It rained three nights last night, and it was cold for another day.

The light rain in the mountains is dripping, and the sound of the rain hitting the mountains and forests is always particularly pleasant, not like the noise hitting the bricks and tiles, which itself is a part of nature, and what kind of sound can be harmoniously blended together, so that people with serious minds are not consciously relaxed.

I tried to stop taking medicine, while Changyun and the others were not paying attention, although the first few days I was also awake until the second half of the night to slowly fall asleep, fortunately, I didn't have to get up early the next day, and I had a lot of time to take a nap.

Changyun saw that I was in a much better mood these days, and felt that it was the right choice to take me out, and he was very pleased.

People always have to forget their grief for a while, I am not strong enough to withdraw from the pain at any time, and I can't find my position in the situation that I can't understand more and more, and even in doubting again and again, doubting the choices I made, deducing step by step, and getting the answer, all condensed in my heart.

Recently, I like to be around by myself, it's safe here, and I don't need someone to accompany me, but it will mess up my mood. Changyun knows that there are many things in my heart, and he doesn't force me to bring many people.

The empty mountains are quiet and far away, only the sky is shrouded in the verdant mountains, and the slowly returning birds return to the mountains and forests with the twilight, and a few crisp birdsongs echo in the air for a long time.

There are no animals in the mountains to respond to this sound, and there is only emptiness when the wilderness is floating, but it is only in such clarity that all thoughts and emotions can return to the basics, and I am just a bird under the white clouds, hovering in the mountains and forests that do not belong to me.

What is belonging?

But it's just a matter of my own decision, and I integrate the bits and pieces of life into my habits, and I naturally have a sense of belonging, where I am free, I can control, and I am very familiar with everything that is there.

From this point of view, I might be able to consider any place as my belonging, just the length of time.

I walked along the vermilion promenade, which led to the direction behind the mountain, through the buildings built by man, and behind it was the natural world.

It's rare for me to see Jiang Yao who wears so leisurely once, and it's rare for him to see me without beaded jade ornaments. He sat in the courtyard with the sun shining, and I passed by the long corridor with the light on it, and I saluted, and he looked away as if he had not seen me.

I didn't feel anything in my heart, and this subtle sense of distance made me feel comfortable, and I continued along the promenade, skirting a few garden pavilions and returning to my residence.

I came early that night and didn't even eat dinner. Maybe I've walked too much today and I'm tired, but no matter what, this reaction is always good.

But I didn't get the rest of the night, I don't know how thick the night was, I opened my eyes in the confusion, and saw a few green fireflies floating in the room, the light was faint and psychedelic.

As my eyes gradually became conscious, the light in front of me gradually took on an actual shape, and I looked at it for a long time, and my drowsiness faded little by little, until I didn't feel drowsy at all.

It must be the second half of the night now, and even the little palace maid who keeps vigil in my room is sitting on the side and napping. I looked around, and took advantage of the brightness that poured in through the window, and I could see the outline of the house a little, and a few fireflies were still floating in the window, apparently flying in from the outside.

Taking advantage of the night, I took out my clothes and put them on, without lighting or making a sound, tiptoed gently open the door and walked out.

I just want to stand in the yard, I don't want to disturb other people's dreams, and I don't want others to spoil my own purity.

I stood in the yard for a long time, my eyes fixed on what was in front of me, and when the pebble flew down from the eaves, I realized that there was a man sitting on it.

Against the backdrop of the lonely moon, Jiang Yao's face could be vaguely seen, and he seemed to be taken aback, closing his mouth tightly, and retracting his legs stretched on the tiles, looking a little cramped.

He was still wearing daytime clothes, refreshing and refreshing, not like an emperor, but an idle prince of the rivers and lakes, holding a white jade wine jug in his hand, and his slender fingertips were stained with the wind and moon of the world, perfectly blending into all things in heaven and earth in such a cold moonlight.

I don't know why Jiang Yao appeared on my roof, in short, no one thought of the encounter at this moment, and it was more or less embarrassing.

The night in the mountains was a bit cold, and I clutched my clothes tightly with both hands, and for a moment I didn't know what kind of reaction I should make now.

I looked up at Jiang Yao, who was swaying with a bright moonlight, condensing a gentle halo on the plain satin. Jiang Yao also sat motionless on the eaves and looked at me condescendingly, still like a picture at the moment.

After a long time, I lowered my head and looked away, planning to go back like this, presumably Jiang Yao shouldn't say anything.

I just had this plan in my heart, and I didn't take a step before Jiang Yao's voice sounded above: "Do you want to come up?" ”

I was a little hesitant, not hesitating whether to go up with Jiang Yao, but struggling with how to refuse tactfully, I am not a person who can speak, sometimes my thoughts cannot be expressed but will be misunderstood by others.

I don't want Jiang Yao to think that I have been holding on to him because of Pell's affairs, and I have never had hope, where is the disappointment?

There may have been a misunderstanding that I couldn't think of before, but these emotions couldn't find a real solution and gradually dissipated.

I actually know very well in my heart that although Jiang Yao is very disgusted with me on the surface, he has not done anything that makes me very sad, and he is worthy of being a gentleman in this matter. At least for me, I can't be so generous to an enemy of my own, if Jiang Yao really wants to hurt me, I also have too many shortcomings to break through, but Jiang Yao doesn't.

He is a kind person, with a gentle fire burning in his heart, but his hatred and kindness towards me are tangled together, and the two emotions of not being able to bear and not letting go tear back and forth in his attitude towards me.

While I was pondering these things in my mind, Jiang Yao fell lightly from the eaves in front of my eyes, and his eyes were clear, sharper and brighter than the moonlight.

There was a thin smell of wine on him, not the pungent wine of Ling Yan, but a faint floral and fruity aroma, sweet and a little intoxicating.

Jiang Yao is obviously not a person who can drink, even if it is not the kind of refined wine, I am afraid that there will be rejection on his body.

My eyes looked into the hem of his shirt, and his neck was a shadow that the moonlight did not shine, and I couldn't see if there were any symptoms.

Before I could raise my head, I was taken into his arms by Jiang Yao's hand, my chin couldn't reach his neck socket, my cheeks were pressed against his strong chest, and my ears were only separated by a layer of clothing, listening to his fluctuating heartbeat without reservation.

Then, my center of gravity was picked up by him, and when I came back to my senses, I was already standing firmly on the eaves where Jiang Yao was just now.

Then Jiang Yao suddenly let go of his hand, and I lost my center of gravity that I could rely on almost instantly, and I crumbled on the slender eaves. I slowly crouched down, clutching the tiles with both hands, tentatively reaching out my feet to sit down in prayer for more stability.

This scene must be very funny in Jiang Yao's eyes, after all, it is not very atmospheric and not very elegant.

I don't know how Jiang Yao was able to walk on this freely, I glanced down, I didn't feel how tall it was when I looked up from below, but looking down from above, I kept weighing how much I would be injured if I fell.

"The last thing I like is the way you look." Jiang Yao frowned and said this coldly.

I looked at Jiang Yao in some surprise, I didn't know what I did badly to make him angry, did I think that my behavior just now was too bad for the queen's prestige? Or shouldn't I have run out at night to disturb his purity?

But he was the one who brought me up, and I didn't have any self-defense skills, so I could only barely keep myself from falling.

A little puzzled in his heart, Jiang Yao didn't speak, picked up the wine jug in a muffled voice, and the aroma of flowers and fruits spread instantly.

He seemed a little drunk, put his fingers to his forehead and closed his eyes.

I knew that I shouldn't interrupt his thoughts, but I still felt that Jiang Yao drank wine and blew a cold wind on it, so I whispered: "Your Majesty......"

"Shut up!" Jiang Yao spit out two words from between his teeth, obviously not very happy, "I'll throw you down if you talk again." ”

If I fall from the height here, I will hurt my arm at most, and if the posture is not quite right, I may also attach another leg, so that I can lie in the Fengluan Hall with swagger and recuperate, and I don't have to worry about Jiang Yao finding fault if he has something to do.

So I didn't keep my mouth shut, chattering: "Drinking hurts my nerves, not to mention that the wind is heavy in the middle of the night, and the mountains are much cooler than Miyagi......"

Jiang Yao still couldn't throw me down in the end, and I couldn't finish my words as I wanted, Jiang Yao's palm unceremoniously blocked my mouth, against my forehead, and made a silent motion.

I didn't dare to make any more movements, my body leaned back slowly, trying to widen the distance between me and Jiang Yao, Jiang Yao put his palm on my side, and there was an unfathomable smile on the corner of his mouth.

Then it turned into a light and shallow kiss, dreamy and unrealistic on my forehead.

My body stiffened irrepressibly, Jiang Yao laughed softly, and said, "What are you afraid of, I won't eat you again." ”

He let go of my hand and replaced it with his lips, cool, with a thin aroma of wine.

Then, I seemed to hear a sigh from him, and another sentence: "Do you want to leave?" I can let you go. ”

I was a little flustered, the words he said and the things he did completely disrupted my defense, stepping on a tile, making a sound, and the tenderness in Jiang Yao's eyes also dissipated in an instant, covering the usual fierceness.

It's like he just had a dream, all he said was a dream, and this sudden sound made him wake up from a big dream, maybe the words and things he could only say and do in a dream are now done in reality.

There was anger on his face, as if I had deceived him, innocent, surprised, panicked, as if I was the one who had done something wrong.

Jiang Yao turned around and jumped down, the sound of landing was slight and imperceptible, I didn't have time to say a word, and in an instant, only the empty wine jug was left around me.

Ah, I don't even have a ladder, how good am I?

I calmed myself down on the eaves and began to wonder how I was going to get down, after all, I wasn't that good at jumping off.

I moved along the spine of the eaves to the other side, which was connected to the wall, and maybe I could find a place to stay. A person who is moving hard under the moon does not feel too much fear in his heart, perhaps because he thinks that even if he shakes it, it is not a big deal.

But I still overestimated myself, and before I had time to leave the eaves, I first slipped my center of gravity unsteadily, and the moment my body was out of control, I realized how powerless I was.

In the panic, I looked around, and there was nothing for me to grab, seeing that I was about to fall to the ground so directly, Jiang Yao didn't know where to come out and picked me up.

Shocked, I just stared at him blankly. Jiang Yao didn't look at me, but I could see from his face that there was no hidden entanglement, the kind of mood that I could never be completely white.

Jiang Yao may be a person who is not good at expressing himself, but at least from his series of behaviors, I can see that he is at least not as malicious to me as I imagined.

After this incident, my relationship with Jiang Yao gradually eased, at least not the kind of relationship that I didn't want to see for many days, he would occasionally care for a few words, and I also responded to the face, and each other was silent about the events of that night.

In fact, I really want to ask him, what does his sentence "I can let you go" mean?

Jiang Yao is a person who can't be idle, even in such an isolated place, he is so busy that the dragon can't see the end every day, it seems that that night was indeed a stolen leisure, and unfortunately he met me.