I haven't been in love, and being with Han Mo is not a relationship, the relationship is a bit deformed, but I love him.

Zhang Ailing said that loving someone will go down to the dust. I used to think I was always on the dust, even though I really fell in love with a man one day.

But I was still too naïve in the end, and falling in love with Han Mo let me know that I couldn't be lower anymore.

But despite this, I couldn't stop being happy, yes, happier than winning the 5 million lottery.

It was as if all the past that had been treated harshly could be forgiven, and I almost forgot that it was Han Mo who had torn apart my dream of climbing with his own hands.

Happy, I can't help but be happy at all.

I still have a smile on my lips when I open the door, but I can't smile when I see everything in the room.

It was as if someone had ransacked the house, and before I could even go inside, there were already broken pieces of glass under my feet, and when I looked inside, it was a mess.

The cotton on the pillow was everywhere, the sofa was torn into a mess, and I looked at everything in front of me, and the whole person was stupid.

When I walked over, I found Zhao Miao sitting on the ground on the edge of the sofa, her face full of tears.

At first, I thought that the house had been robbed, but now that I look at it, it is estimated that something happened to Zhao Miao.

I didn't know what was going on, so I could only walk over cautiously and push her tentatively: "Miao Miao? ”

She was lying on her side on the couch when she heard my voice and suddenly looked up at me, and before I could ask her what was going on, she suddenly reached out and hugged me.

His hands were clasped on my shoulders, his whole face was pressed against my neck, all the strength was pressed on my body, and his voice was trembling when he spoke: "Fu Yao." ”

She called out to me, her voice trembling and trembling, as if it would be blown away at any moment.

Zhao Miao has never been like this, no matter how uncomfortable it is, she has never tried this.

I knew something was wrong, and I didn't even know if I could ask about it.

All I can do now is raise my hand to hug her and comfort her softly: "I'm here, Zhao Miao, I'm here." ”

"Woo, I'm uncomfortable, Fu Yao, it's really uncomfortable!"

Suddenly, she burst into tears, loud as if an uninformed child was crying, but it made me feel uncomfortable.

"Zhao Miao."

I don't know what I can say other than call her.

I've known Zhao Miao for four years, and I've never seen her like this. It's like a straw, whoever presses it a little harder, she will break.

I didn't dare to press her, but I felt her trembling as she hugged me, and I felt that my heart was a little blocked.

In fact, I can guess that this matter is nothing more than something to do with Zhao Xu, although Zhao Miao doesn't seem to mention Zhao Xu anymore during this time.

But I know that occasionally when she talks about things in the past, when she talks about things related to Zhao Xu, she always gets distracted.

I never try to debunk it, as a friend, don't bother, let her go through this lonely and difficult time quietly by herself, is my greatest comfort.

She didn't speak, her whole body trembled when she hugged me, and the crying kept coming, and I suddenly thought of me and Han Mo.

The matter of Zhao Miao and Zhao Xu has always been a negative example, and she has always warned me about her and Zhao Xu, but I still can't help but fall into it.

I don't know how I fell in love with Han Mo, let alone what I love him.

Money? Status? Looks?

None of them, if I had to give a reason, in retrospect, it was probably when I was trapped in that hotel and slept for an unknown amount of time, and he was afraid of life to knock on my door.

I always thought it was just a game between me and Han Mo, where he said to start and he said to end. And I, as a character in this game, even though I am the protagonist, he can give up at any time, after all, it is obviously much easier for him to start the next game than to risk his life to keep me.

But he didn't, and he chose to keep me.

This surprised me, I never thought that the person who had always wanted to torture me to death would protect me in his arms at the moment of life and death, and would give me the wet towel and give me the chance to live.

Looking back now, I think that the moment I opened the door and found Han Mo standing at the door of my room, I probably fell in love with the man I had always hated.

So I can't control myself, even though I know that Zhao Miao is in pain, I still can't keep myself away and keep my heart from beating.

If it was Fu Yao in the past, she might be able to say a word or two of scolding to Zhao Miao at this time to provoke her sadness.

But now I, who am walking Zhao Miao's old path, have no qualifications to accuse her at all.

It's very uncomfortable, really, seeing Zhao Miao so uncomfortable, I can't help but feel uncomfortable.

After my grandmother left, only Zhao Miao was by my side, and she kept silently guarding me, afraid that something would happen to me, afraid that I wouldn't be able to open it.

It was the hardest time for us, she made up her mind to leave Zhao Xu, and my grandmother left me.

We are like two stray dogs abandoned on the streets, hugging each other for warmth in the cold winter.

And now, the only thing I can do is let her know that I am there and always there.

"Zhao Miao, I'm here."

At the end, I found that my tail notes could not help but tremble, and the hot tears in my eyes almost welled up.

Some discomfort is contagious, not to mention me and Zhao Miao.

Love that can't be sought.

I just didn't expect it to be that bad.

"Fu Yao."

When Zhao Miao looked up at me, the hand that was originally clasped on my shoulder suddenly tightened, and her hand pressed against my hair, so hard that it hurt me, but I didn't dare to say anything, so I could only endure it, "Well, I'm here." ”

She looked at me with tears in her eyes, "Zhao Xu is dead, Fu Yao, he is dead." ”

When I heard Zhao Miao's words, my whole body was stiff, and I thought of many possibilities, but I didn't think of this one.

In fact, what kind of person Zhao Miao is should think of, she has already decided to leave Zhao Xu, she has always done what she says, although Zhao Miao, who has been restrained for several months, is uncomfortable, but every call from Zhao Xu As soon as she heard that it was his voice, she directly blocked it, and her movements were crisp and neat.

If it weren't for the fact that I knew her, I really thought she was such a ruthless person.

Just now, I was even a little dirty thinking about whether Zhao Miao and Zhao Xu were together again, and then Gao Minyi came over today to make trouble.

Yes, there is no thief in the house, so the only possibility I can think of can only be that Gao Minyi is here.

But now, Zhao Miao told me that Zhao Xu is dead.

Yes, Zhao Xu died, and from Zhao Miao's hysterical and intermittent narration, I knew that Zhao Xu died in a car accident.

Because she has stopped contacting him for more than three months, and she doesn't want to see him, all social software has blocked the person "Zhao Xu".

Zhao Xu loves her, there is no doubt about it, they once had love, although I don't know very well, but I know that when Zhao Xu looked at Zhao Miao, there was love that could not be ignored.

He loved her, and had a fight with the people in his family in order to divorce Gao Minyi, and when he drove out, he was racing in a race, but he was accidentally hit by a big truck and died on the spot, and he didn't even have time to leave a last word.

It was a few days ago, and today Gao Minyi brought a group of people over and punched and kicked Zhao Miao directly.

I wasn't there, I couldn't see it, Zhao Miao described it intermittently, but I knew that she must not have resisted.

Who can resist?

You tell me, who can do anything to resist after hearing that the man they love is dead.

The world is so ridiculous, I never thought it would be like this.

Facing Zhao Miao, I couldn't say a word.

She hugged me and kept telling me how uncomfortable, so uncomfortable.

Tears were falling down my face, and most of my clothes were wet, and I found myself crying too.

I'm uncomfortable too, really.

But no matter how uncomfortable it is, in this world, there will always be like this, some people are gone, some people are coming, you have to bear some people are gone, and accept those who come again.

Zhao Xu left, he just left a little more completely.

The weather was fine on the day of the burial, but it was a little windy.

It was very cold in City A in late November, and Zhao Miao and I wore black Nizi coats to attend Zhao Xu's funeral.

Probably people will die, the lights will go out, and all grievances and grievances will be put aside.

Gao Minyi, who used to hate Zhao Miao so much, was able to smile at us that day, it was the most beautiful smile I have ever seen Gao Minyi, and she was not even so beautiful on the day she got married.

She is also a poor woman, since she was a child, she heard that she had a fiancé named Zhao Xu, and before Zhao Xu died, her world was only Zhao Xu.

Maybe she doesn't know whether she loves Zhao Xu or not, but now that she is dead, it is estimated that many things have followed away.

Zhao Xu's parents' faces were not very good, but Gao Minyi didn't know what to tell them, and she didn't even drive me and Zhao Miao away.

Zhao Miao basically hasn't eaten or drunk much these days, and I tried my best this morning to let her drink a bowl of porridge.

Her face was very pale, and there was no expression on her face, just staring at the picture on the tombstone in a daze.

It was when Zhao Xu was in her prime, her eyebrows were gentle and good-looking, and it was estimated that she had touched her face countless times.

I just looked at it, but I also felt as if my heart was being pulled by something.