery and things in this city, it is actually quite good.

Sitting on the bench, watching the pedestrians coming and going, watching the change of the sun until the sunset, until I saw the sentence "See you at night, don't run around", I stood up again, seven hours of long waiting, finally let me breathe a long breath again, and the stone in my heart finally fell.

Looking at the city again, everything is not mechanical, it has become warm, people are becoming cute, and I really want to rush to the crowd and tell them that tonight, I am not alone.

Seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, I survived for an hour, time did not disappoint me, fast made me want to make it suddenly too slow, I don't know how to get around this station until now, the sense of powerlessness made me a little trance, only to realize that the water is not stained, the food is not exhausted, and my mind is full of all kinds of scenes in that beautiful, longing fantasy.

Even at this time, a ridiculous idea came up, meet today, must give a small gift, can not send anti-wolf spray, after thinking about it, finally thought of a self-feeling intimate and romantic thing, a bottle of 220 ml of Wahaha ad cover milk, the reason is that when I first met, I learned that she likes to drink this thing.

Walking into the nearby shops to find the things that children loved in ancient times, God favored me, and finally let me get my wish, holding it tightly in my hands, pinning all the warmth and all the confessions on it.

Just when I was about to move myself, Gege's phone rang, and I cleaned up my mood and calmly said "Hey".

"You're in the old place, I'll be there soon, and I brought a friend over, don't you mind?"

"Don't mind".

Hanging up the phone, I returned to reality, bringing a friend, man or woman, why bring a friend, countless kinds of messy questions and conjectures spread all over my mind like spider webs, until I threw the AD milk in my hand into the trash can next to me, I calmed down.

The sudden and huge mood swings are like a dream, real and fake.

When I saw two girls in skirts walking this way, I finally admitted that it was the real world.

'That's right, this is your friend'.

"Uh-huh, this is my colleague".

Let's go, let's go eat.

"Good".

The boring dialogue, plus the even more boring KFC.

Sitting across from the two girls, watching the things on the table gradually decrease, I didn't even want to touch a french fry, just quietly watching them eat, watching them swipe their phones from time to time, this picture is very strange.

No one said anything. are immersed in their phones, smiling from time to time.

All this is not what I imagined.

I tried to find a crack in the ground to get into, and the atmosphere suffocated me.

In this half-hour that made me feel tormented, we didn't have any intersections, stranger than strangers.

Until you walk out of the KFC gates. I felt a sense of security returning.

Looking at the backs of the two girls, I almost forgot who I was and why I was in this picture.

The three of them walked slowly like this, and I just watched it all.

"When I got to the side of the road, Gege suddenly finally looked back at me and finally realized that there was another person, and I was grateful.

'There's something to do today, next time I'll play Lo," she smiled.

I nodded, looked at the two girls in the taxi, through the window, saw their happy smiling faces, two seconds later, I could only see the rear of the car, and after half a minute, everything was calm again.

Leaning against the pillar on the side of the road, looking at the tall buildings across the road, the shrunken lights, the bustling crowd, looking at the dim street lamps on my side, the lonely and sparse passers-by, the breeze blowing from time to time, and the sound of the station sprinkler truck passing back and forth regularly.

Five, four, three, two, one, the time became 0:00 on July 18, 2017, the fourth day of fulfillment, I was supposed to be at home today, drinking carbonated drinks with a few friends, watching boring movies, and a certain person hitting the street from time to time said a few boring but laughing cold jokes, which caused a few brothers to laugh and make boring movies interesting.

The truth is that I stand in this strange city like a stupid fork, witnessing other people's lives, and I don't even have the opportunity to talk to people, the only funny thing is that I have done so many stupid things, and I just want to tell myself that I am very clever.

Now I really wish I was this street lamp that was about to be scrapped, completely extinguished, and said goodbye to this world.

"Farewell, goodbye I'll be able to come out"

This long-lost voice made my nose a little sour, "This damn bastard, where did you die after so many days, I thought you really disappeared."

"Disappear? As I said, I am the real you, and you are not the real me, you are my puppet, I don't show up just to see your creation, as a puppet, you are also an extreme failure, I will really make you a real person one day, oh no, then I am the real person! ”

What are you waiting for, why don't you do it now, I sighed and said to the guy in my heart, but there was no trace of it.

I really want to be honest with this guy in my heart, admit defeat to it, and let it become the real master of this shell, I don't deserve it, I really don't deserve it. I don't know how many personalities each person has, I don't know if I'm split personality, but I really want to be the guy who lives in my heart, I hide in it, I see the world through my voice, I see the world through my perception, I feel my true emotions. You don't have to pay anything, you just want to hide like a child and see this beautiful world, is that okay?