58 Searching for a new self in the mirror Acute partiality meets chronic people
"The baby was bitten by a cat!" After Gui Ying took Yangyang away, Lao Ma Chong's grandson emphasized.
"Cats can carry rabies! If only dogs get rabies, why should people get rabies vaccination? ”
"Oh yes, yes, yes, yes!" The seventy-year-old peasant nodded frequently, showing a demeanor of enlightenment.
The old man who really doesn't know this should be patient, especially his children and grandchildren, but unfortunately his stubbornness and strength make him naturally strong. Strong against strong, how can there be any good results. As everyone knows, the strong use the weak, and the enemy weak use the strong.
"Then your mother has a baby...... Where can I take a taxi? Isn't the community hospital closed at 9 o'clock? The old horse came back to his senses and asked.
"The rabies vaccine can only be given in the emergency room of a big hospital, and there are several shots at a time - three shots plus a booster shot, and it will cost thousands! Tut-tut! The boy took out a bottle of yogurt from the refrigerator, leaned back in his chair and shrugged his shoulders to deliberately scare the old man.
The old horse glanced at it and was silent.
After a while, he still had a hard mouth: "That was bitten...... You don't have to get sick......
"You can't take that risk." Tsai Tsai swiped his mobile phone while drinking milk. After being silent for a few minutes, remembering his National Day homework, he got up and ran back to the room, and wrote until the early hours of the morning.
Wide cobblestone streets, classical buildings, towering retro street lamps...... Bao Xiaotang walked in the precision-designed city and precision-designed streets, enjoying the spacious, orderly, simple and elegant Paris. When she got to the Arc de Triomphe, she suddenly saw Zhu Hao, and she wanted to run forward to question him and force him, but when she turned around, she had a stroller in her hand, and the child in the car was her own blood. Children and lovers, she could not choose. So, the beautiful woman watched from the side of the stroller as her beloved lover abandoned her......
In the urgency and worry, the pillow was wet, and the dream woke up.
After waking up from the dream, Bao Xiaotang sat up, reached out to grab the hairpin and clamped his wet hair, took off the sweaty suspenders, and faced the darkness and coldness of the room naked. At six o'clock in the afternoon of October 7, the woman whose eyes were blurred and swollen from crying pulled the box back to her rental house. Everything in the room was the same, like a wrinkle on a mother's face. Everything was the same, but unfortunately she didn't remember her mother at all.
Rapid life and quick death. All relationships or changes that are too anxious have hidden the end of an embarrassing parting from the beginning. blame yourself for exalting yourself, feeling that you are thirty-two, have done three, and have had an abortion, but you can still be worthy of a handsome, well-off, car, career and humorous person. Whether she first fell in love with a person who thought she had a car and money, or unconsciously fell in love with a car and money first, Bao Xiaotang couldn't deceive herself.
Throughout the ages, all tried and tested scams must have their own solid logic. When you stare at the flowery interest in other people's mouths, others are staring at the heavy principal in your pocket. If you are not greedy, how can you be deceived?
I sat until half past four in the morning, and I didn't feel sleepy at all. Bao Xiaotang hugged his knees and thought wildly, remembering himself when he went abroad some time ago and went up and down the Eiffel Tower. At the foot of the tower, she was impressed by the sophisticated, towering, ancient and avant-garde tower; On the tower, Xiaotang looks down on Paris, it is extremely flat, the ground is also extremely flat, and the buildings in the middle are spread on the ground like skin and hair in the distance...... On that day, Xiaotang consciously found a new self in a new place.
Now I think about it repeatedly, that new self did not come down from the Tower of Babel, but radiated from the earth and the crowd. On that day, on the way out of the Eiffel Tower, the group walked to a street and met many street performers—a black man playing the violin, a long-haired man playing and singing with his eyes closed, a high-pitched woman playing the accordion, Mr. Sunglasses playing a famous major, a crane-haired hunchbacked grandmother playing the piano, and a wanderer who sang affectionately to the sea......
After the trip, the tour guide shared the songs sung by the homeless people in the WeChat group, and Xiaotang loved to listen to them very much - whether it was the melody or the lyrics, from the time he returned to China to the present, whenever he had leisure, the single song was looped. At this moment, a soft and powerful song resounded in the dark room.
Inthespringemadeaboatoutoffeathers,outofbones.
(In the spring, we built a boat out of feathers and bones)
Wesetfiretoourhomes,alkingbarefootinthesno.
(We set fire to the house and walked barefoot in the snow)
Distantrhythmofthedrumasedriftedtoardsthestorm.
(To the beat of the drums in the distance, we drift towards the storm)
Babylionlosthisteeth,nothey'resimminginthesea.
(The lion has replaced its baby teeth and is now swimming in the sea)
Troubledspiritsonmychestheretheylaidtorest.
(My resting soul is now terrified in my chest)
Thebirdsallleftmytallfriendasyourbodyhitthesand.
(The birds have left my tall friend as you fall on the sand)
Millionstarsupintheskyformedatigerseyethatlookeddononmyface,outoftimeandoutofplace.
(Millions of stars gather in the dome into a tiger's eye, it is outside of time and space, looking down at my face)
Soholdon,holdontohateare,holdontoyourheart.
(So don't give in, keep your true colors, and listen firmly to your heart)
Aakenbythesoundofascreamingol.
(Suddenly, awakened by a screaming owl)
Chasingleafsintheind,goingheree'veneverbeen.
(Follow the fallen leaves in the wind and reach places you have never set foot before)
Saidgoodbyetoyoumyfriend,asthefirespread.
(The fire spreads endlessly, farewell to the stupid - my friend)
Allthat'sleftareyourbonesthatillsoonsinklikestones.
(All that is left is your remains, which will soon be lost in the sea)
Soholdon,holdontohateare,holdontoyourheart.
(So please always persevere, stick to ourselves, and firmly listen to your heart)
After a song, tears flowed down my face.
What should one persevere? Why do you insist on your life?
Xiaotang also remembered the old grandmother on the streets of Paris - the crane-haired hunchbacked grandmother who played the piano, she turned around and forgot what she played, but the image of the old man's cloak and the radiant look between her eyes did not seem to belong to the same body. That look is firm, free, happy, selfless......
Deeply loved, deeply loved to the point of selflessness, and regarded what they loved as far more important than themselves - people with such pursuits, even if they are seventy or eighty, youth still favors them.
Doctors shine on the operating table, singers reach the court on the stage, and businessmen forge palaces in the mall...... No matter what hobby, when a person values what he loves as more important than himself, he is no longer a worldly, ordinary person. This is detachment.
People are young because of their dreams, yes, but you can look at yourself so humble and mediocre, where to find a dream that makes you extraordinary. Xiaotang cried again, she cried that she didn't even have the ability and courage to assume that she had a dream, she was a vague child, and she was ignorant of herself.
Wesetfiretoourhomes,alkingbarefootinthesno,Distantrhythmofthedrumasedriftedtoardsthestorm…… The song still loops in the dawn, but the person listening to it is not the same person he once was. In the dark, Xiaotang walked to the bathroom and wiped his face with tears. In the dim light, she has a white skin in front of her, her body is light, her skin is soft, and she is obviously young but has a vicissitudes of life. The white hair hidden under the youth, the countless wrinkles that can only be seen by oneself, the dead soul tucked in the coquettish skin...... She stared at it for a long time, looking at the person in the mirror who seemed familiar and unknown.
Xiaotang brushed a strand of wet hair, leaving a few long broken hairs between his fingers, facing the light, playing for a long time.
Thousands of sails are not, the slanting veins and veins are long, and the intestines are broken in Baipingzhou.
How can a person cry in the mirror?
That's right. Xiaotang wept silently at the woman in the mirror, and the tears flowed endlessly. In her tearful eyes, she saw the woman in the mirror smiling. She reached out to look for her in the mirror, and the man reached out to touch herself. The two of them interlocked their fingers, and she saw a new person—a new person.
After washing his face, Bao Xiaotang returned to bed. For the first time in thirty-two years, she found that she had been repeating her life and had never sought or explored herself. Falling in love and getting married is no longer what she cares about, and in the ever-changing world, finding her own way of survival, exploring herself, enjoying herself, and achieving herself is the theme of her fate next and even until death.
At present, she has to go all out to the accounting profession she has always loved, and after the end of the self-examination, she must increase her horsepower to fight for the CPA. She has no way to compare with the top students in the college she was born in, she can only compete desperately with her past self.
Suddenly, she bizarrely believed in the phrase "Gou is new, every day, and every day" taught by her teacher when she was a teenager. That's right, Bao Xiaotang wants to be a new people.
In order to survive, she needs to find a job, and she can't eat like this if she doesn't have enough to eat, and my sister's is right, studying while working is the long-term solution. Thinking of this, Bao Xiaotang got out of bed lightly, went to find a pen and a notebook, and wrote and painted, she settled down and breathed a sigh of relief.
In the second half of yesterday, she saw a lot of unmarried people's exposed lives, many of which were more like a kind of helplessness, a great helplessness hidden with real luck. Many of these people are lesbians, divorcees, single parents, older people or other minority groups. Looking at those who shout that they are not married, they are either attached to the invincible and cute children, pets, flowers and plants, or pretending to be superior to their ability to photograph or beautiful pictures, or they are obsessed with their favorite movies, books, masters, or they are trying to piece together the highlights of their lives...... She appreciates it, but is more sympathetic.
The unmarried people she wants to do are different from them—the original intention is different. Bao Xiaotang thinks that if he doesn't understand himself and can't control himself, the unmarried clan or any other clan is the same, it's just a false name to cover up.
No matter how much false happiness is piled up, it also reveals sadness, and true happiness does not stand up to words, but also reaches people's hearts. The absence of flaws in the beautiful picture of happiness is the biggest flaw, and the real kitchen is messy to make people feel a warm fireworks.
The pursuit or the course of thinking twice from within does not need to show outsiders its correctness and superiority. Silently cultivate your own heart, looking forward to its spring flowering, summer fruit, no need to invite people to fiddle, seek consensus from others to appreciate the talent.
In this era of chickens and dogs, quick birth and death, everything is fleeting and short-lived. So, there is no need to conform to the herd. For this one-time life, why bother with the herd! The old grandmother who plays the piano, grasps herself, is fascinated by herself, and firmly grasps what she loves and wants, this is the best way to read it.
Chasingleafsintheind,goingheree'dgoodbyetoyoumyfriend,'don,holdontohateare,holdontoyourheart……
The music is still playing, yesterday's Xiaotang is no longer today's Xiaotang.
Sure enough, people need to be polished in order to be glorious.
In the shallow anger, Bao Xiaotang plans a calm future.
The world is inspired by love and hope, but as everyone knows, the most hurtful thing has always been love, and the other is hope. What you gain becomes a demon, and what you lose becomes a demon.
After Bao Xiaotang took a bath, put on a beautiful and flowing long skirt, and went to the nearby park to wait for the sunrise, pursue the morning glow, and bathe in the breeze.
Last night, Zai Zai's homework made Lao Ma sleep restlessly, he got up early and was groggy, sent to school and then sent to work, and finally carried a hydroponic lunch box and a schoolbag to send Yangyang to school.
"Grandpa, why can't I touch the cat?" He Yiyang, who received a needle, has long forgotten the pain of yesterday.
"Because it bites you! It's sick, and if it bites you, you're sick too, what's the matter? ”
"But I want to touch the cat, can I? It is...... It's after school today, grandpa, you will accompany me...... Is it good to find Meow Meow? The girl tugged at the old man's trousers.
"If you want to find a cat, you have to get an injection, cat or injection, which one do you choose?" The old man scares the child.
"Cat!" Yang Yang replied loudly, without hesitation.
"Tsk! Your mom didn't choose the same as you chose - what's the matter? "The old horse is in a slight difficulty.
"Then do you listen to me, or do you listen to my mother?" Yangyang stopped and looked up, arrogantly asked.
"Master...... Your mother is my woman, and you are not, I must listen to your mother! No matter how fierce your mother is, beating, scolding and smashing things, I am afraid that she is not afraid of you! The old horse poked Yangyang's head and laughed for a while.
"No, you can't! I want to meow! Just meow! Feeling the rejection and contempt, the boy slapped his trouser leg as a sign of anger.
"Ask your mom!" The old horse was afraid that she would be late, so he pretended to be angry and yelled, but this voice was a bit loud.
"Humph! I'm ignoring you! I don't like you! I won't play with you in the future! Hate you! The friend clenched his hands into fists, stomped his feet, and walked away first.
The two of them had a falling out, and the doll strode forward, and went to the classroom without looking back after entering the kindergarten. The old horse followed, smiling sullenly. The year-end relationship, which had just lasted for two months, suddenly ushered in a crack as big as the Milky Way and a flaw as deep as a black hole.
Anyway, since Gui Ying and Zaizai left Yongzhou, Hunan, Dong Huifang, who was kind and anxious, was relieved, and she could finally rest after being busy for five or seven days, who would have thought that she would be sick that night, and she was not lightly ill. First, the old tooth socket in the lower right was swollen and his face was so swollen that he was so painful that he didn't dare to eat and chew vegetables, and then his throat was inflamed, and then he had a headache and cough, and his whole body was weak, and it directly escalated to a high fever a week later. A high fever in adulthood is equivalent to a serious illness, not to mention that Dong Huifang's sixtieth birthday has passed. Lao Zhangtou accompanied the front and back, Chen Qingye was busy sending him to the hospital, and it took more than half a month for Dong Huifang to recover from the sins suffered by Dong Huifang on National Day. People are old and can't stand up to boiling or supporting.
Since her mother-in-law fell ill, Chen Qingye took care of her mother-in-law while taking care of the children, and she had to prepare food for the elderly, which can be regarded as a busy day. The mother-in-law was just sick, and Chen Qingye was also sick, and she slept three times after one illness. According to this duty, why is Chen Qingye, a young man in his thirties, far from being able to cope with it?
It's a long story.
Chen Qingye, whose parents were in the nut business, supported her until she graduated from college, and then found a job by herself, and three years later changed jobs and entered Zhang Mingyuan's company, at first just as a front desk secretary. After Mingyuan and his ex-wife divorced, his daughter lived with his ex-wife, and after a few years of vacancy, Zhang Mingyuan fell in love with the company's front desk - Chen Qingye. After the two got along, Mingyuan felt that it was inappropriate for Aoba to continue to stay in the company as the front desk, so he arranged for her to go to a friend's company. At that time, her mother had passed away, and Dong Huifang and her father had not yet talked about marriage, who would have thought that soon Qingye Huaiyu and the two would get married and Doudou was born...... That year, there was suddenly an extra pregnant woman in the family, and the father and son of the Zhang family naturally couldn't cope with it, so they let Dong Huifang get home first at the beginning of Aoba's pregnancy. Whoever wants to enter the house, Dong Huifang is immediately upgraded to Zhang Jiarao's strong backing.
Dong Huifang is an acute person, she has been taking care of her family while going to work for most of her life, and she has already experienced it. Cooking and cleaning all kinds of work are neat and tidy, for the tenacity and warmth and kindness, the Zhang family and Chen Qingye like and respect this old man. Of course, the most favorite and most dependent on her is naturally Doudou, in Doudou's option, grandma is always closer than mother, why? Because grandma is responsive, polite and courteous, and my mother is always the dragon who sees the head and the tail, the thunder god rains heavily or disappears at home and hides invisibly.
In fact, Gui Ying's understanding of Aoba is biased. Chen Qingye is extremely gentle, generous, filial and family-oriented, and this dualistic family is more harmonious than ordinary families, so harmonious that the neighbors and relatives are surprised and even puzzled.
Everything is fine, alone, Chen Qingye is a chronic child. People who don't know think she's lazy, selfish, unsociable, or cold and arrogant, but she's actually a super invincible chronicler. A home-cooked meal, she alone from nine o'clock in the morning to twelve o'clock can not be made, the mother-in-law washing vegetables is not clean, every responsible for washing materials, she spends a morning and a half, afternoon and a half, go out to buy a bouquet of flowers or add household often go out in the morning and come back at night, not necessarily bought, shopping to buy skirts, that is not to go to five or seven shopping malls, do not stop......
When it comes to Chen Qingye's personal habits, everyone who knows them is confused and speechless. I like to eat pine nuts the most, and I don't stop talking when I eat three or four in a row, and the desktop is very clean after I finish it; Buy pomegranates often, eat pomegranates and always spit out pomegranate seeds one by one; I love to eat melon seeds, and after eating melon seeds, I am obsessed with using melon seed shells to pose in various shapes; Eat grapes, tomatoes, and dates and always peel them manually first...... It takes an hour and a half to go out and put on light makeup, and another hour and a half to remove makeup at night; Two beauty salons, two barber shops, and a massage shop every Friday, and if you don't go out with Mingyuan on weekends, you must be so tired that you will sleep in bed.
Doudou was late for three times and twice, and once he was dressed up and his skirt was too short, Teacher Doudou was dumbfounded, Chen Qingye knew that he was too angry and was afraid that the teacher would tell Doudou's father, so he quickly went to the kindergarten toilet to remove heavy makeup and put on light makeup, and when he came out, the parent-teacher meeting was already gone, and the other parents were gone, and the five-year-old Doudou was so angry that he almost ignored his mother. It's no wonder that Doudou has a funny mantra - "My mother has to go out for 10,000 hours every time, and she is annoyed".
Because it is too chronic, it often causes Chen Qingye to do things with a beginning and no end. When Doudou was seven or eight months old, she was obsessed with embroidery, and she was busy working for fifteen or seven hours, and no finished product came out for a few months, and finally sold all the tools and materials that cost tens of thousands of yuan. For a while, I was obsessed with stewed soup, and the soup stewed for Doudou began to be prepared at school in the morning, and the soup was not good when the child came back at noon; After the speed was raised, the taste was particularly weird, and no one in the family dared to cheer. Later, she had a flash of inspiration and wanted to do design, begging Mingyuan to find a way for her, and spent more than 100,000 yuan to enroll in a designer course, but she was removed because she was late.
Chen Qingye is too calm-hearted, and often drives Zhang Mingyuan or Lao Zhangtou crazy. In the first few years, Mingyuan loved her and protected her, and always smiled whenever she heard her father complain; Lao Zhangtou does not face the accusations directly, family harmony always comes first; Dong Huifang knows her temperament, she does what she loves, and she takes care of everything she can do. One year or two years is good, but after a long time, the chronic child is like a thorn in the eyes of the acute child, and it is uncomfortable.
Zhang Mingyuan opened his own company, and he was too busy to manage all day long, and one year he instructed Aoba to prepare gifts for the company's Mid-Autumn Festival to employees and customers, and Aoba happily agreed. A month later, in the first three days of the Mid-Autumn Festival, Mingyuan called to ask about the results, who knew that Aoba, who was extremely enthusiastic at first, forgot about this stubble because he fell into a phobia of choice and entanglement, Mingyuan was angry, and he was so anxious that the company's personnel hurried to procure, and he never dared to hand over any serious things to her again.
Lao Zhangtou only sighed and shook his head and patted his thighs for this daughter-in-law. The old man went to the hospital in twos and needed her to drive, and five times out of ten, he waited for the appointment time because he was waiting for Aoba to go out to put on makeup and change clothes. Dong Huifang occasionally went to Yongzhou, when his relatives were not at home, Lao Zhangtou dragged Qingye to the restaurant he used to go to to buy his favorite meals, and none of them were bought back at the meal, and he couldn't see anything at all if he wasn't hungry.
The father and son yelled and slapped the table for this, who thought that Chen Qingye was like an outsider, so he didn't get angry. After being trained at home, she either hid in her son's room to eat pomegranate and gourd seeds, or waited for the other party to deflate and lied to comfort the angry person. It's not as fast as people, and it's not as fast as people, and she knows that she can't spare her anything, and she never quarrels with anyone. Her father-in-law, husband, and son, even if her parents' parents or relatives were angry at her, she never moved her anger or returned her mouth, and her face was not soft and she was not tough and hideous.
Mingyuan and Lao Zhang have become more and more angry at Qingye in recent years, but Dong Huifang pity Qingye helplessly, and can help her as much as possible. After all, Aoba treats her very well, buying her clothes, nutritional products, taking her for maintenance, and buying her a sweeper, vacuum cleaner, and massage chair when she is tired. In fact, in the past two years, Dong Huifang can obviously feel that Qingye is changing, she began to put the affairs of her in-laws and Mingyuan first, her son's affairs second, and her own affairs third. However, her sex is difficult to change, and her chronic son has not changed at all, which makes the whole family uncomfortable.
Just the problem of every meal, the old couple finished eating early, Qingye can't eat a meal alone, Dong Huifang doesn't make any delicacies from the mountains and seas, just two dishes and one soup. Huifang, who used to wait for Aoba to wash the dishes in a hurry after eating, often inadvertently burned and puffed softly. In the next few years, she was relieved and adjusted, and cleaned up the kitchen after the lunch break, so that she could avoid it. What can be seen is as much as possible not seen, this is the way Dong Huifang and Chen Qingye get along.
However, there are always times when a family can't avoid it. Aoba loves to eat fish the most, especially grass carp, Dong Huifang has known this daughter-in-law since she met her, and the most hated thing when she goes to the vegetable market is grass carp! Acute children can never see chronic children, eat a plate of fish, at least two times - two hours! Young people should know the words "hurry" best.
In Western management, individuals are divided into Type A and Type B personalities. Count the old Zhang family - Zhang Mingyuan, Lao Zhang Tou and Dong Huifang belong to the Type A personality, the eight-year-old Doudou was forced to become a Type A personality - four Type A personalities in a family of five, and Qingye alone is a Type B personality, and it is an extreme case of Type B personality, thinking about this family is really lively.