About 18 years in November, that day was Halloween, the school organized various departments to hold a variety of activities in the evening, I was lying on the bed in the dormitory playing with my mobile phone, suddenly a few roommates rushed in and took a few things on their bed and went out, I looked out through the window, it turned out to be a gift for their girlfriends, they were all wearing heavy makeup, dressed in strange shapes, I really didn't like this outfit, but suddenly bored, so I put away my phone and walked to the old playground.

There is the host of the event, walking in the middle of the playground, there is a small stage in front of it, on which is a group of brothers and sisters of the animation club are performing programs, the music is very loud, the lights are flashing, the enthusiasm of the younger brothers and sisters in the audience is very high, although I am not a person who loves to be lively, but I am still affected by their atmosphere, so I curiously came over, the stage is the cosplay display of the animation club, there are many beautiful sisters in the lead in the show, I took a few more looks, after all, boys! The girl who doesn't like pretty.

After watching for a while, maybe a little aesthetic fatigue, I rubbed my eyes and prepared to leave, after squeezing out of the crowd, mine continued to walk alone, suddenly I turned my head to look at the group of people passing by me, 3 girls and 1 boy, there was a familiar face in it, the makeup was very thick, I couldn't be sure if it was her, the girl! Just looking at the hair and bangs, it feels very similar, the point is that there is a guy next to her, and it seems that they have a good relationship...

Seeing this, I seemed to understand something, the feelings that had been deposited in my heart for a long time instantly surfaced, I quietly looked at their departing backs, more and more blurred, I simply took off my glasses, looking at the deep sky, there is not a star, I want to cry! But I can't cry, I just have a faint sadness.

I walked around the playground three or four times, thinking about what had just happened, and I lied to myself over and over again, it wasn't her... That feeling wasn't peculiar to her, the makeup was too thick, and I couldn't have come to conclusions so early until things were figured out, right! I have to find a chance to re-add her WeChat, it's been more than a year, and she shouldn't be so easy to get angry.

But it backfired, she seemed to be deliberately avoiding me, I didn't see her a few times in a whole year, every time I looked at her from a distance, she was crowded in the middle of friends, so that I didn't have the courage to look for her again to return to WeChat, I thought that this life was like this, and they went away.

Fortunately, one night on March 21, 2019, I got out of self-study and went to the school's small supermarket with my friend Zifan to buy drinks, and I was about to leave after picking up the drinks, and suddenly I saw Jiaying and her friends coming over to buy things, I saw her, she seemed to see me, I had a pimple in my heart, I wanted to say something but couldn't say it, the corners of my mouth were pinched, I walked slowly past her, walked a few steps, I felt a bitter taste in my heart, and it raged in my heart like a river and a sea, I stopped, I mustered up the last courage in my heart, because I knew that this departure was likely to be a lifetime...

I turned around slowly, looked at her, took a few more steps towards her, and said with confidence, "That... Can you stop blocking me? After saying that, I looked at the puzzled eyes of her friends, I was very nervous and embarrassed, she also smiled embarrassedly after hearing it, nodded slightly, and looked very pure, I looked at her attitude, I was relieved, and immediately turned to leave, before leaving, Zifan was still watching the excitement, I grabbed him and pulled him away, out of the supermarket I felt relaxed, although embarrassed...

Zifan leaned over and said with a lewd laugh in my ear, "That's good." When I heard this, I was also proud in my heart.

I was going to do my internship on April 1st, but fortunately I took the last chance to return to the dormitory and take a shower, and I couldn't wait to send her the first message in two years

"Long time no see."

She also quickly replied: "Long time no see." ”

I had already thought of the topic and continued, "You go there for an internship." ”

"I don't know yet"

"We didn't inform either"

"Hmm~"

Well, the conversation was a bit awkward, and it didn't work like this, I had to get a preconceived idea and quickly reacquaint myself with her, so I was a little bold and asked her, "That... Are you available on weekends? ”

"I'm going to work part-time."

"What?"

"Be a tea girl."

Tea girl? The first time I heard that, it seemed like I was going to get out and about more, so I asked, "Uh... What is a tea girl? ”

"Go make tea for others, add water, wash tea utensils"

I was shocked when I heard this, Yo Xi! When the opportunity comes, it takes no effort to get it.

"Then I'm going to have afternoon tea."

"Picture pic•emmmm"

"I'm not welcome," I asked tentatively

"I won't open the door in the afternoon."

"Then I'll have morning tea." I asked without giving up.

"Then it depends on whether you are in the area where I am looking."

"Tell me how I saw you." (I was shocked by my straight man of steel at the time)

"I don't know."

"You do it there." (I have to apologize to her in 2019 for my recklessness)

"Guess."

"I can't guess."

"Why do you want to know where I'm doing?"

"I'd like to go to your place for a cup of tea."

"Picture pic•oh!"

"Central Plaza, the new overseas Chinese capital."

Oh yes! I jumped up from the bed happily and screamed with all my might, as long as I was thick-skinned enough, it wasn't me who was embarrassed, haha! (What a shame it was at the time)

I looked it up on Baidu Maps for a while and sent her a picture of the local area.

"Is this it?"

"Hmm."

"What floor, that area?"

"I don't know, I don't even know where to look."

"Then you'll have to tell me what floors it is."

"Third floor."

"I see."

"Sleep, good night."

"Okay, good night."

The day after tomorrow, that is, on March 23, I came to Central Plaza as promised, and I turned on my mobile phone to ask her

"Early, what time does it open?"

"It's already open."

"Okay."

……

"I'm here, where are you?" I then made a voice call to her, but she didn't answer.

At 10:51, she sent me a message: "You can find it yourself." "She didn't welcome me so much, I know! But it doesn't matter, I'm thick-skinned. (I was a **)

But I didn't see her in the building for a long time, and my stomach was not hungry, so I had to find a seat and sit down, and ordered a few dishes unfamiliarly, I was very conspicuous in the dining table, and others were three or four people around a table, and I was eating alone, and after eating, I spent more than 70 yuan, and said secretly: "It's a pit." ”

I originally wanted to leave, but I decided to linger a little longer, in case I found her, I walked into a lobby, very large, can accommodate hundreds of people to eat, there are dozens of tables, the diners are also crowded, I found that every diner will have a waiter to pour tea, I wonder if she will be here, I like an ant between the crowd, looking around, finally at the table of a diner, she is wearing overalls with an antique skirt listening to the customer ordering, I waved to her excitedly from a distance, and when she saw me, she smiled nonchalantly and turned away.

I should have understood her attitude, but I was stupid, so I found a place to sit down and continued to look at her, and finally she finished her business, walked by my desk, and asked with an embarrassed face, "That... What kind of tea are you going to drink? I smiled and said to her, "What's the tea, tell me about it!" She introduced a lot of tea to me, I finally chose a cup of tea for 5 yuan (I forgot the name, I don't often drink tea), she took out a bag of tea from her pocket, put it in a brown teapot, poured boiling water, and immediately the tea was fragrant, filter the tea water for the first time with the lid and pour it into the tea tray, then add new boiling water to soak and then slowly pour it into the teacup, I enjoyed the process, she made tea very well, I picked it up and smelled it, took a sip, um... This tastes... It's not as good as Wang Laoji.

I don't know how to drink tea naturally can't taste the charm of tea, but it's a pity that she brewed so seriously, she poured tea for me and left, I knew she was very busy, so I drank a few cups and began to play with the mobile phone, after a while she seemed to be temporarily busy with the things at hand, she stood next to her best friend who was also a waiter and talked about me, her best friend also smiled at me from time to time a few times, which made me sit in the seat and drink tea very embarrassed, I had to deliberately drink a few more sips of tea to hide my uneasiness.

Before the tea was finished, I hurriedly settled the bill, my purpose has been achieved, there is no need to stay longer, in the evening, I recall the events of the morning, my heart is also embarrassed, I don't know where I got the courage, probably because I really like this girl, I thought stupidly.

At 10:10 p.m. on March 24, 2019, getting closer and closer to the internship, I washed my face at home, picked up my mobile phone to look at her circle of friends, saying that I haven't looked at her circle of friends for a long time, I don't know how she has been in school in the past two years, I clicked on it and looked at it, suddenly held my breath, my heart was sour, and questions filled my brain, I returned to the bedroom like a walking corpse, and thought quietly for a while, I saw the last thing I wanted to see, and said (I forgot, I deliberately forgot, I don't want to remember that incident, I can only vaguely remember the four words "but us", as if there is still some "distance". Forgot! I don't want to reminisce. I tried to suppress my desire to cry and returned to the circle of friends to tell her

"Good evening."

"I'm going to ask something."

But after waiting for more than 20 minutes, I still didn't receive the message, so I had to send another sentence: "Uh, okay." ”

At 7:08 the next morning, she sent a message,

"What?"

When I saw it at 40 minutes, I immediately replied: "I accidentally saw your circle of friends, you seem to have someone you like." After saying this, I felt deflated all over, and added: "Maybe I misunderstood, don't mind." ”

At 8:08, she finally replied to me, saying, "yes, I have someone I like." ”

"And then?" She asked me rhetorically.

My heart is like ashes, what the hell was she doing after 10 o'clock yesterday... Don't...

I replied desperately: "No then, I understand." ”

After saying that, I threw down my phone, collapsed on the bed, motionless like a dead man, two lines of uncompetitive tears remained, wetting the mattress, I was annoyed, angry, I thought yesterday was a joke, I can probably guess what they said about me together yesterday, she was bitten by a wolf after all, maybe she has been with her boyfriend... I really don't dare to imagine it anymore, my mind goes back to the scene of 17 years, that gazebo, that cute girl smiling at me, the rose garden, the gazebo... The moment I shook hands, at that moment, fragments of memories sprinkled in my mind like glass, I struggled, the fragments scratched my brain, tears kept flowing, I held the pillow with my hand, covered my head, held it desperately, I don't know how long it took... I fell asleep.