Her father looked at Li Xiao for a while, making sure that she did not have a fever or was confused.

"What's wrong with you?" Father asked.

"It's nothing, I just think the college entrance examination is boring, how about getting in, what if you don't get in. Do you want to toss your life for the college entrance examination? Li Xiao said resolutely.

"Do you know how much you've paid to get to this point, and how much we've paid for you? For so many years of studying, your parents' energy, your family's expenses, everyone is working hard for you, but you are a deserter halfway. The father said angrily.

"I'm not a deserter."

"Then why give up?"

"One of my classmates died, she was tortured to death by the college entrance examination, and I don't want to be like her."

"Which one?"

"Water Bureau High School. Wu Di. ”

"I know this girl that she was born with malnutrition and acquired nutritional deficiencies, and it was her own problem that had nothing to do with the college entrance examination. If she doesn't repeat it, she will have an accident, and repeating it just speeds up the accident. ”

"Really?"

"Am I going to lie to you again? I made a point to find out about it some time ago. They have a history of genetic disease in their family. This girl's case is just a special case, not a common phenomenon, and she won't stop taking the car because of a car accident, right? Don't shake your belief in the college entrance examination because of this. Isn't it? ”

"Oh." Li Xiao's hostility towards the college entrance examination has lessened.

"Don't think nonsense, if you don't study hard, how can you like Liu Qiangjun?"

"Huh?" Li Xiao was puzzled when he heard his father say Liu Qiangjun's name.

"Don't blame Dad for disrespecting you, I saw the letter written to you by Liu Qiangjun, and you can't take it lightly at this time. Although people have a good impression of you, you can only be worthy of him if you work hard to get into college. Although there is no distinction between high and low people, many times, people are invisibly separated automatically, forming different levels. Do your classmates who were admitted to university still have a relationship with you? Very little, right? The university is such a line, and if you can't cross this line, you can't enter another level, you can only linger at the bottom. "I never thought that my father could speak well, only nagging, but today's words have a lot of truth.

Since failing the college entrance examination, she has basically lost contact with those classmates who were admitted to college. Former classmates, former friends, now in different places, there is no news, as if she has been abandoned on the beach. Others are proud of the spring breeze, but they are still struggling.

She often dreams of breaking through, but no matter how hard she tries, she always encounters all kinds of unexpected obstacles that prevent her from breaking through.

Li Xiao fell into deep thought.

Seeing that Li Xiao was silent, his father stopped talking.

"I'll ask your uncle to talk to Liu Qiangjun and let him persuade you." Dropping the words, the father left.

"Don't." Li Xiao shouted. She would rather bear it silently by herself than let Liu Qiangjun see her embarrassed appearance.

Maybe he heard Li Xiao's shout, but his father didn't call Liu Qiangjun.

However, Li Xiao received a letter from Liu Qiangjun. It turned out that it was the uncle himself who told him what had happened.

"Smile:

I haven't seen you for a long time, and I miss it so much!

Today, I heard your uncle talk about your current situation, and I am very worried about you.

What happened to you today, I happened yesterday. People will be affected by many factors, you have thought fluctuations understandable, I have also wanted to give up my studies many times, you have yours is pain, and mine is shame. I wanted to leave school in a grief, but I couldn't. Because I think that only by being admitted to university can I make a name for myself and get rid of the world's eyes. Only when you are on the right path can you achieve your goals, and not deviate from your set goals because of some factors.

At that time, my family was poor, and I still wore patched clothes when I went to high school, so I had some low self-esteem physiologically, and I was not the only one who wore patched clothes at that time, but there were very few, and I was the last generation of students in Jinning No. 2 Middle School who wore patched clothes. At this time, I didn't want to be "conspicuous" at school, and I wanted to run home.

For a while, living in the dark stairwell of the dormitory building, six people, usually washing clothes were hung on the wire in the aisle in front of the bed.

One day, a classmate said that his pants were missing, we all said that they didn't take it, and some people advocated searching, I had no ghost in my heart, and agreed, so I opened the box, and it turned out in my box. Catch a present, I can't tell the difference, it's really shameless, although everyone doesn't say that you are a thief in person, and I don't know how to spread it in private. Fortunately, I was not publicly criticized for this matter, because after all, it was an "ironclad fact", otherwise, I really wouldn't be able to stay in school.

Another night, I was not feeling well, others went to class, I was lying in bed and sleeping, suddenly I heard a slight footstep, I looked sideways, a person came in and picked up a pair of leather shoes in the dormitory and ran out, when I dragged the sick body to get up (I slept on the top bunk) to chase, the person was gone. So I told my classmates about it. As a result, when the homeroom teacher saw me, he said that I was a turtle with a shrunken head, and he didn't see righteousness and bravery, and he slapped me twice and disciplined me.

After that, the head teacher was indifferent to me, and even ignored me! I became an abandoned child.

No matter what others do to you, only you persevere.

You were born in the city, and you may not be able to understand the desire of rural people for the college entrance examination, and sometimes, it is not that you can go if you want to take it. Many families have made great efforts to achieve this, and even bankrupted their families, and some are too poor to even maintain their studies. I guess your parents should have done a lot for you.

A single-plank bridge for the college entrance examination is actually a relatively fair selection mechanism in China. It enables many children of ordinary people to enter a high platform or stage, and they can also say that the prince will have a kind of peace. The college entrance examination can change your life, you can get a good education, you can realize your ideals, you can speak in layman's or vulgar terms, and you can stand out from others.

Knowing your worries and confusions, I would like to show you some of the diaries I wrote before the college entrance examination, hoping to enlighten you and give you strength.

Liu Qiangjun **February"

Attached are two sheets of paper, which are a complete diary.

Difficulties and annoyances

Difficulties and troubles linger in me, causing me to breed a trace of depression and embarrassment, and often in the midst of great helplessness, delusion and despair. In learning, I feel like falling into the mud, about to be drowned, I am struggling, and I can't get rid of it, when can I be relieved? When can I raise my eyebrows? I think next year, once I fall off the list, I have no face to see my father, my heart is also panicked, tears are stained, and I wander in my steps, and a terrible result is to face the loess with my back to the sky, the sun is about to be noon, and the sweat drops are under the soil.

I thought I would become an amateur writer in the future, and I was ready to make a move, but because of my low level, I wanted to write a report. After a few busy days, I had no clue, as if I had made up an ugly basket, and I couldn't close it, the national "XX Writers" contest, I wanted to participate, collected some materials, and ended up because of shallow knowledge.

Life is also difficult, there is no change of clothes, food expenses are small, frugality everywhere, and life is wrenched. Stay, a bed of six catties quilted, frozen at night, shrunk into a ball, colds are common, internal and external difficulties. How many goods will you prepare for the monthly exam next week? I'm worried about this again. When will we be able to break through the fog?

I went through primary school and junior high school and entered Jinning No. 2 Middle School, and two years have passed, looking back on the past, I have the blessing of being talented and agile, but I can't do without the stereotype of "life is confused". After experiencing ups and downs and divergent learning paths, it is also the glory of my life to be able to enter the second middle school for further study. Pity me for being numb by nature, not diligent, not spending time on current affairs, and finally coming to this step. This year is a crossroads in my life, or go to heaven and be honored with myself; or go to hell, like cows and horses. And facing the loess with his back to the sky, he lived a life in sorrow and poverty. Pity the parents' hearts, and do their best to become famous. If the governor is not satisfied, I will repent and see my parents! There is still a glimmer of hope, you should work hard, regardless of life and death, it is also your wish to quench your thirst, do your best, and defeat will have no regrets.

Reading between the lines, a teenager who struggles to move forward in a difficult situation and is unwilling to live up to his parents jumps on the page.

Li Xiao saw that Liu Qiangjun was struggling desperately at that time under the difficult situation, but he was passive and tired of studying because of Wu Di's departure, Li Xiao was a little ashamed.

Don't compare and don't know your own gaps, and don't compare and don't know the hardships of others.

Since the road has been chosen, the only way to do it is to persevere.

Thinking about it and relieved, Li Xiao wrote a reply letter to Liu Qiangjun, thanking him for his letter and telling him that he would persevere.