My father's figure had been submerged in the night outside the door, and the fourth brother was still in the door frame, half facing the darkness, half bathed in the last light in the hall, he suddenly looked back at me, a pair of eyes were slightly cold, and did not meet the smile at the corner of his mouth.

The fourth brother seemed to have something to say, but when he met my gaze, he just smiled, and the ink-colored brocade clothes were ironed to outline the slender figure, and I don't know when there was a little softness that he had never seen before, and his calm and warm expression actually had a little bit of a big brother's feeling.

I read a phrase from his lips: take care of yourself.

You see, the face of the world, always see one side, less side, it is better not to see, nothing can relieve the sadness in my heart, so that my crumbling persistence is fragile.

Pei'er sent my father and fourth brother out of the palace for me before coming back, she entered the palace with me from the mansion, and she is also the person I trust the most in this deep palace, and my father and fourth brother naturally have something to explain.

The palace is not very big, and it is only a hundred meters away from the palace where I live to the main entrance, but Pei'er has been there for a long time, and when she came back, although she pretended to be okay and laughed with me, the redness and wetness in the corners of her eyes could not deceive people.

Did her father say anything to her? Or the fourth brother?

The next day, the people around the Queen Mother came and asked me to go to her palace to dine together, Changyun changed my clothes for me, and went in a sedan chair.

As soon as I walked to the front of the hall, before I could go up a step, I heard a burst of laughter from inside, and the voice should be a girl about the same age as me, I don't want to know it, it must be Bunraku, no one can be so light in front of the Queen Mother except her.

Hearing the words of the palace people, I walked in at the call, and without looking up, I saw a gorgeous dress and saluted.

The Queen Mother smiled and asked me to calm down, and the palace maid who served on the side moved a chair over, and I saw Jiang Yao at this time, he saw me coming, and the chopsticks in his hand paused, and he seemed a little unhappy, but the Queen Mother was beside her, and the unhappiness in her eyes was only a flash.

"The queen has been in the palace for some time, but are you still used to it?"

I greeted her every day, and although she was kind to me, she never asked me any such questions, but only rewarded me with some clever play. If you say too much, you will lose, so I nodded as an answer.

The Queen Mother never bothered with me about these, not to mention that asking me these words was not the point, mainly to see Jiang Yao's reaction.

Jiang Yao didn't react to expectations, except for the disgust that looked at me just now, there was no other expression.

"The mourning family is old, and the big and small affairs in the palace are taken care of by the people around them, and since the queen is used to it, it is time to learn to take care of the affairs of the harem."

？？？ The Queen Mother may have said this seriously, but I didn't dare to listen carefully, so I quietly looked at Jiang Yao next to me, who knew that he still nodded pretendly.

"The queen is shy by nature and doesn't like to talk, but after all, she is the master of the harem, and the retainer is worried that the queen is too soft, so why don't you take care of it for the time being?"

I could think that the person recommended by Jiang Yao must be one of Zhao Fei and Wang Yin, but I didn't expect Jiang Yao to choose Zhao Fei, and he didn't even mention Wang Yin's name.

"I have also seen Concubine Shu, but it really does not dishonor the reputation of their Zhao family." Wen Le praised Zhao Fei between his words, "As soon as the imperial sisters-in-law entered the palace, I went to Zhaoyuan, and I didn't have much contact with the harem concubines. ”

"Concubine Chen grew up watching the mourning family, although she is not in good health, but she is raised in the palace, and she is not able to learn it in one or two days, Concubine Chen is bold and careful, Concubine Chen is cautious and careful, so that the two of them can help each other, and learn from each other's strengths." The Queen Mother said, and looked at me again: "What does the Queen think?" ”

I didn't know how to answer for a while, and I didn't dare to ask Changyun for help too blatantly in front of the Queen Mother, and when I was about to nod, Jiang Yao on the side spoke.

"The queen mother has thought it through, so let's arrange it like this."

Wen Le suddenly smiled, looked at me and Jiang Yao meaningfully, and said: "There have always been rumors in the palace, saying that the emperor and the queen are not on good terms, and they used a sword against the queen on the wedding night. ”

My eyelids jumped, and although the wound on my hand was healed, it still felt a faint pain, as if it was about to crack from the scar.

The Queen Mother didn't seem surprised by what Wenle said, she seemed to know it in her heart, and it seemed that she had long been familiar with the things in the palace.

Also, this is what she single-handedly run, and Bunraku, who is far away in Zhaoyuan, knows it, what reason does the Queen Mother have not to know? In her eyes, these are just children's play, as long as it is not excessive, she will open one eye and close one eye.

"The queen is my wife, and she will be buried with the mausoleum in the future, even if there were some misunderstandings in the past that made her sons a little prejudiced against her, now that she has seen the queen, naturally these unnecessary things should be unraveled." Jiang Yao's words are not sincere, but they are words that can make everyone decent.

After that, he didn't seem to think it was enough, so he added: "After all, it is the queen who was personally selected by the queen mother and me, so naturally it will not be wrong." ”

The Queen Mother smiled calmly, no one wanted to peek out from her expression, she was so well disguised that even I, the person who saw her every day, would only see one face, gentle and loving, but there was a scheming inside.

is worthy of being a former queen, this is the thoughtfulness and quietness that you should have as the mother of a country.

"The royal sister-in-law has a relationship with the royal family, and she went around and around, and she still entered the palace." Wenle's cold words have involved things for a long time, and they are too trivial to say separately one by one, and connecting them together will only make people sigh at the impermanence of fate.

At that time, the mourning family thought that the queen was good, and that was because her mother was also alive, who would have thought that ...... The queen must have suffered a lot. "I'm sure my mother doesn't have any friendship with the Queen Mother, but she is one of the women who occasionally goes to the palace with her father to have a banquet and sits under the banquet, and she may not even say a word, so I don't know where the regret on the Queen Mother's face comes from.

"It's strange to say, when I saw Su Meiren, I felt a little familiar, but Su Meiren is a woman from southern Xinjiang, I live in the palace, how can I see it?" Wenle's eyes slowly flowed from me to Jiang Yao, Jiang Yao's expression froze visibly, and it was only for a moment, so fast that people felt that it was their own illusion.

The smile on the corner of Wenle's mouth never stopped, but the words he said were shocking: "Now that I look at it, Su Meiren's eyebrows and eyes are somewhat similar to the imperial sister-in-law, and I think that when we were young, we also had a relationship with the imperial sister-in-law, which contributed to today's cause and effect." ”

The Queen Mother was a little curious and asked, "Listening to your words, it seems that it was the first time you saw the queen at the night banquet in the palace that day?" ”

Wen Le shook his head and said, "No, the first time I saw the imperial sister-in-law was outside the palace, do you remember the time when I slipped out of the palace with Brother Yao to play on the street?" ”

"Why don't you remember, you haven't come back for a long time, and your father and the mourning family are frightened." There was a hint of love in the Queen Mother's eyes.

"That time, the night was very beautiful, the stars in the sky, the lights on the ground, and a big tree full of red ribbons, there was a bit of fairy spirit under the moon shadow, I was stunned, I didn't pay attention to the road ahead, I collided with the imperial sister-in-law, and made her cry."

"Oh? But the emperor helped the queen? The Queen Mother followed the story and speculated.

"Brother Yao's temperament, you don't know it, he is cold and indifferent when he sees anyone, not only did he not help the imperial sister-in-law that day, but he also argued with her." As I spoke, the scene of that day unfolded in my mind again with Bunraku's words, and Jiang Yao's eyes were indeed cold when he looked at me from that time.

"It's not that the enemies don't get together, although I was favored by my father and named the lord of Changle back then, didn't I marry Brother Yao in the end?"

Listening to Wenle's meaning, it turns out that I was named the lord of Changle, and I want to marry someone else?

I couldn't get an answer from Jiang Yao and Wenle, I glanced at the Queen Mother without a trace, and the Queen Mother's face did not change, as if she was saying something inconsequential: "It's Lang'er who is not blessed." ”

Then, the Queen Mother glanced at me and said with a smile: "I didn't think much before, but when Wenle said this, the queen and Su Meiren are indeed a little similar." ”

Suko, looks like me? , Similar looks are too personal, the benevolent see the benevolent, the wise see the wise, most of the good-looking faces in the world are the same, only the ugly ones are strange and different.

"The queen is famous for her beauty, and she was born in a Sumei slave, but she has a worldly appearance, not as far as the queen." Jiang Yao's words are giving me enough face, but the maintenance and partiality in the words don't need to be speculated by others at all, and they are full of overflow.

In three or two sentences, the problem is explained in a gloomy and white way, which saves me from thinking too much and saves others from suspicion.

If Su Ko really looked similar to me in Jiang Yao's eyes at the beginning, then she might not be Su Mei now, with his inexplicable hostility towards me at that time, she would not be so fond of her if she didn't die.

There were too many things to eat for this meal, and I ate two bites and felt a little supportive, so I drank the porridge slowly. When I went back, I didn't make a sedan chair, but walked back along the nearest path, and took a walk to relax.

Wen Le chased after her, and when she smiled, there was light in her eyes, and she couldn't take her eyes off it: "You guys go down first, I'll walk with the imperial sister-in-law." ”

Sending away the people next to me, Bunraku walked up to me, smiling slightly, as if he had something to say, but he didn't know how to speak.

My steps were slow, her steps were brisk, we never walked in the same rhythm, and she did not accommodate me to follow me, but after a distance from me, she turned to look at me.

"Do you know why you were named the Lord of Changle?"

I looked up, and my eyes must have been filled with "why", everything was as she expected, her sparkling eyes were slightly light brown, shining amber in the sun, "Do you know who the queen mother is talking about 'Lang'er'?" ”

"You don't know anything, but everything is about you, and you can't escape."

Bunraku's voice, like her expression, became obscure. I walked towards where she stood, and she did not move, quietly waiting for me to come, and the sound sounded in my ears as she passed by, as if it had been specially spoken to me, and as if she was weak.

"Me too, I don't know anything, and I can't escape......"

As he spoke, Bunraku suddenly coughed violently, covering his mouth with a handkerchief, and his whole body trembled with his chest.

"What's wrong with you?" I've never seen Bunraku like this, and I don't know what to do, and the people around me are all branched out again, and I want to help her, but I'm afraid that I won't be able to figure out the situation and be self-defeating, so I stretch out my hand and retract it, in a dilemma.

Bunraku coughed and waved my hand not to worry, and it took a while to calm down a little, and when I got so close, I realized that her face was pale, sickly pale.

"I'm fine, I'm sick, I'll be fine in a while."

Even if I didn't know much about the palace before, I also knew that Wen Le was the only princess who came out of the palace, and she was also the first emperor's favorite palm yin bead, and now the queen mother of the harem is the dominant family, and Jiang Yao is the brother who grew up with her since childhood, no one in this world can be pampered like her, and no one dares to embarrass her will, how can there be such an old problem at a young age? Since it is an old problem, why is there no medical treatment in the morning, or is there no medical treatment at all?

I didn't know what to do, but the goddess of the small palace next to Bunraku chased after her nervously, and the cloak in her hand completely wrapped Bunraku's small body, and then saluted me: "The queen mother forgives her sins, and the slave maid will take the princess back first." ”

Without waiting for me to answer, they left in a hurry with Wenle, and then Pei'er and Changyun also came, as if they were all frightened by such a scene, Pei'er saw that my face was like earth, and asked with some worry, "What's wrong with Niangniang?" ”

I didn't speak, Changyun stepped forward and grabbed my outstretched hand, and said to Pei'er: "You go back to the palace first, cook the tea that Niangniang likes to drink, it will take three times to produce color, look at it carefully." ”

"Yes." Pell glanced at me quietly and retreated with the rest of the group.

"Princess Wenle is born with a disease, so the former emperor and the queen mother have always favored the princess, but the princess's body is getting weaker and weaker day by day, and the marriage has been delayed again and again."

"What's wrong with her? Is it really impossible to smelt well? ”

Changyun shook his head and said, "Can or can't, isn't the queen's illness like this?" ”

My heart froze for a moment with the aftermath of her falling, but my heart settled down, I only smiled lightly, and Changyun didn't say anything more very transparently.

Is my acting so clumsy? Did this mask that I put on myself turn out to be just deceiving myself?

Did Chen let me go, did he think that I had no intention of fighting and was careless, or was it as I heard in front of the door that night, that Qin's mother had always been careful to protect me?

I was thinking about it, Changyun's footsteps suddenly stopped, I looked up, in the middle of the line of sight stood Wang Yin, she only brought a maid to stand on the side of the stone road, looking out through the low fence, I don't know what I was looking for, seeing me coming, quite panicked.

"I've seen the Queen Mother." She saluted me and withdrew, Wang Yin has not talked much, and her polite and non-fighting temperament makes it difficult for others to be wary of her.

She wasn't just cold to me, she was like this to everyone, like a hermit living in the deep palace, unwilling to set foot in the world unless necessary.

Wang Yin's illness is not the same as Wenle's illness, Wang Yin is just lacking in qi and blood, her weak body is softer than Yang Liu, and she has such a family background and talent, but she is a useless beauty lamp, and it will break when the wind blows, but the Queen Mother intends to support her, and she wants to come to Jiang Yao's heart is also classified as a category on my side.

I pity her, she entered the palace at a young age, and she was undoubtedly the queen of the middle palace, but she killed a Changle county lord, and a person who didn't even participate in the draft flew onto the plane tree.

I passed by the place where she had just stood, and looked out as she had done, where there were only two or three patrolling guards, and behind them was where the royal courtiers who had participated in the hunt lived.

I didn't dare to stay longer, so I left in a hurry after just one look.

The palace wall can't stop people, but people's hearts are imprisoned inside, and they are cages wherever they go.

What I feared and looked forward to the most happened again.

Yujing came, and when I was bored in the room cutting candles, he suddenly appeared by the window, and the passing wind blew his beautiful eyebrows.

"Ah Xuan." He smiled, still clean with a hint of sadness.

I was startled, the scissors in my hand fell on the table, and I stood up and looked at him in a panic.

I'm not surprised, I'm frightened, the palace is heavily guarded, how did he get in, and how can he get out if someone else finds out?

"Don't be afraid, I won't embarrass you." He lowered his eyes, not daring to look me in the eye.

My look must have hurt him, and it must have made him think that I was a heartless person, who cared only about his own favor and comfort, and disregarded his feelings.

"I just, miss you so much." Yu Jing said, raising her head, and her dark eyes turned into a gentle and indulgent ocean at this moment, constantly sinking and drowning.

Why would you say such a thing to break all my pretenses?

I took a deep breath and tried to calm my mind, to speak in a normal tone, and most importantly, to retract the tears.

I can't cry to this person anymore, every time I cry, it's the sharpest weapon that hurts him the most.

"I heard that you are sick and have not shown up, and I don't know how the situation is now, I am a little worried."

I pretended to smile lightly and said, "I'm fine, but I have some spleen and stomach disorders, just rest for two days." ”

Yu Jing's brow did not ease, nor did he approach me, there was always such a distance between the two of us, which he deliberately maintained.

After a long time, no one spoke, Yujing glanced out the window and said, "You, is there anything else you want to say to me?" ”

Yes, there are too many. I could feel that my expression must be shameless, looking at him pitifully, despicably. You can't let go of why he didn't go with him in the first place, you can't forget why he can't let him forget, you love him, why don't you let him go.

I grabbed my arm with my free hand and said, "No." ”

Yujing's eyes darkened, and I wanted to pretend not to see it, but my eyes were glued to him, and I couldn't take my eyes off it.

He smiled, took a few steps back, and said softly, "I'm leaving." ”

I don't have the qualifications to catch up, I have rejected his intentions, there is no need to let him hang for me day and night, but I am not qualified to let him forget me, it was me who wanted to be entangled with him at the beginning, and it was I who wanted him to move his mind, how could I let him go again, and said ruthlessly: You forget me!

The more I say that, the more he can't let go, I always waver when I encounter things, and I always run away from everything that can't be solved, but I know Yujing too well, if I didn't say to him personally: I don't love you anymore. He will never give up, and this sentence is something I can't say anyway.

Yujing left without embarrassing me in the slightest, but just by showing up, I began to feel embarrassed.