Han Mo sat down next to me, I didn't speak, he didn't speak, the two of us just sat like that.

The hospital in the early morning was a little quiet, and there was only the sound of my own breathing in the entire corridor, which was very depressing.

I suddenly remembered that day, when I was keeping a wake for my mother, it was the same way, and it was just me and my grandmother in the whole mourning hall, and the wind was whirring outside, and the candle flame in front of the picture was blown by the wind.

I knelt in front of me, and my mother, who had always been me, lay in that coffin, never to jump up and say that I couldn't even count on a simple one-plus-one.

The word father never existed in my life, and the word mother only began to I can remember, but I don't have much memory, I only remember my mother as a very good-looking woman. The people in the village are always pointing fingers at her, but she always wants to bring out the best in herself every time she goes out.

Because of this, she even suffered a lot of unfair scolding, but she never gave up.

Before I even understood why she was doing this, she died, choosing the most horrific way. From then on, the only person who accompanied me was my grandmother.

I know that no one will be with you until the end, and everyone will leave before you.

But I couldn't accept that my grandmother was leaving me at such a time.

Really, I know she's going to leave one day, but I'm always wondering if this day can come a little later, a little later.

Tears fell and hit the back of my hand, and I knew I was crying.

My vision was blurred, and the light from the incandescent light was also blurred, so I couldn't see anything clearly.

When the mobile phone rang, I was stunned for a moment, and subconsciously looked at the place where the sound of the mobile phone came from, and my eyes fell on Han Mo's hand holding the mobile phone, and then I remembered that my mobile phone had been broken by him, how could I receive the call.

Han Mo pinched the phone directly without looking at it, and when he looked up, he glanced at me by the way, and I turned my eyes away and didn't look at him.

This kind of waiting is the most painful, but it is also the most powerless.

When my grandmother was pushed out, it was already more than two hours later, she was full of tubes, she hadn't woken up yet, and I felt distressed lying on the pushing bed.

The doctor already knew me, so he took off his mask and looked at me: "Miss Fu, we did our best, Ms. Zhao will wake up within twenty-four hours, but the situation-"

"No——! Dr. Zhang, you tell me, you just joked with me, it's not true, it's not true, you tell me! ”

I didn't expect that I had waited for more than three hours to achieve such a result, and I couldn't accept hearing such words from Dr. Zhang, who had always encouraged me.

Really, that's all the world is collapsing.

Grandma is my whole world, but my whole world is going to collapse.

"Fu Yao, calm down! Let the doctor go! ”

Han Mo stepped forward and took my hand and didn't let me drag the doctor.

He told me to calm down, but how calm I am, how calm I should be!

"Miss Fu—"

Dr. Zhang called me again, his voice full of apologies and guilt.

I was stunned for a moment and let go of my hand, but my legs were soft, and I went straight down.

Han Mo was holding me behind me, so I didn't fall completely.

But I can't use any strength at all, how can I have the strength, I live so hard for my grandmother, but now everyone asks me to mourn, how can I mourn, you tell me how to mourn!

"Fu Yao."

Han Mo called me again, I looked at him in a daze, and I could only see his eyebrows clearly in Han Mo's blurred line of sight.

But I knew that he was looking at me, and those black eyes were like deep pools, looking at me.

I was also looking at him, just watching, looking at it and finally couldn't help it, and reached out to hug him: "Han Mo, you tell me, Dr. Zhang is joking with me, okay?" ”

Tell me, there's hope, okay?

But Han Mo, who had always choked me to death, didn't say a word now, just stood there quietly, letting my tears and snot stick to his body.

Silent, silent to the point of despair.

Grandma had been pushed away, and all the medical staff had left, except for Han Mo and I in the aisle outside the operating room.

There was silence all around, as if everything had been asleep.

I don't know how long it took before I gradually stabilized, let go of the hand holding Han Mo's shirt, got up and stood up straight and wanted to walk to my grandmother's hospital room, but found that my feet were stiff.

It was Han Mo who reached out and caught me, I looked back at him, my vision was much clearer after I wiped away my tears, I looked at his frowning eyebrows and couldn't help but smile: "Am I ugly?" ”

He didn't speak, but raised his hand to pull the tear-stained hair on my face behind my ear, and a pair of black eyes looked down at me: "No." ”

Han Mo finally stopped hitting me, but I didn't have half a point of joy.

How to rejoice, to exchange such cruelty for his sympathy, how can you make me rejoice?

I looked away and pushed away the hand he was holding me: "I can go by myself." ”

He looked at my thin lips and moved slightly, as if he wanted to speak, but suddenly his phone rang.

I didn't mean to look at it, I just subconsciously wanted to look at it.

He got up with his mobile phone and hung up, and I saw the caller ID at a glance, only two words: Xu Ran.

I froze, and suddenly I thought of something, reached out and pushed him away, and walked to my grandmother's hospital room step by step.

She always wouldn't let me come to see her, and I was really stupid, so I promised her.

So much has happened during this time, and I haven't seen my grandmother for more than half a month.

More than half a month ago, my grandmother was able to hold my hand and ask me if I had a boy I liked, but in fact, it was wrong at that time, but I didn't find out.

I didn't find anything, so now I can only lie on the glass and look at my grandmother motionless inside.

She was covered in tubes, and this was the first time I'd panicked like this.

I am now shocked to realize that she has been suffering for more than two years, because I have been in the hospital for two years with my teeth gritted.

People are selfish, she is obviously so hard, I know that she is so hard, but I still don't want to let go, I still want to selfishly keep her for a little longer, a little longer, and as a result, she has suffered so much.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but raise my hand and give myself a palm.

"Smack." With a bang, the whole aisle was filled with the sound of slapping, and I suddenly felt a little relieved, and wanted to slap again, but I was suddenly caught by Han Mo.

"What are you doing?!"

I looked back at him, looked at the anger in his eyes, withdrew my hand, turned my eyes back to my grandmother's face through the glass window, and said word by word: "I don't have much ability, but I still selfishly want to keep her with me to endure hardships, two years, she has been gritting her teeth and suffering from this inhuman torture for two years." ”

I don't want to say it, and I don't want him to sympathize with me.

There is nothing to sympathize with, everyone has to go through some hardships in their lives before they can truly appreciate what happiness is.

Some people go through hardships in the first half of their lives, but the second half of their lives will be a little smoother. Some people have a smooth ride in the first half of their lives, but they have a lot of disasters in the second half of their lives.

But there are also some people who have suffered a lot all their lives.

I don't know what kind of person I am, but there are thousands of people in this world, and everyone will have their own difficulties and sufferings, and there is nothing to sympathize with.

But I still can't help but want to say, I don't know why, I just want to say.

I want to say, I want Han Mo to scold me.

But he was silent, as if his tongue had been cut off all of a sudden, and without saying a word, he just stood behind me.

I suddenly became a little annoyed, turned my head and raised my hand to grab his collar: "You scold me, why don't you scold me, scold me!" ”

He frowned and pursed his lips, but he never said a word.

I looked at him, my heart twisted, there was no way to smooth it out and make me not so uncomfortable.

I don't know how long I stood there, Han Mo seemed to ask if he wanted to eat halfway, I shook my head and refused, and kept my eyes on my grandmother in the intensive care unit.

I'm conflicted, I want her to wake up and see me, but I don't want her to wake up.

She didn't wake up, and I at least had some hope, after all, the doctor said she would wake up.

But when she woke up, I had no more fear, because I didn't know when she would fall asleep and never wake up again.

But some things are like that, whether you are worried or not, whether you are afraid or not, whether you are afraid or not, if it happens, it will always happen.

Grandma finally woke up, and at about nine o'clock the next day, the hospital corridor began to be full of people.

You can only enter the intensive care unit for two people at a time, but for my grandmother and me, this rule is useless, and I am the only one who wants to enter.

It was Nurse Lin who led me in, and when she changed into a sterile gown, she looked at me, and opened her mouth in the middle of a loud voice: "Fu Yao, you are emotionally stable, Granny Zhao, she has been working hard." ”

I was stunned for a moment, looking at Nurse Lin in a daze, my clothed hand trembling constantly, until I finally put it on, I pulled my hand tightly, suppressing my emotions little by little.

When I went in, my grandmother's oxygen mask had been removed, and I subconsciously wanted to ask someone, but Nurse Lin on the side had already spoken, which was requested by my grandmother, because it was so easy to talk.

I had no way to refute it, so I could only grit my teeth and let this old urchin be willful: "Grandma." ”

I called her, and she looked at me and smiled, her eyes like a flower, and her scrawny hands trembled and stretched out to me.