When I was angry, I didn't send him. One is angry that he is ready to leave and is unwilling to tell me, and the second is that I am afraid that when I see him go, I will be reluctant to let him go, and maybe I will make a fuss about not allowing him to go. This is indeed something that I did when I was twelve or thirteen years old.

But at that time, I still felt much more angry than reluctant. The anger is that he didn't tell me that he was ready to leave a long time ago, and the anger is that he didn't want to tell me anything, and he told me that we could still spend a long time.

But I know very well that I am angry with him because I am reluctant to him. After so many years of affection, it has never been talked about. My brother has always been by my side, and it's hard for me to imagine that he would really leave.

Even though I knew that there would be this day, the reluctance in my heart was even more turbulent than at this time of year, and the idea of wanting him to stay was actually getting stronger.

But no.

I didn't go to see him off, but I stood beside the tree and didn't move, I didn't speak, I leaned on the tree with one hand and looked at him secretly. My brother knew I was here, but he didn't come to me. I looked at the master and sent him to the gate of the sect, and kept telling something, and Ying'er also cried and said, "Senior brother, you will come back often in the future." Senior Sister Hua also said, "Return safely." ”

It's not that I don't want to say goodbye to him. It's just that if you speak, you will definitely say that you don't want him to go or something. It's better not to say goodbye at all. After all, senior brother, he also has his own things to do.

I know the truth, at that time, I didn't even know what I was awkward.

Maybe I liked him very much at that time, right? Hahaha, just kidding. Even if you like it, it's probably just a little bit of affection in a child's heart.

But I couldn't have imagined that that little bit of affection could affect me so deeply in the end.

When the senior brother and everyone else have finished speaking, I don't think he has set off yet. I saw him look back at me a few times, and I knew he still had something to say, but in the end he didn't talk to me and turned away alone. The moonlight was on his shoulder, and when he saw that he was leaving, he hurriedly flew to me.

This is the eagle we raised together, and the moonlight rubbed my face with her head, as if she couldn't bear me, and then flew to my brother's side with a chirp, fanning her wings by my brother's side. It ended up leaving with my brother and disappeared from my field of vision.

"Let's go." Senior brother, please leave it to you.

I was concerned about him, I missed him, but we didn't talk until the end, I just looked at him silently, and that's it.

But the morning sun drooped its wings beside me, let out a chirp, followed the direction of the moonlight's departure, and after a long time flew back to stop beside me. It also seemed to be the first time in my memory that moonlight and dawn had separated.

Ying'er asked, "Aren't you going to say goodbye to him?" Is that really good? This farewell may not have been seen for many years, and maybe it may be a parting of life and death. Yan'er, aren't you very reluctant to be a senior brother? ”

Life and death sound far away. From the Bashu area to Kaifeng Tianbo Mansion, it is really far away. Although the senior brother has good martial arts, he is still young after all. I can't even think about what I met along the way.

I have a lot of questions I want to ask, is it enough to wrap around, it's hard to go so far, what about the change of clothes, what about the sword, remember to protect the pendant. There's so much to say.

It's just that he was young at that time, and he was the most unforgiving, obviously he was reluctant to let him go, and he said that he was "what's wrong, he doesn't say goodbye to me, doesn't he just don't want me to send him?" So what am I going to do? Looking for gas? "Actually, when it comes to the back, it's a little choked.

Ying'er didn't speak when she saw me say this, I just looked at my brother's back in the distance, even if his back had disappeared for a long time, I was still looking, and I didn't know what I was looking at. The bottom of my eyes seemed to be in the sand, and I was uncomfortably panicked.

For a long time, I filled my schedule. It's not a sword practice or a small task, it's not a sword practice or a small task, and you don't let yourself stop for a moment. It's just that I can't help but walk to the square every night, even if it's just to sit for a while, even if it's just for a while.

Ying'er occasionally said to me, "Senior brother is good to you, it's natural that you can't bear him, and he has been with you for many years." Since you are so reluctant, you should say goodbye at that time. Yan'er, you're just that, you're too stubborn. ”

"I'm not stubborn."

I retorted to her. But if I insist on why I didn't send him, the most important part is that I would definitely be reluctant to let him go if I saw him. If I cry and make trouble, I don't know if he really feels guilty, and that's not what I want.

Time. Time. At this time, it made me feel very difficult, and the speed of rotation seemed to slow down a lot. It's just that every day, I still go back to the square to look at the tree and look at the sword qi left by my senior brother.

Each time, I would curse in my heart for a long time, and then I would be silent again. I miss him so much, very much.

After many months, the moonlight returned. I didn't know why my brother had to take the moonlight with him, his eagle was obviously the morning light. Until one day I heard the familiar chirping, and thought it was an auditory hallucination, but when I looked up and saw the moonlight come back, I was very happy, and the morning light was also busy entangled, circling around the moonlight. I kind of understood what he meant.

Because the moonlight is more familiar with my taste than the morning light, the moonlight finds me more easily than the morning light.

The moonlight swirled above my head, and finally fell, rubbing against my face and shoulders with its feathers and wings, as if there were so many things to say to me, small chirps, as if they were talking to me. I saw a small letter box tied to its leg, and when I pulled it out, it contained a letter written by my brother.

I almost burst into tears, I almost thought he would be angry and not contact me. I held back my desire to cry and slowly opened the letter, and I could even imagine his expression in the familiar handwriting.

"Yan'er,

Zhan Xinjia.

Are you okay? Did you cause trouble to Master? I'm still on the way. I guess you're still angry that I didn't tell you about my departure, right? I'm sorry. It's still a long way from Kaifeng, and I don't know how long it will take. I still have some silver, and when the moonlight comes back, I'll set off again. I also met a lot of people along the way, all kinds of people, but I met a girl named Miao Keke, who has a simple and tight personality, very similar to you. ”

Moonlight didn't understand what I was crying and laughing about, and kept beating in front of me, as if to comfort me.

The letter should not be too long, otherwise it would be difficult to fit in such a small letterbox. I thought about it for a long time, and I had a lot to say, but in the end I only wrote two sentences: "Senior brother, Zhan Xinjia." Are you alright? I miss you. ”