When Jiang Yao woke up, I closed my eyes, not sleepy, but pretending to be asleep, I don't know how to face Jiang Yao, I can't pretend to be calm.

I went back to my dormitory, but I didn't know where my mind drifted, I drank a little wine before falling asleep, and when I woke up, I only felt that I was awake and painful, so I let Changyun get another pot. I never tried to practice, but I drank surprisingly well, and I felt very sober no matter how much I drank, until the night was thick, and I was only slightly drunk. Later, someone came to report that Jiang Xian was summoned into the palace by Jiang Yao, saying that it was temporary, which was similar to house arrest.

Jiang Yao came, and when he saw that I was a little displeased with the smell of wine, I saw him frowning, knowing that he had lost his manners, and knelt beside him calmly without speaking. It's not just that the room is too hot or what, but the wine is turned up, I feel a little stuffy, and even the flush is red, but I quietly have a very bad idea in my heart.

Jiang Yao stopped his pen and looked at me, a little angry, "What kind of system!" ”

When I was drunk and my courage was drunk, I began to talk nonsense, not knowing a little scruples: "If you don't want to listen, you can not listen, and I didn't force you to listen, either you go or I go." Isn't that simple? ”

Jiang Yao's forehead was bruised, "What nonsense are you talking about?" ”

"I'm not talking nonsense, I know you're angry with me because of Jiang Xian's affairs, but I have nothing to do with Jiang Xian, he saved me, I just want him to have a good time. I know what is wrong! ”

Jiang Yao didn't want to argue with me, so he brushed his sleeves and left, and when Changyun came in, I was already faint and paralyzed on the ground, and I couldn't stand up. The sky was spinning in his head, he wanted to vomit but couldn't vomit, the whole person was twisted and twisted, and he was dizzy and wanted to hit the palace wall. "Changyun, don't let me drink in the future, I feel like I'm going to die!"

I had a dream that day, I was so dizzy that I didn't know if it was true or false, in the dream I hugged Jiang Yao and shouted: "You are always like this, you always leave as soon as you quarrel with me, and then ignore me, you don't say anything and let others guess, how do you know if you don't say it?" ”

"I have nothing to do with Jiang Xian, I was even scared to death when I was found out by you, I only thought I was afraid that you would hurt Jiang Xian, but no, I was still afraid that you would misunderstand me, but you don't care about me, why should I be afraid that you will misunderstand me, so I said that I was afraid that Jiang Xian would be affected by me, you see that you also believe it?"

I dreamed that Jiang Yao kissed my neck, I dreamed that he untied my clothes, the spring water was blue in the sky, painting a boat to listen to the rain, a boat rocking and rocking through the water, and I was dragging the water surface of the boat, itching and warm ripples in a pool.

And when I woke up, from a familiar perspective, Fenyin was my dormitory, and I was wearing the clothes that Changyun helped me change into, and there was no Jiang Yao by my side. It's just that I know it's true, and Jiang Yao still clearly said in my ear at that time: "If you intercede for him, you don't have to." ”

However, Jiang Yao still let Jiang Xian go, and that day on the long street of the palace, I looked at Jiang Xian's back and secretly breathed a sigh of relief in my heart.

There was a happy event in the palace, Su Ko was pregnant, Jiang Yao was very happy, looked around, stared at me for a long time, and then turned his eyes to others: "Concubine Shu, this baby will be handed over to you to take care of." ”

When Zhao Fei heard this, he saluted and said, "The concubine must do her best to take care of Su Meiren and the little prince." ”

"In this way, there is nothing wrong with it."

Su Ko is pregnant and not as fond of tossing as before, lazily lying in the palace, I am also listless when I go, people will suffocate when I am stuffy in bed all day long, not to mention that there is a child, I even coaxed and deceived Su Ko to go out for a walk, which is also breathable.

Su Kou frowned, looking sullen: "I knew that pregnancy was so hard, and I would not let myself suffer this sin, but this child is Ah Yao's, he treats me so well, I give birth to a child for him, and it can be regarded as a return of kindness." ”

"Don't be lazy all day, you won't have so much thought when you go out and walk around." I comforted her and said, "When you have a baby, wouldn't it be more fun for us to play with him together?" ”

"It's not bad to think about it that way." After listening to my words, Su Ko was in a much better mood.

There is never anything in this world that can make you happy for a long time, but whenever something happens that can make you happy, it will surely give birth to some misfortune to make you troubled. For example, I'm pregnant.

As the queen, this child is very important, but I am already rich and honorable, and this glory has been given to our Rong family. It's just that our Rong family is also an unattainable honor, so we have to wake up the emperor - such a disaster has quietly appeared around him.

My father has military power, if I give birth to a prince, I must be the future emperor, but my mother's family is too powerful, it will inevitably override the supremacy of the imperial power, I know that it is not a good thing for me to be pregnant at this time, but this child came suddenly, there is no chance to guard me. My father was summoned to visit me, and the third sister came with me, although my father didn't say anything, the third sister secretly told me before leaving: "Xuan'er, this child has caused a lot of suspicion, although the eldest brother's official position has added a layer of honor on the dark side, in fact, it has cut off a lot of real power, we are a little weak, those people will bully up, my father is old, should have been raised for the rest of his life, but he walked on the tip of the needle like this, it is not distressing, you have to take care of yourself!" ”

After her father left, Zhao Fei also came, she said that the previous dynasty had been divided into two factions, one faction was Wang Chengxiang, the other faction was Dingguo Gong, and the two tigers would be injured when they fought, and if either side fell, there must be no bones. Your Rong clan crushed Prime Minister Wang and Prime Minister everywhere, but you don't know that they can stand tall in the court, and they are not ordered by the emperor? If you want to see the infinite scenery in front of you, you must know that you are most afraid of the emperor's suspicion.

I asked Zhao Fei what his purpose was, but Zhao Fei smiled and said: "If Wang Cheng wins, the next one is Wang Yin to replace you, I have never been on good terms with Wang Yin, you keep your position well, and I will live better." ”

"What should I do, then, in your opinion?" I can't figure out anything if it's messy.

"Niangniang is smart, if there is a solution to such a thing, it is a big rebellion, and the concubines dare not discuss it."

Zhao Fei has never been willing to leave any handle in doing things, but she can remind me so far, it can be regarded as her friendship for me, I can't always rely on others for everything, some problems don't need to be considered by others after all, to put it bluntly, there are always more people watching dramas and less singing dramas in this world.

There are more and more twists and turns around Jiang Yao, and his temper is getting worse and worse, not necessarily everything is aimed at our Rong clan, but most of them are related to our Rong clan.

That day, I heard that there was a quarrel in the court, and Jiang Yao also had a sharp edge behind the throne, always reminding him that if this throne has no real power, it is a puppet.

I made up my mind in my heart, and rushed to see Jiang Yao, two months of pregnancy has not yet been pregnant, and my body has never been heavy, Jiang Yao is dealing with political affairs, I waited for a while and entered the inner hall, without waiting for Jiang Yao to ask, he knelt on the ground first, and when others saw this, they hurriedly retreated.

Jiang Yao never likes others to persecute him, and I put the yin in the form of persecuting him, he doesn't like it, but I don't have so many worries, without waiting for me to say yin, Jiang Yao spoke: "What, are you also here to say good things for your mother's family?" ”

"As a harem person, the concubine does not dare to interfere in politics." I lowered my head, "The concubine came this time to show her loyalty to the emperor, and the Rong clan will never betray her." ”

"Why? Is it just your few words? Jiang Yao threw a few notebooks in front of me: "Your father and brother have great abilities, and I have only mobilized a few people to meet such strong opposition, is it possible that I will use my own soldiers in the future and ask for the consent of the Duke of Dingguo?" Where do you place my majesty? ”

"If the emperor can trust the concubine, he might as well let the concubine persuade his father, he has done his best for the court all his life, so naturally he will not do such a thing, there must be some misunderstanding."

"Misunderstanding? If everyone in the world thinks it is a misunderstanding, why is even my guard army replaced by your father, and if it is really a misunderstanding, why does your father hold the power of the army and oppose me everywhere! Jiang Yao was furious, although he tried to maintain his sanity so that his face would not be hideous, I could also feel that this matter had reached a point where there was no room for turning around.

It is impossible for Jiang Yao to give in, the throne is the right to be structured on the top of the cliff, and taking a step back is the abyss, he is an ambitious person, sooner or later these rights will be subordinated to him one by one, but sooner or later, but even if it lasts for a while, I also hope that the glory of my family can continue for a while longer, father, eldest brother, sister-in-law, fourth brother...... They will all become victims of the subversion of power.

"Kneel down, I have no intention of implicating this matter on you, you can do it yourself, don't wade into troubled waters easily." Jiang Yao didn't have the patience to argue with me, I knew very well in my heart that any further entanglement would be nothing more than doubling his anger.

A few days later, the people around Jiang Yao came, bringing a lot of rewards, Jiang Yao held my hand that night, it was rare to be a little soft: "I was in a bad mood a few days ago, I apologize to you, don't be wronged, take good care of you and the child, I will find a way to deal with these things." ”

Jiang Yao never said anything about the scene, and if he was able to tell me like this, he showed me that he would treat the Rong clan well, so I naturally couldn't help but know how to raise my head and get up and thank you.

But the situation did not improve, the eldest brother was relegated to Lingnan for no reason, the original soldiers did not follow, and the iron cavalry battalion subordinate to the father was split into ten teams and sent to different military camps, under the banner of "Dingguo Gongye Army has a way, divided into various departments, in order to set an example". The Rong family will not hurt the muscles and bones, but it is also a hard setback, Prime Minister Wang Cheng is naturally proud, and now he has not even given my father the dignity on the dark side, and even the streets and alleys have spread the ballad of the Rong family's power, my father has been fighting horses all his life, how has he ever suffered such an insult, and he was so angry that he vomited blood for a while.

I felt tightness in my chest, I came out to breathe, I never thought of running into Wang Yin, she had something to say, but I didn't want to listen to it, so I ordered someone to leave quickly, not to entangle with her.

"No one dares to tell the queen about this, don't you really listen?"

I stopped and ordered the people around me to wait, Wang Yin looked at me, unabashedly his purpose, and said: "The day before yesterday, the brother of the concubine sent a letter, saying that the fourth son of the Rong Mansion killed the son of Lord Li, and now he is pressing on the Criminal Department. ”

"If you ask for anything, just say it." I don't want to talk to her too much, and she won't tell me about it for no reason.

"It's very simple, one life for another, if the mother is reluctant to give up the fourth son, she will exchange the others." Wang Yin covered her mouth with a handkerchief, as if she was afraid that these hurtful words would be heard by God and retribution: "Niangniang also knows that you, a child, are a scourge to your Rong family." ”

After saying that, Wang Yin went back, and I watched her disappear around the corner, and fainted in front of my eyes.

When I woke up, the imperial doctor was also there, saying that it was no big deal, and the recuperation retreat was, Changyun came with bitter and astringent medicine, I didn't want to drink it, I lay on the bed and thought about it for a long time, and got up when the sky was bright, none of them woke up, and I didn't alarm the palace people who kept vigil, I sat in the courtyard in front of the palace and watched the sunrise, the dawn was not instantaneous, and I couldn't find the dividing line of the shadowy obvious.

My child was gone, and while everyone was still asleep, I sent him on the road alone, and painted him with the morning glow in the sky.

I did it on purpose, I know, Jiang Yao also knows, he asked me to think about it behind closed doors, and the palace walls of the Quartet are the confinement that I can't escape. I just had a miscarriage, and my body is getting worse and worse without conditioning, and only Su Kokang has come to see me once.

The fourth brother was released with a broken arm, and that arm was sent to my dormitory for some reason, and the palace people were frightened, but I was not shocked at all. Seeing me like this, Changyun comforted: "If Niangniang feels uncomfortable, cry out, it will hurt your body if you hold it like this." ”

Later, the people in the palace said that I had been crazy for a while, but I don't remember, when I came to my senses, Su Ko's child had already been born, but Jiang Yao had not yet lifted the punishment against me.

I only found out about Jiang Xian's rebellion later, but I have no way of knowing whether Jiang Xian really wanted to rebel, I know that Jiang Yao will definitely kill him.

Jiang Xian was locked up in the palace for many days, and one day he suddenly didn't know who poisoned him, if he didn't find it in time, he was afraid that the gods would be difficult to save, it can be seen that someone wants him to die, and he can't wait for Jiang Yao to deal with it.

The people around Jiang Yao came, let me go to Chaoyang Pavilion, I went in, there were no lights on the huge palace, and the trembling light leaked in, and they were all swallowed up by such dimness.

"You exchanged your life for Yu Jing last time, this time, what do you want to exchange for Jiang Xian?" Jiang Yao sat on it, unable to see any expression.

"The concubine knows that she has no talent and no virtue, and she has no face to see the emperor, but if the emperor is willing to keep Jiang Xian alive, she has to live, and the concubine is willing to cut her hair as a nun, and from then on, the green lantern and the ancient Buddha will be accompanied, and the queen's position will be given to Su Ko, and her son will become the prince in the right name." I knelt on the cold tiles and tried to make myself as clear as I could. My queen's position was not given by Jiang Yao, but given by the previous emperor, no matter which prince inherits the throne in the future, I am the undisputed queen, so I am named the lord of Changle, if there is no major fault, even Jiang Yao has no right to abolish me.

"You threaten me." Jiang Yao smiled coldly: "Rong Xuan, you have always felt sorry for others, you can only see the misfortune of others, you will only threaten me!" ”

"The concubine doesn't know what to do, so she asks the emperor for advice."

Jiang Yao stretched out his hand to me: "Come here." ”

I walked over and took his hand, his fingers were cold, and his eyes were cold, if he was a tiger on a normal day, he would be like a snake.

"Please me."

I listened to his words, I didn't dare to disobey, I untied the belt myself, left a thin undershirt, and was about to take it off again, he pressed my hand, and the hand without temperature held my knuckles tightly: "Everything about me is good, my position is coveted, and my queen is also missed. ”

I looked at him and smiled, "Very good." ”

He let go of his hand and said, "Then I will spare him his life." ”

Jiang Xian was exiled to the bitter cold land on the border, and since then, Jiang Yao has changed, and I have changed. Everyone says that the emperor and queen are affectionate, and the harem is harmonious, which is the great fortune of the country.

Our apparent love for each other was fake, but our break was real, when Wang Yin told me that Jiang Xian was dead.

Not only that, but our Rong Mansion has long since ceased to be glorious, the mighty Rong Mansion has collapsed, and my father is also ill, and he has not been to the court for many months. Fortunately, my sisters are all in the capital and have their care, and my father's situation does not need to worry about a daughter like me, who is unable to protect herself.

Later, the title of his father Dingguo Gong was also revoked, and all the rights in his hands were returned to Jiang Yao, and the whole country began a round of top-down reforms.

After the day I rejected Jiang Yao, Jiang Yao never came again, he may have expected such a day, and he was not surprised or angry. But I won't beg him anymore, and I have nothing more to beg him.

Su Ko was very worried when he saw us like this, and persuaded me every day not to be angry with Jiang Yao. It's just that Su Ko is not white, we don't have capricious capital, if there is a hurdle in our hearts that we can't pass, we can't get through it no matter what.

When Su Ko's child learned to speak, Su Ko took him to my palace to play, and the child was very clever and shouted "Queen Mother" when he saw me.

Queen mother. If my child were still alive, he would be as old as Su Ko's child at this moment, and he would call me "Queen Mother" like this, but I don't have the right to have my own child. I resented Jiang Yao in my heart, and even I couldn't find the root of this resentment.

Is it because Jiang Xian is dead?

I have asked myself countless times, what is the reason why I am trapped, I should be such a character, I also know that Jiang Xian is guilty of a capital crime, Jiang Yao is understandable if he wants to kill him, you can't persuade a person who has been hurt to be tolerant and generous.

Su Ko died very suddenly, and I had just come out of her dormitory, and before I had returned to my palace, the news came. Everyone said that I was jealous of Su Ko's favor, and some people said that I wanted to kill my mother and take my child, because I couldn't have children myself.

There is nothing to say, but no one feels sorry for Su Ko's life at a young age, only I cried when I was under house arrest. Su Kou's child was raised by Zhao Fei, which made me a little relieved.

Changyun asked me to take care of my body, but I smiled: "I know my body, I tossed like that in the early years, it was already the lifespan of asking for God, these are all my lives, but our Rong clan is completely defeated." ”

Changyun didn't let people tell me, I still found a way to find out, saying that the daughter of the Rong family was not virtuous, and killed the concubines, and the three clans of the Rong family were not allowed to enter the court as officials, and those who still had official positions were all demoted to the common people.

"What about the edict after the abolition?" I asked Changyun.

"The queen mother, the emperor has never abolished the queen, where did the edict come from?" Changyun supported me, lest I pass over without being able to catch my breath.

"He behaved like this, our Rongfu was defeated so miserably, he didn't abolish me, what else did he keep!" I pushed Changyun away and swept away the contents on the table, and the jade and gems were all smashed into rubble, but I stood on this rubble and laughed wildly.

I didn't know how long I slept, and when I woke up, everyone was persuading me to mourn, saying that Ding Guogong had passed last night, and the Guogong Mansion was ......

I cried a lot, but I could only cry my father in this deep palace, my heart was full of resentment that had nowhere to vent, "Tell him, tell Jiang Xian, give me a death with dignity, otherwise, I will definitely be able to do something worse than death!" ”

When that mouthful of blood spit out, I held my head and tried to keep myself a little awake, I don't want to die like this, I want Jiang Yao, I want him to kill me with his own hands!