However, although these words were not said by my father, they are not completely unreasonable, and I really should not be too emotional now, after all, Pei'er has taken all the sins on herself, and I, as a victim, should have hated this person who has caused me so much suffering.

I didn't mean anything else when I looked at the fifth sister, just to see what kind of expression the fifth sister had when she said these words, after all, Pei'er is a person who grew up with us since childhood, even if she used to serve the second sister and me, could it be that the living person died like this, and the fifth sister didn't feel it at all?

Sure enough, I still think too much about myself, but I'm afraid that the person who has an accident now is me, and the fifth sister will only worry about whether she will be implicated, and will not worry about my situation at all. But apart from emotional matters, shouldn't the fifth sister see something else? Jiang Yao can blatantly attack the Rong clan this time, it is definitely not based on Qiao Meiren's rhetoric alone, the final result is nothing more than chasing after the wind, but if this kind of behavior is just a temptation of the Rong clan, then it is the real endless trouble.

I can give a hint to the fifth sister on this, the fifth sister obviously didn't understand, and she also disliked me for being timid, and she should have known that talking to her was nothing more than playing the piano to the cow, wasting so much of my mind in vain.

Don't speculate for more than half a sentence, the fifth sister wants to say it, she doesn't care what I want to say, there is nothing to communicate, I don't stay, she doesn't want to, the two of them broke up, and went to find His Royal Highness King Jing early.

The fifth sister said a word before leaving, but unfortunately, I didn't pay attention to it at that time.

"Rong Xuan, Yu Jing already knows about you."

I just thought it was not surprising that Yu Jing knew, after all, the matter was so big, it was impossible for the people of the Yu clan not to know, but I didn't think deeply, what would Yu Jing do after she knew?

Fengluan Hall returned to silence, since that incident, Jiang Yao in the name of protecting me, all the palace maids except Changyun have been replaced, looking at these new faces, I can always think of the gloom at that time, the time that I once thought I couldn't survive is now gone, but those who have left, will never come back.

I still think of Pell occasionally, and I think of her voice and smile when she was by my side, which I never cherished, and now only exist in my memory. I don't know who will leave in the future, but I know that my stable life has come to an end, and I am the one who deceives myself in the end. This also strengthens my conviction that my stupidity is likely to cause harm to those around me, after all, there are people who stand by your side and block their lives.

I haven't slept well in the past few days, a few days ago, I just thought that it might be exhaustion and tiredness during that period of time, and I didn't pay much attention to it, but I have been watching the window light up little by little for many days, my spirit has gradually become sluggish, and my face is getting worse and worse, Changyun is a little worried, but I only said that it was okay and refused to invite the doctor to come.

Su Ko looked at me like this, touched my face and said, "Ah Xuan, what's wrong with you, I always think you're unhappy, but you seem to be sick now, please ask the doctor to take a look, okay?" ”

I shook my head and said, "It's fine." ”

This is a heart disease, and there is no cure. There seemed to be a moment when I seemed to be in a state of whiteness what my mother said to me: don't blame my mother, my mother just can't live anymore......

Am I at a point where I can't live anymore? Far more than that, it's just that he imprisons himself, draws the ground as a prison, and disturbs himself with metrics.

What did the mother endure? What kind of grievances and hatreds could make her say such bleak and desperate words? I don't dare to think about it, and I don't want to repeat the mistakes of the past, there is such a thing as fate, one result is enough to witness once, at least try other possibilities.

Seeing that I slept less and less every day, and the whole person was sick and yellow, Su Kou found Zhao Fei and asked the imperial doctor to diagnose my pulse.

The doctor prescribed a prescription to calm the mind, and I also felt that it was imperative for me to be able to fall asleep at the moment, but the drugs were dependent, and I was able to fall asleep from a bowl of medicine at the beginning, and then I needed to increase the dosage of medicine.

Seeing that the amount of medicine used was getting bigger and bigger, Changyun always frowned and said, "It's not a way for Niangniang to go on like this, what are you thinking about that you can't let go, and you can't embarrass yourself too much?" ”

I didn't embarrass myself, I just couldn't control my emotions.

I finally couldn't afford to be sick, the doctor shook his head and couldn't find a solution, Su Ko's eyes were red and swollen from crying when he came to see me, and said, "Ah Xuan, don't be like this, you get better quickly!" ”

Zhao Fei was a little disappointed in me, and said: "It's just a trivial matter, the mother is so decadent, the concubine really misjudged you." ”

Under the combination of soft and hard, my illness still did not improve, and Jiang Yao, who had never appeared, finally came.

I knew he was coming, but I didn't open my eyes, I didn't want to talk to him, I didn't want to be imprisoned by those false courtesies anymore, I was just a patient now, and no matter how much Jiang Yao didn't like me, he wouldn't embarrass me about these things.

"Does the Empress think I handled that matter unfairly?"

Speaking of which, things are back to square one.

"The queen is inevitably too naïve, in the whole world, my words are the principle of fairness, it is okay for you to do this, I will protect the dignity of the national government, so, you can feel at ease?"

Jiang Yao's meaning is white, but he just wants to tell me: It's useless for you to play with your temper, I don't care, it's okay if you die, it's just a symbolic comfort for your family.

I am a burden to him, if it were not for the will of the first emperor, we would not have had the opportunity to meet at all, I did not intrude into his life on purpose, and he did not intend to build this wall for me, everyone is just a person who has been tricked by fate, there is no distinction between high and low, at least I think so.

I never opened my eyes, Jiang Yao didn't speak more, the heavy rain that lasted for several days finally stopped, that night Fengluan Hall was exceptionally quiet, and I slept exceptionally peacefully.

The summer heat is gradually approaching, Jiang Yao wants to go to the palace to escape the heat, I stayed in the palace under the pretext that I have not recovered from a long illness, Jiang Yao didn't say anything, I just took him as if he was on the right and didn't clean up anything.

When Jiang Yao's father-in-law came to urge us to get into the sedan chair, I was stunned for a moment, but Changyun reacted quickly, asked the palace maid to pack up some things that I often use, brought a few clothes, and said that if there is any need, I can send someone to get it.

My sedan chair followed Jiang Yao, and then Zhao Fei, Wang Yin, Su Kou and a few beauties, Changyun said that the palace was originally built outside the palace when Jiang Yao was still the prince, although there is a summer palace specially designed for the royal family, but every year Jiang Yao only loves to go to his own.

I listened, I don't know why I was a little stunned, looking at the winding mountain road sandwiched between the mountains, there was no royal grandeur at all, more like a place of seclusion.

Originally, Jiang Yao just wanted to be an idle prince, with his sleeves all over the wind and moon, regardless of the world, but the world is unpredictable, and he will always be tied together by something called "fate".

When I arrived at the palace on the mountain, I only felt that the surrounding environment seemed familiar, and I couldn't tell where I had seen it. Jiang Yao brought everyone here to be clean, and everyone was lazy, so I took the opportunity to avoid the daily greetings.

On a cool evening, Changyun helped me to walk around the palace, and I stood on a high place and looked down, only to see the mountains stacked on top of each other, and the palace walls almost enclosed the best scenery of the mountains. There seem to be a few small buildings down there, but they are too far away, faintly just a little bit of greenery.

Changyun said, that is the other residence of the princes and nobles in the capital, naturally, there are also our Chengguo Mansion, but I don't know where it is.

Indeed, this mountain is surprisingly large, and what is even more surprising is that it can be built on the same mountain as the emperor's palace, and it has not been demolished to this day.