Rong Xuan personally revealed:

It's getting colder and colder these days, are you okay......

I still think of the days when I had you, but if my thoughts are a burden to you, you don't have to reply to me, and even then, I still hope to hear from you. ”

Yu Jing has never complained about anyone, nor has he complained about the injustice of the sky or the tricks of fate, he seems to have written a letter to his long-lost lover, gently and gently invading his heart little by little.

I looked at the other things in the box, a few delicate little carved puppets the size of a thumb, and a few uncarved jades, all of which I liked, and which he had wanted to give to me.

Yujing, you don't have to be so good, I'm not worth it!

I shouldn't have taken it apart, so I wouldn't be as depressed as I am now. I don't know when the tears flowed out, and the letters and objects in front of me became blurry.

My head hurts, the feelings and regrets that have been suppressed for a long time come up together, torn together with the remnants of reason, it turns out that I don't care, it turns out that I think I can let go and forget, why is it so painfully entangled now, so I am about to breathe.

I can't imagine what kind of mood Yujing wrote these letters to me, and what kind of expectation she gave all these thoughts to Bunraku, if they really have a friendship that can entrust these private tokens, what is the reason why Bunraku is so reluctant to hand over these things to me?

No wonder Yujing would give me frostbite medicine, no wonder Wenraku would say "I'm sorry" to me before leaving, all the letters were detained in Wenraku, and the last few "hopes" of each letter never received a response.

By the way, I didn't care about it before, but now that I think about it, it doesn't make sense, why didn't Jiang Yao let me take the initiative to find Wenle? I used to just think that Jiang Yao didn't let me get too close to the people on the Queen Mother's side, so that I wouldn't be used to Jiang Yao's disadvantage for no reason.

What if Jiang Yao knew about these things? That's why I wasn't allowed to contact Wenraku, so it's Jiang Yao's meaning to detain these letters?

That's why Wenle said "I'm sorry" to me, so he didn't give me these things until he got married, so, is it Jiang Yao?

So Jian Jiangyao, what are you thinking? What's in it for you to play with us in the palm of your hand?

It turns out that resentment is what it feels like, and it turns out that it can be so easy!

I really want to rush to Wenle and ask her why she did this, and I want to ask her why she didn't tell Yujing if she didn't plan to give me the letter, so that he could wait so eagerly for my news, which made him disappointed and sad again and again!

I asked myself if I had never done anything sorry for Jiang Yao once, even if I was reluctant, I still became this queen, even if he hated me deeply, I never blamed him, I also admitted the hatred of the previous generation, I owe him, but what did Yujing do wrong?

Why do you treat Jade like this? Why treat us like this? Is it because I've been swallowing my anger all the time, and I've always been cowardly?

I can't control my hands, my nails are deeply embedded in the flesh, it hurts, it hurts, the scars in my heart will be easily forgotten by myself, only the pain on my body that can never be erased will always remind myself, don't forget the helplessness and anger at the beginning!

I put everything in order, locked it in a small box with the key, and buried it in the yard because I didn't think it was appropriate to put it there.

This relationship is destined to never see the light of day, so bury it well, and block it together with your innocence.

The first emperor's festival arrived, and it was the queen mother who used to handle it, and the queen mother has been closed after Wenle got married, and this kind of thing naturally fell on me, I thought that it could be pushed to Wang Yin and Zhao Fei as before, but Changyun shook his head.

"Niangniang doesn't know, this dynasty has always paid attention to etiquette and filial piety, this emperor's festival must be run by the queen mother or the queen, standing next to the emperor at the sacrifice ceremony, can it still be a concubine?"

I thought about it for a while, and felt that what Changyun said made sense, but I didn't know exactly what to do, Changyun smiled on the side, and said, "Don't worry, don't you have a slave?" ”

It stands to reason that this should be handled by the emperor's son or the emperor himself, but Jiang Yao is very busy, and there is no son and a half daughter under his knees, and it has been handled by the mistress of the harem over the years.

But the funds are limited, how to use it rationally is a difficult thing, and I want to reflect the dignity and dignity of the royal family, and save expenses, think about it, or move my dowry, anyway, this kind of thing will not happen often, I don't have to please others, where to get the silver where to use, there will continue to be later.

Although I didn't have to go to the scene to supervise in person, people came to ask for instructions all the time every day, and Changyun wrote notes in an orderly manner, and I was dizzy just listening to their messy reports.

After everything is dealt with, the day after tomorrow is the sacrificial ceremony, according to the ancestral teachings, I should dress up and follow Jiang Yao to worship in front of the ancestors' mausoleum, and then go to the altar to worship, in order to pray for smooth wind and rain, people live and work in peace and contentment, and eternal peace in the country.

I haven't seen Jiang Yao since I was grounded, even on the first and fifteenth days of junior high school, Jiang Yao has never been here.

This is very good, I will not be unhappy about these little things at all, but the one who benefits, because I am not sure what kind of mood and expression I will have when I see Jiang Yao again.

The queen's dress was layered on top of each other, and the beads on her head were also replaced with a solemn style, which was heavy and felt like a dozen catties. Wearing such clothes, even if I want to be casual, it is impossible to walk, sit, and walk are all exemplary, not how well I learned, but when I put on this set of clothes, I knew that the so-called etiquette was completely forced, and no one could wear wet cotton clothes and be as light as a swallow.

The dark brocade with very elaborate embroidery is very decent when worn on Jiang Yao, he is a natural royal style, and his gestures show an atmosphere that ordinary people do not have. But when I look at him now, I just feel more alienated than before.

Jiang Yao is a person who will take government affairs with him wherever he goes, the world can be so prosperous and stable, half of it comes from his wisdom, half from his diligence, he is a good emperor, but I will not completely ignore the things he does because he is a good emperor.

Although I can't be sure that Wenle seized those things because of Jiang Yao's instructions, he definitely can't get out of it, and I really feel like asking an answer in person, but even if I stand in front of Jiang Yao now, even if there is no one else to disturb me in this environment except the two of us, I still can't open my mouth.

When Jiang Yao saw me coming, he finally put down the things in his hand and looked up at me, I, the queen of the main palace, rarely do things personally, although I only carried out the ancestral teachings in a decent manner, but at least there was nothing wrong, and such a big thing was completed perfectly, Jiang Yao rarely took the initiative to speak to me, and there was some praise in his words: "The queen did a good job." ”

This is the first time that Jiang Yao has had a positive emotional reaction to me, and even if I am not very happy, I will feel relieved in my heart, after all, no one will be disgusted by the affirmation of others, let alone a king like Jiang Yao.

But now just when I see Jiang Yao, I will imagine my own demeanor when he ordered Wenle not to hand over the things sent by Yujing to me, there is Yujing's tireless heart, there is Yujing's loss when he faces Wenle's helpless shaking of his head and his hands are empty, the boy I like so much, such a precious heart, I can refuse, why waste it? Why play around?

I actually know very well that the most important factor causing the current situation is myself, and the main thing in my current resentment is to hate myself for my incompetence in causing the current situation, as well as the betrayal of Yujing at the beginning.

Even if Jiang Yao wants to stop it, it is understandable, after all, now that I am the queen of this dynasty, how can I still communicate with other men? is not only disloyal to his identity and husband, but also damages the face of the royal family. But I was only carried away by my own sadness at the moment, I only felt that these were all caused by Jiang Yao, if it weren't for him, at least I could be lighter on Yu Jing's guilt, because of him, this guilt would never be able to dissolve.

"Yes." As usual, I would have bowed lightly, or perfunctory indifferently, I thought I would control my emotions, but the indifference and detachment when I said this sentence even startled me.

Jiang Yao was obviously very surprised by my sudden emotion, he didn't get angry or think that I had disobeyed him, but just looked at me with a little curiosity.

I lowered my head and avoided Jiang Yao's inquiring gaze, but fortunately, Jiang Yao was not interested in me, and when he saw that I flinched, he was no longer curious.

Jiang Yao and I walked side by side to the high altar, all the way I was absentmindedly thinking about other things, my thoughts were entangled in confusion, I didn't know what I was thinking, but it was definitely not at the moment.

It was a smooth salute, but the female officer next to me slipped when she reached out to help me up, and my body shook and pushed Jiang Yao.

Many civil and military officials below looked at me, and Jiang Yao would not help me no matter how pretentious, but my reaction at the moment was very fast, and before Jiang Yao's hand touched my shoulder, he jumped up and opened a half-step distance from Jiang Yao.

Jiang Yao also seemed to be frightened by my fierce reaction, but Jiang Yao was still Jiang Yao in the end, smiled gently and generously, and walked down the steps.

I didn't have time to think about whether my actions just now would have any bad effects, and all I could think about right now, right now, was to follow my own heart.

Descend from the altar and recite the scriptures in the royal temple.

I knelt on the futon with Jiang Yao, and only Jiang Yao recited the scriptures or something, if there were really gods and Buddhas in the world, I was afraid that I would have missed it a long time ago.

Master Konghui is still wrong, I am a person who has no relationship with the Buddha, I am an unbearable layman in the world, hopeless, pitiful and hateful, consistent with the good and evil in such a world, and I can't escape to the realm of others.

What was it like for my mother to marry my father as a native of southern Xinjiang?

The man in red said that his mother betrayed his clan for his father, did he get the final result what he wanted?

I don't know, and I can't prove it.

After reading the last verse, Jiang Yao didn't mean to get up, the scripture in his hand was thrown into the brazier without hesitation, I watched the pages roll up, burn, and gradually turn into ashes.

"The queen is restless, what are you thinking?"

Jiang Yao's strange move came again, Yin Yin didn't look back, but he knew everything about my behavior, there was no one else at the moment, and no one would come to relieve me, I just needed not to speak as usual, but now I don't know where I got the courage, I have to confront Jiang Yao.

"I don't know how to recite the scriptures, so I don't know if it's disrespectful to kneel in front of the gods and Buddhas like this."

Jiang Yao was a fool again, so he naturally heard that I was perfunctory, so he laughed coldly and said, "Lying is the greatest disrespect to the gods and Buddhas." ”

"But I don't believe in Buddhism."

Jiang Yao paused for a moment, maybe it was really unexpected for him, he didn't expect my anger to be so heavy, but Jiang Yao didn't have a reason to indulge me, got up and said, "The queen is tired, go back and rest early!" ”

I can hear the warning in Jiang Yao's words, he is reminding me that as a queen, I must pay attention to my words and deeds and not lose my temper, but at this moment, there is no emperor and queen between the two of us, and now my eyes are full of my own conjectures.

"Yes." I got up and took a step back.

Jiang Yao naturally noticed my movements, and the distance I had been opening up from him, intentionally or unintentionally, had finally become an insurmountable chasm today.

He stretched out his hand to me, as if coming out of the Buddha hall, the emperor held the queen's hand side by side, in order to show the emperor's feelings more, if it was usual, I would cooperate with such a gesture, but today I stubbornly held my arm, without the slightest intention to pay attention.

Jiang Yao was a little impatient, and wanted to reach out and grab my wrist, I struggled, only to feel that Jiang Yao's palm was solid like a cage, and the knuckles of my fingers hurt me.

Jiang Yao seemed to be a little angry, and he also seemed to be declaring his sovereignty - you are my queen, and you must come out when I need you!

I was almost dragged out of it by Jiang Yao with a cold face, and I don't know what kind of scene such behavior is in the eyes of others, the only thing I can be sure of is that the two of us don't seem to be in love at all, even if we are in the same bed, we are each dreaming separately.

When everything was over, Jiang Yao let go of my wrist and left without looking back, the palace people on the side were a little surprised, it seemed that they had never seen such a Jiang Yao, I rubbed my wrist that was pinched by Jiang Yao, I didn't care, and I raised my feet and went back to my palace.

It's better that the well water doesn't interfere with the river water, and no one tries to seep into other people's lives again!

If you really don't like me, you can abolish me, in short, I don't want to do something I don't want to do, and the position of queen is neither what I want, nor do I have to do.

I returned to Fengluan Palace, my sore wrist was accompanied by a faint anger, I didn't sit or stand, in short, I felt a breath in my body, scurrying in my body, but I couldn't find a point to vent.

In the afternoon, Su Kou came, looked at me meaningfully, and said, "Ah Xuan, did you quarrel with Ah Yao?" ”

I'm a little strange, I did have an unpleasant quarrel with Jiang Yao today, but how did Su Ko know? Jiang Yao is a big man, would he still tell a little woman about these things?

"Except for Ah Xuan, no one can make Ah Yao have such a big mood swing, although Ah Yao doesn't say it, but he doesn't speak and has no expression, Yin Xian is angry."

"Don't dare!" I straightened my sleeves, also looking unhappy.

Su Ko circled around me, holding his cheeks and sighing helplessly: "You two, you have been like this all your life, like a child, Ah Yao actually cares about you, if you can be nice to him, he can be happy for a few days." ”

Where do I have such great powers? It's just that Su Ko came to make me happy, but my heart is not where Jiang Yao is, and I won't be moved by Jiang Yao's care.

"Okay, okay, you're also angry now, I'm sure you can't listen to what I say, let's not talk about Ah Yao, okay?"

Su Ko is a person who can wipe her eyes, here is not to say that Su Ko is not good or anything like that, but her characteristics make her more comfortable, even if there is any unpleasant topic, she can take the initiative to bring it over.

After a while, Changyun came in, I saw that the little palace maid behind her seemed to have something on the tray, I tilted my head with a little curiosity and glanced at it, Changyun smiled and asked the little palace maid to bring something to me, and said: "This is a peace charm sent by the Buddhist temple, the sacrifice ceremony Niangniang and the emperor are in a hurry, and the master didn't have time to hand these over to Niangniang, so he personally sent them." ”

"Where is the Master now?" What kind of peace charm is it worth a trip from the master himself? Now that the master is here, I should still entertain him.

"It's inconvenient for the master to stay in the harem for a long time, so give these things to the slave and maid and leave."

"These monks like to keep these false rites, and each one is more rigid than the other." Su Ko said this, not necessarily having any opinions on this approach in her heart, she was unforgiving with a mouth, and her heart was still too soft.

I lifted the red cloth covering it, and saw two talismans underneath, each attached to a piece of jade, and asked, "Why are there still two?" Did you say you were going to put it there? ”

"That's what you don't know, right?" Su Ko raised his head proudly, with a very knowledgeable look, and said: "This is called the Zhensui Stone, which has been worshiped day and night in the Buddhist altar for a year, used to drive away evil spirits and avoid evil, only the emperor and empress are qualified to have it, after all, it represents the common people in the world." ”

"Are these two mine, or ......?" One person, it seems to be okay, one person is a pair, and there seems to be nothing wrong with it.

"What do you think? One by one, of course! Su Ko knocked on my head and said, "This thing is enshrined day and night, where can I give you a pair, I think it's very beautiful." ”

"Oh." I took out one at random and said to Changyun: "Send this to the emperor." ”

Changyun smiled and said: "The peace charm is a holy relic, except for the emperor and queen, it is difficult for others to handle, or should the mother personally send it over?" ”

"Didn't you just send it in?" I'm a little confused.

Su Ko hurriedly added: "That's because it's inconvenient for the master to come in, this kind of god and Buddha thing, you still have to be in awe, otherwise it's not good to collide with the gods." ”

Su Ko said with a serious face, I almost really believed it, but they are obviously the same caliber, and it is difficult for me to say that the two of them can be said with one mouth.

"Really?" I still asked with some reluctance.

"Really, really." Su Ko nodded, opened a pair of innocent big eyes, and said, "Ah Xuan, you see when I lied to you, otherwise you don't have to bother the master to send it over personally, right?" ”

"Okay." Even if I was reluctant, I had no choice but to bite the bullet at this point, but just now I had an unpleasant quarrel with Jiang Yao with a cold face, and now I rushed to send it over with my eyes, showing that I was a little embarrassed on my face, and I twisted and refused to leave.

"What's the matter, it's still early, you hurry up and send it over." Su Ko urged me on the side.

"Yes, I heard that the emperor is in the study now, and I don't know where to go after a while, it's better to go directly while I know where the emperor is now, otherwise I will be empty, and the queen will run away again in vain."

I always felt that these two people were colluding to calculate me, but I couldn't find any conclusive evidence, so I just listened to them and ran away myself.

I have to say that the residence of the harem concubines in Jiang Yao's study is a bit far away, whether intentionally or unintentionally, in short, it should be able to dispel the actions of many concubines who want to go over to offer their courtesy, especially in cold and summer weather, such a long road, even if you sit in a sedan chair, you can't stand it, isn't it good to stay in your palace obediently? I have to send myself over to incur that sin.

Other people's sins may be self-inflicted, but this one of mine is a disaster from the sky, but the horizontal and vertical just run like this, and the weather is neither hot nor cold now, and there is nothing wrong with going out for a walk.

When I walked to Jiang Yao's study, there were only guards on duty outside, and I didn't stop the people who came, and I didn't even blink my eyes, so I went in all the way unimpeded, but the strange thing was that it was empty inside, and it seemed that there was no one either.

Is Jiang Yao's guard so loose? After all, he is also an emperor, and it stands to reason that he has a large number of people around him to serve.

I asked the palace maid who came with me to wait outside for a while, pushed open the door inside the study and went in, bypassing the screen, only to hear the sound of turning books inside, I looked at it, Wang Yin was busy sorting out the things on the bookcase, and the panicked expression on her face also squeezed out a smile after seeing me.

"Why is the queen here? You may be seated. Wang Yin put down the things in his hand and turned around to make tea for me.

I don't know what she was doing just now, she looked restless, as if she was doing something inconvenient for others to see, but unfortunately I was bumped into by me who just came in, but I happened to see nothing, leaving only a strong curiosity.

"What about the emperor?" I didn't see Jiang Yao, and I didn't find anyone else, so I asked.

"The emperor has just dealt with some government affairs, he is a little tired, he is resting in the back, does the mother have anything to do with the emperor?" Wang Yin personally made a cup of tea and handed it to me, "The emperor doesn't like other people in the study, so he neglected his mother, and asked for forgiveness." ”

"Don't get in the way, I'll deliver something and leave."

I motioned for the little palace maid who was waiting for my orders to come in, and said to Wang Yin: "Just now, the master of the Buddhist temple sent two peace charms, and Changyun asked me to send one over." ”

"Then the concubine will accept it for the emperor first, it's hard for the mother to make this trip."

"It's fine."

Fortunately, I didn't meet Jiang Yao, so it's okay to run this trip.

Wang Yin took the tray, said "Wait a minute", turned around and entered the room inside, the fold I watched fall from Wang Yin's body, but Wang Yin's sleeves were a little long, and when they fell, they followed the clothes and did not make a sound, Wang Yin naturally did not notice it.

I wanted to call her out, but Wang Yin walked quickly, and before the words reached her throat, Wang Yin's figure was almost disappearing from my sight, so let's just help her pick it up first.

The moment I picked it up, a thought suddenly flashed through my mind: When I came in just now, Wang Yinyin was doing something that I didn't want others to know, could it be related to this recital?

Although I have never asked about the affairs of the court, I also know that the harem is not allowed to interfere in politics, and this twist and turn is obviously hidden by Wang Yin herself, and only part of the edge of the sealed traces on it has been destroyed, and in a place that is not easy to be detected, it is obvious that Jiang Yao has not seen it.

I didn't do it, I just got a glimpse of the process, but I don't know why, at this moment, it seems that the person who did it is me, the heart is beating in the chest, everything around me is instantly quiet, and the subtle sounds are amplified countless times in my ears, the sound of the wind blowing through the wooden window, the sound of paper turning, and even the sound of footsteps around me, getting closer and closer.

I looked around in a hurry, and found that there was no one approaching around, and the little palace maid who had just sent things in also retreated, and everything around me was normal like a static picture, without any abnormality.

I can now understand Wang Yin's mood at that time, even a normal voice can make me panic now, in fact, I am too nervous, and I feel that the grass and trees around me are soldiers.

I'm so nervous not because I discovered Wang Yin's secret, but because I can't control the action of wanting to open it in my hand, I comfort myself, I just want to see if the content has anything to do with a series of things that happened before, whether the content has anything to do with me or not, I won't make a noise, I will pretend that nothing happened.

With such self-comfort, I tried to calm myself down, so that my hands would not tremble so much anymore, and carefully opened the fold.

This is a letter of guilt, all of which list the crimes of the eldest brother, saying that he relied on the power of his family to run rampant in the frontier, colluded with many tribes to establish himself as kings, and had a dissatisfaction with the emperor's actions, and intended to collude - His Royal Highness King Jing!

There was a roar in my head, I didn't know what to do, I didn't believe what was said at all, I know best what kind of person my eldest brother is, that gentle and generous eldest brother would not do such a thing at all.

Who the hell is it? After hurting me, I want to attack my eldest brother again, I can tolerate others to attack me, but I definitely can't stand others wanting to frame my family!

Maybe I thought too seriously, I didn't even notice that Wang Yin had come out, Wang Yin looked at me and the music in my hand in horror, everything on the scene was clear at a glance, even if I wanted to say something, there was no way to escape.

That's it, this matter was originally my fault, even if Wang Yin wanted to tell Jiang Yao, I admitted it, but there are some things that I still don't regret knowing at all.

Wang Yin's movements were much faster than mine, and before I could react, she snatched the fold from my hand, turned around and threw it into the burning stove beside me.

Wang Yin helped me up and said, "Niangniang, don't be anxious now, calm down, you should have never seen it." ”

"But ......"

"What else can be, it's a big sin to flip and fold without permission!" Wang Yin was a little anxious.

"Why are you helping me?" I have never had much friendship with Wang Yin, and judging from the fact that I took her queen position, she is broad-minded if she doesn't hate me, so how can she help me?

"Although the Rong clan and our Wang clan are not in harmony with the government, but they are all ministers of this dynasty, in terms of doing their best for the country and the people, the original intention of our two families is the same, this matter is obviously someone who wants to deliberately frame him, trying to disturb the frontier, the emperor you know, he has always disliked your Rong family, if he really let him know what to do, it will be a disaster for the country!"

Wang Yin spoke unhurriedly, every word was reasonable, she really didn't need to do such a thing for our Rong clan, in case Jiang Yao found out, it would do her all kinds of harm and no benefit.

I looked at Wang Yin, I don't know why, my heart settled down a little, I may not be able to do Wang Yin's general knowledge, but I can do it without holding her back.

"While the emperor hasn't woken up yet, Niangniang, go back quickly." Wang Yin naturally wants to stay to deal with the aftermath, "Don't worry, if there is any news, I will inform Niangniang as soon as possible." ”

"Thank you." I don't know how to thank Wang Yin, and I silently thought in my heart that if I have any chance, I must repay this kindness.

I returned to Fengluan Palace, Pei'er saw that I was not giving up, she was a little worried, and said, "What's wrong with Niangniang, is there anything uncomfortable?" ”

"Pelle, I want to contact the people in the family, can you help me figure out a way?"

"What the hell is wrong with the mother?" Pei'er saw that something was wrong with me and asked, "Do you want to ask Sister Changyun, she has been in the palace for so long, she must know more than us." ”

"Nope." I shook my head and said, "The fewer people who know about this, the better." ”

"Good!" Pei'er nodded, "In that case, the slave will think of a way." ”

No matter what happens, whether it's true or not, at least I have to let my family know first, at least be prepared, and I can't do anything in the palace, if the person who knows is my father, it will be different.

Fortunately, Pei'er was smart and clever, and quickly thought of a way, and brought good news early the next morning: "Niangniang, the slave has found a way." ”

"What's the solution?" I asked eagerly.

"Every day in the palace, there will be a procurement father-in-law going out, and the people in the palace will often ask them to buy some things to go back, or send things to their relatives outside the palace, and we can also ask them to help us do things."

"You go and ask them when they usually go out, you go and find a reliable person in person, Sister Pei'er, this matter can only be known by God, you know and I know, and there must not be a third person who knows."

Pei'er naturally heard the importance of this matter from my words, and she didn't ask much, nodded and said, "Don't worry, the slave will definitely be cautious." ”

"That's good."

I hid the note in a purse, and took a few purses stuffed with jewelry to help together, I was afraid that the words were not clear, my father could not understand what I was going to say, and I was afraid that if the news leaked, it would bring unnecessary trouble to the Rong family, thinking about the three, or vaguely wrote a few words, my father has been on the front line for many years, and he will definitely be able to understand what I want to say.

The purse was sent out in the name of Pei'er, as long as it could be sent to the Chengguo Mansion, the people in the mansion would naturally hand it over to their father when they saw it, after all, this was something from the palace, and no one dared to hide it privately.