Chapter 17: Unload your baggage and move on
Unload your baggage and move on.
In the days without Wu Di, there was no one to communicate with after class, and Li Xiao felt very lonely.
When I got out of class, I looked east and west, and found that the male classmate sitting behind me had a lot of white hair on his head, which looked a bit like the virtual bamboo in "Dragon Babu". Li Xiao was taken aback by his discovery. This celebrity's imitation face didn't cause a sensation in the class, and it seems that everyone is really thinking about reading. Li Xiao secretly rejoiced in his discovery.
Looking back on the history of reading along the way, it is also colorful.
In elementary school, he chased "Liao Zhai", in junior high school, he chased martial arts, and in high school, he chased romance.
The downstairs tenant's "Liao Zhai" is always read by Li Xiao first, and he is always deeply attracted by the twists and turns in the book. At that time, you could skip eating, but you couldn't skip reading. His mind was full of Zhou Gongzi, Li Gongzi, and a Chinese ghost story.
When I was in the fourth grade of elementary school, I was drummed by another tenant who read out the manuscript version of "The Heart of a Girl", and I can still remember that I snatched this manuscript from the male tenant and read it aloud at the request of the tenant, while the man and his wife were lying on the bed, the man's hand rubbed against the woman, Li Xiao and several of the man's children sat around the bed, and the boy's children also listened carefully to Li Xiao's "reading". When she grew up, she realized that it was a forbidden book, and she actually "read" it in elementary school.
When I was in junior high school, I happened to find "Seven Swords Under the Heavenly Mountain" at a classmate's house, and I couldn't put it down and read it desperately. At that time, it was a little jerky to read, and many of the sentences were not smooth. Until she found "Ancient Legends" and "Chinese Legends" at another classmate's father, "Flying Red Scarf", "The Legend of the White-Haired Witch" and "Jade Jiaolong" were serialized one by one to bring her into the world of martial arts, wild and unrestrained. She didn't understand why Fei Hongscarf and Yang Yuncong didn't get together. Yu Jiaolong, who is a young lady, fell in love with Luo Xiaohu of Jianghu Avenue, and abandoned his home for him and went to the end of the world. She reads "love". One day, I found a copy of "Dream of Red Mansions" with some paragraphs pasted with white tape at the bedside of my uncle's bed, and I couldn't help but want to tear off the tape to see the text inside. So I have a hazy ignorance of sexuality.
When I reached high school, the style of painting changed suddenly, and I was moved by Qiong Yao's love tragicomedy. After reading "Outside the Window", I was also fascinated by my Chinese teacher, but I just appreciated it, and some classmates picked up Li Xiao and snatched him from the hands of the Chinese teacher's fiancée. When I watched "Paradise on Fire", I knew the trembling name of Ryunosuke Akutagawa and the trembling sentence "The overhead line still emits sharp sparks." He looked around his life, and there was nothing he wanted but this purple spark...... Only this terrible spark in the air, even if it is exchanged for life, he also wants to catch it! "Life is like the splendor of summer flowers, death is like the quiet beauty of autumn leaves", the heroine passed away in plain white. Every time I read this, Li Xiao was sad for a while.
If "A Girl's Heart" enlightened her sexuality, and "Dream of Red Mansions" took her to explore sexuality, then Qiong Yao's romance novel led her into another love situation. She also fantasizes about such pure love and affection. Longing to be embraced, soothed, and kissed.
Helplessly, life is suddenly dominated by others, and he can only meet and succumb.
His father's monopoly and autocracy suppressed Li Xiao's young and wild heart for a long time. Don't dare to speak loudly, don't dare to laugh. She didn't dare to look at the boy as boldly as the granddaughter of her grandmother's friend, and sit in the pile of men to watch the men take a bath. She could only suppress it all deeply. Serious dependence on her father directly leads to her poor hands-on ability and strong dependence, and whenever she encounters a problem, she fantasizes about getting help from a man she likes, solving problems she can't solve, and helping her memorize those books that she can't memorize.
The two villains who "follow the rules" and "unrestrained and wild" follow the rules during the day and make trouble in the morning. Every time the two villains fought in their bodies, she began to break her heart. She actually wanted to indulge herself, but the traditional tutor wrapped her tightly. There were a few times when the two villains were fighting, Li Xiao suddenly felt exhausted, mentally collapsed, and his heart was haggard.
The college entrance examination is approaching day by day, and the pressure is getting bigger and bigger.
As the pressure increased, the suppressed mad demon in Li Xiao's body became more and more cheerful. She pressed the left, the right jumped out, pressed the right and the left jumped out again, just like stepping on a balloon when she was a child, stepping on the left side and revealing the right side, stepping on the front and exposing the back. When she threw herself over and tried her best to suppress it, the balloon exploded and she was injured.
Two months before the college entrance examination, she couldn't bear the pressure and began to have a mental breakdown. The doctor suggested that Li Xiao's father let her recuperate for a while.
The college entrance examination is imminent, but people are sick.
Looking at Li Xiao, who had problems again, Li Xiao's father was much older again. Looking at Li Xiao lying on the bed, Li Xiao's father was sad for a while. The college entrance examination is about to begin, and I finally give up like this after a year of preparation, and I feel unwilling, but I can't forcibly drag my child into the examination room. After all, losing a child for an exam is not a wise move.
Li Xiao's father was at a loss.
Li Xiao was lying on the bed, not feeling easy.
Although her father and Liu Qiangjun rebuilt her confidence, it was not Wu Di who broke her, but herself.